If Books Could Kill - June 18, 2026


The Body Keeps The Score

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00:00:00.000 You have to do the thing or else like 300 people are going to say it in our comments.
00:00:03.240 What?
00:00:03.720 Let the bodies keep the score.
00:00:05.580 Let the bodies keep the score.
00:00:07.400 Let the bodies keep the score.
00:00:08.840 The other one that somebody pointed out was, you know, the ABBA song, Winner Takes It All?
00:00:12.600 No, I do not.
00:00:13.440 You can also do, the body keeps the score, which has been stuck in my head for like three weeks.
00:00:18.640 Sound off in the comments.
00:00:19.860 Are there any other songs?
00:00:21.080 What other songs match this book?
00:00:23.120 Well, what do you have?
00:00:24.040 Oh, I was just going to do that.
00:00:25.160 Oh, wait, you actually were?
00:00:26.340 Yeah, of course.
00:00:26.940 What else is there?
00:00:27.860 How can you even do that, though?
00:00:29.220 You can't just chant and then the music kicks in.
00:00:31.500 Yes, I can.
00:00:34.360 Wait, come up with a better one.
00:00:36.240 I can't believe I have to come up with a thing about trauma, a thing I don't understand at all.
00:00:40.900 This is a great thing to announce right off the bat.
00:00:42.840 Trauma, never looked into it myself.
00:00:45.060 Could you do something with a score, like a soccer, like a sports?
00:00:48.500 Don't try to make me do sports.
00:00:50.660 I don't know.
00:00:51.240 Dance for me, monkey.
00:00:52.160 Do a sports joke.
00:00:54.460 Well, you have to do something else.
00:00:55.860 Have one.
00:00:57.800 All right.
00:00:58.520 Peter.
00:00:59.220 Michael. What do you know about The Body Keeps the Score?
00:01:02.380 All I know is that I've been told the score my body keeps is a 6.5 at best.
00:01:20.620 So the full title of the book is The Body Keeps the Score, colon,
00:01:24.720 Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk.
00:01:29.880 What do you know about this book, Peter?
00:01:31.140 Very little.
00:01:32.060 I don't know a lot about trauma.
00:01:33.880 This will be embarrassing for me because I feel like you're going to send me excerpts
00:01:37.440 and be like, can you believe he said this about trauma?
00:01:39.640 And I'll be like, what did he get wrong?
00:01:41.820 I don't know.
00:01:42.760 The author is a psychiatrist, even though I constantly mess up and say psychologist.
00:01:46.920 He runs a trauma center where he works with individual patients.
00:01:51.320 He's an actual guy in the space.
00:01:53.580 Oh, yeah. He's like an actual expert. He's like very well known in the field. He's published
00:01:56.900 widely about this. This isn't a book by just like a guy. It comes out in 2014. Essentially,
00:02:01.600 nobody notices it. And then it just starts slowly kind of rising up the bestseller charts.
00:02:07.920 Eventually around 2018, 2020, it appears entirely through word of mouth. This ends up on the New
00:02:14.120 York Times bestseller list and then stays on the bestseller list for 248 weeks. One of the reasons
00:02:20.520 I'm doing this is because if you check the kind of random Amazon charts of like nonfiction books,
00:02:25.240 this will oftentimes be in the top five despite now being 12 years old. Like, you know, eventually
00:02:30.760 it gets endorsed by Oprah and there's like various high prominent people that recommend this book.
00:02:35.480 But at first it was just like, I read this book and you tell your friend about it kind of thing.
00:02:38.920 Right. I think for this reason, I want to give like a big disclaimer at the beginning of this
00:02:44.080 episode. I think people are probably very clenched for us to talk about this episode because I'm sure
00:02:48.900 you know people like this. I know a lot of people who read this book and liked it and got something
00:02:53.160 really beautiful out of it. This book is the kind of thing that people you like and respect will tell
00:02:58.180 you to read it. So I don't want to take that away from somebody. The most important thing about this
00:03:03.820 book, I think, is really just the premise and especially the title. So for this episode, I
00:03:08.100 talked to four different psychologists, all of whom either specialize in trauma or see a lot of
00:03:12.820 patients who've experienced trauma. And all of them said that this was an important kind of
00:03:16.520 corrective to the field and an important way of broadcasting to the more general public.
00:03:20.460 The idea that when you are traumatized, that has physical symptoms, right? It shows up in your
00:03:25.860 sleep. It shows up in your immune system. It shows up in all of these ways that don't necessarily
00:03:30.780 feel like trauma to you, right? It doesn't feel like a trauma response. That was like really
00:03:35.620 healing for people to be like, oh, it's not that I'm broken. It's that I'm affected by the thing
00:03:40.020 that happened to me as a child. The other thing that I think was really important about this book
00:03:43.600 is the idea of complex PTSD.
00:03:47.160 The previous kind of old school understanding of PTSD
00:03:50.980 was that you had to experience a major single event.
00:03:54.880 You experienced a sexual assault or you were in combat
00:03:57.320 or you were in a car accident.
00:03:59.660 But it turns out you don't have to experience
00:04:01.540 one discrete event.
00:04:03.220 You can experience like more lower level events
00:04:05.840 over a long period of time.
00:04:07.480 And I also think that's like a really important reframing
00:04:10.380 both within psychology and also among the public.
00:04:12.800 Because that goes contra what The Sopranos said about Tony having anxiety attacks whenever he saw meat because he traced it to his father's criminal activity when he was young.
00:04:25.760 That's almost like too specific.
00:04:27.660 You're like, give it to me in Sopranos.
00:04:29.160 I'm going to figure this all out based on a series of prestige television shows.
00:04:33.480 I think the third thing that was important about this book and is one of the reasons why people like it is that the author of this book and the book itself have extremely good politics.
00:04:41.960 So one of the critiques that you always hear of books like this that are kind of individually focused efforts to help you deal with your trauma or self-help books in general is that they don't talk about structural forces, right?
00:04:54.200 The entire epilogue of this book is dedicated to talking about structural drivers of trauma.
00:04:58.920 So here is an excerpt.
00:05:01.640 In many ways, we seem to be regressing with measures like the callous congressional elimination of food stamps for kids whose parents are unemployed or in jail, with the stubborn opposition to universal health care in some quarters, with psychiatry's obtuse refusal to make connection between psychic suffering and social conditions, with the refusal to prohibit the sale or possession of weapons whose only purpose is to kill large numbers of human beings, and with our tolerance for incarcerating a huge segment of our population, wasting their lives as well as our resources.
00:05:29.580 When I give presentations on trauma and trauma treatment, participants sometimes ask me to
00:05:33.440 leave out the politics and confine myself to talking about neuroscience and therapy.
00:05:37.420 I wish I could separate trauma from politics, but as long as we continue to live in denial
00:05:41.400 and treat only trauma while ignoring its origins, we are bound to fail.
00:05:45.280 In today's world, your zip code, even more than your genetic code, determines whether
00:05:49.700 you will lead a safe and healthy life.
00:05:51.820 Cooking.
00:05:52.200 He's cooking.
00:05:52.800 Absolutely cooking here.
00:05:54.360 So as opposed to many of the other books we talked about on the show, we won't really
00:05:57.200 be criticizing him for things he leaves out of this book it is a book focused on individual
00:06:01.480 therapies but i kind of think that's somewhat defensible like he's a psychologist he treats
00:06:04.780 individual patients yeah telling a patient like well you should solve racism isn't really like
00:06:09.700 useful as a therapeutic mode it's also um it's not what he's an expert at exactly right so i
00:06:15.420 think that's defensible yeah however saying all of that i also was very struck while i was reading
00:06:24.180 this book by the sheer size of the gap between the book that people describe to me and the effect
00:06:31.500 that this book has had on them versus the text of the actual book itself. So we're going to walk
00:06:37.620 roughly chronologically through the book. We start with chapter one. This is Bessel van der Kolk
00:06:44.140 talking about his upbringing, how he ended up as a trauma therapist. He is born in 1943 in the
00:06:51.360 Netherlands. In 1962, he moves to Hawaii for college. He gets a summer job in a psychiatric
00:06:58.340 asylum essentially. And given how many of the patients there are suffering from trauma or
00:07:03.760 been through like really horrible things, this inspires him to become a psychologist and work
00:07:07.960 specifically on trauma. So the opening scene of the book is in 1978 when he is dealing with a
00:07:16.200 Vietnam veteran. This guy watched all of his compatriots killed in front of him. There was
00:07:23.120 some sort of ambush when they were in Vietnam. He had a really close friend who he basically
00:07:26.780 watched murdered like three feet away from him. He's super fucked up from that. And then 1.00
00:07:31.840 Bessel van der Kolk continues. 0.84
00:07:34.740 Maybe even worse for Tom than the recurrent flashbacks of the ambush was the memory of
00:07:38.600 what happened afterward. I could easily imagine how Tom's rage about his friend's death had led
00:07:43.060 to the calamity that followed. It took him months of dealing with his paralyzing shame before he
00:07:47.480 could tell me about it. The day after the ambush, Tom went into a frenzy to a neighboring village,
00:07:51.620 killing children, shooting an innocent farmer, and raping a Vietnamese woman. After that, 0.95
00:07:56.540 it became truly impossible for him to go home again in any meaningful way. And then he continues.
00:08:02.080 At the end of his tour of duty, Tom was honorably discharged, and all he wanted was to put Vietnam
00:08:07.560 behind him. Outwardly, that's exactly what he did. He attended college on the GI Bill, 0.99
00:08:12.260 graduated from law school, married his high school sweetheart, and had two sons.
00:08:17.260 Tom was upset by how difficult it was to feel any real affection for his wife,
00:08:20.940 even though her letters had kept him alive in the madness of the jungle.
00:08:24.120 Tom went through the motions of living a normal life,
00:08:26.480 hoping that by faking it, he would learn to become his old self again.
00:08:29.940 He now had a thriving law practice and a picture-perfect family,
00:08:32.940 but he sensed he wasn't normal.
00:08:34.500 He felt dead inside.
00:08:35.740 So a lot going on in these paragraphs.
00:08:38.380 Can we get Tom in prison, folks?
00:08:39.740 this is like a very complicated sequence of the book one of the things that's interesting if you
00:08:45.680 ever look up this book on reddit is like every three months somebody will go on reddit and be
00:08:50.140 like my friend recommended the body keeps his core to me and then uh i read it and the first
00:08:54.320 anecdote is a sympathetic portrayal of someone who raped and murdered a bunch of people in vietnam 0.95
00:08:59.700 like as a survivor of sexual assault this feels really fucking weird on the other hand i do want 0.80
00:09:04.860 to say that all of the trauma psychologists i spoke to said that like if you're a trauma therapist 0.92
00:09:11.140 you are dealing with people who have done horrible things like a lot of people's trauma is based on
00:09:17.080 what's happened to them but also how they react to it like people who were traumatized like beat
00:09:21.600 their spouses they yeah maybe they killed somebody in a drunk driving accident i mean this is just
00:09:26.280 part of like being a trauma therapist maybe you murder a bunch of children this is just
00:09:30.700 no i here's the thing i get it i even as i was reading it i sort of get it right where
00:09:36.820 there's this chain of events that starts with this horrible trauma and leads to more horrible
00:09:42.080 things yeah it is weird though that the solution it feels like we're working toward
00:09:46.620 is like comfort and peace for tom exactly and i think what people are really responding to
00:09:52.600 is not just that this anecdote appears in the book but the way that it appears in the book 0.92
00:09:56.480 Because at no point does Bessel van der Kolk give a single statement of sympathy to this poor woman in Vietnam who had her children killed and was brutally raped for no fucking reason, right?
00:10:07.420 To me, this story is a story of, like, the cycle of trauma, right? 0.99
00:10:11.360 That when you get fucked up, you do something even more fucked up to innocent people. 0.98
00:10:15.120 That is what this story is, right? 0.99
00:10:17.340 And I also think fundamentally this is a story about racism, right?
00:10:20.080 He wants to impose collective punishment on this woman because she's Vietnamese and he considers Vietnamese people to be like such a distinct species that if one of them does something bad to you, then you can just enact revenge on others of them. 0.98
00:10:32.240 Like he could have also said like, when I first started out as a trauma therapist, it turns out people have done really fucked up shit and it might seem difficult from far away to talk about this. 0.95
00:10:40.420 But also I want to prevent Tom from acting these violent fantasies out in his life now. 0.97
00:10:46.340 That was my purpose as a therapist.
00:10:47.880 there are ways to present this that keep the same basic facts of the story but kind of like put it 0.91
00:10:52.700 in context of like yes tom should be in fucking prison but given that that's not really in my 0.84
00:10:57.820 power as a therapist i'm gonna try to work with tom to make sure that this doesn't happen again 0.98
00:11:01.900 yeah it's like he well he felt that inside it's like well yeah yeah because you made other people
00:11:06.360 dead outside you actually killed children dude yeah what i don't know this like it's hard not
00:11:12.480 to read this and be like wow this man sure went unpunished for his horrific crimes right but what
00:11:16.900 he's actually saying is just like tom is sad so after tom we then meet another vietnam veteran
00:11:23.120 named bill oh boy who is a participant in a study about nightmares just a series of war crimes and
00:11:29.080 they're like bill sad too so i mean basically here's this bill or the napalm king as they
00:11:37.360 called him as part of that study we gave our participants a rorschach test unlike tests that
00:11:43.020 require answers to straightforward questions, responses at the Rorschach are almost impossible
00:11:47.080 to fake. The Rorschach provides us with a unique way to observe how people construct a mental image
00:11:52.280 from what is basically a meaningless stimulus, a blot of ink. Because humans are meaning-making
00:11:57.400 creatures, we have a tendency to create some sort of image or story out of those ink blots.
00:12:02.540 What people make out of these blots can tell us a lot about how their minds work. On seeing the
00:12:07.420 second card on the Rorschach test, Bill exclaimed in horror, that is that child I saw being blown
00:12:12.380 up in Vietnam. In the middle, you see the charred flesh, the wounds, and the blood is spurting out
00:12:17.840 all over. Panting and with sweat beating on his forehead, he was in a panic similar to the one
00:12:23.220 that had initially brought him to the VA clinic. I got to say, that's the most straightforward
00:12:27.680 Rorschach example I've ever heard in my life. Dude, yeah, I looked this up. The Rorschach test,
00:12:33.440 you know, it's inkblot test. Everyone has kind of seen these like canonical inkblot,
00:12:36.760 symmetrical inkblot things. They always use the same 10. So it's always the same ones.
00:12:42.100 right and like yeah there's something kind of weird about the way that he describes it here
00:12:46.660 because like when i look at them i see like a bat or like a mask i'm just like butterfly that's a
00:12:52.240 butterfly you got another butterfly there i'm not like it's it's my dad emotionally neglecting me
00:12:56.820 like it's really weird i don't know what it's like to have this level of like trauma right so i'm not
00:13:02.540 gonna i don't want to uh be too flippant but if you like put that in front of someone and they're
00:13:07.740 seeing shit like that i don't know it just doesn't comport with my understanding of how that would 0.56
00:13:11.900 actually play out but whatever he then has a long sequence where he talks about all the other 0.98
00:13:15.740 veterans that they brought in to use the rorschach test he says the veterans interpreted the cards
00:13:20.520 with descriptions like these are the bowels of my friend jim after a mortar shell ripped him open
00:13:25.660 and this is the neck of my friend danny after his head was blown off by a shell while we were
00:13:30.840 eating lunch you're just showing them to elon musk and he's like that's someone online being
00:13:34.200 mean to me that's someone online being mean to me that is a helicopter shot of white genocide
00:13:38.820 So like we're eight pages into the book.
00:13:41.020 I'm like, is this really how the Rorschach test work?
00:13:43.860 Because like, you know, we've all seen him in movies or whatever.
