00:12:03.800because we have to stop everything, right?
00:12:05.800But it's actually, I feel, is so powerful
00:12:09.320and there's something really radical about rest
00:12:12.860that needs to be integrated in every process.
00:12:16.040And especially, you know, even with wrestling and right now you kind of have no choice but to to to stop sometimes and not push yourself too much, because if you do, then your body is so pushed to its limit that you can't actually wrestle again, depending on what level you want to you want to go, how far you want to push your body.
00:12:41.700So but I feel with Earthbound, though, like we want to adapt to practice and we really want to have the safe container that wherever you are at physically is OK.
00:12:54.820And we can explore physicality and a form of physical theater that will engage with whatever state you are physically.
00:13:03.020and that's the beauty of like having more of like a storytelling aspect to the wrestling
00:13:09.340because then it's like it can be anything no matter how you're feeling um and it could welcome
00:13:16.000that it's definitely I do feel torn sometimes and confused uh because I of of trying to match my
00:13:24.160energetic vitality that like kind of is like stored within me and then not matching up my
00:13:31.120physical body so it's a lot of learning a lot of accepting a lot of patience and and just
00:13:40.540accepting the form or how my body is is is is acting in at every present moment i think it's
00:13:49.880like is the biggest lesson in all this i feel like you're also living out a kind of radical
00:13:59.300form of body acceptance right now yes uh definitely right now with like you know the
00:14:08.820earthbound projects it's been a couple of years now that we've been kind of underground and
00:14:14.340growing roots and that and that's been in more in a resting state but in ways also it's been
00:14:19.220able to uh hold and encompass this this new decision that i've been taking it's like
00:14:26.480um letting my facial hair grow which takes an immense an immense energy out of me more
00:14:34.880I underestimate it sometimes because I'm like why am I so tired why am I like what what like
00:14:42.080what is going on like I wish I had more drive I wish I had but then I'm like wait wait wait
00:14:47.260whoa whoa slow down slow down first of all it's okay to slow down
00:14:53.020and and kind of just view what's going on like energetically what i'm putting out there and like
00:15:00.600what other muscles am i am i am i working and that is definitely the self-love and
00:15:05.940self-acceptance muscle which takes takes a lot of energy uh just as much as like physical like
00:15:12.520extreme workout you know uh energy um kind of breaking society's beauty standards and also
00:15:21.840building that courage to just even step outside is a lot. It's been almost two years now that I
00:15:30.280decided to let my beard grow as a cisgendered woman. I'm finally starting to feel like I have
00:15:39.760more of an energetic reserve to put it back to my wrestling body, but I'm just starting.
00:15:49.120And then I feel like life is like opening up these opportunities now that I can actually be more physical and push myself in other areas that I haven't in a while.
00:16:00.760But still, I still need to harness that lesson of not pushing my limits and also like feeling balanced in everything I do, like especially like nutrition, hydration, rest, all of that.
00:16:16.680i have to now really kind of weave that through my new physical physical body um direction or i
00:16:28.000will not be able to sustain myself um coming forth uh in this new evolved earthbound direction
00:16:35.420um it's intimidating but it's necessary and it's super exciting
00:16:41.560it's it's interesting to me because i feel like within wrestling and without and outside of
00:16:50.120wrestling tanya that so much of your work um however it's manifesting whether it's um tattooing
00:16:56.840which you do or those like um sculptures that you were making of like proud round bellies
00:17:03.840so i can can you maybe get into like why you have such like a corporeal
00:30:00.660but I do have stuff to say about the hero's journey.
00:30:02.720So one of the things like the, you know,
00:30:05.660the earthbound works with is this idea of queering the hero's journey.
