For The Wild - January 25, 2023


ALYNDA MARIPOSA SEGARRA on Life on Earth ⧸321

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00:00:08.060 Hello and welcome to ForTheWild podcast. I'm Ayanna Young. Today I'm speaking with Alinda Mariposa-Seguera.
00:00:17.020 That's what gets me out. It's like it's that little kid who was into Riot Grrrl.
00:00:23.480 it's like that's the person that's like we have to get out of this hole and we have to keep making
00:00:30.160 what we make. Alinda Mariposa-Sagara is a songwriter storyteller who performs under the
00:00:36.540 name Hooray for the Riff Raff. They are an Iorican queer artist born and raised in the Bronx who got
00:00:42.640 much of their musical political education from the anarcho-squatter punk scene of NYC. Alinda
00:00:49.320 spent years as a freight train rider and eventually learned to make music on the street
00:00:54.200 in New Orleans. Alinda has used the craft of songwriting as a tool for communication and
00:00:59.600 protest. They have released eight albums of music, most recently the critically acclaimed
00:01:04.880 Life on Earth in February 2022.
00:01:07.580 well alinda thank you so much for being with us today i'm a huge fan and just kind of amazed that
00:01:21.040 that uh you're here and all the amazing folks that for the wild brings into my life so
00:01:26.460 feeling really grateful oh wow i'm so grateful to be here thanks for having me
00:01:31.300 Yeah, absolutely. So, gosh, there's so many things to ask you, but lots of things to talk about. Yeah, so much. But I think I'm going to start by thinking through the ways your newest album, Life on Earth, is rooted within this ever evolving relationship to place and to the environments that shape us.
00:01:57.700 So I just love to hear more about the evolution of this relationship for you and about some of the thread lines that have supported this deep relationship throughout your life.
00:02:09.840 Well, this album, I feel like it's taken me my whole life to make, you know, of course, it was born out of sheltering in place in New Orleans, and that really informed so much of the writing and, and just the recording process and everything.
00:02:28.640 but I'm originally from the Bronx, from New York. And as a lot of people know, who listen to my
00:02:35.280 music, I left home pretty young at 17. And I was a freight train rider and was homeless and
00:02:44.020 learned how to play music playing on the street. And so I come from a very urban area, you know,
00:02:53.040 I come from the city and it wasn't until I came to New Orleans that I now call home and where I
00:03:02.160 wrote all of these songs that I just started to feel this relationship with the natural world
00:03:10.020 around me. And I started to really suddenly see the aliveness that was around me and started to
00:03:17.100 feel like perhaps myself and plant life and bird life and all of these other life forms were in
00:03:26.000 communication with each other. And it just kind of opened up my senses, you know, and I've had an
00:03:33.040 evolving relationship because growing up, I was really kind of raised with this idea that like
00:03:38.500 the outdoors were like for rich people, you know, and that I was just in this, you know, like I said,
00:03:46.500 extremely urban environment with not a lot of plant life and other life forms. So it wasn't
00:03:54.880 until I got to New Orleans that I started to really depend on my environment. And also during
00:04:03.460 the pandemic, the beginnings of the pandemic really rely on trying to listen. Suddenly something
00:04:12.000 happen, you know, with all of us all over the world. And I felt like I really needed to listen
00:04:18.100 and depend on the wisdom of the life around me. And it wasn't until writing this record that I
00:04:25.340 started to look back and, and realize that I actually had been doing this. When I ran away
00:04:31.200 from home, I was sleeping in bushes and sleeping under trees and finding refuge and, you know,
00:04:37.760 needing to hide from cops and stuff like that when I would need to go to sleep outside so I started
00:04:45.360 to see this relationship that had always been there but it was just you know I had this certain
00:04:51.200 narrative um and New Orleans really taught me so much about about that relationship that's
00:04:59.760 been happening my whole life. Gosh, I'm thinking about New Orleans and honestly, so many places
00:05:08.940 around the world that are, you know, some may say threatened because of climate chaos and changes in
00:05:17.080 weather patterns. And in an interview with Pitchfork, you say, quote, living in New Orleans
00:05:22.660 with the hurricanes, you're always on. Here we go. It's that time of year when we all might lose
00:05:28.540 everything. And so I'm wondering, how does loss become woven into our personal and collective
00:05:38.360 ecosystems? And what can we learn from embracing that? Well, I, I feel lucky in my specific
00:05:49.660 background of of the way I've lived my life because I don't have that much very you know I
00:05:59.340 don't have a home that I own and also I don't have generations of family in one place my family's
00:06:06.780 originally from Puerto Rico and you know moved to the United States and well to the mainland
00:06:13.340 So I have this very specific perspective of, I lived so much of my life with just my backpack on. And now what I'm trying to learn to do is to root and to be responsible for my community.
00:06:31.840 Like, how do I use that perspective and that background that I have to be of some service and to be responsible with the people around me who don't have that same background, who have generations of family here, who, you know, are not able-bodied or it cannot just leave whenever a hurricane is coming.