00:13:45.820 Yeah, yeah.
00:13:46.220 The Rorschach test is completely debunked pseudoscience.
00:13:49.220 That's kind of what I thought, but I didn't want to say it out loud.
00:13:51.300 I was like, is this real?
00:13:52.300 This isn't the way that it works.
00:13:54.260 Right.
00:13:54.880 That is a photorealistic image of my exact trauma.
00:13:59.360 So there's an open letter by a bunch of psychologists called
00:14:02.660 call for a moratorium on the use of the Rorschach inkblot test in clinical and forensic settings
00:14:07.800 from 1999. This is not a test that is like given all that much credibility. It still is used in
00:14:13.700 court sometimes in America, but that's really fucking embarrassing. And it's so weird for him 0.94
00:14:19.100 to talk about this in 2014 as if it's just like a cool method that we have for finding out the
00:14:24.520 truth about things. That's not how like anyone credible in the field talks about it anymore.
00:14:29.140 You're allowed to use fake science in court in America, and that's part of what makes this country great. 0.74
00:14:34.160 I started looking into this, and the history of the Rorschach test, it was often used to diagnose homosexuality. 1.00
00:14:40.740 That's the one thing I think it works for. 1.00
00:14:43.380 They're just like, butthole, butthole, butthole, butthole. 0.98
00:14:45.580 No, Peter, Peter, Peter, I'm sending you something. 1.00
00:14:49.520 I'm like not even fucking exaggerating. 0.67
00:14:51.220 Here's this. 0.97
00:14:51.500 Hang on.
00:14:51.700 At that time, the five signs most often interpreted as diagnostic of homosexuality were, one, buttocks and anuses, two, feminine clothing, three, male or female sex organs, four, human figures without male or female features, and five, human figures with both male and female features. 0.96
00:15:11.880 I am someone who, like, knows my way around an anus. 1.00
00:15:14.540 I do not look at these fucking things and be like, oh, my God, it's a butthole. 1.00
00:15:18.120 Yet again, a butthole. 1.00
00:15:19.540 Mike, if you think you can say I'm someone who knows my way around an anus on this podcast and just move forward. 1.00
00:15:28.660 Do you need a minute, Peter, to collect yourself?
00:15:32.620 I think this is such a sign to me of like, this is not real science. 1.00
00:15:37.100 A gay person is not just going to be like, this is a butthole. 1.00
00:15:39.780 They don't look like buttholes, objectively. 1.00
00:15:42.220 Secondly, I don't think people are just blurting out.
00:15:44.440 Like you have this random businessman. 0.99
00:15:45.860 He's like a closeted homosexual. 1.00
00:15:47.600 And he's like, yet again, it's buttocks. 1.00
00:15:49.280 Like, there's no fucking way. 0.99
00:15:50.920 That's a little boy who's just begging for it. 0.99
00:15:53.900 You have to cut that?
00:15:56.540 I didn't mean an underage boy. 1.00
00:15:58.780 I meant an of-age little twink, all right? 1.00
00:16:00.740 You were spelling it B-O-I. 1.00
00:16:02.420 It's fine.
00:16:03.000 It's non-problematic.
00:16:03.620 That's a beautiful 20-year-old boy presenting himself to me.
00:16:07.680 So we then get into the next section of the book, which talks about how trauma affects
00:16:11.140 the brain.
00:16:12.300 After he works with Vietnam veterans, he then branches out into people who've experienced 0.89
00:16:16.580 child abuse, sexual abuse.
00:16:18.200 they oftentimes have the same types of symptoms as the Vietnam veterans. 0.81
00:16:22.360 So he starts to explore this, and here is him describing what he sees as the mechanism behind this. 0.72
00:16:30.460 Whether the trauma had occurred 10 years in the past or more than 40,
00:16:34.560 my patients could not bridge the gap between their wartime experiences and their current lives.
00:16:39.940 Somehow the very event that caused them so much pain had also become their sole source of meaning.
00:16:45.080 they felt fully alive only when they were revisiting their traumatic past he then has a
00:16:50.040 section called addicted to trauma the pain and pleasure and the pleasure of pain okay so here's
00:16:56.000 more oh i should also say like this is a really rough description of somebody this episode is
00:17:01.900 going to include a lot of like very detailed descriptions of sexual assault because that's
00:17:05.700 what the book contains so if that sucks feel free to tap out many traumatized people seem to seek
00:17:11.160 out experiences that would repel most of us, and patients often complain about a vague sense
00:17:15.400 of emptiness and boredom when they are not angry, under duress, or involved in some dangerous
00:17:21.040 activity. My patient, Julia, was brutally raped at gunpoint in a hotel room at age 16. Shortly
00:17:26.980 thereafter, she got involved with a violent pimp who prostituted her. He regularly beat her up. 0.79
00:17:32.100 She was repeatedly jailed for prostitution, but she always went back to her pimp.
00:17:36.220 Finally, her grandparents intervened and paid for an intense rehab program.
00:17:40.540 After she successfully completed inpatient treatment,
00:17:42.580 she started working as a receptionist and taking courses at a local college.
00:17:46.300 In her sociology class, she wrote a term paper about the liberating possibilities of prostitution,
00:17:51.160 for which she read the memoirs of several famous prostitutes.
00:17:54.360 She gradually dropped all her other courses.
00:17:56.980 A brief relationship with a classmate quickly went sour.
00:17:59.840 He bored her to tears, she said, and she was repelled by his boxer shorts.
00:18:04.180 She then picked up an addict on the subway who first beat her up and then started to stalk her.
00:18:09.140 She finally became motivated to return to treatment when she was once again severely beaten.
00:18:12.960 The mechanism that he's describing is that you're kind of addicted to the neurotransmitters
00:18:17.280 that are firing when you're under duress.
00:18:19.360 And so whether you realize it or not, you're sort of in a way thrill-seeking or you're
00:18:23.060 seeking out experiences that trigger these kinds of responses because when you're in
00:18:27.460 more functioning relationships, you're bored by them, it's not triggering the same kind
00:18:31.620 of pleasure responses that you're getting from these traumatic experiences.
00:18:36.420 Okay.
00:18:37.120 What do you think, Peter?
00:18:37.740 I feel like I'm way out of my depth here. This sounds like it could have like some broad element
00:18:44.660 of truth to me. People who experience trauma tend to find themselves in these scenarios more
00:18:51.000 frequently. But I have genuinely no knowledge about this as like a causal mechanism, right?
00:18:57.440 So this phenomenon is real. So people who've experienced child abuse or child sexual abuse
00:19:01.880 are more likely to be abused as adults. And this is a phenomenon that is very well established,
00:19:07.340 but there's tons of work investigating why this phenomenon is real. And essentially nobody
00:19:15.080 subscribes to the idea that they are addicted to trauma. So I read a really interesting paper that
00:19:20.760 sort of goes through the history of this concept, how it's been interpreted over the years,
00:19:25.020 a lot of really interesting qualitative work where they ask people like, why did you return
00:19:28.920 to this person who was abusive, which again is a very common phenomenon. It's kind of part of the
00:19:33.400 process of leaving an abusive relationship. Oftentimes it's going back to that person a
00:19:36.460 couple times. People who've experienced child abuse, child sexual abuse are more likely to go
00:19:41.000 back to an abusive partner. That again is like an actual phenomenon. However, the cause of this is
00:19:45.580 much more kind of obvious and direct. So one of them is just poverty. People in poverty are more
00:19:50.560 likely to be abused and people in poverty are more likely to be abused as adults simply because it's
00:19:54.500 harder to leave an abusive relationship if you don't have money. That is one aspect. Another
00:19:58.440 aspect that they think might explain some of it is that people who have experienced abuse and
00:20:03.660 group in like really chaotic homes can't spot the red flags of an abusive relationship as well,
00:20:08.900 right? They have a sort of higher tolerance for like mid-level toxic behavior, right? They might
00:20:12.960 not see it as something that is like going to become much worse. I mean, you lack a framework
00:20:17.580 for what like a healthy dynamics are, right? So obviously you're going to be bad at spotting
00:20:22.900 unhealthy dynamics. Yes. And what's really interesting is there's all these qualitative
00:20:26.320 surveys where they ask people like, why did you go back to this abusive partner? And the most
00:20:29.920 common response is, I loved him. One of the theories is that people who've experienced
00:20:34.520 abuse as children, because of the cycle of abuse is you get abused and then the abuser apologizes,
00:20:39.880 I'll never do it again. They are more likely to accept the apology. You also think about things
00:20:44.720 like, you know, child abuse can cause low self-esteem, anxious attachment, these other
00:20:49.180 kinds of like personality drivers that would make you more likely to go back to somebody who is
00:20:54.100 treating you terribly. It's not that you're addicted to it or you like it or you're seeking
00:20:58.060 it out what was that thing about hating that guy's boxer shorts i don't know where was he trying to
00:21:02.460 sort of like hint at the idea that she's coming up with excuses but was actually just bored i don't
00:21:06.460 know i was googling around i found like a domestic violence research center and like the first like
00:21:11.300 line of their frequently asked questions it says it is important to note that victims do not stay
00:21:16.840 in abusive relationships because they enjoy being abused this idea that like oh they're addicted to
00:21:21.460 it they like it they're bored if they're not getting it this is like an old trope about people
00:21:26.100 who are abused right it's sort of blaming them for the abuse like oh they want to be there and
00:21:30.440 like that just isn't fucking true it's not something that people say in the field at all
00:21:34.320 like this addicted to trauma framework that he's proposing here has not been the academic consensus 0.96
00:21:39.740 about sexual assault interpersonal violence for like decades interesting yeah i this is the part
00:21:46.880 of the episode where i'm just listening and learning i'm like you're like wow thanks tell
00:21:51.180 him, Hobbes. Tell him. After he's established this, like, addicted to trauma model, he then
00:21:56.900 tells us the brain mechanisms behind it. So he walks us through something called the triune
00:22:03.120 brain model. The brain is built from the bottom up. It develops level by level within every child
00:22:09.120 in the womb, just as it did in the course of evolution. The most primitive part, the part
00:22:13.900 that is already online when we are born, is the ancient animal brain, often called the reptilian
00:22:18.400 brain. The reptilian brain is responsible for all the things that newborn babies can do. Eat, sleep,
00:22:24.020 wake, cry, breathe, feel temperature, hunger, wetness, and pain. Any effective treatment for
00:22:29.460 trauma has to address these basic housekeeping functions of the body. So now he contrasts the
00:22:35.020 reptilian system with the more advanced parts of the brain. Right above the reptilian brain is the
00:22:41.640 limbic system. It's also known as the mammalian brain because all animals that live in groups and
00:22:46.260 nurture their young, possess one. Development of this part of the brain truly takes off after a
00:22:50.900 baby is born. It is the seat of the emotions, the monitor of danger, the judge of what is pleasurable
00:22:55.920 or scary, the arbiter of what is or is not important for survival purposes. It is also a
00:23:01.560 central command post for coping with the challenges of living within our complex social networks. And
00:23:06.100 then he gets to the most sophisticated part of the brain. The frontal lobes are responsible for
00:23:11.000 the qualities that make us unique within the animal kingdom. They enable us to use language
00:23:15.340 and abstract thought the frontal lobes allow us to plan and reflect to imagine and play out future
00:23:20.880 scenarios they make choice possible and underlie our astonishing creativity so this is the driver
00:23:26.340 behind the addicted to trauma model right because your trauma is embedded in all three parts of the
00:23:33.600 brain including these sort of reptile instinctive parts and so the challenge with trauma is that if
00:23:40.780 you're only addressing it in the prefrontal cortex like the sort of logical part of your brain
00:23:44.920 You're basically leaving the trauma in those deeper parts of your brain intact.
00:23:50.380 It feels like we're building towards the inadequacy of talk therapy or something, right?
00:23:55.620 Where it's like you can't talk out your trauma because you're using the top layer of your
00:24:01.800 brain, but it goes deeper.
00:24:02.960 We are also building toward the total debunking of this entire concept, this lizard reptilian
00:24:08.640 triune brain model thing.
00:24:10.240 it was invented in the 1960s based on extremely thin data from the early 1900s. It was already
00:24:17.960 controversial by the 1970s and it was essentially discarded by the field by the 1990s. Humans,
00:24:26.560 first of all, did not evolve from reptiles. It's not like there was a reptile brain and then
00:24:30.880 there's like an extra layer on top of it. Essentially every animal has like the same
00:24:35.620 parts. Like lizards also have a prefrontal cortex. There's different parts of the brain.
00:24:39.620 it adapts it does different things but it just is not the case that like they have a qualitatively
00:24:44.440 different brain than us there's also not really this like step-by-step evolution like first
00:24:50.040 there's your ancient brain and then there's like the more modern mammalian brain that just isn't
00:24:54.340 how evolution works and even beyond the anatomical stuff one of the core theses of this book is that
00:25:00.800 there's a clean separation between your emotional brain and your rational brain and that also just
00:25:07.280 isn't true yeah so there's a really good article about this called the brain is adaptive not triune
00:25:12.080 that says modern neuroscience research demonstrates that the triune brain theory does not accurately
00:25:17.700 explain how the brain functions in everyday life or during the stress response specifically emotion
00:25:23.340 and cognition are interdependent and work together the limbic system is not a purely emotional center
00:25:28.360 nor are there purely emotional circuits in the brain and the cortex is not a purely cognitive
00:25:32.980 center, nor are there purely cognitive circuits in the brain.
00:25:36.260 I sort of intuitively understand that like we don't know an enormous amount about brains.
00:25:41.160 And so a lot of the ways in which we talk about it colloquially, sort of metaphorical
00:25:47.140 or, you know, very, very oversimplified.
00:25:49.480 Truly, whenever he does this in the book, he like gets it wrong.
00:25:52.040 There are huge sections of this book that are just like absolutely incorrect.
00:25:55.660 He has a whole thing about the polyvagal system, which is like a spinal cord thing.
00:26:00.040 You have your sympathetic system and your parasympathetic system.
00:26:02.380 it's a similar thing it's like one system ramps you up and another system kind of cools you down
00:26:07.040 and then trauma affects it in a specific way that's also been completely debunked that was
00:26:10.620 debunked way before this book was ever published there was never any good evidence behind it and
00:26:14.140 it was like a bunch of like rat studies and monkey studies and shit but like he just includes it in
00:26:17.680 the book what's going on with this guy i thought he was uh well we'll get there peter why why is
00:26:24.020 this well-respected guy who is sort of legitimately an expert doing this if the only thing in the book
00:26:31.600 was misinformation of this type, like, oh, he fucked up the reptile brain thing. I don't think
00:26:35.120 I'd be doing an episode on it. I'd be like, whatever. Live the rest of your life thinking
00:26:37.700 we have a reptile brain. Fine. But this starts to get worse when we get into the trauma in the body 0.97
00:26:47.060 section. So after we talk about how trauma affects the brain, we talk about how trauma affects the
00:26:51.180 body. I'm going to send you the vignette. Shari had graduated from college, but now she worked
00:26:56.880 in a joyless clerical job, lived alone with her cats, and had no close friends. When I asked her
00:27:03.300 about men, she told me that her only relationship had been with a man who'd kidnapped her while she
00:27:08.340 was on a college vacation in Florida. He'd held her captive and raped her repeatedly for five 0.93
00:27:14.020 consecutive days. She remembered having been curled up, terrified, and frozen for most of that time 0.82
00:27:19.480 until she realized she could try to get away. She escaped by simply walking out while he was in the
00:27:24.820 bathroom when she called her mother collect for help her mother refused to take the call 0.99
00:27:28.980 sherry finally managed to get home with assistance from a domestic violence shelter while sherry
00:27:34.420 dutifully came to every appointment and answered my questions with great sincerity i did not feel
00:27:38.660 we were making this sort of vital connection that is necessary for therapy to work struck by how
00:27:43.220 frozen and uptight she was i suggested she see liz a massage therapist i had worked with previously 0.98
00:27:49.840 she gets massages this is what i was talking about right it's like talk therapy is like too 0.64
00:27:56.700 shallow it's you're not digging deep and enough into the brain you must first get a massage i
00:28:01.940 also think uh frozen and uptight is a choice of the way to describe someone who's like brutally
00:28:07.520 raped right a little bit uh judgy it's like a little like uptight is just like a rude judgment
00:28:15.080 of a person weird okay and then uh at the end of the chapter he comes back to her and talks about
00:28:20.820 the results it was fascinating to see how much sherry benefited from her massage therapy she
00:28:26.480 felt more relaxed and adventurous in her day-to-day life and was also more relaxed and open with me
00:28:31.320 she became truly involved in her therapy and was genuinely curious about her behavior thoughts and
00:28:35.800 feelings she stopped picking at her skin and when summer camp came she started to spend evenings
00:28:40.960 sitting outside on her stoop, chatting with her neighbors.