00:30:10.320Right. So there's this famous book by Joseph Campbell,
00:30:13.940a cis white guy from like, I don't know,
00:30:15.540the sixties or seventies who sort of studied mythology and came up with this
00:30:19.960idea of like the epic hero's journey, right? And so there's like the young warrior sets out on a
00:30:25.520journey, goes beyond the realms of the norm, meets like an enemy, must defeat it, comes back to the
00:30:32.000village and is like the hero, you know, kind of basically. That's very much like a patriarchal
00:30:38.340way of envisioning like the hero's journey, right? That there's kind of this eternal struggle,
00:30:44.520right and this is very much present in like you know I am thinking about like a lot of people who
00:30:50.520have Lyme call themselves Lyme warriors or cancer warriors or like we're gonna defeat this and I'm
00:30:55.280gonna get back to where I was before and I'm gonna be stronger and better and like I don't know I'm
00:31:02.840kind of like fuck that you know what I mean like I I I I want to see and listen to what the lessons0.96
00:31:10.780are, you know, and go slowly and, and, and understand the process. And, and like, quite0.99
00:31:16.440frankly, like I'm sick and I am working hard to, you know, manage my symptoms, but I don't want to
00:31:25.420go back and get better. Like it drives me like, it's like a huge pet peeve of mine when people
00:31:31.640are like, Oh, I hope you get better. And I'm like, no, I don't want to get better. Better
00:31:35.160is implying that I'm going to go back to some state that I was before. And this resonates so
00:31:39.780much for me around COVID. You know, you kind of got the camps of people who are like, yeah,
00:31:44.020back to normal. And then other people who are like, no, there's no normal. There's no going
00:31:50.200back to that, to what it was before. And I feel very similarly like that, that I'm much more at
00:31:58.740ease with slowly going through this process of illness and learning to live well in a sick body
00:32:06.320and gathering bits of knowledge and bits of experience that I wisdom that I can share that
00:32:11.960I can hold with me you know it doesn't have to be this great battle and I mean something that I
00:32:16.380really am learning a lot from like disability justice activists that I'm following you know
00:32:21.780on social media and stuff is that there's no healing for me if there's not healing for the
00:32:26.940larger systems in the world I don't want to get better you know if there's not sort of accessible
00:32:32.580housing affordable housing health care and home care that's actually based in care you know and
00:32:39.880and and and humanity and patient-centered and honoring and validating the experiences in our
00:32:46.140bodies not gaslighting us there's no healing until there's like nutritious healthy food for
00:32:51.660everybody accessible for everybody you know it's like for me that's the queering of the hero's
00:32:57.240journey. It's, I don't want to fight something. I want to get together with other people and
00:33:02.520creatively destroy the systems and the structures that are keeping the world inaccessible and
00:33:08.700keeping us sick and making us sick. That is healing. Of course, I resonate fully a hundred
00:33:14.620percent on what Sky is saying. I, and I've, I've been with Sky since the beginning of everything
00:33:24.520that's been shifting and and also learning so much and about compassion and empathy and
00:33:32.080and and listening right and and what it is to actually be there for someone you know I've been
00:33:39.680also witnessing a lot of the injustices that surround illnesses and how people are really
00:33:44.900kind of like caught up in their own lives and they don't just there's lacking a general sense
00:33:52.260of compassion in our foundations in our society um and that's i think that's one of the biggest
00:33:59.320flaws that we hold in these structures that we are living in so if i look back now now i'm like
00:34:06.800kind of going back to like when you asked me why am i so physical in the work that i do
00:34:10.740i think it all comes down to um ancestral reverence um i feel like through the body
00:34:20.220through the expression of the body listening to the body uh and and also deciphering and
00:34:26.000understanding all the lessons that come with carrying pain and struggle i feel it's all kind
00:34:31.780of it's all connecting to uh ancestral lineage the guilt that we carry the the being lineage
00:34:39.240from colonizers to like the confusion of like of having no culture and and and trying to figure
00:34:46.200out like what is our spiritual sense and then and then through all these mediums it just kind of
00:34:52.600goes back into this primal state okay I'm I'm wrestling it's primal it's real it's visceral
00:34:59.360it's going back to the root yeah that primal core being in my body is very revolutionary for me
00:35:06.040because growing up I've always was considered a bigger girl or whatever you know and and I've
00:35:14.540been bullied my whole life and and and and being told that I wasn't physically able to be sporty
00:35:23.380or whatever always been put down and to realize that no actually my body is made to be really
00:35:29.920physical I have lots of energy and it was a lot of like society's projections that were like kind of
00:35:35.140like kind of pushing me away from from my essence you know and then so then you know exploring other
00:35:43.160mediums as well uh with tattooing and pottery especially pottery I mean it's I feel like it's
00:35:52.300it's a way that I can communicate kind of in the subconscious so like a lot of my work is a lot
00:35:59.160about self-love and self-acceptance um and I was able to kind of transfer that uh through a physical
00:36:07.140medium by creating these objects either being belly planters and to really accept parts of my
00:36:16.220body that I've been secretly rejecting or hating or just kind of holding a lot of society's
00:36:25.240projections and then through self-love then you heal so much through the different layers and
00:36:32.440and generationally too so I feel like that's why I'm my art resonates and or like streams through
00:36:41.440like physical avenues is because I'm trying to get in touch and be connected with a body that
00:36:52.660that society has tried to make me dissociate from so much in so many ways growing a beard at 11
00:37:03.480was so confusing it was such a big secret secret that I've been holding on to for a really long
00:37:10.500time and it was and it was only what I have three 32 I'm 34 now yes that I decided to grow my beard
00:37:18.440And when I did that, I feel like I unlocked all my queer ancestors in my lineage, like just like be who you are, smash that binary and just like embody who you feel like being, which is I'm a bearded woman that like embodies both energies, male and female.
