Poog with Kate Berlant and Jacqueline Novak - LED Meltdown

00:00:00.780 Two best friends, both alike in dignity, nurturing phantoms and courting the muse. 1.00

00:00:05.660 The hag divines when something must die. 0.86

00:00:08.000 Yes, that was Poogh, but this is huge. 0.93

00:00:10.680 The ego loves to seek, but never to find.

00:00:13.520 It was Berlant and Novak the whole time.

00:00:19.280 Happy holidays.

00:00:21.780 Now, here we are on, what does my mom call this?

00:00:25.520 Oh, Erev, New Year's Eve, because it's Eve of Eve.

00:00:28.840 evie yeah um 20 26 this is a gorgeous lipstick what is that i always look at it going like oh

00:00:37.140 what is this and then i go i go like hoping it's gonna be like is this that chanel i stole from

00:00:41.500 paul i mean he gave it to me right like from his like cabinet what is it and then it's like i'm

00:00:46.020 disappointed you know no no disrespect right but then it's like it's from and other stories

00:00:50.780 right oh yeah it's like that's not where i'm going to get my makeup right sorry right now

00:00:56.160 in a pinch i obviously will now their stories in a while oh you know what i speaking of malls

00:01:01.320 well i guess because any of their stories to me is in a mall i had and i did send you a video did

00:01:06.640 you ever watch it i was spiraling in a parking structure did you ever watch that it's ultimately

00:01:11.660 a boring video maybe we'll put it for the subscribers but what were you hoping for i

00:01:15.740 continue to be shocked what about this what about this little cliche right war paint about about

00:01:21.080 about makeup oh yeah yeah yeah yeah um lipstick as war paint okay i continue to be shocked

00:01:29.380 humiliated and ashamed by the ease with which i get lost how i get lost i i we've talked about

00:01:38.060 this on the show in the past about buildings like you can't get into them like if it's like

00:01:44.700 where was i recently oh well you know it's nearly impossible to enter the beverly center 0.81

00:01:48.600 yeah okay i went back and forth back and forth if you're lucky you end up in egg slut which

00:01:55.420 i don't know how to tell you that the amount of time that my home we spend talking about 0.63

00:02:01.940 that restaurant's name just hating it yeah and and just going why yeah i know it's it's

00:02:07.960 when people who aren't funny make a little joke you get something like egg slut and what is the

00:02:13.200 joke that they love eggs that much that they're a slap for eggs is that it i guess so i guess so

00:02:18.580 but but sorry take me back so you're just for a second okay here we go so so listen to this

00:02:23.080 naomi and i are going to stop by the americana okay okay getting frustrated even the point is

00:02:32.600 this is going to happen or this did happen no this is what happened this is what happened we

00:02:36.320 stopped off we ran and we were driving separately we ran an errand okay great now let's and they

00:02:41.980 were like follow me into the parking structure we'll go i was like okay i'm following them i'm

00:02:47.600 following them what i think i see is their car turn right and i almost felt a little irritated

00:02:52.660 like why didn't they wait for me like they're just going so i like it was a slight thing i was like

00:02:57.040 i'm not really waiting for me the way but so so i turned right two cars to the why you were like 0.56

00:03:02.820 i'm gonna load up so much shit we weren't coming from home all right so they immediately call me 0.65

00:03:07.560 my phone starts ringing why'd you turn right i go i thought you turned right they're like no 1.00

00:03:13.440 now just go back it's a straight shot just like they saw you following an asshole yeah like it's 0.96

00:03:19.660 a straight shot into the parking structure i go okay so then i double back but then and this 0.98

00:03:24.940 happens to me i think i'm hacking the system i go oh there's another entrance i'll just go into

00:03:29.420 this entrance i go into this entrance of the mall i happen to notice also an in and out that i'd

00:03:34.540 never seen i go there's an in and out in glendale this is a big detail for my life but anyway i go

00:03:40.620 into a structure i go all the way they're like i parked i found a spot on the second floor

00:03:47.180 i'm on the fifth floor i get out i'm pissed i'm like oh no i'm sorry i'm sorry i missed the detail

00:03:56.260 i go into the structure i start to look for a spot i get overwhelmed i go i'm leaving this

00:04:01.540 structure i'm just i can't be in here i leave the structure you mean in your car yeah in my car

00:04:06.360 right you want to start again i'm gonna go i'm gonna go back the true way the way that i got

00:04:10.000 wronged and then i go through and i go okay here's the true way the way that i'm straight shot go back

00:04:14.360 in straight shot is the exact same spot again twilight zone right i was like how is this

00:04:19.540 possible this is a different block how is this possible so then i'm filled with self-loathing

00:04:23.200 and confusion and convinced that reality isn't what it seems because how could it have been the

00:04:28.340 same i'm passing the same guy loading into the internet like it made no sense it was a glitch 0.74

00:04:32.840 i go all the way up exhausted to the fucking fifth floor of the structure i call them 0.86

00:04:39.240 they're like how are you there right not only are you at the wrong mall wait i parked at the 0.97

00:04:46.240 glendale galleria oh they're across the street but the point is and i go your hack right your

00:04:51.520 hack right my hack send you into the other one yeah exactly and i thought i emotionally am unable

00:04:57.640 to leave the structure again and reenter a third time on a different structure so i'm going to walk

00:05:02.760 to meet you. 20 minute walk. Not kidding. 20 minute walk. At first there's anger and then

00:05:10.660 it dissolves and I'm laughing and Naomi's calling me and we're laughing because it's like it was the