00:28:44.200 She even joined a church choir, a wonderful experience of group synchrony. 1.00
00:28:48.720 So if you've been raped, get a massage. 0.99
00:28:51.140 I can't tell if this is like weirdly shallow and insensitive or just like totally fine 0.99
00:28:56.160 and like things that physically relax you might actually chill you out a little bit.
00:29:00.000 I don't know.
00:29:00.280 I honestly don't know.
00:29:01.200 So for this, I spoke to Emmy Neatfield, who is the author of a memoir about trauma called
00:29:06.560 Acceptance and wrote like one of the first pieces to publicly criticize this book for Mother Jones.
00:29:12.580 It's excellent. I'll include it in the show notes. As part of the research for that article,
00:29:17.080 she contacted Bessel van der Kolk to ask him about another problematic anecdote. And he told
00:29:23.740 her that other than Bill, every anecdote in this book is a composite, meaning they are made up.
00:29:30.320 Wait, other than the guy who looked at the Rorschach and was like,
00:29:34.480 That's a video of my Vietnam experience.
00:29:37.820 According to him, that is the only real anecdote in the book.
00:29:40.400 There's one other that's kind of like a news story.
00:29:42.540 So that's like available publicly.
00:29:43.480 But other than that, apparently he told her these are all composites.
00:29:49.080 And I reach out to him to like double check this.
00:29:51.600 Like, are these really composites?
00:29:52.800 He didn't get back to me.
00:29:54.240 But once you think about it this way, you notice a lot of just like weird fake sounding
00:30:00.160 details in these anecdotes.
00:30:01.860 The fact that this woman lives alone with her cats is, like, a little on the nose.
00:30:06.580 And also, he says, she told me her only relationship had been with a man who'd kidnapped her.
00:30:11.920 Yeah.
00:30:12.000 I don't know that somebody would describe that as a relationship.
00:30:14.680 If you're a rape victim, have you ever been in a relationship? 0.99
00:30:16.980 Oh, yeah, there's the guy that, like, raped me repeatedly. 0.99
00:30:19.520 Yeah, I was kidnapped. 0.99
00:30:20.760 Yeah, exactly.
00:30:21.260 It also, it feels very weird to do composite characters with trauma.
00:30:26.880 like what parts of this are one person is like a really important question here yeah and like
00:30:33.120 this is a book about trauma so you're going to change the names of some people you're going to
00:30:36.660 change some details so that like people aren't identifiable that sort of stuff is totally fine
00:30:40.880 i have done this in magazine articles when i've had sources that i didn't want to identify but
00:30:44.360 first of all he didn't disclose anywhere in the book that he's doing this or describe like the
00:30:48.960 extent of that secondly if he's compositing characters that means he's taking different
00:30:54.580 pieces from different people's stories this book depends heavily on these miraculous cures for
00:31:02.920 trauma yeah what right was the person who benefited from massage therapy the person who was kidnapped
00:31:09.300 he also made up the thing that she was uptight potentially that's also kind of a weird move
00:31:13.780 what if the only composite aspect is the three cats you know he threw that in just like oh you
00:31:18.920 got to make it believable right so we're not going to talk all that much about the rest of
00:31:22.160 this section about how trauma affects the body. Again, this book, the basic premise is true.
00:31:28.020 This basic mechanism is true. The most notable thing, though, is that this is the section where
00:31:33.460 I started to notice a weird sloppiness when it comes to facts. So a lot of the section is about
00:31:41.980 this work by Frank Putnam, who is examining the effect that trauma has on young girls. He has
00:31:48.700 two groups, a group of abused girls and a group of non-abused girls, and he follows them for 20
00:31:53.900 years and he gets like their biomarkers. And so here is Bessel van der Kolk describing that study.
00:32:01.340 By the time girls get to middle school, most have begun to master a whole set of social skills,
00:32:06.200 including being able to identify what they feel, negotiating relationships with others,
00:32:10.500 and pretending to like people they don't, and so on. The sexually abused girls have an entirely
00:32:15.800 different developmental pathway. They don't have friends of either gender because they can't trust.
00:32:21.720 They hate themselves and their biology is against them, leading them either to overreact or numb
00:32:26.660 out. They can't keep up in the normal envy-driven inclusion-exclusion games in which players have
00:32:32.260 to stay cool under stress. Other kids usually don't want anything to do with them. They simply
00:32:37.360 are too weird. But that's only the beginning of the trouble. The abused, isolated girls with
00:32:42.800 incest histories mature sexually a year and a half earlier than the non-abused girls.
00:32:48.360 Sexual abuse speeds up their biological clocks and a secretion of sex hormones. Early in puberty,
00:32:53.820 the abused girls had three to five times the levels of testosterone and androsinidione,
00:32:58.700 the hormones that fuel sexual desire, as the girls in the control group.
00:33:03.420 So the first thing that stuck out to me was this finding about friendship. He says,
00:33:07.200 they don't have friends of either gender they can't trust they hate themselves other kids don't want
00:33:13.240 anything to do with them i was like is this really what the studies show that like they don't have
00:33:17.240 any friends he does this a lot through the book where he talks about people who've experienced
00:33:21.280 trauma and he's like really totalizing terms like they can't experience pleasures yeah at one point
00:33:25.820 he says they're disconnected from their soul so anyway i went to his citation for this the
00:33:31.460 citation includes five publications one of them does not appear to exist the rest of them don't
00:33:37.800 include anything about number of friends happiness with friends social ostracism etc oh my god one
00:33:45.100 of them includes a citation to a 2000 paper that does look at the number of peers that abused and
00:33:53.820 non-abused girls have when they are young peers is defined though as like the number of people
00:33:58.860 around you, like classmates, if you're in school, it's not friendship. Yeah. So this finding that 0.76
00:34:04.480 like the girls hate themselves and everybody else hates them too. That just is not supported by the
00:34:09.320 literature at all. Right. The other result that stuck out to me was this result that when you're
00:34:14.000 abused, you hit puberty earlier. This is actually true. Yeah. Yeah. I've heard that before. This is
00:34:18.300 one of the big pieces of evidence for like, yeah, there are physiological effects of trauma.
00:34:22.480 Vanderkoek says it's 1.5 years. The study that he's citing says it's 7.5 months or six months
00:34:28.240 earlier, depending on which stage of puberty you're talking about. But that one, I mean,
00:34:32.140 I'm kind of willing to forgive that one. It's like a sort of a detail error. There's also the
00:34:36.180 finding that abused girls have three to five times the testosterone and androstenidione levels of
00:34:43.640 non-abused girls. This also does not appear in any of the sources that Bessel van der Kolk cites.
00:34:50.560 God damn it. I reached out to Frank Putnam about this. He said results like this have never been
00:34:55.300 published. I started Googling around and I found that Bessel van der Kolk has been saying this for
00:35:01.200 more than a decade. I found a presentation that he gave to Congress in 2010, where he just like
00:35:07.980 says that abused girls have five times the testosterone of non abused girls. This is as
00:35:13.440 far as I can tell a super preliminary result that was never published, never made it through peer
00:35:18.800 review. And he has just been gallivanting around saying that for 15 years. This is interesting
00:35:24.940 because uh sometimes when i'm doing an episode for the podcast or writing an article or whatever
00:35:30.080 you're you're trying to present what is like a relatively small point but if you're trying to
00:35:36.620 be detail oriented it can actually take you a while to pin it down and you go down a rabbit
00:35:41.040 hole and maybe you decide it's not worth it at the end of the day yeah yeah but you if you want 0.97
00:35:44.980 to be good at this shit if you want to be a reliable author then you have to do it you like 0.98
00:35:51.540 before you present a fact as a fact you have to actually track it down and like see you know just 0.98
00:35:57.400 check the veracity and sometimes that's a lot of work and so when someone does this sort of like
00:36:03.920 you know i heard this somewhere yeah yeah like they pop it into their book like it's as much
00:36:08.580 of a fact as something that's been the subject of peer review yeah that to me is just a like an 0.97
00:36:13.940 indicator that someone maybe shouldn't be writing a book about this shit the thing is i don't want 0.92
00:36:16.960 to throw too many stones because like i do fuck up details like this on the podcast like this is 0.99
00:36:20.880 an unscripted show? Well, everyone fucks up a detail. There's a difference between fucking up 0.94
00:36:24.760 a detail and going to Congress and presenting something you heard your friends say without 0.98
00:36:30.280 peer review. And again, I wouldn't be harping on this stuff if this was the only factual error in
00:36:34.500 the book, but like everywhere throughout this book, there's just a weird sloppiness. The opening
00:36:40.560 paragraph of the book includes two factual errors, places where his own citations do not agree with
00:36:45.280 him. He also says that this landmark study showed that women who had an early history of abuse and
00:36:50.620 neglect were seven times more likely to be raped in adulthood. He cites a study that doesn't include
00:36:56.600 rape. But that very much feeds into his narrative that they are consciously seeking it out in some
00:37:01.500 way, right? He also says at one point traumatized children have 50 times the rate of asthma versus
00:37:07.260 their non-traumatized peers. 50. 5-0. 5-0. That is crazy. I mean, Neatfield looked into this one.
00:37:13.320 This is not in his cited study. And like the testosterone one, it isn't something you find
00:37:18.360 in the broader literature, it would be a huge deal if it was true.
00:37:22.420 Yeah.
00:37:22.740 So I have no idea where this came from, but it appears to be something that he pulled
00:37:25.560 out of thin air.
00:37:26.380 It must have pulled that out of extremely thin air.
00:37:28.380 Am I right, folks?
00:37:29.280 Asthma joke.
00:37:30.360 I'm cooking.
00:37:30.940 So we then get to the section that he has about trauma and childhood.
00:37:36.200 So how childhood trauma affects you as an adult.
00:37:38.940 I'm going to send you...
00:37:40.780 There are hundreds of thousands of children like the ones I'm about to describe, and they
00:37:44.280 absorb enormous resources, often without appreciable benefit.
00:37:47.280 They end up filling our jails, our welfare rolls, and our medical clinics.
00:37:51.860 Most of the public knows them only as statistics.
00:37:54.620 Tens of thousands of school teachers, probation officers, welfare workers, judges, and mental health professionals spend their days trying to help them, and the taxpayer pays the bills.
00:38:02.900 So, stepping up to the American taxpayer.
00:38:05.000 I love it when people frame these sort of like social ills as like a taxpayer problem at the end of the day.
00:38:12.360 It's like, and even worse, you're paying for it.
00:38:15.220 I love saying the word welfare rolls in a book like this.
00:38:17.820 That feels great to me.
00:38:18.960 So then he gives us a bunch of vignettes of children who've experienced abuse.
00:38:22.540 Then there's Maria, a 15-year-old Latina, one of the more than half a million kids in
00:38:26.760 the United States who grew up in foster care and residential treatment programs. 1.00
00:38:30.820 Maria is obese and aggressive. 1.00
00:38:32.580 She has a history of sexual, physical, and emotional abuse and has lived in more than 0.80
00:38:37.940 20 out-of-home placements since age eight.
00:38:40.560 The pile of medical charts that arrived with her described her as mute, vengeful, impulsive, reckless, and self-harming, with extreme mood swings and an explosive temper. 0.99
00:38:51.500 She describes herself as garbage, worthless, rejected. 0.98
00:38:55.800 After multiple suicide attempts, Maria was placed in one of our residential treatment centers. 0.99
00:39:00.660 Initially, she was mute and withdrawn and became violent when people got too close to her.
00:39:05.220 After other approaches failed to work, she was placed in an equine therapy program where she groomed her horse daily and learned simple dressage.
00:39:14.020 Two years later, I spoke with Maria.
00:39:16.400 At her high school graduation, she had been accepted by a four-year college.
00:39:20.120 When I asked her what helped her the most, she answered, the horse I took care of.
00:39:23.800 Another person who healed her trauma not through talking about it, but through something separate.
00:39:29.860 Yeah, dressage.
00:39:31.040 The simple key, folks.
00:39:34.240 Horses.
00:39:34.720 Yeah, this is just a great example of how sick it is to be rich.
00:39:39.600 You know what helps is a horse, if you guys can just get a hold of one of those.
00:39:43.480 And then, okay, then he has one more, Peter.
00:39:45.240 Then he has one more. 0.67
00:39:46.520 Virginia is a 13-year-old adopted white girl. 0.98
00:39:49.460 She was taken away from her biological mother because of the mother's drug abuse.
00:39:53.020 After her first adoptive mother fell ill and died, she moved from foster home to foster home before being adopted again. 1.00
00:39:59.720 Virginia was seductive with any male who crossed her path,
00:40:02.940 and she reported sexual and physical abuse by various babysitters and temporary caregivers. 0.95
00:40:08.180 Personally, I constantly describe 13-year-old girls as sexually aggressive. 0.97
00:40:11.000 Yeah, ooh. 1.00
00:40:11.840 They're seductive with any male.
00:40:13.740 That's what I say about 13-year-olds. 1.00
00:40:15.200 She came to our residential treatment program after 13 crisis hospitalizations for suicide attempts.
00:40:20.840 The staff described her as isolated, controlling, explosive, sexualized, intrusive, vindictive, and narcissistic. 0.92
00:40:26.920 Sexualized. 1.00
00:40:27.200 She described herself as disgusting and said she wished she were dead. 0.99
00:40:30.420 Remember, again, the way that he described the Vietnam veterans? 0.97
00:40:33.480 Oh, he did these horrible things, but he felt really bad about it.
00:40:35.920 He's struggling.
00:40:36.920 So many of the vignettes of men describe horrible behavior, but also are like, well, he couldn't
00:40:42.920 help it.
00:40:43.440 It's really hard for him. 0.96
00:40:44.200 But a lot of the vignettes of women are just like, she's uptight. 0.98
00:40:47.600 She's vindictive. 1.00
00:40:48.660 Like, there's just like a tone that it's difficult to put my finger on.
00:40:51.860 But it's just the way that he describes victims of abuse make me really uncomfortable throughout
00:40:55.660 the book. 0.99
00:40:56.020 The single sentence, Maria is obese and aggressive. 1.00
00:40:58.760 Why would you mention how she looks? 1.00
00:41:00.240 Maria is obese and aggressive.
00:41:02.260 So he then gets into this adverse childhood experiences study, which is where a lot of the data on like how trauma affects the body comes from.
00:41:09.640 He gives a little intro to the guy who is writing the study.
00:41:14.320 In 1985, Vincent Felitti was chief of Kaiser Permanente's Department of Preventative Medicine in San Diego, which at the time was the largest medical screening program in the world.
00:41:23.180 He was also running an obesity clinic that used a technique called Supplemented Absolute Fasting to bring about dramatic weight loss without surgery.
00:41:32.540 This is a technique called Supplemented Absolute Fasting.
00:41:38.160 Is that sort of a direct translation?
