00:00:18.400Hi, Amesie. Hi, Kevin. Hi, listeners. Welcome to your missing witch prescription for the week.
00:00:26.700how did you survive what was magic this week how are you fuck gamesy oh well you know um i'm a human0.99
00:00:35.280being which entails ups and downs um we were just talking about this i have a big bruise from where0.99
00:00:44.720i had a blood test um and i kind of i don't mind i don't have a problem with needles and part of me
00:00:53.740and I've actually written about this before when um I had a I had to have a blood test and the
00:01:00.260clinic scheduled me for winter solstice and I was like all bummed out because I knew I had to take
00:01:07.180the appointment but it was like fully gonna ruin my yuletide celebration but then I just like
00:01:12.840reframed it through my witch lens and I was like this is a winter solstice ritual bloodletting
00:01:19.000this is you know a ritual sacrifice in order to like get answers like it's a it's a spell for
00:01:25.680hope and help and health it looks like solstices solstices are my blood draw times apparently i
00:01:34.620mean yeah i i have to um have blood tests because of my um thyroid medication you know my doctor
00:01:42.260wants to test my blood and make sure my dosage is right and all that but yeah they always seem
00:01:47.260to fall on these on the solstice so I think that's magical and I'm willing to like rip the0.96
00:01:56.560magic from the jaws of the terrifying always fuck yeah put that on a shirt it's funny I was thinking0.94
00:02:05.060about needles and knives this week and that there's a chapter in our book new moon magic0.97
00:02:12.300that is available for pre-order um called needles and knives and uh I was thinking about that piece
00:02:19.920in there about having been described in terms of knives before in my life you know that I've
00:02:28.120been too cutting or that I cut right to the heart of things that that's like those are that's like
00:02:34.640a balance that I wrestle with you know like I maybe it's my like Scorpio moon or something but
00:02:40.400like the sharpness is something that I, I have been identified with and I am still dealing with,
00:02:47.460you know, like I recently like had to, I felt like I was put in a position where like I had
00:02:53.380to say like a painful truth to someone. And, you know, that has been like a bloodletting in that
00:03:01.500relationship and, and maybe like, and all those people are getting together for the first time
00:03:07.100in maybe 10 years this weekend and I feel so guilty for being the one who said the painful
00:03:12.760thing but then maybe it's also the thing that allows for like a re-weaving you know so I'm
00:03:18.900sort of sitting with the complexity of of that and my guilt and and also so much excitement about
00:03:24.940seeing those people again just thinking also about that letter we read from a listener last
00:03:31.700week you know that sometimes sometimes we're a little too sharp we're trying to find that way
00:03:36.340to be honest and not shut ourselves up and shut ourselves down anymore but to be honest in ways
00:03:45.400that are loving to ourselves and to the people who are vulnerable and deserve our protection
00:03:50.780like first and foremost to be honest for them on their behalf I don't know I've just been thinking
00:03:56.440about that I wasn't I wasn't planning to talk about it so I have no like casual segue into
00:04:00.600into a song or anything uh it's all this all this needle talk got you thinking about it but
00:04:05.380i i sort of want to reframe that word sharp too you know cutting and cutting to the center of
00:04:10.680things but when we say someone is sharp normally what we mean is they're intelligent they're shrewd
00:04:17.120they're astute and i think those two things are related you know you're smart and astute and you
00:04:27.120can see what's going on here you're sharp yes and then once you've seen it you have to get to it
00:04:35.880yes so then I did want to tell you this piece and it's I didn't make the connection until just now
00:04:42.080but um I finally made the ancestor altar for Mark's mother this week I don't know it's just
00:04:51.600like a fit of tidying and just like the the objects I wanted to put there had accumulated
00:04:58.580to a certain point and maybe it's solstice or the release of that that ritual from last week
00:05:05.240that I talked about I'm not sure but also I finished reading Alchemy of a Black Bird by
00:05:10.580Claire McMillan she'll be on the show soon what a pleasure to read about this sort of story about
00:05:16.340the friendship between Remedios Farrow and Leonora Carrington these badass surrealist witches but I
00:05:22.960finished it and I was like oh summer is when I read like I more so than usual like I need 7,000