00:06:56.160 And that's something I'm really trying to learn. And it's extremely confusing. But New Orleans has taught me that that is the future are those kind of conversations. Like if you're in an urban environment, especially, you're going to run into all of these dynamics.
00:07:19.200 some people can afford to leave some people can afford to leave early some people have to take
00:07:24.120 care of their grandmother you know and I've learned also like what my role is because what
00:07:31.600 I do is I write songs and what I do is I witness and I try to be a storyteller and I also try to
00:07:38.520 use that power because I do think it's a power to redirect funds you know how do I take this like
00:07:47.740 very magical thing like writing a song and all of that that comes along with it and how do I make it
00:07:56.420 practical into actually doing you know the work with my community and it's it's really it takes
00:08:05.120 a lot of asking and trying to listen and researching the people around me who are
00:08:13.100 who are setting up outdoor kitchens after the hurricane comes you know people who know how to
00:08:21.540 do this work who've been doing it for a long time and have so much to teach so that's a lot of what
00:08:27.640 I'm learning is what's my role I need to be honest about my role and I also need to be
00:08:36.000 very responsible with the attention that I get from what I do. But of course, it's an ongoing
00:08:44.560 process. And I think we're all learning at the same time, you know? Yeah, your response brings
00:08:51.940 up so many themes that I think a lot of us are trying to learn through, especially those of us
00:08:58.160 who are in a sense orphaned from our homes in what is so-called North America and but also like a lot
00:09:09.080 of us are displaced whether that was I mean it's hard to say chosen displacement because there's
00:09:15.660 been so many migrations all over the world for so many different reasons running from
00:09:19.760 uh wars or oppression or following family needing to move for more opportunities you know so on and
00:09:28.180 so forth and so i think yeah so many of us over here in the so-called united states we don't have
00:09:35.360 those roots to generations upon generations and yeah the roots to the land but the fact is like
00:09:42.460 we are where we are and how do we hold a type of reverence respect and responsibility and how do
00:09:50.140 we show up for these communities that that we're now a part of in a good way and so I really I
00:09:57.520 think what you're saying is so important and is so relevant to so many of us because we're just
00:10:03.060 not at a time on the world clock where we can live in places and take but not give back and
00:10:08.680 not be in service. I don't think probably we were ever there, but I think especially now with
00:10:17.380 so much awareness from so many of us, how do we do that in a good way? I don't know if there's
00:10:24.240 any experiences you can share with us because I think sometimes it can be scary. I've talked to
00:10:29.800 a lot of friends who have moved to places and want to root town, but they're nervous. They don't
00:10:34.280 want to embarrass themselves. They don't want to come across a certain way trying to get involved
00:10:38.440 into a new community, even if they have the best intentions. And so I wonder if there's any
00:10:44.960 stories that you can share with us, or I don't know, just what you've witnessed of how people
00:10:51.820 can show up in a good way. Well, my experience with New Orleans has been, you know, now it's
00:10:58.760 been a long time. It's getting close to being the same amount of time I grew up in New York.
00:11:05.700 And because I got here at, you know, at such a young age at 17 and it was really messy for a long time because I came as a homeless kid and I also arrived the year before Hurricane Katrina and I came back and I was still playing on the street.
00:11:25.940 And that was a really big learning experience for me of being like, wow, I don't want to take from this place where everyone is just, you know, suffering and trying to rebuild and trying to heal, but also feeling like I really loved this city.
00:11:47.000 And I think what my only advice would be that, you know, it's a very humbling process to have to prove yourself to have, you know, like people aren't just going to trust you because you want them to trust you.
00:12:04.820 It's going to take a long time. And maybe, you know, it doesn't, and not everyone who's from a certain place or a city is going to trust you even after 16 years. I think like what I've learned is, like I said, to know my role and to understand what I'm trying to do with my life here.
00:12:26.820 And, and it's not to, you know, capitalize off of the city. It's to live my life and live my life with all of the people that who, you know, have kept me alive in a very real way here.
00:12:43.580 but I think it's like, it's a humbling process and it's getting comfortable with knowing that
00:12:50.680 like you have to stick it out. And also, I mean, I come from, you know, a very like working class
00:12:58.200 background and I think that's like a whole different thing. You know, I can only speak 0.62
00:13:03.740 to my experience of coming and not being able to buy a house and, you know, not being able to like,
00:13:08.940 I'm not like starting Airbnbs you know what I mean um but still trying to um understand my
00:13:16.780 responsibility of I'm going out into the world and people know I live in New Orleans that really
00:13:21.860 helps my band and and I do that will equal money you know so I think a lot of it is being honest
00:13:29.540 being really honest with yourself about um your relationship to place and I just feel so lucky
00:13:38.340 that I've learned about incredible activists and thinkers and, you know, community organizers here
00:13:47.200 in New Orleans. And so what I really have tried to do is direct attention to them, direct funds to
00:13:54.640 them. That's like really all I know how to do at this point, along with make my art, be honest
00:14:02.440 about what I'm seeing and try to tell the story of what life is like here, because I think a lot
00:14:10.920 of people are going to start to feel what we feel every year. And it makes me sad to say that,
00:14:17.460 but that's just the truth. You know, it's already started to happen that family members of mine
00:14:23.620 will be like, we lost power for a week. And I'm like, well, yeah, I know that you live in Florida
00:14:30.080 and you weren't expecting that, but that happens now.
