Missing Witches - May 22, 2025


MWRF Part 3 w Elaine Kicknosway - Bi-Giwen: Coming Home

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00:02:25.340 And today, I'm so thrilled to be joined by the co-founder of the 60s Scoop Network and a carrier of ceremonial teachings, Elaine Kiknosway.
00:02:39.200 Hi, Elaine. Thank you so much for sitting down with me today.
00:02:44.140 Bonjour. It's so nice to meet you and see you.
00:02:47.760 Yes, it's so wonderful to be in this space with you.
00:02:51.380 This is your first time on the Missing Witches podcast.
00:02:54.600 So maybe you could start by introducing yourself to our listeners.
00:02:59.260 Who are you today?
00:03:00.700 We believe you're under no obligation to be who you were five minutes ago.
00:03:04.300 So I've read your bio, but who are you today?
00:03:07.100 my name is elaine my name is elaine i am wolf clan
00:03:17.420 i come from a very small crew swampy creek community in 36th and i'm a member of the
00:03:27.040 Peter Ballantyne, the nation, and I am a mother, I am a stepmother, step-grandmother, step-great-grandmother.
00:03:38.060 I am a helper, I am a partner to my loving partner for the past 26 years, and I took his name, so that's where the Kiknoswe comes in.
00:03:55.480 I am a trauma-informed, man-based focusing therapist.
00:04:02.400 I'm also a full-spectrum doula.
00:04:05.320 And now I'm on my way to get my menopause certification for doula menopause
00:04:12.500 because I think that's an area that bodies, the older bodies, need to have more conversation
00:04:21.140 because there's a lot of conversation about the beginning of life,
00:04:26.180 but when we get into our olding or older parts of our life
00:04:30.980 where our eggs aren't as plentiful and our estrogen lowers,
00:04:37.060 I find that the conversation that a lot of people kind of go to silence
00:04:43.080 and the importance of where our bodies are sovereign.
00:04:47.620 so it's really understanding our inherent right to our body
00:04:52.600 I'm also a co-founder with my amazing colleague
00:04:58.900 Colleen Cardinal
00:05:00.420 and I'm so grateful for her
00:05:03.380 and her guidance and wisdom and her leadership
00:05:08.060 she encourages me so so much
00:05:12.300 and sometimes it feels like
00:05:14.940 we have a plan
00:05:18.140 but we don't have a plan
00:05:19.320 I can relate
00:05:21.740 and we
00:05:24.120 have an idea and we haven't
00:05:26.080 sometimes a little expectation
00:05:28.420 but then it just kind of explodes
00:05:30.420 into something that you
00:05:32.200 never knew that would happen
00:05:33.620 and I'm really grateful for that journey
00:05:35.980 along the way for the past
00:05:37.400 13, 14 years
00:05:40.100 that we've been 0.97
00:05:41.300 created with the 60 Scoop 0.72
00:05:44.520 But also within our friendship and my view of her as a very confidant and one that's been there to carry the, what they say, carry the road with, you know, the good path with.
00:06:04.440 And what else am I?
00:06:07.740 I work at Minwashing Lodge as the traditional healer.
00:06:10.580 I just recently went back to work after surviving breast cancer last year and now in remission
00:06:17.580 I'm a sister sister of my biological side I have 15 siblings there's uh nine of us then
00:06:29.480 on my dad's side is he's from Buffalo Narrows and my mom's side is from Amisk Lake
00:06:35.940 so I'm very grateful I just spent some time with my older sisters so it was really nice to be in
00:06:43.400 their presence just kind of because I'm a baby the baby girl so I kind of got that you know
00:06:51.020 that gentle taken care of as they're also my original mothers I was really grateful to be
00:06:59.580 will present again and then i'm i'm one that has returned from the 60s school because i was
00:07:07.660 apprehended when i was in i was uh 1969 i was apprehended and um i returned home in 1996
00:07:19.500 Like, until 27 years later, we walked home.
00:07:26.520 And also, I like to bike.
00:07:28.640 I like to walk.
00:07:30.080 I like to feed birds.
00:07:32.560 I love fishing.
00:07:34.060 Like, I don't even need to eat the fish.
00:07:36.620 I just love the silence and just kind of be with the birds.
00:07:44.280 I feed the birds.
00:07:45.540 Like, I have bird feeders outside every day.
00:07:47.700 I love the sound of the nature.
00:07:53.400 Anytime that I can, as best as I can, help, I have a track, so I, you know, help where I can.
00:08:02.660 But I also understand that there's limits, you know, as we get older, and all the things that help us really.
00:08:10.680 So, a small bit about me, I'm a language learner still.
00:08:20.680 I'm originally a Cree speaker when I was little, according to my siblings.
00:08:26.680 So, there's always that language revival in me.
00:08:30.680 I'm a singer, I'm a drum singer.