00:05:30.280books in the summer you know like I need to eat novels with my whole face I need to eat books so
00:05:35.200I go into my little witch cupboard where publishers send us books I get overwhelmed I can't deal with
00:05:41.780them all so they go into a cupboard until I'm ready but then I pulled out one that a coven mate
00:05:46.020had sent me sarah may the god etc bless you forever um she had sent me this rune book
00:05:54.940called wild soul runes and that was the one in the pile that was like eat me
00:06:01.920and i pulled it out and it begins with this suggested meditation so i made the the new part
00:06:12.020of the new ancestor altar in the witch room that has all of these sort of different spaces to it
00:06:17.800and then I did the meditation in the book which you know she encourages you to spend like a week
00:06:24.460doing a daily meditation following the mother line she's you know she's like male ancestors
00:06:31.360non-binary intersex ancestors will come to you but we follow the mother line because that's the
00:06:37.120physical connection we have all been inside a mother and it's a painful and complicated
00:06:46.100path for many to go through but that's the cave you can go back to to follow this warp and weft
00:06:55.180so you go down into this cave the meditation's really beautiful and then you welcome them one
00:07:01.760by when you see who comes forward so I'm sitting doing this meditation so surprised and delighted
00:07:08.660by seeing my aunt first of all and and her like her youth and her laughter and she's like the one
00:07:17.500that like wants to sort of I don't know in my imagination or that was the last photo I saw or
00:07:22.940whatever I don't need to over intellectualize it but I saw her and then I started to imagine or
00:07:29.800see more of these ancestors and then I saw or I imagined or I remembered my grandfather's mother
00:07:39.780and she's in that needles and knives chapter two she was you know she's the one the last
00:07:48.260ancestor in my life that I know of that like had to butcher animals on their farm you know they
00:07:55.320were starving on this farm this farm that only ever grew rocks you know they were settler0.98
00:08:01.020colonizers they didn't know what the fuck they were doing with that land and they were so poor
00:08:07.160that she even though he had like a lifelong dream to be a school teacher and he's such a gentle0.95
00:08:14.140person who would have been a wonderful school teacher she basically said there's no money for
00:08:18.520your education and you have to leave the farm and so he sort of did his best and got involved in
00:08:24.180banking and kind of got tangled up in con after con and it's this like heartache and then on her0.99
00:08:30.780deathbed she told him she always thought he should have been a teacher like fuck you you know so0.99
00:08:36.640typical that's that that's that hard part of having parents oh that's so cruel you know and0.99
00:08:43.160I was just thinking about her and and and found out only this year that people would come from
00:08:49.620all over for her to read their tea leaves so she is this cunning woman this cutting woman you know0.62
00:08:56.240this woman who had to make choices she did mail away education to the point where she got like a1.00
00:09:02.780master's in agriculture trying to save this fucking farm you know like and I just saw her0.98
00:09:08.500and I felt his pain and I felt her pain and I was sobbing sobbing in the witch room alone I it just0.98
00:09:16.840came over me ugly crying I mean beautiful crying it was such a strange experience I obviously got
00:09:24.340my period the next day that's like a gateway drug for me to my deep deep feels but and and
00:09:32.660it is sort of a segue so I at the time was also playing Celine Dion because Kathy had given me
00:09:40.880these Celine Dion CDs at a stage of her cancer Mark's mother where anything she offered me I
00:09:47.800basically said yes to you know some things I donated or I gave away a lot of her awesome
00:09:53.160clothes Amy and I both own and wear and but I had these Celine Dion CDs and we listened to so much
00:10:00.480Anne-Marie and Celine Dion with Kathy and she was sick and so I am thinking a lot about Celine Dion
00:10:08.220this week it's also the fête nationale de quebec fuck nationalism but also like let's
00:10:14.120try to love and salvage what we can from our broken racist histories and turn
00:10:19.600those things we can salvage to the work of loving and healing each other and i just i watched this
00:10:27.100video of like a young celine singing it's like a behind the scenes video she released
00:10:32.420singing je chanterai it's this beautiful song it's it's it's in french but the lyrics basically
00:10:40.000mean like after everything is done I I will still be singing like after all of our children's