00:14:34.520 While I was making Life on Earth, Hurricane Ida came through
00:14:38.860 and the whole city of New Orleans lost power for over two weeks.
00:14:43.980 That's the entire city.
00:14:45.400 The mayor was telling us, go, get out of here.
00:14:48.940 We don't have infrastructure to support you.
00:14:53.340 It's hard on the pipes.
00:14:54.820 It's hard on everything.
00:14:55.680 Um, so I left and thankfully friends in North Carolina took me in, but that is, that's like
00:15:02.840 my very messy, not perfect at all process that I'm going through all the time.
00:15:11.220 I think the, you know, what you were saying about humility and sticking it out and yeah,
00:15:19.040 it is messy like you got to stick with it to build trust and I think I mean I've I've had
00:15:27.160 my own experiences with that and I will say the reward from building trust in a challenging way
00:15:36.440 is so beautiful it's you know it's not easy and there's tears and frustrations and moments of
00:15:42.240 embarrassment and yeah you know all the psychological warfare that I've know I've
00:15:47.980 gone through and I'm sure other people have like just trying to find belonging in this world and
00:15:53.520 the loneliness of that journey can be really hard but sticking with it is so it's like that is
00:16:02.120 humanity like what is more human building that belonging with other people of course and also
00:16:09.720 with the place with the land with the waters and the birds and everything that you've mentioned
00:16:14.400 before. And that makes me think of something. I mean, you saying that it really, it reminds me
00:16:21.400 that throughout this process, I think I've learned a lot about wounds in me from that being that
00:16:30.840 little kid who was alone in the world and who was on my own. And I've needed to find a way to heal
00:16:41.240 that on my own, you know, with therapy, with EMDR, with plant medicine, with, you know,
00:16:49.820 close friends, and how important that process has been to help me be a little less fragile,
00:16:57.700 you know, to be able to withstand the uncomfortable parts and the needing to prove that I can be
00:17:06.200 trusted as a neighbor. I think that process is really important because it does trigger
00:17:14.520 these feelings of child wounds, for me at least. Well, right. And also learning to trust ourselves
00:17:24.580 when we've been traumatized and conditioned to a lot of times be people we don't even like.
00:17:31.800 i mean i can say that for myself like i was in a lot of ways raised to be somebody who i don't
00:17:37.120 even trust yeah so there's like so much unraveling just in that relationship to the little one in me
00:17:47.780 and yeah i think the process of that is is honestly really necessary for mutual aid
00:17:55.380 to get through what is to come what is already here um and yeah it's like it's not always
00:18:05.260 pretty it's not always um like celebratory but uh it's like that's just our birthright in a sense
00:18:14.200 to find our way back to this you know to the feeling of home or belonging and I think gosh
00:18:21.360 I really feel drawn to this conversation around the tension between wanting to run away and that
00:18:29.220 could mean from a place from ourselves from from the child that has been conditioned in a way that
00:18:36.420 has traumatized us like just wanting to run away versus the need to confront what is happening
00:18:41.700 right in front of you and again like that's internal that's external um and i gosh i guess i'm
00:18:54.580 yeah and well i guess this what this tension also reminds me of is so many of the ways that the
00:19:03.920 theme of survival that runs through your album and i'm thinking like how do we create safe havens and
00:19:10.560 places for rest while either running or fighting or staying you know and because of course like
00:19:18.780 sometimes like what you're saying when you needed to leave because the city didn't have the
00:19:23.540 infrastructure like leaving doesn't always mean running away either yeah sometimes leaving is
00:19:30.000 responsible you know I've definitely learned that a big part of making this record was also me
00:19:37.340 learning that I'm not a superhero it was learning that I need to be humble and I need to understand
00:19:43.100 I'm not going to end ice by myself you know like I think that artists especially as songwriters
00:19:50.420 we can just get we get on this like superhero mentality and we work in in isolation and I've
00:20:00.460 learned so much from new Orleans about how it takes people being together you know how it takes
00:20:10.020 us listening to the plant life around us how it it's not going to be one person comes and saves
00:20:18.460 us all and um and that has been a really interesting journey you know I've really
00:20:26.820 I spent so much of my life literally running, you know, running away from my home and running
00:20:37.080 away from New York and just being on the road for so many years on tour.