00:08:34.680 as a hand drummer
00:08:37.740 hand finger
00:08:38.700 so there's a lot of
00:08:41.840 I'm not a sewer though
00:08:43.540 I don't sew
00:08:44.680 I don't tend to cook a lot
00:08:48.180 I like barbecuing
00:08:49.620 I don't view that as cooking
00:08:51.740 I like barbecuing
00:08:53.020 you can't do it all
00:08:55.500 no and I don't want to
00:08:57.660 but that's a small bit
00:09:02.300 of what I do
00:09:03.980 it's so so much of what you just said like revolves around the theme of mutual care
00:09:11.060 whether it's colleen shout out colleen for being a good partner um your friends your family also
00:09:18.120 your bird feeders i know i have several bird feeders and it definitely it's like a mutually
00:09:24.280 beneficial relationship i feed them and then they feed my soul with their presence and i think we
00:09:31.280 can do that with humans too right yeah it has to be reciprocal has to be reciprocal and i think
00:09:40.480 we've we've lost that in the 21st century there's so much hoarding and fear that we've forgotten
00:09:47.420 that you know generosity comes back to us you know it's almost like that that idea has been
00:09:54.240 brainwashed out of a yeah i'm really i'm really learning how to run and my my husband just bought
00:10:03.120 an electric bike but kind of like oh you're gonna try this baking again you know okay to try new
00:10:11.400 things again you used to love you can love it again just in a different way yeah i spoke to
00:10:21.280 Patti Krawick recently. I'm the author of Bad Indians Book Club. And she had an X-Files poster
00:10:28.060 behind her with a UFO. And it said, I want to believe. And I was talking to her and I was
00:10:34.660 looking at the poster and I just kept thinking about what a fruitful question this could be.
00:10:40.660 So I want to ask you, Elaine, what do you want to believe? We can cast reality aside for the moment.
00:10:47.460 what do you want to believe
00:10:49.800 I want to believe
00:10:52.440 that we all come home
00:10:53.800 there's been generations
00:10:58.140 generations on this land
00:11:00.580 across these territories
00:11:02.420 across these treaties
00:11:03.640 across these
00:11:04.560 cross the nation
00:11:06.440 of
00:11:07.660 purposeful
00:11:10.200 purposeful
00:11:12.000 funded federally funded
00:11:14.580 partnerships
00:11:16.140 that took Indigenous children away,
00:11:20.880 that took Inuit children and Métis children away,
00:11:25.600 whether it was through schooling,
00:11:27.800 whether it was through the federal hospitaling,
00:11:31.140 whether it was through the federal relocation.
00:11:35.500 I believe, I want to believe that we'll all get to come home.
00:11:41.040 And that includes our missing and murdered.
00:11:43.840 you know
00:11:45.620 because that
00:11:47.660 this still
00:11:50.420 concept of separation
00:11:52.320 this still concept of
00:11:54.420 it doesn't matter
00:11:55.980 or this concept of
00:11:58.540 why are we still talking about this
00:12:00.620 because it matters
00:12:02.400 and I want to believe that somebody
00:12:04.580 is caring
00:12:05.200 because we care
00:12:09.220 we care for our loved ones
00:12:10.740 we search for our missing
00:12:12.380 And it shouldn't be shocking when this country discovers bodies at residential schools or the tuberculosis centers where they were relocated and centered, you know, where we were sent.
00:12:32.020 even to the foster care system
00:12:36.860 they don't talk about our loss
00:12:38.680 the childhood loss or deaths in child welfare
00:12:43.220 and where they bury us sometimes under different names
00:12:46.720 because I want to believe that we all get to come home
00:12:51.720 that's such an important place
00:12:55.480 of where our umbilical work comes from
00:12:59.860 we get to come home
00:13:01.240 home to the rightful place of our land
00:13:04.440 to our
00:13:05.540 language and our
00:13:08.320 songs to our
00:13:09.120 I want
00:13:12.340 to believe that we all can come home
00:13:14.300 and that's
00:13:15.760 a daily prayer that I
00:13:18.000 put out there
00:13:19.560 I want all of us to come home
00:13:22.460 and move with advocacy
00:13:25.940 maybe that's
00:13:27.940 sometimes you know wishful thinking
00:13:30.240 that place of
00:13:33.320 understanding that
00:13:35.880 some of us as survivors
00:13:37.640 did go home
00:13:38.840 and we have a relationship with our
00:13:41.640 biological family
00:13:42.860 but not all of us did
00:13:45.000 you know
00:13:46.200 and even the veterans
00:13:48.080 didn't even get to come home
00:13:50.400 they're buried over in foreign lands
00:13:53.060 but they're visited now
00:13:54.840 they're visited by our
00:13:56.300 and that's a good thing
00:13:58.600 And you are living proof that this is not ancient history by any means. This is living history. I think the last residential school in Canada was closed in the 1990s, which was really not that long ago.