00:41:40.200 Supplemented Absolute Fasting sounds like they give you vitamins and you don't eat food.
00:41:44.300 This is a diet on which you subsist on 420 calories a day.
00:41:49.040 I found like a little manifesto where he like lays out this diet.
00:41:52.220 he says during a year of supplemented absolute fasting a weight loss of approximately 300 pounds 0.97
00:41:58.820 will occur well yeah yeah i mean if you fucking eat you're also gonna like not have your period 0.95
00:42:04.580 all your hair is gonna fall out you might have a heart attack but like yeah you'll lose so much of 0.96
00:42:08.980 your weight why not just go down to zero at that point there's something funny like a lot of people
00:42:13.440 who defend the body keeps the score will be like this is a product of its time like some of it's
00:42:17.260 a little outdated. This is 2014. You sort of said that he's going chronologically through his own
00:42:22.840 career. But here we are decades later, and a lot of that shit's been debunked, but he's sort of 0.98
00:42:28.400 writing about it like it hasn't been. Yeah, exactly. And at no point does he say like, 0.96
00:42:32.140 oh, we've now updated these methods or something like that. But this guy Felitti at the time is
00:42:36.400 famous for exploring this link between trauma and obesity. And in one of his papers, he talks about
00:42:42.540 the need to recognize the, what he calls the benefits of obesity. So now we're back to
00:42:50.220 Vanderkoek. Here's Vanderkoek describing this. One day, a 28-year-old nurse's aide showed up
00:42:55.780 in his office. Validi accepted her claim that obesity was her principal problem and enrolled
00:43:00.520 her in the program. Over the next 51 weeks, her weight dropped from 408 pounds to 132 pounds.
00:43:08.360 Again, this is just fairly impossible.
00:43:11.520 Can this be, is this real?
00:43:13.380 How is that?
00:43:14.040 I mean, even on bariatric surgery, you don't see results like this.
00:43:17.220 Losing essentially three quarters of your body weight.
00:43:19.800 However, when Felitti Nix saw her a few months later,
00:43:22.840 she had regained more weight than he thought was biologically possible in such a short time.
00:43:27.540 It turned out that her newly svelte body had attracted a male co-worker
00:43:31.300 who started to flirt with her and then suggested sex.
00:43:34.660 She went home and began to eat.
00:43:36.580 you've gained more weight than i biologically thought was possible really because you're
00:43:41.260 bending the boundaries of biology no exactly yeah 300 pounds in a year as he and his team
00:43:47.300 started to inquire more closely they were shocked to discover that most of their morbidly obese
00:43:52.040 patients had been sexually abused as children they also uncovered a host of other family problems
00:43:58.040 12 years after he originally treated her feliti again saw the woman whose dramatic weight loss
00:44:02.500 and gain had started him on his quest she told him that she'd subsequently had bariatric surgery
00:44:07.540 but that after she'd lost 96 pounds she'd become suicidal it had taken five psychiatric
00:44:13.420 hospitalizations and three courses of electroshock to control her suicidality
00:44:17.460 the lady points out that obesity which is considered a major public health problem 0.99
00:44:22.080 may in fact be a personal solution for many oh my god dude this was my like i'm the fucking 0.97
00:44:28.860 joker moment with this book. This is sort of a common trope that obesity is like a trauma response 0.95
00:44:35.780 to sexual abuse. And for some people it is, right? That is the experience of some people.
00:44:40.860 However, saying most of their obese patients had been sexually abused as children, insane. 0.93
00:44:46.360 Right. The idea that it's sort of like you are obese, therefore this must be a trauma response 0.57
00:44:51.860 of some kind. You're reacting to something. And if you did not have this trauma, you would be
00:44:56.080 normal size. And this gets to a huge problem with this book. He attributes to trauma things that
00:45:02.360 have much more proximate causes. Anyone who loses 300 pounds on a fucking diet, 99.9% of those 0.98
00:45:09.020 people are going to gain some of the weight back, most of the weight back, right? The overwhelming 0.99
00:45:13.560 experience of people who lose huge amounts of weight is that they gain it back. That is very
00:45:18.180 common. That doesn't mean that they have trauma or that they haven't dealt with their trauma or
00:45:22.920 that something is fucked up with them mentally, that is a biological response to not having enough 0.85
00:45:28.080 food, right? Your body is screaming at you to put the weight back on. And like, he can hide behind 0.98
00:45:34.060 like, oh, well, I'm not saying most fat people in general were sexually abused. I'm just saying 0.83
00:45:38.840 this one clinic, right? Oh, he founded this one clinic. At no point does Bessel van der Kolk say
00:45:43.800 like, oh, well, we've actually done follow-up studies. And it turns out that like at the
00:45:46.440 population level, that's not true. There's also other drivers. He just fucking leaves this there
00:45:50.800 and then gives the explanation of, ah, it may in fact be a personal solution for many. 0.98
00:45:56.580 Numerous times throughout the book, he attributes things like autoimmune disorders,
00:46:00.880 various, like at one point a woman cures her asthma by curing her trauma.
00:46:05.040 It seems like he's taking this idea that like trauma can manifest in these physiological symptoms
00:46:10.860 and starting to invert it. So he sees a physiological problem and he's like, that must be trauma.
00:46:17.000 Peter, I have led you perfectly to what really bugs me about the book and what I want to
00:46:21.240 get into.
00:46:21.800 I think I found my way there myself.
00:46:25.780 This is what, again, is so interesting to me about like what people have taken away
00:46:29.180 from the book versus what the book actually says.
00:46:31.340 What people have taken away is like, yeah, trauma has physical effects.
00:46:34.320 Trauma is stored in the body.
00:46:35.400 Yeah.
00:46:35.660 Again, I find that lovely and true and accurate.
00:46:38.400 And I think it's great that there's a much broader understanding of that.
00:46:40.720 However, the actual book itself says over and over again that trauma is only stored
00:46:46.340 in the body.
00:46:47.000 And the only way to deal with trauma is to do physiological interventions like take care
00:46:53.060 of a horse, do yoga, get a massage.
00:46:55.840 It is a mistake to work on it in a logical way.
00:46:58.560 You should be working on it in these instinctual ways.
00:47:01.080 Do we get to that point where he's sort of like talk therapy is not the correct starting
00:47:06.080 point for most people?
00:47:07.120 Yes.
00:47:07.320 The next two chapters of the book are dedicated to the idea that the standard medical model
00:47:12.340 cannot address trauma because it doesn't get to the root causes of people's symptoms.
00:47:17.740 This is why he hates talk therapy, and this is why he hates medications.
00:47:21.340 I want one doctor to be like, you know, every now and then,
00:47:24.300 pop a lorazepam and have half a glass of wine.
00:47:26.800 You will feel unreal.
00:47:29.180 So here's this.
00:47:30.860 Because drugs have become so profitable,
00:47:33.040 major medical journals rarely publish studies on non-drug treatments of mental health problems.
00:47:37.860 practitioners who explore treatments are typically marginalized as alternative studies of non-drug
00:47:44.880 treatments are rarely funded unless they involve so-called manualized protocols where patients and
00:47:50.620 therapists go through narrowly prescribed sequences that allow little fine-tuning to
00:47:55.740 individual patients needs mainstream medicine is firmly committed to a better life through chemistry
00:48:01.480 and the fact that we can actually change our own physiology and inner equilibrium
00:48:05.760 by other means than drugs is rarely considered.
00:48:09.560 Nobody wants to look into non-drug treatments for mental health conditions.
00:48:12.960 This sounds like RFK and sometimes my mother. 0.90
00:48:16.400 This is very Maha-coded, especially this thing that because drugs are profitable, 0.97
00:48:21.920 they never look into anything else. 0.76
00:48:23.460 Not true, but whatever.
00:48:24.480 Bessel van der Kolk hosts seminars where he charges $1,200 a person. 0.98
00:48:28.360 People who give yoga and massages and fucking equine therapy also charge money. 0.98
00:48:32.420 Also profitable. 1.00
00:48:33.200 like selling bullshit ass supplements is profitable wellness retreats cost like tens 0.99
00:48:37.160 of thousands of dollars sometimes there's sort of like this underlying grain of truth here uh 0.99
00:48:41.700 which is how this stuff always works that like yes there is uh money in pharmaceuticals which
00:48:47.360 means you get a ton of research about the efficacy of pharmaceuticals uh and it's probably
00:48:51.540 disproportionate but yeah the way this always gets used is like you'll find like someone who's like
00:48:58.740 eating horse hair. You're like, that doesn't work, man. You can't eat horse hair to make
00:49:03.620 yourself taller. There's never been research showing that. And they're like, that's because
00:49:07.080 they won't fund it, dude. And also he mentions here, therapists have to go through narrowly
00:49:11.240 prescribed sequences that allow little fine tuning to individual patients' needs. That's
00:49:15.860 called a study. That's called a randomized controlled trial where you test something
00:49:19.140 against a placebo to see if it actually has an effect. You can't just say like, oh, you can't
00:49:23.220 test these medicines. This is something you always fucking hear from these people. It's like, 0.99
00:49:26.800 Oh, alternative medicines.
00:49:27.900 You can't even really test them.
00:49:29.400 Why? 0.99
00:49:30.360 You can fucking test them against other things. 0.98
00:49:32.260 Peter, I want you right now to go to Google Scholar and type into the search bar yoga 0.99
00:49:38.980 depression.
00:49:39.600 This is interesting because almost all of our listeners have yoga depression.
00:49:43.960 I'm getting a mere 339,000 results. 0.69
00:49:49.780 Of course, this is not all going to be studies and RCTs and shit, but 339,000 results. 0.51
00:49:54.880 Yeah. Yoga for depression, a systematic review and meta-analysis, yoga for depression, 0.84
00:49:59.500 the research evidence. There's a ton. All the top ones are like meta-analyses.
00:50:03.920 The entire medical system is not just like, let's do drugs forever. A lot of people just like he is
00:50:10.040 are pretty uncomfortable with the amount of drugs that the American population is taking, right?
00:50:13.560 Your doctor will oftentimes have you go through a number of non-drug treatments before he will
00:50:17.820 give you a drug, right? It's not like every single person who goes for any kind of mental illness
00:50:22.080 just like gets fucking drugs on the way out. 0.99
00:50:24.240 It took me like three months 0.99
00:50:25.460 to get diagnosed with ADHD
00:50:26.420 before they gave me anything.
00:50:27.960 And what'd you get?
00:50:28.900 Anything good? 1.00
00:50:29.400 Well, they gave me a bunch of bullshit 0.99
00:50:30.300 and nothing worked. 1.00
00:50:31.260 I'm still like this, Peter.
00:50:32.460 I have to still like this.
00:50:33.400 We're just two unmedicated ADHDers on a podcast.
00:50:36.860 They were like,
00:50:37.320 is it affecting your functioning at all?
00:50:38.900 And I was like,
00:50:39.200 I actually need it to function.
00:50:40.480 I actually need to be a wired little weirdo.
00:50:43.520 I'm actually seeing things so clearly.
00:50:45.240 Please don't give me medicine.
00:50:46.420 I actually need to be upsetting as a person
00:50:48.160 to keep my job.
00:50:49.280 So don't medicate me.
00:50:50.420 I actually need to work in waves of productivity and complete collapse.
00:50:56.360 So this issue of not addressing the root causes is his reason why medications don't work.
00:51:01.080 It's also his reason why therapy doesn't work.
00:51:03.920 Nice.
00:51:04.180 He talks about this throughout the book that like talking won't get at it.
00:51:07.380 Talking won't touch the amygdala.
00:51:08.920 Talking doesn't do it.
00:51:09.840 He always wants to push you to these body-based things either as a replacement for talk therapy or as a prerequisite for talk therapy.
00:51:17.180 Right.
00:51:17.320 So here is another place where he talks about that.
00:51:19.940 I think this is like a good articulation of it.
00:51:21.980 Steve Gross used to run the play program at the trauma center.
00:51:25.400 Steve often walked around the clinic with a brightly colored beach ball,
00:51:28.480 and when he saw angry or frozen kids in the waiting room, he would flash them a big smile.
00:51:33.800 The kids rarely responded.
00:51:35.580 Then, a little later, he would return and, quote,
00:51:38.560 accidentally drop his ball close to where a kid was sitting.
00:51:41.680 As Steve leaned over to pick it up, he'd nudge it gently toward the kid,
00:51:45.380 who would usually give a half-hearted push in return.
00:51:48.300 Gradually, Steve got a back and forth going, and before long he'd see smiles on both faces.
00:51:54.780 From simple, rhythmically attuned movements, Steve had created a small, safe place where the social engagement system could begin to reemerge.
00:52:03.520 In the same way, severely traumatized people may get more out of simply helping to arrange chairs before a meeting
00:52:08.960 or joining others in tapping out a musical rhythm on the chair seats than they would from sitting in those same chairs and discussing the failures in their life.
00:52:16.900 discussing the failures in your life is a wild way to describe therapy discussing the failures
00:52:21.260 now he's just talking about like victims of abuse there are sections in the book where he says like
00:52:25.500 talking about a trauma is really important for people but he does it in the way that barry weiss
00:52:30.980 says like i'm a liberal this sort of like talk therapy works but like it's always followed by a
00:52:36.400 but or a however and also keep in mind right he told the story of that rape victim who like
00:52:41.140 she did massages and like it was amazing how much better she felt right the other rape victims like
00:52:46.220 oh, she took care of horses and I started high school graduation. She did like the most important 0.95
00:52:49.540 thing for me was taking care of the horse. This immediate permanent turnaround due to these kind
00:52:54.420 of like body-based non-talk therapy interventions. This book contains probably 50 case studies,
00:52:59.420 like little vignettes of various like victims of trauma. There's not a single person in this
00:53:03.680 entire book that benefits from talk therapy. He infers from this little story about like
00:53:10.660 getting a kid to play with a ball that someone who's severely traumatized might get more
00:53:17.140 out of helping to arrange chairs and talk therapy. I don't, I understand the beach ball
00:53:22.780 story and what, and like the mechanism he's talking about broadly, but I don't understand
00:53:27.200 how he's like, similarly, arranging chairs is better than talk therapy sometimes. I don't get
00:53:33.000 it. Well, luckily, luckily, Peter, he spends the entire second half of the book articulating this
00:53:38.940 exact concept why it helps to do body stuff rather than talking stuff okay but before we talk about
00:53:45.720 his prescription to treat all of this bodily trauma we have to go on a little interlude
00:53:52.340 mostly because this book goes on an interlude so peter are you aware of the recovered memories
00:53:59.560 panic recovered memories panic no this started in the 1980s hold on i'm gonna guess oh yeah
00:54:08.200 go go do it let's do this for like 30 minutes just speculate go i feel like this sounds familiar so
00:54:14.900 i'm sort of picking at something but the idea that um due to trauma memories get buried yes
00:54:22.620 and then you can sort of do certain things to trigger those memories to resurface this is one
00:54:28.660 of the most embarrassing episodes in the history of modern psychology and that's saying something
00:54:34.620 folks fake science but so the entire thing started essentially in the 70s and 80s when
00:54:40.780 yeah there started to be data about the way that trauma was affecting various health systems in
00:54:45.740 your body all of the stuff that we've already talked about but people would go to their
00:54:49.880 therapists and say oh i have insomnia i'm having panic attacks i'm having these symptoms but i
00:54:55.440 don't have any trauma like i had a happy childhood right a lot of therapists took this idea way too
00:55:00.780 far. And the therapists were then like, oh, well, what if you have trauma, but you don't remember
00:55:05.600 it? You've blocked it out. And so oftentimes they were using hypnosis or other techniques to kind
00:55:10.460 of soften people up a little bit. And then they would eventually get them to, quote, remember
00:55:15.520 abuse that they had suffered. So the starting pistol for this entire panic was the 1980 book
00:55:23.000 Michelle Remembers, which me and Sarah did a whole series on, where this woman under hypnosis,
00:55:29.140 quote recovers memories of like years long satanic rituals where there's like hundreds of people in 0.50
00:55:37.200 a basement in victoria bc in like a suburban neighborhood people are cutting off their
00:55:43.840 fingers as part of the ritual they're murdering like 10 to 20 white kittens like every night that
00:55:50.260 they're doing this things that if it was happening like you would notice you'd be like right why are
00:55:54.120 we delivering 300 white kittens to Victoria, BC every week? But this was, I mean, this was a
00:55:59.120 really popular kind of understanding of memory, right? So, you know, of course it's promoted on
00:56:03.600 Oprah. It's on Donahue. There's a million like TV shows about it. There's lots of other kind of
00:56:07.660 popular books and self-help books, essentially saying like, if you think you had a happy
00:56:11.740 childhood, there's a chance that you were like systematically abused for years and you don't
00:56:15.580 remember it. So for this, I spoke to Richard McNally, who is a Harvard researcher and the
00:56:21.760 author of Remembering Trauma, which is one of the definitive books that debunks this trend.