00:20:44.440 And this lockdown period, you know, sheltering in place was really the first time I had been
00:20:54.900 told that I needed to stay put since I was a kid. And it made me feel like a wild animal. I felt
00:21:05.340 like I am in a cage and I need to break out, you know? And that it made me have to face my body
00:21:15.400 as well. You know, all of these feelings that were in my body that I had not felt because I was so
00:21:23.620 good at being a workaholic. I was so good at just being like on this hustle of the music industry
00:21:33.240 complex, which is terrible, you know? And it, it's really changed my relationship with my art
00:21:43.320 and my relationship with why am I making art? Why am I writing songs? You know, I started writing
00:21:49.160 songs because I wanted to have songs to sing for my friends so they could have a song in their
00:21:55.640 pocket when they went around the world and when they felt like they couldn't keep living. That's
00:22:01.060 really why I wanted to write songs. And I wanted to start a band because I wanted a family. I wanted
00:22:07.700 a pack to roll with. All of this journey has been getting back to that place and thinking,
00:22:15.860 how do I continue to operate from that place?
00:22:45.860 Sky and the trees and birds and the bees
00:22:55.380 Life on earth is long
00:23:01.180 Rivers and lakes and floods and earthquakes
00:23:08.900 Life on earth is long
00:23:15.000 And no, I might not meet you there
00:23:24.980 Leaving it beyond repair
00:23:37.260 Gosh, I'm also thinking about your work
00:23:47.580 and it seems to focus so deeply
00:23:50.380 on a committed defiance of the forces
00:23:54.220 that want us to stay quiet
00:23:55.660 or stay within the confines of the status quo.
00:23:59.200 And, you know, I just love to think about the ways
00:24:01.780 that these commitments break from even traditional activism.
00:24:05.660 mm-hmm yeah I don't think I'm a very a very good activist you know I and I had to really
00:24:14.040 come to terms with that I had to really be real about what it is that I do
00:24:21.880 um and I have such respect for people that do community work that I had to learn okay
00:24:32.620 That isn't exactly what I do. But like I said before, how, how can I be in partnership with people that do that type of work? You know, I think also a lot of the process that I've gone through throughout my career is queering ideas of success, of what it is, what is it that I'm looking for?
00:24:56.660 What is it that I'm trying to do? Queering the idea of, of like, what a songwriter is supposed to be in this society, because it's, you know, our current modern world is, is teaching us that a songwriter is supposed to write a song that gets a big sync on a commercial.
00:25:19.700 that's like really what a lot of people think of when they think of music and they think of songs
00:25:26.860 so they think of making money and um of course i would love to make money i need to make money
00:25:34.720 but i i've really needed to um to be strong internally about what is success for me and what
00:25:46.180 it is that I am really trying to do and it gets very hard sometimes I can just feel like I am
00:25:54.420 such a failure and that is is a while like it's it's that notion you know if you were to talk to
00:26:03.380 17 year old me this is like all I've ever wanted how could that ever be a failure
00:26:07.420 So I'm learning how to protect my spirit and protect my mental state to not internalize this constant messaging of what music is supposed to do and what songwriting is supposed to do. 0.58
00:26:25.680 And, um, I feel so lucky that I came up in a punk music world in like a DIY queer radical
00:26:36.900 community.
00:26:38.080 I just feel so lucky to have that education because it's saving me now.
00:26:47.080 Gosh, the voices that try to beat us down, they're so strong, you know, just like your
00:26:55.480 voice thinking that that failure is anywhere close to um what you've done with your life you know
00:27:03.240 it's uh that self-critic is so strong and I think that's also part of the survival of this time
00:27:11.440 is you know probably more than acceptance although acceptance is a good place to start but
00:27:18.580 and it's so hard like the self-love thing I get sometimes I'm like I don't want to love myself
00:27:24.220 or you know like that's oh I relate to that sometimes like I'm failing at self-love I don't
00:27:32.040 feel like a goddess you know like I don't I don't relate to that type of thinking
00:27:37.640 but I do um I do you know in my in the depths of um those moments where I feel like
00:27:50.220 I'm never doing, I'm never quite getting enough of whatever it is that the internet's telling me
00:27:57.400 is success. Basically it's in those deep moments that I can find, at least for me,
00:28:05.060 my guiding light is just like a ferocious resistance to like an anger. My anger
00:28:13.760 is what pulls me out and it pulls me out. And then I can learn how to, okay, that got me out
00:28:22.980 of the hole. Now, where do I go? Cause I can't just stay in the anger, but I think that's what
00:28:29.840 I've found is like my version of self-love is just being so, I don't, I don't know. I just,
00:28:38.000 I think that like anger during this time is really underrated. And it's like, if we can learn
00:28:45.080 how to share it with other, you know, other forms of care for ourself, then it's, you know,
00:28:53.500 we have to do that. But that's what gets me out is like, it's that little kid who was into Riot
00:29:00.900 Girl. It's like, that's the person that's like, we have to get out of this hole. And we have to
00:29:07.560 keep making what we make you know no I love that and it reminds me of an interview I did with
00:29:13.900 Terry Tempest Williams I don't know how many years ago now four five years ago and we talked about
00:29:19.500 sacred rage and yeah I think that anger sacred rage being pissed that's beautiful like yeah like
00:29:28.360 if we're not feeling I mean and I know rage isn't for everyone so you know don't want to make some
00:29:33.840 blanket statement but for those of us who do feel that type of that blood moving because to me it's
00:29:41.020 very somatic it's like I feel the like I feel it in my face I feel it in my hands they clench like
00:29:46.920 they yeah and it's like that's how much I love this world is because like that the sacred rage
00:29:53.420 feeds a love and a passion for justice or for right relationship or for reconnection
00:30:00.300 And so I think when our, when that rage and that anger are actually feeding the desire to love, there's something so primally beautiful about that and powerful.