00:37:39.420And it's never the same. It's always shifting in and out of motion.0.69
00:37:45.040for a really long time I lived in with so much anger so much anger of you know rejection and
00:37:54.760not fitting in and defensiveness and and also carrying this uh the men's strength and an inner
00:38:02.340knowing and connection to something that was bigger than me how I knew that I just was blessed
00:38:09.220that I was born that way you're so good and you're actually connecting to the exact thing
00:38:14.600I want to talk about, which is your body as a site of magic. What are times that you've known
00:38:22.560that? What are times that you've felt that? Is there a relationship with your body that's magical?
00:38:27.960Do you use your body as a tool of magic? And I feel like you're already talking about that. But
00:38:32.640if I can help you connect with that part of the story, that's what I would love to hear you both
00:38:38.120talk about next if that's okay definitely I mean from a very young age I mean from like the age of
00:38:44.880five between five and seven I was convinced I was a witch I just knew it I just knew it and like
00:38:51.980I had weird epiphanies of like you know hiding like hiding in the closet and like talking and
00:38:59.820to myself and be like I'm gonna be a public figure I'm gonna be but how look at my body
00:39:07.140i'm so ugly but then i would like break free and it's like no i have something to say and like
00:39:12.420and and being confused about that and it would come out in all kinds of messy ways um but i always
00:39:20.180held on to this core this core i i was always connected somehow and i i'm i'm so immensely
00:39:26.360grateful for that because that was like that source connection helped me go through so many
00:39:32.840series of of obstacles especially when it came to body image just because i always found this
00:39:39.580injustice of like why is this person allowed to be allowed to wear what they want like you know
00:39:46.620whatever short skirts crock tops whatever all the things that i wanted to wear but like people are
00:39:53.220like no no don't wear this you're too big you're too this you do that no no no i shattered that0.82
00:39:58.220like in my teens i was like fuck it i i was very very very super rebellious and angry and like0.98
00:40:06.120unapologetic like to the extreme i had a like a big huge mohawk i was wearing like stripper boots0.97
00:40:13.060like at like 14 you know like really to the extreme but this is i needed to break free and i
00:40:20.280created this shield i just became this temple of like undestructible force of of i am who i am and
00:40:30.900i'll be who the hell i want to be no matter what and you will not change me and you will not influence
00:40:37.820me to be otherwise and i carried through carried through but then i realized i was like holding on
00:40:42.400this huge shield for so long that like and and for me that was like kind of um holding this like
00:40:49.740very uh outward force which i associated more to like male masculine energy it was like kind of a
00:40:57.000muscle that i would be working all the time by like putting myself in situations or just wearing
00:41:01.860ridiculous not really good ridiculous things but just like things that would be viewed as like
00:41:07.620really marginalized or are alternatives i guess or eccentric i mean that that is super super
00:41:18.000relatable for me because i you know i same kind of thing i was like oh you think i'm weird i'll
00:41:24.220show you weird you think this is weird i'm gonna be the weirdest you know and it's kind of like
00:41:30.960it is it is like um a proclamation a proclamation a declaration of war but also like you say very0.98
00:41:38.920much a shield at the same time yeah because there was just so much bullshit trying to penetrate it
00:41:44.600all the time right like i just like learn to like really uh weed out or just like block out all the
00:41:51.320things people would say and then if i would be uh hanging out with people that that are really
00:41:57.240sensitive to other people's projections they wouldn't they wouldn't know how to did you see
00:42:02.560that did you see this i'm like nah don't worry about it and that's a form that's a form of magic
00:42:07.740you know to be able of to be able to hold this protection shield to the point that you you're
00:42:14.540not affected by the illusions and the simulation that's outside of you you know it's like really
00:42:22.480you're you're like kind of i'm like creating my own reality in ways of or how i'm i'm creating
00:42:28.820this like this navigation system of of choosing how i want to interact with the outer world and