00:56:27.260 The other one is by Elizabeth Loftus. According to him and in his book, Bessel van der Kolk was
00:56:32.900 a major promoter of this theory. Okay, now we're cooking. So starting in the 1980s, he starts doing
00:56:38.280 these studies that show that memory is stored kind of in this fragmentary way and that people
00:56:44.820 oftentimes don't really know that they're storing it. And then in 1994, he publishes an article
00:56:50.400 laying out this entire like repressed memory theory the paper is called drum roll peter
00:56:56.980 the body keeps the score so the original proposal of this concept was about repressed memories and
00:57:05.360 it predates the disturbed song he lays out in this paper and various other things that he writes
00:57:10.560 during the 1990s his core thesis that trauma is not stored the way that other memories are stored
00:57:17.580 So in this paper, he says, trauma interferes with declarative memory, i.e. conscious recall of experience, but does not inhibit implicit or non-declarative memory.
00:57:28.320 So that's essentially the thesis of like the first half of the book, right?
00:57:30.700 That your memories of trauma are being encoded in your body and they can't be accessed like other memories, right?
00:57:37.180 That you're getting these like fragmentary glimpses, you're getting pieces of a story, but you're not encoding like first this happened, then this happened, then this happened.
00:57:46.520 To his credit, Bessel van der Kolk is not like a satanic panic guy.
00:57:50.080 I read one of his papers from 1998 where he like explicitly decries the satanic stuff.
00:57:55.220 He's like, well, some of that stuff is implausible.
00:57:56.960 But he's very focused on this idea that traumatic memories are not the same as ordinary memories.
00:58:03.720 And so in this book, The Body Keeps the Score, chapter 11 and chapter 12 are basically recapitulations of this theory.
00:58:11.780 So I'm going to send you this.
00:58:14.020 When people remember an ordinary event, they do not also relive the physical sensations, emotions, images, smells, or sounds associated with that event.
00:58:23.260 In contrast, when people fully recall their traumas, they have the experience.
00:58:28.740 They are engulfed by the sensory or emotional elements of the past.
00:58:32.380 The brain scans of Stan and Ut Lawrence, the accident victims in Chapter 4, show how this happens.
00:58:38.320 When Stan was remembering his horrendous accident, two key areas in his brain went blank.
00:58:43.600 the area that provides a sense of time and perspective which makes it possible to know
00:58:47.840 that quote that was then but i am safe now and another area that integrates the images sounds
00:58:53.680 and sensations of trauma into a coherent story when those parts of the brain are knocked out
00:58:58.160 you experience something not as an event with a beginning a middle and an end but in fragments
00:59:02.660 of sensations images and emotions so this is why these bodily based treatments are so important is
00:59:08.540 because it's embedded in you as these like fragments and you have to put them together
00:59:12.680 and you can only do that by accessing these like kind of lower order ancient reptile systems
00:59:18.660 basically here what do you think about that about the excerpt i don't know what am i a 0.60
00:59:23.280 brain scientist that's a fucking old show peter i mean just say a joke so i can move on that was 0.82
00:59:30.200 my joke let me all right let me fake it for the show oh i think he's missing something 0.98
00:59:34.180 he doesn't it doesn't seem like he's accounting accounting for some cortex or another uh he
00:59:41.580 essentially re-litigates the memory wars throughout the course of this book. So here is him talking
00:59:48.380 about the fact that repressed memories are proven science. This issue is not particularly
00:59:54.360 controversial. As early as 1980, the DSM-III recognized the existence of memory loss for
00:59:59.540 traumatic events in the diagnostic criteria for dissociative amnesia, an inability to recall
01:00:04.500 important personal information, usually of a traumatic or stressful nature, that is too
01:00:08.460 extensive to be explained by normal forgetfulness. Memory loss has been part of the criteria for PTSD
01:00:13.320 since that diagnosis was first introduced. There have in fact been hundreds of scientific
01:00:18.040 publications spanning well over a century documenting how the memory of trauma can be
01:00:21.920 repressed only to resurface years or decades later. Memory loss has been reported in people
01:00:28.600 who have experienced natural disasters, accidents, war trauma, kidnapping, torture, concentration
01:00:33.720 camps and physical and sexual abuse. Total memory loss is most common in childhood sexual abuse
01:00:40.220 with incidents ranging from 19% to 38%. As early as 1980 thing kind of stood out to me as
01:00:49.180 maybe he's cherry picking a time when this actually was more, when the scientific consensus
01:00:54.300 was on his side and now it's not, now it's shifted away. Is that what's happening?
01:00:59.020 There is still dissociative amnesia in the DSM, like that continues to be there.
01:01:04.020 However, it's like really controversial and a lot of people think that it shouldn't be
01:01:07.040 in there.
01:01:07.520 And it also has really strict criteria.
01:01:11.340 It says that it's amnesia that is defined over and above ordinary forgetting.
01:01:17.420 And that is really the distinction that he refuses to draw and is the important distinction
01:01:21.720 here.
01:01:22.280 That because you forget something doesn't mean that you repressed it.
01:01:25.900 Like, you know, your sibling or something would be like, remember that camping trip we went on when we were kids? 0.97
01:01:29.740 And you're like, oh, shit, we did go on a camping trip. 0.98
01:01:31.800 I even repressed the memory of a camping trip. 0.99
01:01:34.180 I forgot about it.
01:01:35.200 You forget most things that happened in your childhood.
01:01:37.880 So the fact that there is memory loss in PTSD is not the same as saying that people are repressing the memory of their traumas.
01:01:45.360 I always thought that I went to Maine when I was young.
01:01:47.900 And then when I went to Portland a few years back, which I've talked about on the show.
01:01:53.060 Numerous times at this point.
01:01:54.160 Because slurs hit me.
01:01:55.900 But when I was going, I went to my mom and I was like, hey, we're going to Maine.
01:01:59.200 Remember when we went to Maine when we were kids?
01:02:00.840 And she was like, we never went to Maine.
01:02:02.200 Oh, really?
01:02:02.560 You totally fabricated it?
01:02:03.500 I was like, no.
01:02:04.120 Remember the paddle boats?
01:02:05.000 She was like, that was the Poconos. 0.99
01:02:05.980 I would have never driven your whiny ass to Maine at that age. 0.99
01:02:09.420 Dude, I had a super vivid memory of going up the Chrysler building my first trip to New York on my own, like as an adult traveling by myself. 0.99
01:02:17.260 So indelible that I took a friend there last time I was in New York.
01:02:20.560 And like I didn't even check the website first.
01:02:22.200 I was like, well, obviously I remember doing this.
01:02:23.540 We show up.
01:02:24.460 there's like the security guard guy and he's like we don't have a viewing platform we closed it in
01:02:29.200 world war ii and i was so sure of my memory that i was like how long have you worked here i was like 0.88
01:02:34.720 gaslighting the guy that fucking worked there because i was like 100 sure that i'd gone up 0.75
01:02:39.320 the chrysler building no but yeah that's the thing memory is very malleable right but i really want 0.99
01:02:43.780 to zoom in on this claim he says total memory loss is most common in child sexual abuse with
01:02:48.800 incidents ranging from 19% to 38%. 40% of people repressing the memory of their child abuse
01:02:56.100 is a fucking lot. So I'm like, okay, what is this 38% figure? This is based on a study where 0.97
01:03:04.540 basically they have a bunch of hospital records from 1973 to 1975 where people were brought in,
01:03:11.160 children were brought in with signs of sexual abuse. So they reported to the hospital with
01:03:15.860 like physical symptoms of child sexual abuse. So we have these patient records. We know the
01:03:20.540 names of the patients. 20 years later, a researcher contacts around 150 of these people who we know
01:03:27.260 were admitted to the hospital for child sexual abuse and says, hey, we're doing a study on people
01:03:31.740 who went to this hospital at this time. They don't mention anything about sexual abuse.
01:03:35.400 Like, can we interview you? Kind of like almost like a customer satisfaction thing. Like,
01:03:38.640 can we interview you about your experience at this hospital? And what she finds is that of those
01:03:43.320 people who were admitted to the hospital for sexual assault as children 38 of them did not
01:03:48.780 mention the sexual abuse okay oh yeah i went there because of the sexual abuse yeah to a stranger
01:03:56.440 who shows up at my home right okay so the researcher who does the study says for some women
01:04:01.080 having no recall of the abuse is based on more than just ordinary forgetting associated with
01:04:06.280 the passage of time so she's immediately going from like they forgot about this to like something
01:04:11.180 else is happening, right? The memories are being deliberately repressed. So this study is so bad
01:04:16.780 that there's like an entire study debunking it. It's called Forgetting Sexual Trauma, What Does
01:04:21.780 It Mean When 38% Forget? This is by Elizabeth Loftus, who's one of the people who sort of
01:04:26.220 litigated the memory wars on the this is fake side of the debate. So the most important thing
01:04:30.660 that she says about this is that this is not a study of repressed memories. This is a study of
01:04:35.760 forgetting right right and there that's a really really really important distinction
01:04:39.280 so here is the paper for full appreciation of the drama of forgetting it must be kept in mind
01:04:46.420 that people can forget all kinds of things that might at first thought seem surprising for example
01:04:51.180 people over one quarter of those interviewed have failed to recall automobile accidents nine to 12
01:04:56.560 months after their occurrence although someone else in the car had been injured people over 20
01:05:01.640 who, when they were four years old, had a family member die, have failed to recall a single detail
01:05:08.360 about the death. People over 15% have failed to recall a hospitalization approximately nine months
01:05:13.780 after discharge. Patients have failed to recall visits to a doctor that they made within the
01:05:18.340 previous year for something that was serious or even very serious. So it's actually kind of
01:05:22.840 shocking how much we forget. You'd think that something really traumatic, you would absolutely
01:05:25.880 encode it in your memory, but like kind of big things can happen to you and you can forget about
01:05:29.700 them relatively quickly yeah i mean one of the most important things about getting in a car
01:05:33.820 accident is just moving on just don't think about what happened and what you did wrong or who else
01:05:38.840 you injured in the car get a massage do some yoga you're fine clear your mind you know the other 0.99
01:05:44.260 reason this study is a little bit sketchy is because i hate talking about this shit but the 0.99
01:05:48.780 abuse took place when the participants were between zero and 18 years old okay some of the 0.97
01:05:54.520 people were abused when they were like one year old right and then they don't remember because
01:05:58.120 You don't remember anything that happened to you at that age.
01:06:00.020 Yeah.
01:06:00.240 The biggest issue, of course, is that like it might just be that they're not telling
01:06:03.400 a random person like, oh, yeah, there's the time I was sexually assaulted by my uncle.
01:06:07.940 Like, let's talk about this within five minutes of meeting a stranger.
01:06:11.200 Right.
01:06:11.580 Right.
01:06:12.060 This is like a much more plausible explanation for this finding.
01:06:14.800 But in the study, they say the same people who didn't remember this admission to the
01:06:19.920 hospital, they did remember other child sexual abuse.
01:06:24.440 But then it's like, well, wait a minute.
01:06:26.080 They do remember the child sexual abuse.
01:06:27.920 They just don't remember this specific hospitalization.
01:06:31.480 Yeah.
01:06:31.800 I was going to say I have memories of being in medical facilities when I was young and for nothing serious, just for like checkups.
01:06:41.340 Like I was on a medication when I was young and I would somewhat frequently go to doctors just to make sure that there were no adverse reactions.
01:06:50.580 And I have like vague memories of that, but I couldn't possibly tell you where I was.
01:06:55.140 Or like dates and months of when you were admitted?
01:06:57.340 No, of course not.
01:06:57.560 absolutely not. I can tell you that this, it happened anytime between the age of five and
01:07:01.600 11. I have like, and if you told me I was wrong about that, I'd be like, well, that was a good 0.83
01:07:05.700 shot. And again, referring to Vanderkoek, total memory loss is most common in child sexual abuse
01:07:10.980 with incidents ranging from 19% to 38%. This is not total memory loss. They remember that they
01:07:16.040 were abused. Right. They just don't remember a specific event. These poor fucking kids might
01:07:20.180 have been admitted to the hospital numerous times. Yeah. Yeah. Like if you have an abusive 1.00
01:07:23.420 parent or family member getting admitted to the hospital might've been something that happened 1.00
01:07:27.260 once a fucking year. So like, you're not going to remember any single hospitalization. That's 0.97
01:07:31.320 totally plausible. So it's just a total misrepresentation of the study. He also has
01:07:36.780 never really admitted that the repressed memories panic was false. Like at no point in this book
01:07:42.720 does he say like, oh, some psychologists took it like a little too far. Like there were some
01:07:46.260 implausible claims of satanic panic abuse. He never gives any context for this. All he says
01:07:51.680 is like, it's not controversial to say that memories can be repressed. A, it is very controversial. B,
01:07:56.220 you should at least give some overview of like, yeah, this is considered in the field to be a 0.98
01:08:00.940 huge fucking scandal. Right. So for this, I also read a book called Trauma, a Genealogy by Ruth 0.97
01:08:06.460 Lays. She quotes him as saying, the quote, false memory movement claims that thousands of
01:08:12.060 unsuspecting white middle-class women go to therapists who implant false memories of abuse
01:08:15.680 in their minds. However, current research shows that there is no evidence that traumatic memories 0.91
01:08:20.760 can be simply implanted in people's minds. But there's tons of evidence that false memories
01:08:25.060 can be implanted right how else you explain the satanic panic those are traumatic memories being
01:08:28.720 planted by satan this has now been done like a million times there's studies where they're like
01:08:33.380 do you remember that ear infection that you had when you were a kid you had to be hospitalized
01:08:36.160 overnight 10 of people say yes there's one where 10 of kids remember getting a rectal enema
01:08:42.080 in a doctor's office like again you'd think that you would know whether or not that happened to
01:08:46.120 you but people are falsely remembering this it's actually shockingly and like disturbingly easy to
01:08:50.960 implant memories in people. Your brain just like takes little bits of memories and then like
01:08:56.020 fills out the remainder with information that may or may not be accurate. That's why I thought I
01:09:01.420 was in Maine when I was in central Pennsylvania. What's so frustrating is that he has this idea
01:09:07.340 that traumatic memories are completely different from ordinary memories, but there's tons of
01:09:11.220 evidence at this point that that's not true. So this is from Ruth Lay's book. Contrary to
01:09:17.080 van der Kolk's theory, trauma does not block the formation of narrative memory. Memory for trauma
01:09:21.800 can be expressed as physiologic reactivity to traumatic reminders, but that does not preclude
01:09:27.540 its being expressed in narrative as well. As Lawrence Langer has thoroughly documented,
01:09:32.880 survivors of the Nazi Holocaust readily provide detailed narrative accounts of their horrific
01:09:37.260 experiences. So like it just isn't true that you're encoding traumatic memories in these glimpses and
01:09:42.800 it has to be unlocked by your body. Like people who've experienced insanely bad shit can put it 0.97
01:09:48.260 into narrative. This entire theory that like you can't possibly access memories of trauma because 0.98
01:09:54.000 they're not stored narratively is just false. And as for sort of repression in general,
01:10:00.080 the therapist that I talked to said that when you speak to people who are struggling with PTSD,
01:10:04.300 the issue isn't forgetting. The issue is intrusive remembering. A lot of people want to forget the
01:10:09.460 traumas that happened to them but it like pops out right you get these flashbacks or you like hear a
01:10:13.580 sound or you have a conversation or something and then all of a sudden you're remembering it when
01:10:16.400 you don't want to i don't know if you're gonna include this in your book then surely you'd have
01:10:20.520 to go through this narrative of like in the 80s we thought this and then it seems like maybe not
01:10:26.700 but here are the aspects of it that i still think are true based on the evidence right instead he's
01:10:31.620 just like look it's not controversial it's not controversial right he's just like yeah this is
01:10:36.580 just a fact so that was our uh repressed memory interlude we are now going to get back to the book
01:10:42.240 the second half of the book is about how to treat trauma okay so every chapter is about one of these
01:10:49.000 sort of woo-woo treatments and they all involve somebody miraculously getting better so he brings
01:10:55.840 back bill the vietnam veteran that he told us about in the intro to the book bill recovers
01:11:01.560 through becoming a yoga instructor. He also introduces us to a five-year-old girl who was
01:11:08.860 rescued from an orphanage in China, and she's mute. She cannot speak. And then she starts doing
01:11:14.800 sensory motor therapy. He says, the staff bathed her in the tub with plastic balls that helped her
01:11:21.580 feel sensations on her skin. They helped her sway on swings and crawl under weighted blankets.