00:30:13.620 And we can really utilize that for some, like that's an, that is like that catalyst energy for change or like, you know, like sometimes we need that to really boost us to believe that the impossible is possible or, you know, to do something that is unexpected or, or, or feels too hard.
00:30:37.480 like for you know sometimes like the sacred rage allows me to do things i never would be able to do
00:30:42.420 otherwise um and so i i and i think so many folks are really um attracted to but like what's the
00:30:52.320 word i was looking for drawn but there's another word to your work because i think your music
00:30:58.560 allows people to feel a type of safety maybe in that anger or like maybe that like that punk feeling
00:31:06.420 too it's like oh it's a it's like I can release that with your music or something well it's really
00:31:13.760 beautiful that's like all I've ever wanted to do so yeah I think it's important for people to have
00:31:23.540 a place where that's okay too and I know everybody needs something different and that's not for
00:31:29.100 everybody for but for those of us who do need an outlet to be like you know what I am angry
00:31:34.900 and I need to be able to release that in a safe place where somebody out there gets it and they're
00:31:42.940 gonna be with me and it's gonna be artistic and musical and I feel it in my body and I can like
00:31:48.920 be in that world like that's that's healthy and I again like I think it is transformative energy
00:31:56.280 It's not like be angry, stay angry. It's like, yeah, you know, I don't know. I have have you felt that to just the power of that anger?
00:32:05.060 oh yeah yeah i mean i definitely it's what has fueled me to get through most of my life and it's
00:32:15.540 very like it's a anger that i've felt sometimes when i wasn't able to feel it you know in defense
00:32:24.280 of myself i was able to feel it well in defense of little me you know or in defense of of my friends
00:32:31.400 or my neighbors or just feeling like this anger about an injustice or bullies or you know oppressive
00:32:40.000 forces and that anger has gotten me to be my age to be 35 and you know I was I feel really lucky to
00:32:51.840 also have been raised with that that's just like the you know my aunt that raised me that's her
00:32:57.460 vibe as a woman, which I feel so lucky about is like survival as resistance. And, um, as just
00:33:07.620 like this rebellious act to being like, you're not going to see me stop writing songs because you
00:33:13.360 think I'm a failure or you think I'm too old or you think I'm too this. Like, so I feel really
00:33:18.900 grateful for it. I think also though, I I've had to learn a relationship with it where I didn't
00:33:25.960 turn it on myself because of course there have been years where it was turned inward because I
00:33:31.580 just didn't have the proper outlet or I lost my thread with my outlets and it turned into some
00:33:38.340 kind of like self-destructive you know like self-hating uh just like force in me so I think
00:33:48.020 like that's why I'm so grateful for just the the act of songwriting and the magic of it
00:33:54.420 because it just like brings me out of it takes it out as opposed to it turning on me because
00:34:01.680 sometimes I feel like that type of rage turns on me at these moments where I'm like I don't
00:34:08.420 even know how I could affect the world in a good way I don't even know how when I feel just like
00:34:13.260 so powerless you know and I don't know where to put it it just swirls around so I'm so grateful
00:34:19.000 for songwriting to, you know, release it out.
00:34:49.000 All the wolves have arrived at your door 0.99
00:34:58.000 Oh, go away from here, darling.
00:35:19.860 I want to like I guess what I'm seeing is there's this yeah this rage and anger that is um you know
00:35:35.680 like we're saying truly powerful and not to say that there needs to be anything underneath it
00:35:41.540 But I guess I'm also thinking about vulnerability and just the connection between anger and vulnerability. And I feel like you really tap into both in your music.
00:35:56.900 And that's part of, for me, like watching artists, which is something that I'm so mesmerized by, is how to hold the complexity of maybe emotions that seem like they're on totally other ends of the spectrum.
00:36:12.260 I mean, it really speaks to me for sure. To me, like what it makes me think of is love. Like that's where, that's what draws the two together.
00:36:23.200 I mean, when I choose to be vulnerable in my music with a song like Saga and talk about, you know, my journey with being a survivor and, you know, deciding that I wanted a narrative for my life that wasn't just focused around that.