00:42:38.220then it comes in different cycles in different ways right so for a long a part of my life it's0.98
00:42:43.660like that very like wow rebel doing me this is me and like fuck off you know it's like i'm not0.88
00:42:50.180in that energy anymore i realized that my field and my being wanted to experience what it is to0.97
00:42:57.100receive and to just be and not just be this like driving force all the time and so and that that's
00:43:06.180when i when i saw the magic of slowing down and listening in and and then realize that like oh
00:43:13.640oh okay there's this voice here that's telling me my belly is disgusting and that I need to
00:43:20.300lose weight and I still have body dysmorphia and I'm okay well this has been so quiet for so long
00:43:27.020because I mean I was in action mode for so long so it was kind of like muffling that voice and
00:43:33.760now that everything is kind of like I'm not in this outwardly energy anymore I'm more in this
00:43:39.460like oh i have to sit here and heal what's talking to me and this is where i've i started to refine
00:43:48.660my physical practices more and bringing into more of a sacred essence to it just like my tattooing
00:43:54.560wasn't just this like i'm here to make a drawing on you and i'm so detached from it no it's when
00:44:01.320my practice ritual really started to enrich itself um and and my perspectives started to change so
00:44:07.580the the initiative uh ancient art of tattooing and what really that means it's like this like
00:44:20.200transforming someone's body for life with a symbol i believe in animism so i feel like anything you
00:44:26.500know has life to it has has connections to everything and once that perspective is open
00:44:31.260in the sense of when i you know i feel like that that shift changed when i slowed down and was
00:44:37.080able to just be like there's no there's no way turning back from it right and then with the
00:44:42.480pottery well really bringing that extra physical physicality to it making the belly planters and
00:44:49.280actually okay sitting there and and making something and be like i love my belly really
00:44:54.680do you love your belly yes i love my belly not not fully but i'm trying i'm trying like i'm
00:45:00.400making that extra material move which is alchemy it's magic when it's coming out from your head
00:45:09.920and you're actually exposing those those voices that you've been put casting aside because you're
00:45:17.020either a shame of them right because you're like no no i've got this yeah and i'm confident yeah
00:45:21.400a lot of people tell me all the time wow you're so confident how do you get your confidence
00:45:25.960So then you don't necessarily want to, like, highlight those times that are, like, you know, in secret that, you know, actually there's so many different angles here that you don't see.
00:45:38.660And sharing, like writing, I started a TikTok about, you know, being more open about my beard and my process and being vulnerable has really unlocked a different layer and a different level of self-acceptance.
00:45:54.660is when you start sharing your experience sharing your story and being honest you know out there
00:46:03.820out of your head out of out of your your body as well because we trap emotions in different parts
00:46:12.300and when we release them and and we share with love and acceptance that's where the real real
00:46:20.700powerful stuff powerful magic really starts emerging and and and working yeah maybe we can
00:46:28.620ask sky about this too like the magical body and radical self-acceptance and how these two things
00:46:35.520intersect yeah they definitely intersect i'd say that you know one thing oh there's so much to say
00:46:47.140Well, one thing I'll start with, I'll start with this. One thing that for sure has happened to me since I became ill is that I have become much more disciplined in my daily ritual practice. Like it's become an anchor for me, like disciplined as in, as in this is me being dedicated to myself, right? Dedicated to show up as much as I can.
00:47:13.880I mean, sometimes if I'm lying in bed, and I can't leave, even if it's just taking a moment to be like, I'm connecting in with my guides, I'm connecting in with my ancestors, you know, even if it's 30 seconds, that's my daily practice. And it's been years that I've been saying to myself, okay, you know, I've gotten these messages, sky, sky, you got to have a daily practice, this is, this is going to help you, you know, and I'm like, yeah, okay, okay, yeah, and then I do it for a bit, and then I'd let it go.