00:14:18.880 Yeah, and the Inuit one closed in 1997. The Indian one closed in 1996. So the Inuit one closed in 1997. We have to remember those different conversations, not all the group homes, not all the old homes.
00:14:37.180 Yeah, you have, like my younger brothers went to Prince Albert Residential School. So it's like, if you were born at a certain time, before 1997, if you were Enoch, or Indian, because that's what the government called us back then, 1996, all the way, right?
00:15:02.120 So think of, well, 2025, so think of a 35-year-old, a 40-year-old.
00:15:14.440 They're that young, right?
00:15:16.300 And they're living amongst us, as they seem.
00:15:20.520 They're living amongst us and still carrying the heart rate.
00:15:32.120 Because it was still a distension of your land, your community, language, your family, and having to live amongst hierarchy that sometimes completely silenced voices.
00:15:48.580 And certainly just because...
00:15:50.440 Oh, go ahead.
00:15:50.880 and some um you know because you'll sometimes history will say oh but there there was that one
00:16:00.680 student that spoke about such a good experience and people will flow but i always remind people
00:16:08.280 it wasn't just a kid like how did your family benefit
00:16:14.700 did your family because if it wasn't it was just the kids who was the teacher
00:16:22.280 who was the rcmp who was the priest who was the nun in your family why aren't you showing us your
00:16:31.440 pictures and why aren't you you reciprocating them because you show our pictures every september
00:16:39.760 30th, or whenever you talk about TRC or reconciliation, well, you could reverse that and look back
00:16:48.000 into your own family and say, yes, my family helped build the school.
00:16:54.380 Yes, my family benefited.
00:16:56.880 My family was teaching there.
00:16:58.760 My family, you know, they're reciprocal.
00:17:01.960 And sometimes in that truth, the truth comes to that place of healing.
00:17:09.760 Because that family that worked there is silencing and feeling shame.
00:17:17.420 What would happen if you outed yourself?
00:17:21.480 Like, what are we going to do?
00:17:24.000 Okay, we believe you.
00:17:27.180 You know, there is a majority of them may have passed away.
00:17:32.320 But then we can say, and they came forward.
00:17:37.460 and they recognize
00:17:39.800 maybe their harm
00:17:41.080 that that family's legacy
00:17:43.120 had and this is how
00:17:45.440 they're reciprocating it
00:17:46.900 this is how they're undoing that
00:17:49.260 with community
00:17:51.380 within the mission
00:17:52.940 within livelihood
00:17:55.300 and monetary
00:17:56.760 how are you giving back
00:17:59.060 community because you benefited
00:18:01.800 and everybody
00:18:05.540 just said oh it was just a job
00:18:07.440 no it wasn't a job it was part of a genocide yes and even though those residential schools
00:18:16.620 are closed and canada is you know talking a big game about reconciliation the impact of that
00:18:25.260 is continual the impact of i wish there was another term because 60s scoop almost sounds
00:18:34.420 like cute you know what i mean oh it was the 60s scoop it was like a dance we used to do or
00:18:39.660 something like that like this was the kidnapping of children away from their homes how did how
00:18:47.600 did you eventually return home how did that happen you know you have to consider um
00:18:56.520 like we didn't like because i was raised in foster care first and then i was raised
00:19:06.400 through this agency called an adopt an indian and metis child of the aim program in saskatchewan
00:19:15.840 And their start was in 1967. So their height of scooping children was in 1969. Ta-da! That's when I was scooped.
00:19:28.980 and it was literally black cars
00:19:33.020 running after us as kids
00:19:35.620 using a vehicle to run after
00:19:38.740 and we were literally spooked
00:19:41.900 and then placed in these
00:19:45.840 alarms or halls
00:19:50.240 or these concepts that we were orphans
00:19:53.660 giving the outside narration
00:19:56.200 that there was something wrong with these kids
00:19:58.600 we need to save these kids 0.99
00:20:00.720 to save the Indian
00:20:02.140 same concept of what was the narration
00:20:04.800 at residential school
00:20:06.180 save the Indian
00:20:10.320 or
00:20:12.420 save the man 1.00
00:20:14.260 kill the Indian 0.98
00:20:15.900 comes from the Carlisle school 0.97
00:20:18.820 that was adapted up here
00:20:20.660 you know
00:20:22.260 so the same narration
00:20:24.800 save the 1.00
00:20:27.940 You know, force them, kill the Indians, kill their language, just poke them all away, you know. 1.00
00:20:37.180 And we have to consider back then, nobody was talking about police record checks. 0.98
00:20:43.880 So some of us were adopted into farming homes and put into pretty dangerous situations, you know,
00:20:54.000 expecting us to be these humans of adulting at childhood ages.
00:21:03.040 And then exploited, human trafficked, abused, put on display.
00:21:16.120 Look, this is my Indian child.