00:36:47.760 That wasn't like, that's the last chapter, you know, like, that's the defining part of me. And, and that type of vulnerability is met with a rage of, I'm so angry that so many people have to feel this pain. I'm so angry that younger me had to go through this.
00:37:06.100 And also, but the thing that combines the two is a love, like just a love for people, for a love for this world and really wanting to share it and be vulnerable and feel that rage because I just, the love combines the two.
00:37:28.200 I think that's, that's my process.
00:37:32.240 you know I think it's also like growing up in the punk scene and stuff and like and even in like
00:37:40.300 indie quote-unquote indie music people are you know they put on a show of being like so
00:37:46.120 apathetic and stuff and so cool and I've just never felt like that just like it's been I've
00:37:53.400 always just been like I just really love this world and I really want I know it's not like
00:38:01.260 the coolest thing to do. But I started to learn to just accept that and be like, this is my nature.
00:38:11.020 Something that you just said kind of reminded me of this theme of rebirth. And I think that
00:38:19.380 like when you were saying about the next chapter, and for some reason, I know I found myself
00:38:26.980 feeling like oh well here I am this is what I am and I just had to stick with this forever and
00:38:33.120 once this chapter is over I'm over or something or like I become irrelevant or obsolete and I
00:38:40.260 think that's really a horrible part of our culture is making us feel irrelevant after a certain age
00:38:49.240 a certain time a certain like totally you know it's like oh you wrote a book okay well that's
00:38:54.760 the book and you know you'll never write a book again or whatever it is I mean I feel like this
00:38:59.380 theme is so constant which is really about devaluing people devaluing disposability culture
00:39:07.980 to me like that's really what it represents that's like okay like you know you know especially like
00:39:13.880 with this youth driven culture it's like all right well now you're 20 something like you're
00:39:18.840 chewed up and spit out and like never again will you be successful I mean that's like these themes
00:39:23.700 especially that are told to women over and over again i'm like what the hell is this this is just
00:39:28.580 horrifying and i love to me with this album like there's so much about rebirth and also um we can
00:39:36.700 rebirth reinvent ourselves time and time and time again um and i think also the idea of relevance
00:39:45.600 and capitalism they really go hand in hand and i try to you know psychologically try to
00:39:53.640 understand like what is it about capitalism that wants this feeling of irrelevance and and maybe
00:40:01.620 it's because they just want to keep selling more so you know dispose this move on dispose move on
00:40:08.260 but I think there is so much needed power built in whether it's in the anger to say nope like
00:40:17.600 you're not going to see me fail and no I'm going to rebirth myself over and over and over again like
00:40:22.440 there is nothing you you know whatever the you is like can do about it like I am this um inner
00:40:29.200 energy force that will continue to expand because we are multi-dimensional creatures
00:40:35.420 I don't I don't want to be put in a box I don't want to be told like yeah this is all I can be
00:40:40.320 and this is the timeline of how and what I can be that's uh and and I think the queering of
00:40:47.120 culture is really helping us expand the binaries or boxes of these rules that culture tells us 0.55
00:40:57.240 one way or the other and so I don't know maybe just we could talk a bit about rebirth and kind
00:41:02.620 of like saying we're gonna keep going and we're gonna reinvent and maybe reinvent isn't even the
00:41:09.000 right word because like we can always be ourselves but we get to be many things in our life and
00:41:14.060 that's great yeah you know it's like shedding it's shedding skin and and coming out with this
00:41:23.280 new perspective or these new ideas and you know it makes me really think about how for me a part
00:41:29.740 of queering my career and my ideas of success is also deciding you know goes back into the
00:41:36.360 vulnerability of well if because of capitalism it looks like I'm not going to be some huge star
00:41:43.260 making a ton of money. So how do I, how do I be intentional with my audience, with my listeners
00:41:49.860 in a way that's really trusting them to be like, I'm going to be real with you. And I hope you'll
00:41:56.680 support me because as we know, this culture wants to throw me away and throw you away and throw us
00:42:02.760 all away. Um, so that's a part of it is like you, I've had to do like a trust fall into hoping that
00:42:12.260 the people who listen to my music will be community members with me to an extent you know
00:42:17.840 will have this relationship with me where they will support me throughout my career and that's
00:42:25.940 been a really beautiful thing and I really I mean I feel like I'm getting like I feel like I'm making
00:42:34.040 my best work now I feel like I finally have some wisdom to share now it's just like this idea that
00:42:41.360 you're at your peak, especially as a songwriter in like your early twenties, which of course is
00:42:47.600 when, you know, everybody has so much wisdom to share, but I'm like, the idea that that's the
00:42:52.140 end is it doesn't make any sense to me, you know, because it is just sexist. And it's just this,
00:42:59.060 I often say when it comes to music, what really concerns me is this capitalist machine makes
00:43:08.700 more money off of an artist when they're dead and so I feel like a lot of musicians who are
00:43:16.400 out there touring who don't have support systems who are suffering you know I don't feel like
00:43:24.400 people within the industry are trying their best to get them help you know I mean of course
00:43:33.060 there are people out there but it overall the music industry makes more money when a musician
00:43:40.940 is no longer around and everyone is like oh my god what a genius let's buy all the records but
00:43:47.800 you know all of a sudden they become an icon i'm very aware of that and we see it all the time and
00:43:55.180 I'm really, that's another part of my rebellion is just deciding that I need to do everything I can
00:44:05.280 to protect myself and protect my mental health and my spirit. And that involves growing and
00:44:11.980 changing. You know, I started off my career in a genre that suddenly started to feel very unsafe
00:44:20.360 for me. It was very harmful for me to be in this like Americana world as a Puerto Rican person,
00:44:26.820 you know, walking into the Trump era, I started to feel like this is not a good place for me
00:44:35.160 anymore. And a lot of people are telling me this is a terrible career move because, you know,
00:44:41.060 they're giving me their honest feedback, but I really had to make a decision that was
00:44:46.280 good for my spirit and was going to protect me and say, I need to get back to the spaces
00:44:53.700 that are full of people who, you know, are seeing me for who I really am. And
00:45:00.360 I just think like those tough decisions really have to be made as an artist.