00:47:41.460and then I do it for a bit but it especially like being ill has in a way pushed me into having a
00:47:49.180regular practice because I notice very very clearly the days that I when I do not connect
00:47:56.400when I do not make and carve out intentional ritual space and time that my symptoms are worse
00:48:02.140hands down I mean it's as simple as that you know so so again another one of these gifts you know
00:48:08.720is that there's something that I've wanted to do for a long time, but I have been pushed into doing
00:48:15.000it. And I think taking, taking that time. And I think the biggest part for me is being really
00:48:19.400gentle. Like what's the phrase gentle tenacity, you know? So, so some days like I can't, you know,
00:48:27.060get up and, and, and sit at my altar and, and do a whole elaborate thing. If I can just sit
00:48:33.000and close my eyes, that's enough. But it's really, I think about making an intentional connection and
00:48:38.260that intentional space is me connecting to my body, is connecting to my guides, connecting to
00:48:43.280the earth. And that for me has been incredibly powerful and has been an anchor. The amount of
00:48:49.160grief that I've lived with in the last few years has been enormous. I'm currently living with my
00:48:55.360grandmother. I had to leave my job. I had to leave my house. I gave up my beautiful, precious cat
00:49:01.260babies. I gave away all my plants, which were also my babies, you know, and I had to leave everything
00:49:06.640so I could move in with my family to be cared for you know um I was lost I and I still feel lost I
00:49:15.420mean we're all lost in many ways but this was like seriously lost like what is my life going
00:49:20.660to become who am I going to be who am I and I think that it's in those times of change like
00:49:26.640all of our bodies all of us go through change right that is that is the only thing that is
00:49:33.860continuous is change right and and and the way that we engage with change will affect how
00:49:41.000what medicine we can get from it also what harms it can do to us you know how we resist it or how
00:49:47.160we lean into it and for me my magical practice has been huge in terms of understanding and seeing
00:49:54.160and listening to the opportunities that change brings it's opening my eyes it's tuning in and
00:50:00.560like my ancestors being like hey there's this going on or hey there's this going on you know
00:50:04.980the earth speaking to me and saying wow I'm so glad that you are taking the time to actually
00:50:10.040genuinely connect with me I know you've been trying to do it for a long time Sky but you've
00:50:14.800been mostly doing the gestures you're doing it authentically now or you're deepening that
00:50:18.180practice let's say I'm not you know there's always deeper to go there's no sort of yes or no you can
00:50:22.880always deepen that practice and and so yeah I think it's been an anchor for me through change
00:50:28.400And I mean, this is something that I didn't realize, you know, in my able bodied state is that all of us will get sick. I mean, most of us will get sick or disabled at some point in our lives, right? Aging or otherwise.
00:50:45.920there's this sense of like what have I lost you know but also what am I gaining what new
00:50:52.760opportunities or ways of inhabiting my body and engaging with the world are there and my magical
00:50:58.100practice has helped me find that that's been the biggest thing and it's been the biggest anchor
00:51:03.620how do you be at peace and calm in a body that is like has a million sirens running off
00:51:12.040uh, all the time, you know, how do you find a moment of calm there? And I mean, you know,
00:51:19.040basically you can't, but you can sometimes go into that moment of calm and then you're swept
00:51:22.960back out. And, and, and, and, and my magical practice has helped me find that pathway back
00:51:27.560to that sanctuary, right. Back to that place of refuge where even though there's, you know,
00:51:33.600pain and confusion that I can sit in that sanctuary and I can connect to it, even if
00:51:38.700it's for a micro moment i would love for us collectively to head towards as like um something
00:51:46.460we leave our listeners who are here with us and in their bodies and in their ears and so so so
00:51:54.360many of them experiencing chronic pain the rates of chronic pain are insane if we can as we as we
00:52:00.220bounce towards the end here think about solstice and if you have a thought on a way that all of us
00:52:09.620can maybe on that solstice as we listen to this episode or in the days surrounding it
00:52:14.240maybe have a ritual or a practice maybe it's something from wrestling or something you're
00:52:20.620doing that brings us back home to our bodies that's a big one for sure i mean i feel like
00:52:32.700the foundations of all this is really about finding your inner sanctuary like you were saying
00:52:37.960sky and it's really the foundations and fundamentals of like what we're trying to