01:11:26.160 after six weeks something shifted and she started to talk what he tells us about a woman who has 0.76
01:11:32.380 asthma so bad that she's like constantly going to the er put her in the ball pit put her in the
01:11:36.980 ball pit he says her therapy focused on identifying the link between her physical sensations and her
01:11:42.300 emotions and i also encourage her to enroll in a kickboxing program she had no emergency room
01:11:47.380 visits during the three years she was my patient this almost feels like like anti-intellectual 0.98
01:11:52.640 where someone's like, I have this severe trauma, and you're like, get a fucking hobby. 0.99
01:11:58.040 Just get a hobby, dude. 0.98
01:11:59.460 Haven't you tried volunteering?
01:12:01.780 How about this?
01:12:02.700 Get a job.
01:12:03.680 So we're going to dive a little bit more into this one because he has a whole chapter about
01:12:07.460 it.
01:12:07.900 Are you familiar with neurofeedback, Peter?
01:12:11.220 Neurofeedback?
01:12:11.700 No, that sounds like it's part of like a supplement ad or something.
01:12:15.420 So it's basically the thing where they attach a bunch of electrodes on your head, and then
01:12:19.640 in real time, they can see your like little brainwaves. And then oftentimes it will be linked
01:12:24.360 to like a sound. So if your brainwaves get too big, it'll be like beep. And so they're training
01:12:29.180 you to like talk about your trauma or go through therapy without getting the beeps.
01:12:32.820 Yeah. You're, you're managing, you're managing your brainwaves.
01:12:35.520 Exactly. So then he has this anecdote, Peter.
01:12:39.800 The first patient I treated with neurofeedback was a professional man in his early fifties who
01:12:44.160 defined himself as heterosexual but he compulsively sought homosexual contact with strangers whenever
01:12:50.520 he felt abandoned and misunderstood his marriage had broken up around this issue and he had become
01:12:57.300 hiv positive he was desperate to gain control over his behavior during a during i like how it's 0.89
01:13:05.700 treating gay horniness like it's a disease of some kind you gotta cure it he's overwhelmed by gay 0.99
01:13:11.520 horny. But brainwaves can fix it. What about his brainwaves? During a previous therapy, he had 1.00
01:13:16.200 talked extensively about his sexual abuse by an uncle at around the age of eight. We assumed that
01:13:21.000 his compulsion was related to that abuse, but making that connection had made no difference
01:13:25.740 in his behavior. After more than a year of regular psychotherapy with a competent therapist,
01:13:30.360 nothing had changed. A week after I started to train his brain to produce slower waves in his
01:13:35.060 right temporal lobe, he had a distressing argument with a new girlfriend and instead of going to his
01:13:39.800 habitual cruising spot to find sex he decided to go fishing triumph it's a triumph even gayer dude
01:13:46.020 i attributed that response to chance however over the next 10 weeks in the midst of his
01:13:51.960 tumultuous relationship he continued to find solace in fishing and began to renovate a lakeside cabin
01:13:57.760 i like how he's doing the straightest things imaginable it's like i'm not gay he's going
01:14:00.780 full broke back dude one one hot cowboy shows up and this experiment is over he's like ripping the 0.99
01:14:07.460 electrodes off of his head he's like fuck it when we skipped three weeks of neurofeedback because of 0.99
01:14:13.360 our vacation schedules his compulsion suddenly returned suggesting that his brain had not yet 0.99
01:14:17.600 stabilized its new pattern its new straight pattern it's new straight we trained for six
01:14:22.800 more months and now four years later i see him about every six months for a checkup he has felt
01:14:28.260 no further impulse to engage in his dangerous sexual activity
01:14:31.800 how did his brain come to derive comfort from fishing rather than from compulsive sexual
01:14:39.720 behavior at this point we simply don't know neurofeedback changes brain connectivity patterns
01:14:45.900 the mind follows by creating new patterns of engagement how i learned to stop being gay 0.96
01:14:52.520 through electrodes we fixed him folks this is fucking hilarious i he's like i have found the 0.96
01:14:59.040 cure for homosexuality we're not going to discuss like maybe there's something more complicated 0.99
01:15:03.740 going on with this guy just a triumph fishing over rest stops i can take your gay horniness and 0.99
01:15:08.480 turn it into the straightest shit in the world dude i can make a catch of the day out of it 1.00
01:15:13.800 this man is a lumberjack now it's not like homophobic or whatever but it's just the fucking 0.99
01:15:17.820 weird framing of the story it might be homophobic like it's a good thing that he's no longer like 0.98
01:15:23.240 attracted to men i guess it's just fucking weird you know what talk therapy could have gotten talk 0.97
01:15:27.820 therapy the therapist could have been like are you gay yeah and he would have been like no and 0.97
01:15:32.400 the therapist would have been like actually let's stay with this so i mean obviously i had you read 0.97
01:15:36.980 this because it's fucking berserk but then also the thing that really stuck out to me is after
01:15:41.200 more than a year of regular psychotherapy with a competent therapist nothing had changed a week 0.99
01:15:46.000 after i started to train his brain it's like a year of therapy nothing a week of fucking head 0.99
01:15:51.800 points right this guy's cured of his homosexuality it's like this is such a fucking insane claim to 0.99
01:15:57.660 make i do feel like if this shit worked this well we would all know about it i know dude if you can 0.99
01:16:04.000 cure being gay using the power of nodes then god knows what else you can do if you can prevent if 0.99
01:16:09.900 you can just cause the horniest man on earth to go fishing if you can overcome the power of horny 0.91
01:16:15.540 this is like the greatest scientific miracle in history so i did look into neurofeedback he has a
01:16:21.680 whole chapter about how well it works. He has numerous other stories of people like turning
01:16:25.100 around their entire lives after one session. Again, this isn't like shocking you with electricity or
01:16:30.180 anything. It's just reading your brainwaves. So like you kind of have to train yourself to do it.
01:16:33.920 But anyway, he has all these anecdotes. I finally looked into it. Essentially,
01:16:36.760 there's a bunch of studies showing that it works. But as soon as you test it against a placebo,
01:16:41.020 the effect goes away. It's essentially like there's a guy in a lab coat and he's putting
01:16:45.260 all these electrodes on you and you're talking through your trauma. Some of the studies are
01:16:49.980 like we did this with people one hour a day for like 28 days and then they had an effect it's like
01:16:55.060 well yeah if you're in therapy for 28 fucking days in a row you'd also probably have an effect right 0.98
01:16:58.820 damn this guy this guy just got placeboed into fishing instead of nightly orgies this guy's 0.99
01:17:05.760 listening to this episode like what am i fishing for it wasn't even real he's got his airpods in 1.00
01:17:10.440 on just floating and in solitude in a boat in the middle of a lake listening to if books could kill 0.99
01:17:16.060 another sign that you're gay. I don't want to stack the deck. He has this chapter on 1.00
01:17:20.220 neurofeedback, which is quite bad. But a lot of the second half of the book is just these kind
01:17:25.280 of woo-woo treatments, some of which are actually fine. Like he has a whole chapter on yoga,
01:17:29.580 which has been shown to be effective in like a wide range of mental health conditions. Like it
01:17:33.800 appears to be very effective for depression. That's how you, if you really want to cure the
01:17:37.720 gay. Go to a West Hollywood yoga studio. He also has a whole chapter on MDMA. I talked to a 1.00
01:17:43.920 researcher who said that it's actually fairly promising and people in the field are pretty
01:17:47.340 excited about mdma as a treatment for ptsd yeah that's something that's kind of like evidence
01:17:51.380 based but then he also he talks a lot about acupuncture and acupressure he he has a whole
01:17:57.280 chapter about uh community theater there's like some program where foster kids perform and prepare 0.97
01:18:05.340 a musical like they write a musical and they perform it there's a fucking buck wild program
01:18:10.120 in Massachusetts, where you can get court ordered Shakespeare. So instead of going to juvenile 0.97
01:18:16.540 detention, the judge can sentence you to putting on a Shakespeare play, which I'm like, this is 0.96
01:18:22.880 obviously bullshit, but also it's so much better than sending kids a juvie that I'm like, yeah, 0.96
01:18:25.840 fine. Like expand it, make it like make it nationwide. I don't give a shit. No, this is 0.98
01:18:30.680 too woke. This is like a 90s movie about like turning some kids around and like, hey, Hamlet's
01:18:39.280 actually really cool and rapping is just like poetry yeah yeah shakespeare was the first mc
01:18:45.740 so those things are sort of harmless he but but also i mean i looked up like rct for community
01:18:53.960 theater interventions and like there's no studies of this i don't dispute that like i'm sure some
01:18:58.480 people get something out of this like being a kid and like writing a play performing shakespeare is
01:19:02.360 probably good for your self-esteem you make some friends i mean it's not like any other like kind
01:19:05.740 of summer camp experience it's probably great for the kids i don't think it's a treatment for 0.97
01:19:09.140 fucking ptsd like you you need to have rigorous studies before you're going to put them in your 0.81
01:19:13.600 book but some of the stuff that he promotes is like really out there so here's this one of my 0.99
01:19:18.500 favorite body-oriented ways to build effective fight flight responses is our local impact center's
01:19:24.000 model mugging program model mugging in which women and increasingly men are taught to actively fight 0.99
01:19:30.000 off a simulated attack the program started in oakland california in 1971 after a woman with
01:19:36.040 the fifth degree black belt in karate was raped.
01:19:39.460 Wondering how this could have happened to someone 0.99
01:19:41.640 who supposedly could kill with her bare hands,
01:19:44.060 her friends concluded that she had become de-skilled by fear.
01:19:48.320 In the terms of this book, her executive functions,
01:19:50.780 her frontal lobes, went offline and she froze. 0.99
01:19:53.920 The model mugging program teaches women to recondition the freeze response 1.00
01:19:57.100 through many repetitions of being placed in the zero hour, 0.96
01:20:00.280 a military term for the precise moment of an attack,
01:20:03.320 and learning to transform fear into positive fighting energy.
01:20:08.700 Maybe you should fight back. Learn to fight back next time.
01:20:10.760 Yeah.
01:20:11.260 Great message for victims of sexual assault.
01:20:12.940 One of my patients, a college student with a history of unrelenting child abuse, took the course.
01:20:17.720 When I first met her, she was collapsed, depressed, and overly compliant.
01:20:21.900 Three months later, during her graduation ceremony,
01:20:24.860 she successfully fought off a gigantic male attacker who ended up lying, cringing on the floor,
01:20:31.600 shielded from her blows by a thick protective suit.
01:20:34.320 So that's like a skit that they did, apparently.
01:20:36.020 Not long afterward, she was walking home from the library after midnight
01:20:39.500 when three men jumped out of some bushes yelling, 1.00
01:20:42.140 Bitch, give us your money. 1.00
01:20:43.720 She later told me that she took that same karate stance and yelled, 1.00
01:20:46.900 Okay, guys, I've been looking forward to this moment.
01:20:49.980 Who wants to take me on first?
01:20:52.240 They ran away.
01:20:54.060 If you are hunched over and too afraid to look around,
01:20:56.720 you are easy prey to other people's sadism.
01:20:59.620 But when you walk around projecting the message, don't mess with me, you're not likely to be
01:21:03.920 bothered.
01:21:04.360 Maybe you had bad vibes. 1.00
01:21:05.260 Maybe you were raped because you had bad vibes. 0.93
01:21:06.920 I think that's a great message to have in this book.
01:21:08.860 A book about trauma.
01:21:09.580 I think that's great.
01:21:10.020 So first of all, this is obviously a fake story.
01:21:11.480 Obviously fake.
01:21:11.940 The benefit of taking a self-defense class like this is like 99.9% psychological.
01:21:17.400 The idea that someone would be like a victim and then take the class and then like immediately
01:21:23.020 be mugged, like theoretically possible, but come on.
01:21:26.700 He really likes this role play thing.
01:21:27.940 He has a thing where you do like family role play where somebody plays like your mom, like
01:21:33.120 your mean mom, and then somebody plays like the mom you wish you had.
01:21:36.360 And then you get into a karate stance. 1.00
01:21:38.120 Like literally he has a scenario where this guy's like, you fucking bitch, you left me. 1.00
01:21:42.120 And he's like screaming at this like actor basically. 1.00
01:21:45.320 I don't know if this would really work.
01:21:47.080 I couldn't find any like good studies of this.
01:21:48.780 It doesn't seem very kind of like widely used.