00:21:20.760 And you just kind of stand there and you're like, where?
00:21:24.000 Because you didn't know you were the Indian, but you know that there's a difference depending on the age you were apprehended.
00:21:34.440 Like I was a toddler, but I already knew the feel of my mother, the feel of my siblings, the smell of my character, the teas and the carnation milk that I drank, the moose meat.
00:21:50.100 And, you know, the community remembrance, your body remembers those different fields of safety.
00:21:58.380 But you also remember the trauma, too, and the terrorizing that happened at the Middle Ages.
00:22:05.080 And you don't even know, and nobody's explaining anything.
00:22:08.560 No one's talking about mental health for little people back then.
00:22:11.720 You know, it was just like, we're saving them.
00:22:14.940 And the commercializing that was placed on us, too.
00:22:19.520 We were in catalogs, we were in commercials, we were in newspapers, we were in our daily child, whether it was on TV or in newspapers.
00:22:31.900 And the different agencies that came from not just Adopt an Indian and Métis, the AIM program, the different other agencies that were systematically just pinballing all of our kids.
00:22:49.520 And not always ensuring or following up with these families or making friendships with these families so that it was given the interpretation that your child welfare worker was friends with the family.
00:23:04.900 You had to play nice with your child welfare worker.
00:23:08.380 And that just made no sense.
00:23:09.960 That's like being a child of war.
00:23:12.180 Because you're in a system of war that you don't even know.
00:23:17.180 And that isolation, too.
00:23:18.720 you're at our house now
00:23:20.920 you live here, you eat this food
00:23:23.360 you speak this language
00:23:24.800 you worship this God
00:23:27.000 you worship this God
00:23:29.060 because you had to be saved
00:23:31.800 and you know people
00:23:34.640 even myself
00:23:36.880 I've had to adapt how I've spoken
00:23:39.980 because there used to be a time of loyalty
00:23:43.040 I can't speak like that
00:23:46.700 That wasn't my chance, but that wasn't my chance.
00:23:51.400 You know, and this place of, luckily I was running away from the time I got into that house.
00:23:59.100 I started running away from that home when I was four years old, and then six, and then eight.
00:24:06.900 I was running to somewhere, somewhere else, because this wasn't making any sense to me.
00:24:12.000 and then being raised in another country for a few years
00:24:16.640 and then being brought over to Ontario.
00:24:18.920 And the way I escaped over here was I became a really good drug addict
00:24:24.360 in my younger years.
00:24:27.160 I was a very good alcoholic because I thought,
00:24:29.240 oh, hey, I can't escape that way anymore,
00:24:31.640 so I'll just take myself out.
00:24:37.120 It was easier that way.
00:24:39.240 And there was other people that wanted to do that too.
00:24:41.540 So then you build a community, and you're like, I belong somewhere.
00:24:47.800 And there would be escapees.
00:24:50.400 Yeah, right?
00:24:51.700 And we think that this is something normal, right?
00:24:56.140 But that's pretty dangerous, too, because you get yourself into some really not so great situations,
00:25:03.220 and you're thinking, oh, this must be part of this living, you know, trying to escape.
00:25:07.960 Yeah, and then you realize you don't really want to do that anymore.
00:25:14.000 And by the time I was in my late 20s, I was trying to farm reduce from when I was about 24 to about 28.
00:25:25.320 Farm reduction, and thank God people, we didn't talk about farm reduction back then.
00:25:31.340 And reduction saved my life, you know.
00:25:34.460 that people were like you know what would happen if you just kind of feel back and i was like what
00:25:41.160 what do you mean i was like i'd gone to college it got became an early childhood and i was like
00:25:48.460 like is this my life like um am i supposed to do this for the rest of my life for you
00:25:55.300 what else can i do this isn't always working anymore i'm i'm losing jobs too and i'm
00:26:01.340 And I'm an adult because I've been, you know, adulting out here, out here, because I left that house finally when I was 17, you know.
00:26:13.200 And I was put on this different pathway of, you know, like, what would happen if you went to college?
00:26:21.320 And what would happen if you went to school every day?
00:26:24.420 And what would happen?
00:26:26.340 And I kind of still carry that forward.
00:26:29.620 What would happen if I got another certificate?
00:26:32.140 What would happen if I did go to school?
00:26:34.180 What else can I do?
00:26:35.680 They're not that growing into, you know, places of, you know, like, you're right.
00:26:40.480 That's what happened.
00:26:43.080 But how are you living with what also you can grow into?
00:26:52.020 Well, the Sixty Scoop isn't just my path.
00:26:56.960 It's like 40,000 to 60,000.
00:27:02.800 I think those are conservative estimates too, right?
00:27:06.060 Yeah, because they didn't number us, right?
00:27:08.600 We were trapped.
00:27:10.200 We were super trapped.