00:52:42.780to to bring with earthbound right is to find your inner ally so you don't feel alone in all this so
00:52:50.600if you're like going through chronic pain you're going through a transitional state you're you're
00:52:56.040you're going through there's a huge storm all around you at least you can find your center
00:53:00.760and go within and feel bewildered by the stories to discover within yourself and I feel like that's
00:53:08.320what pulled me through in many different ways I had to try to discover to find a nice sweet spot
00:53:14.020within but i feel like it's where it all comes down to it's like feeling at ease and feeling
00:53:20.400safe and at home which is our bodies no matter what state it is yeah i just want to like have
00:53:29.180you repeat for the back row find your inner ally find your inner ally find your inner ally i want
00:53:37.200to carry that with me like for the rest of my life i do want i do want to tell a quick story though
00:53:43.920um to our listeners tanya and sky were there so they know this story but uh before the pandemic
00:53:50.660these two came out to my place for uh uh it must have been it must have been saw win because it
00:53:56.580was very ancestor focus the two of you yes and tanya and sky if this was so this would have been
00:54:05.100i guess maybe about five months after my father died and tanya and sky showed up to do some
00:54:11.020ancestor veneration sky i don't even think i had ever met you before tanya it was no very very like
00:54:16.980acquaintance mutual friend kind of thing um so these two virtual strangers showed up in my house
00:54:22.800and what they brought with them was and this is a fact my father's absolute favorite dessert
00:54:30.060as an offering to the ancestors and that experience again contending with the with the
00:54:39.220grief and the relief of my father dying and you know the light and the shadow of all of those
00:54:45.540feelings and to have the two of you show up bearing his favorite dessert and I'm talking
00:54:51.360favorite I'm talking like he would talk about it we would get it at Christmas because it was a big
00:54:56.200deal um it was so validating and I just want to sort of I know we're wrapping up we're getting
00:55:03.980to the end of the line here but I just really couldn't let this opportunity to thank you both
00:55:09.020pass thank you for that opportunity to meet you and and and and and do that ritual together and
00:55:17.160and connect about our you know common common ancestry as well right from eastern european
00:55:23.620descendants yeah marco spagley i can still taste the bagel yeah i mean this is like kind of like
00:55:32.420the classic tale of how the ancestors work through us right it's like a whole team of them that are
00:55:40.340that are kind of like conspiring and weaving these connections and these webs of support so
00:55:47.440thank you for uh sharing that and how much it meant to you and to uh your father that uh we
00:55:55.120magically appeared with this but it was definitely meant to be it it felt and like i say validating
00:56:02.020is the word that i because it was just like it was it was a message from the universe and from
00:56:07.000you and sky but also from my father that just like yes just like a yes you know i propose we put that
00:56:15.380in the uh altar or in the ritual space for your lisa rituals is eat your ancestors favorite
00:56:24.240desserts please or bring your your ancestors favorite desserts to a friend and see if maybe
00:56:32.140it was also your favorite dessert the more dessert the better i think
00:56:39.500you know the sweetness of summer you know is is this good bring loads of fruits right i mean it
00:56:50.820also it also symbolizes the fruits of our labor right it's it's a perfect time to to bring that
00:56:57.060symbol on the summer solstice i'll just tell you this quickly and then and then i want to hear sky
00:57:03.380what you're thinking but we um a year ago we were in the midst of a of a renovation here out at our
00:57:10.860house on the lake and i went with my like one-year-old daughter and salvaged all the wild
00:57:16.080strawberry plants that were going to get crushed by this renovation and we made a little strawberry
00:57:20.580patch and we made her a little sandbox and nothing fruited last year but this year there are so many
00:57:27.700strawberries in this little patch like more than anywhere else and so I think there's something
00:57:34.860there as a lesson for me right now that's just tending to them and gathering them in a space
00:57:41.880so that they didn't feel alone and they didn't get crushed meant that they offered a wild abundance0.96
00:57:46.420of fruit and your patience you didn't say those fucking strawberry plants last year and we didn't0.78
00:57:51.640fruit you know you you gave them their time the time that they needed that that resonates a lot0.94
00:57:57.340for a lot of us i mean i feel over the past year we felt like we were we didn't really fruit
00:58:03.080and and and there was a lot of there was a big pause in our production right and now