00:10:48.620dreams become our hope for them and when their pain and our suffering and and like it's I I will
00:10:56.680sing I'll sing I will still sing and you know she just cancelled all her shows she's like trapped
00:11:02.300in this strange neurological disorder where she can't sing the way she wants to and she used to
00:11:08.500and so to have this child I mean her voice I don't know how old she is in these videos but she's maybe
00:11:13.36020 she was so young singing that even after all of this is done like know that I will still be
00:11:20.020singing and I just felt Kathy's like big heart in that moment and Celine is like a Quebecois
00:11:27.460goddess icon so i'm putting je chanterais and the like pure indulgence of the emotion
00:11:34.700and also her power in to my universe unironically unironically is key yeah you know the thing about
00:11:46.420celine is like um especially women of a certain age you know like like cc um they love celine
00:11:54.740you know she's like the barbara barbara streisand equivalent and the thing for me was like i never
00:12:00.840really got into like her genre i guess like the adult contemporary thing but i've always said
00:12:07.260even when i was like an angry punk with something to prove i have always said you can't deny her
00:12:14.600technicianship you can't deny her talent you can't deny what a phenomenal singer she is um and
00:12:23.800that's been like a connecting point for me and and some of the you know more adult adults in
00:12:31.880my life and and now I'm kind of into it I sort of like appreciate her her her technique
00:12:40.120um her ability so much that I can really like sort of let that like punk chip on my shoulder go
00:12:49.220and like i drove all night it's a roy orbison cover but like if that comes on in the car like
00:12:55.720we're not changing it you know we're not changing i saw that song described as saloon's anthem to
00:13:04.180consent i drove all night is that okay is that all right is it is they're a little i mean coming
00:13:12.860out of roy orbison's it's a little creepier of like a man saying like i drove all night i crept
00:13:18.300into your room you know not all right but then he's like oh is that all right and you're like
00:13:26.260okay shoot you know this isn't going as diabolically oh my god well and in this behind
00:13:33.940the scenes video for je chantere that i'll link to in the rx i i was laughing and thinking of you
00:13:40.480because there's a moment where i don't know who the audio engineer is a producer i don't know
00:13:46.520could be totally famous but she's singing and it's gorgeous I mean like you say you just can't
00:13:53.380deny her technical magic mastery I mean it's incredible and he's like uh what do you think
00:14:01.940maybe a click track to help keep you on the timing there like the amount of times that Amy
00:14:07.600and I have been fucking around together recording something and she's like how about a click track
00:14:11.960yeah i i mean again like when i was coming up i was a i was a solo acoustic act and part of the
00:14:23.260benefit for that for me was like i could slow down and speed up if there was like a very emotional
00:14:29.860lyric i could fully stop because it's just me but when you're performing for recording
00:14:36.180you're recording for a performing with a band a full fire in this case yeah right like you have
00:14:43.380to be a unit you have to be all together but both have their pros and cons of course you know we
00:14:50.160love to like be free and and make decisions on the fly but sometimes when we're a part of a unit
00:14:55.820you know we have to click click for those of you who don't know what a click track is it's basically
00:15:01.060like a a digital metronome so tick tick tick and you know that you're singing on the beat because
00:15:09.460the beat is going in and so on and i've actually attempted to record and recorded several musicians
00:15:17.820who just couldn't deal with a click track who just it just it i don't know what happens to them but
00:15:25.620It just like makes them more off time because it's like they're focusing on this tick, tick, tick, tick instead of what they're trying to perform.
00:15:37.600And that's kind of that's kind of life, you know, and that kind of brings me to what I brought today, like this notion of like being magical and being plankton and being a flower and a unicorn and floating through the world in magic.
00:15:55.620but there's also sometimes you got to stay on the click um you have to put in the work i is
00:16:03.300is where i'm going with this and um because it's pride season i have to start with aretha franklin
00:16:11.300whose song pride a deeper love is is about that the lyrics are like people let me tell you
00:16:20.100I work hard every day. I get out of bed. I put on my clothes because I've got bills to pay.