00:27:12.840 You know, I always, you know, and people are like,
00:27:17.420 oh, I don't know my paperwork.
00:27:19.260 Well, you can ask for it.
00:27:21.200 Go to your child welfare, give your date, give your names.
00:27:24.740 you know it it's hard to do because it's like this is me and and that's why under the 60 scoop
00:27:32.920 network we have a dna uh detectives so if you check on our website um your dna detective there's
00:27:41.680 also a mapping exercise you can do there that you can put your name like where were you born
00:27:47.620 what was your original name
00:27:49.760 like
00:27:50.900 it's your
00:27:52.700 your lifeline
00:27:55.520 that you want to fill
00:27:56.720 mine I put mine pretty
00:27:59.320 minimum you know simple
00:28:00.900 it goes from
00:28:03.040 Saskatchewan or Prince Albert
00:28:04.980 Linflawn, Prince Albert, Saskatoon
00:28:07.560 Botswana
00:28:09.180 Saskatoon 0.99
00:28:11.540 Ontario
00:28:12.960 and I've stayed in Ontario
00:28:15.000 you know
00:28:16.760 So it's kind of like my own talking, like, yep, that's where I was, and that was the age, and I reunited in 1996, and I'm still in that conversation of how am I still consistently engaging with my own family, and I'm still learning, you know, even after 30 years.
00:28:38.300 And even opening the child welfare files together as siblings, like what would happen? Holy heck, there's a lot to learn.
00:28:46.520 um listeners i want to remind you that um you can join our reparations fundraiser and possibly
00:28:54.840 win a prize by donating to the 60s scoop network so elaine i want to know like how did you conjure
00:29:03.400 the fortitude to not only you know um get sober get clean go to school get all of your certificates
00:29:12.200 but then to found this 60s scoop network how did you conjure that strength to take your pain
00:29:19.440 and turn it into something that was going to benefit other people there were other survivors
00:29:24.960 here like a lot were brought ottawa like a lot of survivors 60s scoop specific or ottawa so 0.90
00:29:33.820 So there used to be a beautiful young lady.
00:29:37.900 She passed away, Leslie Parley and Bob.
00:29:41.780 And when I say Bob, it means that they were living here once, but their memory stays.
00:29:49.060 And then there's another nice lady.
00:29:52.780 Her name is Beverly Pfeiffer and Holly and myself.
00:29:58.660 And we met for lunch.
00:29:59.780 And I was kind of ticked off because Eric Robinson had had a roundtable, I think it was like 2012, and had a roundtable of 60 Scoop survivors and kind of doing a report on 60 Scoop survivors.
00:30:24.560 when I was kind of
00:30:26.700 little
00:30:28.400 ticked off. It was 2016
00:30:30.520 and
00:30:31.980 he
00:30:33.460 no, it was 2014
00:30:35.920 and he did
00:30:37.480 he was doing a report
00:30:40.540 to acknowledge the suffering
00:30:42.180 of the
00:30:42.920 and he brought
00:30:46.400 together some survivors
00:30:48.380 and I was like, well, who did
00:30:50.460 he bring together? Like, how come
00:30:52.500 he doesn't know
00:30:53.460 was born in manitoba pauline's from alberta you know uh rastly ba was from saskatchewan
00:31:04.520 and and beverly's from ontario right and there we go and i was like you know one of those like
00:31:12.340 how come we didn't even know so that's that conversation of canada's really good at taking
00:31:18.380 out but it's not good at bringing back so what would happen if there was a better communication
00:31:27.180 that was federally funded
00:31:30.780 because you federally funded all these systems to extract but what would happen if you
00:31:40.780 wrap up
00:31:42.000 we communicate
00:31:44.240 and I know
00:31:47.420 it has to start somewhere
00:31:48.560 people are like it has to start
00:31:50.200 I know but
00:31:52.500 isolation
00:31:54.780 again that feeling of isolation
00:31:57.340 and that feeling
00:31:59.260 of helplessness
00:32:01.260 but
00:32:03.320 bring behind it
00:32:05.440 a valid rate
00:32:07.340 that kind of
00:32:10.060 in my head, like, how dare he, blah, blah, blah, and I'm, I'm, it's not, it has nothing
00:32:17.320 to do with him, but with the fact that there was a conversation, and we felt left out,
00:32:24.340 I felt left out, so, Leslie and, um, a few of them said, well, why don't we do our own
00:32:35.520 gathered and i was like okay like how do we do that i'd never done anything like that and colleen
00:32:44.560 is such a wonderful organizer with beverly and monthly and there was a few others on the committee
00:32:49.800 and we made like a ad hoc committee we had no money until we did karaoke karaoke and 1.00
00:32:58.060 wonders and you know a lot of the time the non-indigenous were the ones that stepped
00:33:03.140 forward with the with the prizes with the um with the rides with the um uh what else do you need
00:33:11.580 and different unions and grassroots unions came forward and it was really it was a really um
00:33:17.920 eye-opening for me and some of them were from um the way that they had already supported them