00:45:07.540 i really loved hearing that and it almost also reminds me again of mutual aid and valuing each
00:45:17.780 other beyond what we're conditioned to and it also it just relates back to what we're talking
00:45:26.600 about with trust trusting ourselves trusting others building communities of resilience because
00:45:32.940 we need the artist. The artist needs us. We need the birth worker. The birth worker needs us. Like
00:45:41.340 we actually do need each other. Like everyone has a place. And of course, dominant culture
00:45:47.860 says everyone's disposable, but it's not true. It's actually really not true. And we can't just
00:45:55.740 keep replacing each other time and time again. That leads to emptiness. Like when there's no
00:46:01.800 accountability and there's no real knowing of people it can be distracting you know and that
00:46:07.980 can be entertaining for a moment or it can feel safer because we can mess up and run away or maybe
00:46:14.780 we feel like we're not liked so we can run away and we can try to get away from all of those fears
00:46:20.320 that probably started in childhood but we never get to actually grow into a type of security safety
00:46:28.860 wisdom closeness that i think really is like almost at the base of all of our discomfort
00:46:36.960 is yeah again like feeling like we aren't truly rooted to a people to a place to a time to a
00:46:48.840 purpose i mean it's and and like we see it manifesting all over the earth in just the
00:46:55.080 most horrid of ways um like the rapid consumption which allows us to give in to destroying like
00:47:03.400 every last intact ecosystem left on earth because we're trying to fill the void of valuing each
00:47:10.360 other and belonging to each other and belonging to place and so like we're never gonna get out
00:47:16.300 of this like we can't we cannot circumvent this issue by anything that we're sold or told that
00:47:24.680 we can somehow get out of it like we won't get out of it alive you know it's like it's hard but
00:47:29.420 like the bottom I mean this is just my belief system on this one but well I know we're starting
00:47:35.180 to come to a close of our time but I don't want to miss out on asking you about your work with
00:47:42.280 immigrants and the ICE detention centers. And, you know, as we talk about how rooted in truth
00:47:52.400 and struggle so much of your art is, I just would love to hear more about the work focusing on
00:47:58.140 fighting for freedom for immigrants and how this effort of community organizing and work can show
00:48:04.000 us what freedom and relationships are genuinely vital to life and necessary to keep us moving
00:48:09.600 forward, you know, in spite of policies and systems that want the opposite. So I started
00:48:16.240 to volunteer with Freedom for Immigrants in Louisiana. It was about a year before the pandemic
00:48:24.140 hit us. And I was off tour and I knew that I was going to be off tour for a bit.
00:48:30.900 And I really was feeling very lost and very alone. I just spent so many years, you know, being on the road and feeling like I didn't, I had lost touch with so much community.
00:48:44.780 And I went to a meeting that was held in New Orleans and started to learn about how Louisiana has become a really big hotspot for these immigration jails.
00:48:58.220 A lot of them are in rural Louisiana, where people are very isolated. And we're also like, community people in these rural areas will be convinced that this is, you know, going to bring in money that that it's a good idea for the community for some financial reason.
00:49:18.520 and I started to go with groups of people, we would sometimes have to drive four hours both
00:49:26.720 ways to visit folks that were stuck in these detention centers. Freedom for Immigrants is a
00:49:33.140 really great organization because groups will be formed all over the country and it's really
00:49:40.920 community run. They have a national hotline where folks can call and let people know who they are
00:49:49.680 and what kind of help they need. This work taught me a lot also about being very honest about what
00:49:56.460 I can and can't do. You know, I had to go visit folks and first off, tell them that I'm not a
00:50:04.300 lawyer. And I had to just be honest about, you know, what is it can I, that I can do? I can get
00:50:10.080 in touch with your family members. If you need that, I can help search for stuff online. I can
00:50:15.440 help crowdfund for money to an extent that I can get, you know? And I learned also so much about
00:50:24.880 working with other people because we were able to get the two men that I was visiting
00:50:31.360 out of detention. Both of them had been stuck in ICE detention for over a year, each of them.