01:21:51.460 You don't need to pay to take like a skit class. 0.98
01:21:54.240 Just scream at your real mom. 1.00
01:21:55.500 but then also when i talked to emmy neatfield for this the way that she got interested in 0.99
01:22:01.280 this book was because she was sexually assaulted on a trip through europe she then had this
01:22:05.460 therapist that was like really into this body keeps the score stuff who prescribed a bunch of 0.96
01:22:09.160 like crank shit to her one of which was one of these like role play scenarios where they wanted 0.99
01:22:14.540 to act out the time when she was sexually assaulted and like this time you can fight back 0.99
01:22:19.400 and she's like this feels like you're saying that if i had fought back in the first place i wouldn't 0.97
01:22:24.200 have been raped which is precisely the wrong fucking message right right to give to people 0.96
01:22:28.260 who've experienced trauma like it happened because you did something wrong it's like you're delivering 0.99
01:22:32.240 that message also it just feels like very situational like i don't want to say that
01:22:36.220 you should never fight back i also wouldn't say that you should always fight back it's like this
01:22:40.680 very situational thing yeah trying to like diagnose the problem as like no people aren't 0.95
01:22:45.900 fighting back enough that feels like really dangerous he also has this fucking anecdote 0.72
01:22:50.140 which i might cut this but i can't help myself peter here's this it was early in my career and 0.90
01:22:55.320 i had been seeing mary a shy lonely and physically collapsed young woman again the way it's just a
01:23:00.480 vibe it's a tone the way that he talks about female victims is crazy if books could kill
01:23:05.180 listener bumble profile i've been seeing mary a shy lonely and physically collapsed young woman
01:23:10.760 for about three months in weekly psychotherapy dealing with the ravages of her terrible history
01:23:16.120 of early abuse. One day I opened the door to my waiting room and saw her standing there
01:23:20.800 provocatively dressed in a miniskirt. Her hair dyed flaming red with a cup of coffee in one hand 1.00
01:23:26.700 and a snarl on her face. You must be Dr. Vanderkolk, she said. My name is Jane and I came to
01:23:32.300 warn you not to believe any of the lies that Mary has been telling you. Can I come in and tell you
01:23:37.940 about her? I was stunned but fortunately kept myself from confronting Jane and instead heard
01:23:43.620 her out over the course of our session i met not only jane but also a hurt little girl and an angry
01:23:49.200 male adolescent this is the beginning of a long and productive treatment so this is fake for so
01:23:54.560 many reasons the the detail i'm stuck on is the fact that she dyed her hair to be one of her like
01:23:59.660 alter egos like surely she's gonna switch back to mary at some point does she then have to dye her
01:24:05.020 hair again yeah do you dye your hair before or after you mentally switch you mentally switch to
01:24:10.880 the other person and then you're like, ugh. This is like outlandishly fake. This is like a
01:24:14.520 completely debunked thing where you'd have a bunch of different alters. There's a million
01:24:19.240 academic articles about this that it was basically sort of approval seeking or attention seeking by
01:24:23.840 patients. They thought their doctors like wanted this and would get subtly rewarded for it. And so
01:24:28.840 they would create these alters. This is a phenomenon that essentially only ever existed
01:24:33.260 in the United States. I read a super interesting article about this, that they've looked at the
01:24:38.060 patterns of, you know, people's different alters. And like, people would constantly say, like, I
01:24:41.780 have a four year old, like, that's one of my alters. And they would look at the linguistic
01:24:45.360 patterns. And it's like, this is not the language patterns of a child. This is the language of an
01:24:49.220 adult pretending to be a child. It's like really easy to identify. And then they also said, over
01:24:53.380 time, people at first would say like, oh, I have four alters. But then by the end of the trend,
01:24:59.140 people were saying like, I have 250 alters. Right, right, right. It's like a tolerance builds up.
01:25:04.000 You're like, well, I gotta, I gotta get my therapist attention somehow. That's like that
01:25:07.660 brief period in tumblr history when uh people were just like i'm a wolf yeah yeah they don't
01:25:13.900 actually know what anything about wolves yeah they're just like they're just like doing a
01:25:17.420 little bit of howling i love that like jane still went to therapy she's like oh i'm like stay away
01:25:23.020 from mary she's the worst but also it's two it's tuesday at four i gotta make my appointment she 0.95
01:25:27.580 wakes up as jane she's like i hate this hair time to put on my hot ass skirt which i also have 0.97
01:25:34.260 She looked at the calendar and she's like, doctor appointment, huh? 0.82
01:25:37.940 So I do want to talk a little bit about the research for all of these.
01:25:41.820 They're classified as mind-body interventions.
01:25:44.820 I also really want to be sensitive to people who have tried this stuff and who like this stuff and who got a positive impact out of it.
01:25:50.700 A lot of people, you know, trauma affects people in very different ways.
01:25:54.620 And so for somebody to be able to get a massage, like to be touched in a safe environment, that can be like really healing for people, right?
01:26:02.320 And things like yoga can be really healing.
01:26:03.640 there's a self-esteem aspect a community aspect all this stuff feels like it's real in some sense
01:26:08.340 it's not just like it's not just like this magical cure yeah exactly in the way that he presents it
01:26:13.080 right like i was joking about it but like getting a hobby is actually a good idea yeah if you have
01:26:19.760 anxiety if you're if you have depression like this as far as i know the research is pretty clear that
01:26:25.100 that sort of stuff can help it's so important to me to not take anything away from people and
01:26:29.640 like if you've benefited from dance therapy or equine therapy or whatever, like that is a real
01:26:34.440 effect. I don't really feel the need to like debunk that. If you have multiple personalities
01:26:38.200 and one's very frumpy and one's very sexy, that's cool. There's also a lot of research on this and
01:26:43.360 a ton of research shows that these interventions are effective. Like I looked up dance therapy
01:26:47.120 and there's actually a lot of studies on dance therapy and most of them find a positive effect.
01:26:51.300 Like they're small, they're early, you can quibble with the methodology stuff, but it's like,
01:26:54.880 it's not remotely implausible that a lot of these interventions would in fact work.
01:26:59.640 I do just want to talk about that.
01:27:00.740 I also, however, want to talk about the academic consensus for what works for PTSD, like the
01:27:07.240 most strongly evidence-based approaches.
01:27:10.440 So for this, I talked to Keith Cox, who is a PTSD researcher and the author of an entire
01:27:17.500 academic paper about how this book is incorrect.
01:27:20.840 So here is the intro.
01:27:23.280 Most individuals with PTSD do not receive science-based treatment.
01:27:26.940 This is a massive problem, and the systems and individuals best able to address it misunderstand key components of the problem.
01:27:34.060 Advocates of research-supported treatments have substantial influence and authority in federal agencies, university settings, and medical centers,
01:27:41.600 and limited influence authority with the public at large and with many providers, especially those in private practice settings.
01:27:49.380 Figures such as Bessel van der Kolk and Peter Levine, who are not consistently science-based,
01:27:54.480 have limited influence in government and research settings and enormous influence with the public
01:27:58.660 and many individual providers.
01:28:00.400 We see such figures as a main contributor to the problem.
01:28:03.160 So this is like a huge problem for the field that like academic research is not speaking
01:28:08.520 to in-practice therapy all that much.
01:28:10.820 And a lot of therapists are really bought into these frameworks, which are not evidence-based.
01:28:15.120 A lot of them don't know that they are not evidence-based or don't care.
01:28:17.800 but researchers like he has a whole section about how like academic researchers do not refer to
01:28:22.740 Bessel van der Kolk's book he's not considered influential in like PTSD studies and he hasn't
01:28:27.100 been for decades he estimated only around 10 percent of people with PTSD get like effective 0.73
01:28:31.800 treatments it's mostly this like wild west shit so that is like a huge problem in society like a 0.87
01:28:36.240 lot of people have PTSD or these other symptoms of trauma that they experienced when they were 0.94
01:28:40.240 growing up and like they're not getting effective treatments right so he walked me through the
01:28:44.300 official guidance from like all of the major institutions. So the American Psychological
01:28:49.440 Association says the most effective treatment is CBT, which is cognitive behavioral therapy,
01:28:55.100 specifically something called cognitive processing therapy and something called prolonged exposure
01:28:59.660 therapy, where you basically, you sit there and you talk about your trauma. You describe what
01:29:04.560 happened to you. Typically you're getting like these physiological symptoms when you talk about
01:29:08.420 it, right? Your heart rate goes up, you're sweating, it's really stressful. And over time
01:29:12.360 it becomes less and less stressful. And you're also processing it with a professional therapist
01:29:18.120 who can say things like, you know, it's not your fault and like put it into context of like how to
01:29:22.780 think about it and how to integrate it into your life. This works astonishingly well. This is the
01:29:27.560 most evidence-based treatment. I also checked the guidelines for the VA. They also recommend this.
01:29:33.620 The British institution that does this, NICE, also recommended cognitive behavioral therapy.
01:29:38.840 Bessel van der Kolk does address CBT in his book.
01:29:42.620 He has an entire chapter about how it's bad.
01:29:46.660 So we are going to spend a little bit of time on this chapter.
01:29:50.180 Here's this.
01:29:50.880 In September 2001, several organizations, including the National Institutes of Health,
01:29:55.180 Pfizer Pharmaceuticals, and the New York Times Company Foundation, organized expert panels
01:29:59.840 to recommend the best treatments for people traumatized by the attacks on the World Trade
01:30:04.140 Center.
01:30:05.300 Because many widely used trauma interventions had never been carefully evaluated in random
01:30:09.820 communities as opposed to patients who seek psychiatric help, I thought this presented
01:30:14.420 an extraordinary opportunity to compare how well a variety of different approaches would work.
01:30:18.800 My colleagues were more conservative, and after lengthy deliberations, the committees
01:30:21.920 recommended only two forms of treatment, psychoanalytically oriented therapy and cognitive
01:30:26.700 behavioral therapy.
01:30:28.400 Why analytic talk therapy?
01:30:30.240 Since Manhattan is one of the last passions of Freudian psychoanalysis, it would have
01:30:34.000 been bad politics to exclude a substantial proportion of local mental health practitioners.
01:30:38.740 Why CBT? Because behavioral treatment can be broken down into concrete steps and manualized
01:30:44.420 into uniform protocols. It is the favorite treatment of academic researchers, another
01:30:49.000 group that could not be ignored. So the recommendations of this committee were
01:30:52.360 Freudian therapy and CBT, basically for political reasons. After the recommendations were approved,
01:30:57.200 we sat back and waited for New Yorkers to find their way to therapists' offices. Almost nobody
01:31:02.060 showed up. Dr. Spencer F., who ran the psychiatry department at the now-defunct St. Vincent's
01:31:07.440 Hospital in Greenwich Village, was curious where survivors had turned for help. And early in 2002,
01:31:13.160 together with some medical students, he conducted a survey of 225 people who had escaped from the
01:31:17.480 Twin Towers. Asked what had been most helpful in overcoming the effects of their experience,
01:31:21.540 the survivors credited acupuncture, massage, yoga, and EMDR in that order. F.'s survey suggests that
01:31:28.240 the most helpful interventions focused on relieving the physical burdens generated by
01:31:31.920 trauma. Physical burdens. Don't talk about it. Let's do physical first.
01:31:34.920 Doesn't really suggest that that's what's most helpful, right? It's just that people
01:31:37.320 didn't go to the therapy. Also, this is not true. I couldn't find the committee that he
01:31:43.420 was talking about, but there is a FEMA supported program in New York City after 9-11 to get
01:31:49.400 mental health counseling to people. And it was used by, I've seen different numbers,
01:31:53.320 but somewhere between 100,000 and 750,000 people.
01:31:57.320 It just factually is not true
01:31:58.660 that like nobody wanted therapy after 9-11.
01:32:00.860 There's also this survey by Dr. Spencer F
01:32:03.900 who talked to 225 survivors from the Twin Towers.
01:32:08.140 And then it turns out like,
01:32:09.160 oh, we don't want therapy.
01:32:09.980 We actually want acupuncture.
01:32:11.320 Yeah.
01:32:11.580 So the citation for this in Bessel van der Kolk's book
01:32:14.720 just says Dr. Spencer F to Bessel van der Kolk, March 2002.
01:32:19.540 So this is something that they had a personal conversation from 2002.
01:32:23.940 From like 12 years ago, my buddy told me this thing.
01:32:27.240 It's first of all, just really fucking weird to not point to like a real study.
01:32:31.000 Yeah, it's a survey. 0.80
01:32:31.840 Right.
01:32:32.240 I reached out to Spencer F.
01:32:33.600 I was like, hey, this is the passage from the book.
01:32:36.460 Can you send me anything on this study?
01:32:39.040 He wrote me back.
01:32:41.320 He sent me a bunch of background documents.
01:32:44.100 He sent me one document that was like a study, like a before and after study of acupuncture in his clinic, which had nothing to do with 9-11.
01:32:52.860 And then the second thing that he sent me was essentially just an advertisement for the clinic and the kinds of things that they were doing.
01:32:59.440 He also sent me a JPEG of a woman giving acupuncture.
01:33:02.920 Here's the Wikipedia for acupuncture.
01:33:05.060 It's just a walk-in clinic.
01:33:06.620 Some of the people that they were treating, I'm sure, were 9-11 victims, but they weren't reaching out to like people who were there in the Twin Towers.
01:33:12.260 and like they were just providing a bunch of services and the only thing he has as far as
01:33:16.500 like a survey of what people liked is this document that just quotes a bunch of like
01:33:21.460 patient satisfaction survey results so it says i felt so cared for and cradled i experienced
01:33:26.860 great healing here this provides a sense of tranquility so like great but this is not a
01:33:31.760 survey of 225 9-11 survivors that survey does not appear to exist i'm just i'm just surprised that
01:33:37.340 people whose job is to some degree science are so like disinterested in like the precision of
01:33:45.460 the statements being made. Also, he's doing this in service of a conclusion that is not true.
01:33:50.680 Bessel van der Kolk is including this one survey of 225 people. Hundreds of thousands of people
01:33:54.800 got counseling after 9-11. There's numerous evaluations. So I found one evaluation that
01:33:59.100 found 89% of people who got this like counseling service were happy with it. So it isn't the case
01:34:04.900 that nobody showed up. It isn't the case that like, I benefited from acupuncture way more than
01:34:09.120 therapy. None of this is true. He then specifically talks about CBT and these forms of prolonged
01:34:15.940 exposure therapy, cognitive processing therapy. He says, in contrast to its effectiveness for
01:34:20.600 irrational fears, such as spiders, CBT has not done so well for traumatized individuals,
01:34:25.620 particularly those with histories of childhood abuse. Only about one in three participants with
01:34:29.620 PTSD who finish research studies show some improvement. Those who complete CBT treatment
01:34:34.100 usually have fewer PTSD symptoms, but they rarely recover completely.
01:34:38.260 Most continue to have substantial problems with their health, work, or mental well-being.
01:34:42.580 Wow.
01:34:42.820 He's explicitly saying it doesn't work for PTSD, right?
01:34:46.220 Yeah.
01:34:46.540 I mean, Neatfield, in her Mother Jones article,
01:34:48.880 tracks down the author of some of these studies that he's citing.
01:34:52.980 So I'm just going to send you an excerpt from her paper.
01:34:55.480 Vanderkoal claims that only about one in three participants with PTSD
01:34:59.100 who finished CBT research studies show some improvement,
01:35:01.820 citing a paper by Julian Ford, a professor of psychiatry at the University of Connecticut
01:35:05.720 School of Medicine, and several other papers including a meta-analysis. The meta-analysis
01:35:10.980 in fact concluded that 67% of people who completed treatment benefited, and Ford disagrees with
01:35:15.920 van der Kolk's interpretation of what the numbers imply. As a frontline treatment, I don't think
01:35:20.080 there is anything better for the treatment of PTSD than CBT, he tells me. One study by the
01:35:25.200 Department of Veterans Affairs and academic researchers that van der Kolk cites the largest
01:35:29.240 of its kind when it was published in 2007, found that after just 10 weeks of CBT, 75%
01:35:34.680 of patients improved significantly and 47% no longer had PTSD at all.
01:35:39.520 We used to think that PTSD was chronic and that we had to help people live with their
01:35:42.880 symptoms, says Paula Schnur, co-author of that study and executive director of the VA's
01:35:46.940 National Center for PTSD.
01:35:48.820 We now know that PTSD is treatable.
01:35:50.940 I also looked into his citations for this.
01:35:52.860 He has the sentence, only one in three participants with PTSD who finish studies, show some improvement.
01:35:57.220 you then go to his citation and it says in the abstract, the majority of patients treated with
01:36:02.620 psychotherapy for PTSD recover or improve rendering these approaches, some of the most
01:36:07.220 effective psychosocial treatments devised to date. And they do compare these against, you know, yoga,
01:36:12.280 equine therapy, all of these other things. And they basically say like the evidence is very strong for
01:36:16.160 CBT. The effects are very large. And like the evidence for all of these other things is pretty
01:36:20.540 weak, right? A lot of them aren't controlled. A lot of them are just before and after studies.
01:36:24.760 A lot of them are like 15 people.
01:36:26.980 We have good evidence on CBT.
01:36:29.540 We have some slightly maybe preliminary evidence and a lot of anecdotes about the other things.
01:36:34.860 Well, it's hard to scale equine therapy.