00:33:25.240 and my w and t um basis and they were like okay we can do this part too and that was new for me
00:33:32.780 that was like my husband
00:33:35.000 because I was like
00:33:36.240 oh no I don't like my social
00:33:38.840 skills of like now I've got to talk to
00:33:40.780 new people and because I'm an introvert
00:33:42.620 like by
00:33:44.320 usual right
00:33:45.920 and
00:33:48.100 and calling me this great at
00:33:50.720 like kind of like my husband
00:33:52.880 like they're really great at going
00:33:54.840 out there and
00:33:55.740 like having no problem
00:33:58.920 like a crisis is happening no problem
00:34:00.920 we got this you know and
00:34:02.220 so i've had to really work on my anxiety and my social guilt i hear ya
00:34:07.860 but it's it was all it all worked out it all worked out and we we brought in a sacred fire
00:34:15.640 we started in ceremony and we brought different things there was different learning curves that
00:34:20.960 we you know but you know all these survivors showed up and and we didn't even know that
00:34:25.720 they'd come on their own time we were like if you can look at here these are the dates these
00:34:31.220 of the times and um this is what we can offer and we all just came and as they were all leaving
00:34:37.900 after the four-day event they were like okay see you next year and we're like next year
00:34:42.760 and that was their the starting of of the gatherings these national international
00:34:52.040 gatherings because it went to survivors that were raised in france new zealand australia
00:35:01.200 like it went
00:35:02.980 you said you were
00:35:04.760 taken to Botswana at one point
00:35:07.320 you said
00:35:07.860 I was raised by a white
00:35:11.300 family that also worked
00:35:13.200 for an agency
00:35:14.980 that worked overseas
00:35:17.180 so
00:35:19.240 you know when I was trying to explain that
00:35:21.220 to my biological mom
00:35:22.680 my
00:35:24.480 my
00:35:27.000 my adopted parent had
00:35:28.480 made a photo album
00:35:30.920 i bought the photo album and she looked at me uh sitting on an ostrich and she's like what are you
00:35:36.840 doing and what is that i said oh that's when we we lived in botswana and she's like where's that and
00:35:42.200 i said africa and she's like i didn't tell them that you would do that so it was like really
00:35:49.240 painful for her really shameful to her that she didn't know that her little girl had gone so far
00:35:56.200 you feel that generational
00:36:06.960 love for your children
00:36:10.980 and if you're a parent
00:36:13.360 or even if you love children
00:36:15.440 even if you're connected to a child
00:36:17.760 and you don't know where that they are
00:36:20.060 there's such heart
00:36:22.340 that just can come up
00:36:24.360 at any time
00:36:25.300 and then you find out
00:36:27.540 a little bit of the truth and you're like
00:36:29.500 I didn't know that
00:36:30.480 so it's a lot of it
00:36:32.820 so imagine how many
00:36:34.980 people are looking
00:36:36.320 across this nation across this land
00:36:39.300 that still
00:36:41.460 exists today
00:36:42.180 you said
00:36:45.420 in this first gathering
00:36:47.540 there was an element of ceremony
00:36:49.700 can you talk about
00:36:50.940 the healing nature of ceremony
00:36:54.420 how a ceremony can can help people to heal themselves and and the people with whom they're
00:37:00.420 gathering well you know sometimes that's that first time of seeing uh first nations or an indigenous
00:37:10.580 you know or um maybe ceremony is there's distinctiveness but one thing that does
00:37:17.860 bring us together even in different other nations is fire fire fire is life there's a there's an
00:37:29.860 element of fire there's a there's a living element in a fire and when you hear the crackling
00:37:36.980 it's a medicine talking so sometimes when we're sitting by the fire and sometimes survivors just
00:37:43.880 sat by the fire the whole time.
00:37:45.240 They didn't want to be inside.
00:37:47.420 And that was fine.
00:37:48.260 There was no expectation of youth.
00:37:51.800 That's really important.
00:37:53.340 So it was trying to be as what we knew back then
00:37:56.720 of what was trauma-informed.
00:37:59.100 We were trying to be as flexible,
00:38:02.760 as a space to give space for us.
00:38:08.920 Because that didn't happen very often. 0.80
00:38:13.880 We have space for survivors, specifically a 60-scoop survivor.
00:38:19.500 Because sometimes we were raised with our siblings.
00:38:25.260 Sometimes we were raised in isolation.
00:38:27.940 Sometimes we were adopted and returned.
00:38:31.560 And then adopted again, and then returned.
00:38:34.940 Sometimes we were raised only in group homes.
00:38:37.300 Sometimes we were raised in this space of orphanage.
00:38:41.140 So there's a lot of isolation, and trying to explain that to the outside world, and then bringing survivors all together by saying, we might understand a little, we might not, but we all have a shared experience called child welfare, the beginning of this different place called the school.