00:16:30.720I've got a strong will to survive. I've got a deeper love. A deeper love. A deeper love inside
00:16:38.640and I call it pride. A deeper love. Now I've got love in my heart. It gives me the strength to make
00:16:46.020it through the day. Pride and love. Pride is respect for yourself. And of course, this is a
00:16:54.740dance track. Pride, a deep love. But this is the real hook for me. Pride is having respect for
00:17:03.700yourself. What does pride mean? It means I'm not going to put myself down. I'm going to respect
00:17:10.900myself and who I am but like Aretha says like you got to get up every day you got to put on your
00:17:17.260clothes you got to go to work um you have to put in that work I mean not not just you know that
00:17:24.380practical aspect that we're always talking about where you do the magic but you do the practical
00:17:28.560tasks as well but just doing something doing something that gives you that self-respect
00:17:36.920that gives you that pride that deeper love again for me sometimes on the solstice it's like allowing
00:17:44.000a strange person to put a needle in my arm and draw my life essence like we have to do these
00:17:50.860things in order to have that deeper love that deeper love that fuels us through the getting
00:17:56.640out of bed and through the getting dressed and going to work and gets us through having bills
00:18:01.720to pay gets us through this like crushing sense of capitalism and and having to grind but and when
00:18:09.180I say you know you got to do the work I'm not saying you got to go earn money I'm not saying
00:18:14.480that at all I'm saying more which brings me to my next one is um the holy modal rounders there's a
00:18:22.620song and it's funny because when you mentioned the farm where they only grew rocks there's this
00:18:27.680scene in Easy Rider that this song is from that soundtrack and it's a hippie commune
00:18:34.040and they're really doing their best but like it's dust you know they're seeding dust and growing
00:18:40.980dust and there are two main characters in Easy Rider and one of them says to the other this
00:18:46.760dust they're not gonna make it and the other one says oh they're gonna make it it occurs to me all
00:18:54.560all the time like when I'm when my brain says like oh they're not going to make it whether
00:18:59.880I'm being shitty about somebody else or shitty about myself you know oh I'm not going to make
00:19:04.560it and then I sort of have like Peter Fonda going oh they'll make it but this this song is called
00:19:12.660if you want to be a bird and again like the idea is if you want to try it do something it's such a
00:19:22.980delightful little song and if you play an instrument it's only three chords and I would
00:19:27.220really encourage you to belt it out at full strength some of the lyrics are like if you
00:19:32.940want to be a bird why don't you try a little flying you know it's just it's just that simple
00:19:39.700why be shackled to your feet when you've got wings you haven't used yet don't wait for heaven
00:19:46.960get out and fly if you want to be a bird it won't take much to get you up there but when you come
00:19:54.240down land on your feet so here again we have this tension between like the magical and the mystical
00:20:01.220and the infinite possibilities but also being grounded like get your blood tests get out of bed
00:20:09.280get dressed go to work when you come down land on your feet so that's sort of what i've been
00:20:15.940thinking about the past few days like uh pride being self-respect and not putting myself down
00:20:23.020and also i want to be a bird and if i want to be a bird then i have to try a little flying
00:20:28.180i have to why be shackled to your feet when you've got wings you haven't used yet so i guess my
00:20:36.100prescription this week is to like find a deeper love find your wings try using them try using
00:20:43.900them and see what happens and i mean that almost literally like you can like put your arms out
00:20:52.900and flap them and i'm doing this right now and see what happens see if you can get your mind to like
00:21:00.100have that sense of figure aiding through the sky and but when you come down land on your feet you
00:21:07.560know we are humans we also have to do the practical work we do the magic and we do the work and again
00:21:15.180that that's my prescription okay I have to tell you I forgot this piece even happened but when I
00:21:21.660was cleaning off the top of the shelf where I ended up putting the sissia altar which I keep
00:21:28.460wanting to call an ofrenda because that's what may calls all altars because she read a book one time
00:21:32.300um I found this box with this half used bath bomb in it which is like okay I'm a little bit messy
00:21:44.120but um somebody had given me this thing and then our relationship kind of went south because of
00:21:53.860having differing ideas about masking during COVID and it was you know you know those days of COVID
00:22:00.640where we were all sort of shocked that people we loved weren't protecting each other or that we
00:22:06.080just had these different ideas and like neighbors and relationships just got cut right by how we
00:22:11.860felt about needles it's so strange but and I just put it aside like yeah I just I just put it aside
00:22:19.960I didn't want to sit in a bath with it at that time it didn't make me feel safe and held um and