01:36:36.780 You can't give everyone in New York after 9-11 a horse, you know?
01:36:41.360 So the other thing that he says about CBT is that it has really high dropout rates.
01:36:47.020 So it's kind of a moot point whether it works or not because like nobody can stick with it for long enough.
01:36:51.280 So here's this.
01:36:52.060 A 2010 report on 49,425 veterans with newly diagnosed PTSD from the Iraq and Afghanistan wars who sought care from the VA showed that fewer than one out of 10 actually completed the recommended treatment.
01:37:05.620 As in Pittman's Vietnam veterans, exposure treatment, as currently practiced, rarely works for them.
01:37:10.960 We can only process horrendous experiences if they do not overwhelm us, and that means that other approaches are necessary.
01:37:17.580 It rarely works, is what he's saying.
01:37:19.760 We're getting into like actually harmful territory, right? Because there's a high level view of this book that's just like trauma can manifest in different ways and can be treated in different ways. And there are like alternative treatments that have shown have been shown to have some efficacy. And that's like this perfectly defensible thesis that is in fact like correct.
01:37:39.260 But then he just goes that extra step where he's like, actually, like, this is the treatment that is best and should be focused on and appears to be recommending it over the most effective known treatments for severe PTSD.
01:37:55.460 Exactly.
01:37:55.860 And the problem in PTSD in our medical system is that not enough people are getting access to effective treatments.
01:38:01.720 Right.
01:38:01.900 And he's saying, oh, well, they don't they don't work anyway.
01:38:03.760 Make sure you get a massage.
01:38:05.040 Right.
01:38:05.280 So in this passage, he says there's this report on a bunch of veterans and 90% of them dropped out of CBT before they finished the program. 0.96
01:38:13.300 I've never heard of a fucking 90% dropout rate before in a study. 0.82
01:38:16.280 Like you would just not publish the study if you had a dropout rate that high. 0.98
01:38:18.920 That would be a major part of the study. 0.83
01:38:21.220 You're like, oh, everyone fucking hated this. 0.85
01:38:22.980 So I go to the study. 0.96
01:38:24.020 This is not a dropout rate.
01:38:25.500 This is the percentage of people who went to a primary care provider, said, I think I have PTSD, got a referral to therapy, and either didn't follow up on the referral or didn't go to 10 sessions.
01:38:38.600 Oh.
01:38:38.940 That's not a dropout rate.
01:38:40.200 A dropout rate is like you sign up for a study, like you're going to do yoga for 10 weeks.
01:38:43.160 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
01:38:43.520 And you can't hack it for whatever reason or another.
01:38:45.660 This is just people who didn't follow a referral.
01:38:48.520 Right.
01:38:48.660 I did this last year.
01:38:49.720 I got a referral for my hands and I just like never called the place to schedule the physical therapy.
01:38:53.920 I'm skipping 50% of referrals at a minimum, okay?
01:38:57.840 You have to keep them guessing.
01:38:59.320 CBD does actually have relatively high dropout rates.
01:39:01.720 It's like between 20% and 30%, mostly because like it's really painful to talk about your
01:39:06.300 trauma over and over again for like week after week after week.
01:39:08.960 It does work.
01:39:09.980 But for a lot of people, it's extremely painful.
01:39:12.300 And so there's meta-analyses of the various dropout rates.
01:39:15.300 Like sometimes it's higher, sometimes it's lower.
01:39:17.240 But this is an identified issue that is actually really difficult to solve.
01:39:20.940 And like there is consternation in the medical field about this. 0.95
01:39:23.740 It's not fucking 90%, right? 0.96
01:39:25.880 Right. 0.92
01:39:26.160 He also, in his own section, cites numerous studies of like yoga and dance therapy and
01:39:29.620 stuff, also with huge dropout rates.
01:39:31.520 Like I found one study of equine therapy with 23 participants and 10 of them dropped out.
01:39:37.120 Any therapeutic treatment is going to have like dropout being a problem.
01:39:41.360 This is also why it's very important to me to stress.
01:39:44.280 It's really malpractice to say that CBT doesn't work. 0.96
01:39:47.120 I think it's also just a fucking huge dick move to be like, have you tried CBT? 0.97
01:39:50.940 What about CBT? 0.99
01:39:51.960 Yeah.
01:39:52.100 It's the most effective treatment that we have, but it's like 47%, right?
01:39:55.400 Meaning 50% of people don't have their PTSD cured.
01:39:58.460 Maybe there's something more complex going on. 0.99
01:40:00.380 Like I've heard from trauma victims, shut the fuck up about CBT. 0.98
01:40:03.900 Like I've tried it and it didn't work, right? 0.99
01:40:05.440 Like it's not right for me. 0.99
01:40:06.680 You also don't want to be this asshole who's like, oh, the studies say that you should do this. 0.98
01:40:10.620 Like individuals are very diverse. 0.99
01:40:12.580 Trauma is so different for different people.
01:40:14.760 You also don't want to write a book saying it doesn't work.
01:40:16.840 Yes, exactly.
01:40:17.340 You have to find a middle ground.
01:40:19.000 I think it would be defensible to say, like, CBT is the most effective treatment.
01:40:23.660 However, it can be really expensive.
01:40:25.480 It can be really difficult to access for people.
01:40:27.020 For some people, it doesn't work.
01:40:28.200 But he's just openly saying it doesn't work, right?
01:40:31.560 Right, right.
01:40:31.980 The other thing that is evidence-based is, do you know what EMDR is, Peter?
01:40:36.660 I am familiar with the acronym in that I believe it was in one of the excerpts you sent me,
01:40:40.380 and I skipped over it.
01:40:41.280 Yes.
01:40:41.600 I was like, please don't ask me about it because we're going to talk about it later.
01:40:44.180 This stands for eye movement desensitization and reprocessing.
01:40:47.920 Okay.
01:40:48.180 So this is basically a procedure by which you talk about your trauma, you talk about
01:40:53.960 what happened to you while moving your eyes back and forth.
01:40:57.320 So sometimes it's kind of like rapid eye movement.
01:40:59.440 Sometimes it's like your therapist, like hold a pen.
01:41:02.140 Oh, okay.
01:41:02.600 Okay.
01:41:02.840 So you're, you're, you're, you're speaking and you're very purposefully looking back
01:41:07.900 and forth with your eyes.
01:41:08.800 Exactly.
01:41:09.260 Okay.
01:41:09.520 And so this is one of those things that started out as like a woo woo intervention, like,
01:41:14.700 oh, move your eyes back and forth.
01:41:15.840 But like over and over again, it's been shown to be incredibly effective.
01:41:19.060 So in like the APA guidelines, in the VA guidelines, everybody says like EMDR is the other thing
01:41:23.780 that people should probably think about doing. 0.99
01:41:25.440 Honestly, even though it's real and worked, I'm still mad at how stupid that is. 0.99
01:41:29.360 Dude, I know. 0.99
01:41:30.000 I remember the first time I heard about it. 0.96
01:41:31.640 I was like, oh, we're going to do a fucking maintenance phase on this, aren't we? 1.00
01:41:34.180 Like, this is such trash. 0.99
01:41:35.240 This is like having a revelation while you're like cooking eggs. 0.99
01:41:37.880 And then you're like, I have an idea.
01:41:41.260 This is one of the woo-woo things that he recommends that is actually very evidence-based.
01:41:45.560 So like, that's good. However, over the course of time, as more and more studies have come out
01:41:50.800 about this, the consensus in the field seems to be tilting toward the reason it works is not the
01:41:56.640 eye movement. The reason is that it's basically exposure therapy. You're talking about your
01:42:00.200 trauma and you're processing your trauma with somebody else, right? So he has an entire chapter
01:42:04.740 about EMDR. And here is what he says about it. People may be able to heal from trauma without
01:42:11.780 talking about it. EMDR enables them to observe their experiences in a new way without verbal
01:42:16.900 give and take with another person. EMDR can help even if the patient and the therapist do not have
01:42:22.380 a trusting relationship. This is particularly intriguing because trauma understandably rarely
01:42:27.220 leaves people with an open trusting heart. In the years since, I have done EMDR with patients who
01:42:33.620 spoke Swahili, Mandarin, and Breton? All languages in which I can say only, notice that, the key
01:42:40.920 EMDR instruction. I always had a translator available, but primarily to explain the steps
01:42:46.440 of the process. Because EMDR doesn't require patients to speak about the intolerable or
01:42:52.160 explain to a therapist why they feel so upset, it allows them to stay fully focused on their
01:42:57.440 internal experience with sometimes extraordinary results. How does he know when to say notice that?
01:43:04.100 So what's amazing to me here is even when he's referring to an evidence-based practice,
01:43:09.740 he recommends the non-evidence-based part of it. He says you shouldn't be talking about your trauma
01:43:15.540 as you're doing the eye movements. I can do this with people who speak any language. It's not about
01:43:19.960 the talking. It's about the eye movements. When all of the evidence indicates that it's mostly
01:43:24.180 about the fucking talking right interesting stumbled on the one thing that is like okay
01:43:29.000 you're dovetailing with the actual like meta analyses here but he's like no no don't do it 0.97
01:43:33.320 in the way that the meta analyses say to do it right because why the fuck would just moving your 0.52
01:43:37.660 eyes back and forth do anything to be fair why does it help at all i don't know it sounds fake 0.97
01:43:41.720 as shit i can't believe it i can't believe this shit works so that's the book i want to give a 0.91
01:43:46.680 couple of concluding thoughts okay uh when i was talking to emmy neatfield she told me about the 0.99
01:43:51.520 story of her therapist that she went to the therapist and was like, I want to talk about
01:43:55.080 this horrific trauma that happened to me in Europe. And she says she started telling the story
01:43:59.080 and she sort of got to the buildup of it. And then eventually they ran out of time in the session
01:44:02.960 and they're like, okay, we'll pick this up next week. And then Emmy went next week and she started
01:44:06.080 telling, okay, well, picking up where we left off. And the therapist is like, ah, let's talk about
01:44:09.280 your childhood. Like, let's go back. And she says this went on for like many weeks. She's like,
01:44:13.120 I'm ready to talk about this, but you don't seem to want me to talk about this. And her therapist
01:44:19.000 basically said you're too traumatized to talk about it it will make you relive your trauma if
01:44:23.500 you talk about it and then recommended acupressure this is a story that i've heard from many people
01:44:28.300 that these ideas have gotten really entrenched in the field of psychology like the individual
01:44:33.900 experience often does focus on these body-based treatments over and above talking about your
01:44:40.540 trauma and that is very very bad suppress the memory and go get on a horse another one of the
01:44:46.500 therapist that I talked to, I can't say what city it is, but it's like a major hospital in a major
01:44:50.540 city. He had to attend a mandatory 12 hour training on somatic treatments, like mind body stuff. He
01:44:58.580 says he went to his boss and was like, sorry, there's no evidence for this stuff. Why are we
01:45:02.000 doing it? And his boss is like, oh yeah, it's bullshit, but like take what you can from it. 0.99
01:45:05.620 You know, there might be something in there that's useful. The field is actually like kind 0.98
01:45:08.800 of falling for this stuff and like making it a big part of practice. And again, some of this
01:45:12.240 stuff may work under certain conditions, but this is fundamentally a 1950s understanding of trauma,
01:45:17.480 right? Do not talk about it. Do something else. It's being repackaged as like woo-woo new age
01:45:22.720 hippie stuff. But fundamentally, he is telling you that talking about your trauma is totally
01:45:27.500 pointless, may be harmful when all of the evidence shows the exact opposite. And we're talking about
01:45:33.180 actively suppressing things that we know are effective, right? It's like, ooh, don't talk
01:45:37.540 about it. Insane. Just go to yoga. So even as it's very important to me to acknowledge that
01:45:41.800 this book has like a good premise. And like the core insight of the book is absolutely true. I'm
01:45:46.020 so glad that people took that away from the book. A lot of people seem to have taken away from the
01:45:49.640 book that you should talk about your trauma, which I think is great. But there are better vessels
01:45:54.220 for this message than fucking Bessel van der Kolk and this book. Yeah. So there is a New York 0.99
01:46:01.420 magazine profile of him and this kind of this new understanding of trauma where the author just 1.00
01:46:06.440 keeps talking about like how much of a dick he is. So here's this. In conversation, he sometimes 0.99
01:46:10.260 radiates impatience and is prone to interrupting to give the dialogue the shape he thinks it should
01:46:14.860 take. When I mentioned that I was not convinced by a claim he made in a lecture that a nationwide
01:46:18.740 program of early childhood attachment intervention could end mass incarceration, he told me matter
01:46:23.920 of factly that I was not qualified to have an opinion. Great time. And also, you know, he does
01:46:30.320 have that chapter where he talks about like the structural forces. So like, okay, good for him,
01:46:33.660 you know, universal healthcare, Trump sucks, et cetera. But the word racism does not appear in 0.98
01:46:37.400 this book. The word homophobia, transphobia does not appear in this book. He never talks about any
01:46:41.740 of his patients experiencing discrimination in any way. Well, it's not about what you experience.
01:46:47.160 It's about what type of massage to get afterwards. What kind of horse you have to be riding.
01:46:52.000 It just is like, it's really weird that this has been taken up so strongly, I think, by like
01:46:55.820 progressive, very well-meaning people who I align with politically when like the book itself is not
01:47:00.860 particularly progressive, right? I think it's terrible on gender. You didn't like the part 0.88
01:47:04.420 where he was like mary showed up but this time she was hot but then there's also i don't know
01:47:11.860 if you know about this peter but in 2017 he was pushed out of his own treatment center for bullying
01:47:17.980 me too casualty the guy that was running the like sort of day-to-day running the center got me too'd
01:47:24.420 and got pushed out and then like a couple days later he got pushed out and the center like
01:47:28.600 announced that it was for it says he created a hostile work environment his behavior could be
01:47:33.800 characterized as bullying and making employees feel denigrated and uncomfortable i should say
01:47:38.720 bessel vandicoke denies the allegations he puts a statement on facebook that says as far as i know
01:47:43.880 none of you have ever confronted me with such misbehavior if i have inadvertently denigrated
01:47:48.500 or bullied any of you i would like to know about it apologize and make amends i think i've talked
01:47:52.720 about this on the show before but there's certain type like uh at hedge funds hedge funds are like
01:47:57.860 built around the investment strategies of one person and so like they are like untouchable
01:48:02.480 like you cannot fire that exactly this is like one step down from that right yeah this center
01:48:07.840 is built around your ideas yes and they fire you you know we always like go out of our way to like
01:48:13.460 be nice in these things and not sort of yes i do know how i do that thank you honestly i think
01:48:18.180 people should not be recommending this book people should not be using this book in curricula for
01:48:22.420 academic courses sometimes we're sort of a corrective right everyone has been very nice
01:48:27.680 this book already. So if we're too mean, that's just us bringing balance into the universe.
01:48:33.780 That's how I view the fact that I'm always too mean.
01:48:36.560 This book is bad. Like the text of the book is bad. Even if at a civilian level, I don't think
01:48:42.040 that the effect of this book is harmful. I think the effect within the field has been very harmful.
01:48:46.340 And I think the book itself is fucking bad. And there are other books written by people who are 0.95
01:48:50.240 like basically promoting the same ideas, but are not reactionary assholes who are like bullying
01:48:55.940 people at work and lying to you about like basic scientific discoveries there's a little bit of 0.80
01:49:00.640 maha to it right where it's like oh very much so yeah the primary voices in the field are
01:49:06.180 focusing on the wrong thing and they're doing it potentially for profit right i mean what they
01:49:11.240 need to be focusing on is making an eeg that makes people gay if you just reverse the circuitry look 0.77
01:49:16.460 i don't want to throw the baby out with the bath water he did cure homosexuality in the course of 0.63
01:49:22.640 He buried the lead. 0.95