00:39:03.840 and we
00:39:06.520 we brought in
00:39:09.040 as best as we could
00:39:12.060 of who we knew back then
00:39:13.340 some different facilitators
00:39:15.160 and we used the leadership in this territory
00:39:18.120 of Quaretta Amanda
00:39:19.920 and we went to her
00:39:21.480 we offered her tobacco
00:39:23.100 and we asked for a name
00:39:25.900 and
00:39:27.200 not many of us are
00:39:29.900 speakers because we've lost our
00:39:32.060 talk as they say
00:39:33.180 and she's a beautiful speaker
00:39:35.460 and he named us
00:39:37.760 Bejiwe
00:39:38.400 coming home 1.00
00:39:40.800 and it was so
00:39:43.560 you know
00:39:45.220 and of course
00:39:47.980 we were
00:39:49.660 you know kind of move forward
00:39:51.500 real fast thinking
00:39:53.340 we were calling it Bejiwe
00:39:55.400 for a while so we were just like
00:39:57.400 navigating it's Bejiwe
00:39:59.360 you know from home
00:40:01.160 and um it was just really incredible because we didn't know and people some people came from
00:40:08.760 vancouver some people came from close like i just thought it was going to be like just ottawa peoples
00:40:14.380 ottawa survivors but i didn't realize how far of a catch in this social media learning
00:40:20.860 back then to now it just kind of spread and and i was like i guess you know and and they had
00:40:30.780 organized you know an intake and who was coming who wasn't and and we were just like if you can 0.79
00:40:37.400 make it here we'll try and set you up and that's where the non-indigenous stepped forward and 0.98
00:40:42.280 we'll billet people we'll we'll drive them we'll help with food and you know i remember going to 0.76
00:40:49.020 the grocery store and um and and helping you know uh that had been hired and and needing to start
00:40:57.660 So I had to leave them at the grocery store and they were all mad when they, you know, but the reality is, you know, I wanted to be there on time, you know, and it's hard to coordinate everything to be there at the same time too.
00:41:11.900 And sometimes, you know, like, if you look at the first picture of the survivors, you know, like, we've lost some of them now.
00:41:23.800 They're not here now.
00:41:25.140 So I was like, we did that.
00:41:27.480 We did that.
00:41:28.200 And there was people that wanted to come to that place of, you know, like, wanting to be there for them and with them and understanding whatever the circumstances, sometimes they weren't all there.
00:41:43.880 That's that, you know, we didn't find everybody yet.
00:41:51.040 There's lots of time.
00:41:54.780 You've got lots and lots of time.
00:41:56.980 i imagine you're going to be doing this for many many years to come i sometimes wonder because i
00:42:04.840 like are we still relevant oh it's of relevance you know i i because you gotta say you know like
00:42:14.280 sometimes the funding like we we run on on hardly any sunday right like we got a nice grant at one
00:42:21.420 point and we've got a curriculum so i always say hire us as your curriculum if you look at that
00:42:27.680 and about does uh does you dig i probably said that wrong it's a trauma-informed training
00:42:35.360 so there's uh five or six different trainings that we deliver you know how to be an ally um
00:42:41.660 philosophy of trauma um 60 scoop impact um when you're working what is in your bundle when you're
00:42:48.660 working with 60 Scoop survivors, Talking Circles, 60 Scoop 101.
00:42:54.420 You know, like there's a whole bunch.
00:42:55.720 And that's why I always say you hire us.
00:42:58.420 Hire survivors for survivors.
00:43:01.980 Or survivors for non-survivors that don't know.
00:43:05.420 Because that place where people are trying to say, oh, we're culturally confident.
00:43:09.920 But are you on 60 Scoop?
00:43:12.160 Like how trauma-informed are you?
00:43:15.080 So I always say, go to our webpage, look at it, hire us.
00:43:21.860 Because it's really important that you hear from survivors, survivor-led.
00:43:26.940 Yeah.
00:43:28.460 And again, listeners, if you make a donation to the 60 Scoop Network,
00:43:33.580 obviously that will count toward the prize draw.
00:43:38.140 But it's not just about donation.
00:43:40.960 It's about investing in a potential future that we can share together.
00:43:47.720 I would prefer if you think of it as an investment as opposed to a donation.
00:43:54.280 Elaine, if you're comfortable closing your eyes, please do so.