00:58:10.960i feel like there's just some really juicy sweet lessons about to emerge honoring this
00:58:20.540you know new cycle in the summer solstice of 2021 slowing down pays off yeah and i i want to sort of
00:58:30.500conclude with these two words from sky um sky that you said earlier gentle tenacity i'm gonna carry
00:58:37.760that with me into my summer solstice and beyond right I loved it when you said that
00:58:44.320be tenacious but be very gentle and caring with ourselves yep stick to it keep going keep trying
00:58:53.340but yeah forgiveness patience and love to ourselves and others and Tanya find your inner ally
00:59:01.300i mean that definitely that is something we've worked on worked on together as earthbound this
00:59:09.120is what we've explored and refined and what we're trying to teach um and so yeah we're we're bringing
00:59:16.800it into another uh another level this summer we applied for a grant uh what's the exact grant
00:59:23.360called to the sky so it's with the city of montreal and it's for um les practices artistiques
00:59:29.540amateur so amateur arts practices cool and it's a it's a community-based yeah it's a community-based
00:59:37.840grant so it's for doing community arts practices that involve people from different um neighborhoods
00:59:44.100in the city it's for uh um a youth camp for marginalized lgbt uh to uh 2s lgbtq plus youth
00:59:54.040um and uh we're doing it's kind of the pilot 2.0 we're going to have around 12 participants and
01:00:01.800we're gonna it's going to be a series of workshops either clowning drag wrestling wrestling
01:00:08.680storytelling costume all these just so they can actually really dive deep and uh explore their
01:00:17.340inner ally which is you know they're the character that they will be creating and become their inner
01:00:23.620ally they become exactly body they express it in the material world yeah yeah and and ways we're
01:00:29.900gonna you know share so they can tap into their inner reserves which is their inner ally and
01:00:35.920unlock that and bring it into the physical realm and and and uh yeah bring that material magic
01:00:43.800that inner alchemy and bring it forth and share the inner alchemy so if our listeners want to
01:00:51.220find out more about your project or if they want to support you what's the best way to find y'all
01:00:56.580um you can go to um www.earthboundfutures.com yeah and we're also on facebook uh i believe
01:01:10.740it's earthbound futures you could just do a search and we're also on instagram earthbound futures
01:01:16.880mm-hmm exactly the adding updates about the summer uh summer activities there and
01:01:23.440we're collaborating with this amazing um not like collective called press start that um
01:01:30.800that right now they're operating at best monset which is another one of our partners we're going
01:01:35.300to be doing um the the summer camp at buts monset point saint chal and uh it's yeah it's what an
01:01:43.040honored is to see the project expanding in different corners with other really radical folks
01:01:49.760that hold so many talents um and yeah so it's um it's it's it's really inspiring and exciting
01:01:58.040and also a little scary but like the good stuff you know and and the best part about i think one
01:02:05.340of our big motivations for this camp is to also create activities and spaces for queer marginalized
01:02:14.000trans youth it sort of create these spaces that we never had growing up right like spaces to
01:02:20.680explore and experiment and tap into that magic like their own personal magic and their their
01:02:27.240inner ally you know how powerful I mean how many times have Tanya and I spoken about how powerful
01:02:33.220it would have been if I were 16 and I had had these tools like my life would be radically
01:02:38.800different you know and and and and doing it in a way that's like fun and expressive and joyful
01:02:44.740and joyful we need space for for joy for for for marginalized youth you know for them to feel
01:02:51.040like they could have a voice and that they have spaces to to express themselves and and we want
01:02:57.020to help co-create that with them to cultivate that the playfulness and the innocence right
01:03:02.140keep that intact alive yeah and and have a safe space to explore that you know it's a safe space
01:03:09.680to to grow and embody who you really are and your authentic self which i feel generationally
01:03:17.300there wasn't enough spaces in like the educational systems to to be able to to hold that or or
01:03:24.460support that and so exactly what was sky was saying i wish i had this is why we're doing this
01:03:29.920It's like our 16-year-old selves wish that this would happen, you know, that they would have been part of that.
01:03:36.800If I would have seen someone like me, the beard, you know, a cisgendered person with a beard.0.83
01:03:42.720And as an 11-year-old, 12-year-old, it would have totally changed the way that I viewed myself or how I loved myself or accepted myself.0.96