00:22:25.040then I just forgot about it. So I was cleaning it off. But I remembered, I was just going to
00:22:30.840compost it. But you know, these relationships are kind of healing now, strangely. And I long for
00:22:36.960that. I long for us all to just love and care for each other and find ways to care. And I remembered
00:22:43.660that they had put a stone in the middle of it for me that I had totally forgotten about. So I took
00:22:49.700a knife to it hatcheted this desiccated old fucking bath bomb apart I have to interrupt0.99
00:22:59.540like it's so wonderful that you hacked at it with a knife instead of like putting it in a bowl of0.99
00:23:04.160water it had to be again this like a magical and and practical thing that you did all at once
00:23:12.320yeah I didn't even think about putting it in a bowl of water I thought the ingredients in it
00:23:17.240it was handmade I was like this this is not safe for anybody to soak in it's like two years later
00:23:22.680and I guess I didn't have the patience I just hacked it open and there's a beautiful
00:23:28.240pink moonstone in it and my instinct immediately because it was the solstice
00:23:38.420and it was the evening was to take it outside and balance it on this curved piece of barn board
00:23:44.900and after I washed in the lake and let it sit in the sun and I kissed it I don't know I get
00:23:49.900emotional like you're free and like let's be free in the solstice setting sun together you know and
00:23:58.020then I went outside and I had this feeling of like I don't know I reached my arms out wide
00:24:05.740like a bird I was picturing while you were talking and but I also imagined you know
00:24:11.420we are at this moment like spring is here and summer is here like this is the one moment they're
00:24:19.180here we're here together and like held my arms out and closed my eyes and you know your arms get
00:24:25.380heavy but I felt them get so heavy like I was carrying like these seasons were sitting with
00:24:32.460me for a second and I felt like the weight of time and you know like I said I got my period
00:24:38.840the next day whatever so everything was really intense and emotional and just so alive and
00:24:45.280there's something about those liminal times those in between times those releasing times I just
00:24:49.980felt it all I am feeling it all right now and
00:24:54.180weirdly I'm going to segue that into my last song which is like a comedy rap
00:25:00.940of course it is you know I don't know where else I could have gone but0.96
00:25:09.640I think I mentioned last week that I had like a fucking song in my head like an earworm0.92
00:25:16.260and then Judy So Rugged Road got it out and then afterwards I told Amy I was watching Girls 50.93
00:25:23.680Eva and she was like yes and also you ruined my day by mentioning it because now all I'm
00:25:29.840gonna hear is the girls five of a song yeah exactly but i had not at that point gotten to0.90
00:25:38.240uh big pussy energy uh-huh now i'm there and i want us all to be there together so that is my0.97
00:25:46.480that's my closing rx is to blast big pussy energy get your dose of vitamin p as the song says1.00
00:25:57.400just enjoy the ridiculousness it's pride like let's I mean whoever you are I am blessing you0.99
00:26:07.960with a bit of big pussy energy you can step into the big pussy energy it's here for you1.00
00:26:15.260you have it let's own it let's walk down the street full of pride and big pussy energy1.00
00:26:22.360yeah and whether your your bpe is literal or metaphorical it counts either way1.00
00:26:28.580hell yeah you can have it no matter what kind of genitals you're carrying around you can have0.98
00:26:37.920big energy for sure yeah yeah big energy
00:26:45.220and it really if you even if you haven't heard of girls five ever it's really funny it's really
00:26:54.920cute it's the story of a a girl group like a y2k girl group um that we revisit as they are now in
00:27:05.060their 40s you know some of them have children and but they're trying to sort of bring that bpe1.00
00:27:11.140back and it is hilarious so if you're looking for a little laugh definitely check that out
00:27:17.540them like realizing how horrifyingly misogynist and also full of typos all their original songs
00:27:24.700were and then writing their own songs and writing songs like bpe is just like the journey i needed
00:27:31.640as the like middle-aged lesbian who finally wants to like mess around and live her life i mean i
00:27:38.440just love them all so much yeah all of the all of the retrospective like wow that was really
00:27:45.280horrible and again it was a different time you know Y2K was 23 years ago and we didn't necessarily
00:27:51.980talk or or think the way that we do now and so it again it's a really neat window into oh my gosh
00:28:00.520and Busy Phillips who I've loved since the moment in Freaks and Geeks in the car where she says that
00:28:07.660Stevie Nicks is a witch like I have been obsessed with her and she is a witch she has a witch podcast
00:28:12.080she talks about it I just outside of the witchiness I just felt like this was a kindred0.98
00:28:17.860spirit her humor is so so light and dark and delightful I fucking love her so anyway that's0.94
00:28:23.900my silly summer prescription busy Phillips if you're listening come be on our podcast0.97