00:43:57.880 But I want to invite you to sort of describe that possible future using like your vision, your imagination,
00:44:09.120 the ancestors that live within you
00:44:12.040 can you describe
00:44:13.580 what a re-indigenized world
00:44:16.020 would look like 1.00
00:44:29.360 yeah you know how people
00:44:30.840 talk about land back
00:44:32.760 it's more than just land back
00:44:36.080 it's language back
00:44:37.620 community
00:44:38.980 barriers to come back
00:44:42.360 all the love would come back
00:44:49.640 because when we talk about trauma
00:44:53.440 we talk about love
00:44:54.540 right
00:44:57.180 there would be no
00:45:00.420 harm
00:45:01.680 there would be no more harm
00:45:04.480 I've worked in
00:45:07.020 abuse for your whole life, none of that would be bad, it would never happen, generally
00:45:22.020 You know, you're medically, you're physically, school-wide, home-wide, you know, trauma-informed wellness, you know.
00:45:42.520 We would all have that knowledge that if one got hurt, we would understand we're all hurt, and the water would be clean, and there would be no extracts, and then no idea that was conversational or separatism.
00:46:09.520 to them
00:46:10.020 would be even
00:46:13.320 under people
00:46:14.320 like you know
00:46:17.320 like if we say you know we all belong
00:46:23.600 in the circle then
00:46:24.880 include our true spirit and trans
00:46:27.460 relatives
00:46:27.860 you know even questioning
00:46:30.980 we have every right
00:46:33.420 to
00:46:33.720 be in such good ways to bring
00:46:37.440 our ceremony and our right
00:46:38.780 inherent rights back
00:46:40.360 inherent rights of passaging back
00:46:42.820 I try to live
00:46:48.040 in a way that
00:46:49.580 doesn't do harm
00:46:53.140 and it's hard because
00:46:54.840 there's a lot of different things
00:46:57.680 and that's why I don't like being on
00:46:59.560 social media
00:47:00.320 and then that feeling of
00:47:03.880 there's my son
00:47:05.020 it's at FOMO
00:47:06.180 fear of missing out
00:47:09.000 but I'm like, you know what
00:47:10.800 if I'm supposed to see it, I see it
00:47:13.040 if I don't, I don't really want to
00:47:15.060 because there's a lot of harmful words
00:47:17.080 that are happening, that are harmful
00:47:18.940 for my relatives
00:47:20.000 so I
00:47:22.560 watch cat videos
00:47:24.900 I watch
00:47:27.060 and listen to our songs
00:47:29.160 I wish
00:47:31.640 I wish
00:47:32.800 I could have
00:47:34.320 recorded
00:47:35.520 the voices of my
00:47:38.020 loved ones to listen to.
00:47:40.800 That's my next
00:47:41.980 step, is to ask my
00:47:44.000 siblings, record your voice
00:47:46.240 for me.
00:47:48.020 Singing a song, or even just
00:47:49.800 saying a prayer for me.
00:47:52.140 Because we all need prayers, we all need help.
00:47:57.420 But the bigger picture is that we would all be
00:48:00.200 feeling a sense of home.
00:48:04.320 that you come home to yourself.
00:48:07.840 Thank you so much for that vision.
00:48:09.640 I don't want to put you on the spot,
00:48:11.280 but would you consider singing a couple of lines for us
00:48:14.300 that can be recorded here today?
00:48:19.200 Hmm.
00:48:19.680 Hmm.
00:48:25.160 What's the change?
00:48:26.200 How did you go to make the world?
00:48:28.700 Get down and I'm going to do.
00:48:30.520 I know what I'm going to do.
00:48:32.280 Oh, no.
00:48:33.380 That's that one.
00:48:34.920 I forgot it.
00:48:36.460 Late for me, probably that one.
00:48:38.600 It was the most Indian word song that I ever sang.
00:48:42.240 Oh, hey, oh, hey, oh, hey.
00:49:12.240 Thank you so much, Elaine.
00:49:24.980 I really appreciate you singing for us and taking the time to sit down with me.
00:49:32.480 Again, can you remind our listeners how they can support the Sixties Scoop Network and your work generally?
00:49:42.240 Well, look us up. We're at 60scoopnetwork.org. You can listen to our upcoming podcast. We're getting into podcasting.
00:50:00.540 We have a donate in-kind services we provide, legal options for 60 Scoop survivors, the different media and news, the DNA genetic, the trauma-informed training, the mapping, the resources in the community event.
00:50:23.460 So that's that important place of ensuring that you follow through.
00:50:30.540 And then follow through again, and then check it again, and then make it a part of your daily habit of how am I helping in this community on this land that I live on that may be benefiting.
00:50:45.640 thank you so much elaine listeners again that's the 60s scoop network of course all of these links
00:50:55.880 and also to find elaine on social media even though she's busy watching cat videos we can still
00:51:03.960 follow her to keep up with what elaine is doing again thank you so much for sitting down with me
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00:51:24.920 and you'll have the knowledge that you are investing in this indigenized future that we
00:51:32.680 are envisioning here today thank you again so much elaine kick nasley it's been a joy to be
00:51:40.520 in circle with you i can't wait to have another conversation in the future you're welcome thank 0.82
00:51:46.880 you so much kina's commented hi hi and blessed fucking me 1.00
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