00:50:37.620 They came to the United States because they were seeking asylum and they just got lost
00:50:42.620 in the system, which is what happens to so many people because people are making money
00:50:48.220 off of keeping people in jail.
00:50:50.900 You know, so all it's like one man that I was visiting, they just never found a proper
00:50:57.020 translator for him because in court he needed a translator.
00:51:01.000 He could speak English, but like if it's in court, he's like, I really need my native
00:51:05.520 language, you know?
00:51:06.440 and it was probably like 12 people that came together to get these two men out. And it was
00:51:17.060 also with the help of people in new Orleans. Cause I did, uh, I did a benefit show where I
00:51:23.720 played with me and some of my friends and we were able to raise the money to pay a lawyer who was
00:51:29.780 willing to do it for very low cost. So it was, it just taught me so much about needing people
00:51:38.020 and about being honest about what I can and can't do. And the work was very intense, of course,
00:51:45.960 you know, um, I'm, I feel so lucky that it happened this way. I feel so lucky that I met
00:51:54.800 the men that I met, and that we could be a part of each other's lives. But it's also really
00:52:01.200 heartbreaking work, because the majority of people are not getting out, or they're getting
00:52:06.860 deported. And you're just you're witnessing inhumane conditions, you're just witnessing
00:52:12.760 the inside of this, this monster, that is this whole complex. And also, I recognize that,
00:52:22.640 for me, it's like, this isn't my father. This isn't my mom, you know, like how difficult
00:52:28.100 this process must be for folks that this is their loved one. So, you know, I did what I know how to
00:52:37.020 do, which is try to tell the story with their permission, tell the story of, of like each of
00:52:46.880 them of their process of getting to the United States and of being in detention and really just
00:52:53.660 trying to, I mean, that's just what I know how to do is how to be a witness and a storyteller.
00:52:58.880 And it worries me because, you know, we have a short attention span as a culture. And I feel like
00:53:05.920 the news cycle has moved away from immigrant rights, such topics and, you know, throughout
00:53:13.260 the Biden administration, like people are, it's growing. The amount of people who are in detention
00:53:19.000 is growing. So this is definitely something that I feel like people need to be reminded about and,
00:53:27.220 and to like learn, you know, to be educated about because it, it happens in these very far
00:53:34.060 off places that you're never going to just like drive by because they purposefully put these
00:53:38.620 jails and areas where there aren't a lot of people living directly in front of it you know
00:53:43.700 yeah to to be hidden and forgotten and that's definitely what they want and um gosh melinda
00:53:53.900 thank you so much for sharing about that work and just so much personal reflection that you
00:54:01.380 shared with us it's been really special to have such an intimate conversation and I am really
00:54:08.660 excited to yeah just see what is to come and to be be able to escape into my own little world with
00:54:17.520 life on earth in my ears and yeah just yeah be able to you know yeah and I just want to say one
00:54:24.960 more thing like on this topic I just feel like especially in my career it's been so romanticized
00:54:34.160 that I was like this wandering kid who left home and went out on the road and you know that has
00:54:41.860 its own issues with how romanticized it's been but I just feel this very strong belief that like
00:54:49.040 you know it's it's romantic when I do it because I'm white and it's romantic because you know but
00:54:55.860 but it's not romantic when somebody is coming from you know Ghana and it's just this racism 0.99
00:55:03.740 that I think I learned a lot about while doing this work which is another reason why
00:55:11.040 I just really feel like it's something that we need to check ourselves on because it's like
00:55:16.260 this romantic vagabond life when i do it and then when someone is doing it to save their life
00:55:22.860 then why isn't this also considered this heroic journey you know that's what i took away from
00:55:30.300 the folks i was meeting as i was like you're a hero i can't believe you've survived all of this
00:55:36.140 journey that you went on um so that's just something i'd like to put into the cultural
00:55:42.300 conversation thank you for making that point because I think it's really easy for us to
00:55:51.180 judge what is romantic and what isn't based off our conditioning and yeah I think it's good for
00:55:58.720 us to reflect on that and gosh there's to reflect on so much this interview has really
00:56:05.520 we've gone a lot of places and I've really enjoyed every moment thank you for your time
00:56:10.780 Oh, thank you so much.
00:56:14.100 I've been looking forward to this so much.
00:56:15.920 It's just an honor to be here.
00:56:17.500 So thank you.
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00:56:28.540 For the Wild is created by Ayanna Young, Erica Ekrem, Francesca Glasfell, and Julia Jackson.
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