00:05:15.380 most simple thing. It was just follow me. It's a straight shot. It's been now 30 minutes. I'm

00:05:20.760 walking. I'm keeping a steady pace. It was actually amazing because there were waves of anger and

00:05:27.140 frustration, but then it was just funny. And then I finally basically full 30 minutes later,

00:05:31.380 see them standing in front of the apple store at the mall and we both just like started like

00:05:36.460 hysterically laughing because it was just like how did this happen and but that kind of being

00:05:43.560 lost it continues it's but is this happening a lot where this is like anywhere coming a narrative

00:05:50.740 for you clearly come to this it's been years though oh where's the building 426 wilshire

00:05:55.840 cool well you that doesn't exist and i'm looking i'm just driving i got i mean so first of all

00:06:03.520 big buildings are impossible to enter all they're impossible to enter yeah all these medical

00:06:10.300 buildings like the ones i go to on sweet whatever sweet i go no i was just gonna say sweet we're 0.88

00:06:16.340 fucked okay it's like the building wraps around the corner okay you're going these buildings are 0.80

00:06:22.460 city blocks they're all um like a smoky dark glass yeah exactly right they're they're completely 0.98

00:06:28.440 opaque they're like we dare you to even try to find what you're looking for thank god my dentist

00:06:34.660 is in the sag after building so there's that that little statue on top of the thing okay yeah um

00:06:40.940 well i i too actually struggled in a parking garage recently it was a professional setting

00:06:47.600 I mean, it was a Hollywood building, okay?

00:06:53.260 And there were no signs.

00:06:56.340 No.

00:06:56.640 There was nothing.

00:06:58.140 I couldn't get out.

00:07:00.560 And, you know, there's this sort of culture of parking instructions and the calendar invite.

00:07:06.740 Oh.

00:07:07.560 So I've got my foot on a pedal, and I'm pulling up an email.

00:07:12.820 I'm pulling up a calendar.

00:07:14.460 Not smart.

00:07:14.660 I'm pulling up a map, a PDF map.

00:07:16.800 clicking through and you have to go into description okay and see this thing and it's

00:07:20.020 like it's like why don't you get there they're like park in the and it's like excuse me and then

00:07:26.120 and then i'm riding around in there following slopes going like a slope must a slope got me

00:07:33.220 in a slope will get me out right there was absolutely no signage i couldn't get out the

00:07:39.040 parking instructions they're so condescending when they do a big red arrow here's where you

00:07:43.120 gotta be it's like yeah if that were how i could find a place by right walking along the arrow

00:07:48.460 we wouldn't be in this mess is there a digital arrow in front of my eyes are you overlaying

00:07:53.640 a huge arrow in front of the size of the red arrow the arrow is not helping email doesn't

00:07:59.760 do the bigger the bigger the red arrow the louder you're shouting the less likely you're gonna find

00:08:05.920 it no no it's it's um something's got to give there right because it seems like the new move

00:08:12.080 would be, here's what's going to come out. Here's the new app that's coming according to me. All

00:08:18.580 right. It's like this. It's like, I have an office. I need to give out instructions to get to this

00:08:23.520 office. I go in my car and I drive the route. And while I drive the route, it videos it, it tracks

00:08:31.840 it, and it does my audio. Okay. It captures my audio. And then it takes that and it gussies it

00:08:38.560 up and it cleans it up. And then it goes, well, hold on. People might fuck up. And it says,

00:08:43.500 now go back and go past the correct thing. And I would go back. I would drive that route. We go,

00:08:48.160 uh-oh, I missed it. What do I do now? Don't accidentally get funneled onto the highway.

00:08:52.980 No, I turn around in this area. So the intelligence of the thing, we'll figure all those things out.

00:08:57.980 And then it's a catered, almost Google Maps-esque instruction system that you sent. You go,

00:09:05.500 here's my whizzy okay and don't worry the whizzy link is in the calendar okay click on the whizzy 0.85

00:09:10.420 your phone starts talking to you and it's specific to your situation with see the big ass whatever 0.98

00:09:16.320 it's right there right right right this is good this is a good fucking app because it all falls 0.99

00:09:21.320 apart with the as you say the 2300 wackadoo drive right it falls apart when that building is six 0.94

00:09:31.040 blocks wide well gmail doesn't work because we know you can't find email by the way literally

00:09:35.500 google maps it doesn't work falling apart today i searched hats to try to get to our thing i just

00:09:41.120 pulls up an email from 2004 i have to search rude phrasing that was made indelible in the hippocampus

00:09:46.580 emotionally yeah okay where i go i remember that person said you know please don't talk to me this

00:09:51.420 way okay i'm like i remember they misused the word you know whatever let's try that there there they

00:09:58.480 are email man my i got a funny i haven't had therapy in like i don't know two plus months

00:10:05.580 and my therapist reached just because i've been you know busy and fine you know whatever and

00:10:12.020 she texted me this morning she was like because she we do zoom and she was like i was like hi i

00:10:18.240 i'm you know i'm finishing up this job like i would love to come back tell me what you're

00:10:23.000 available next week she's like well i do have in person if you wanted to make the drive like

00:10:27.680 and then i didn't respond not just because i got distracted whatever and she texted me today

00:10:31.480 i hope my text about suggesting we meet in person didn't alarm you funny and i was like yeah i was

00:10:38.040 thrown i i said ha ha ha and then i've got the zoom got the zoom on the books uh therapy zoom

00:10:45.400 next week kind of an end of the year do you resist it do you go oh no or are you excited yeah i don't

00:10:50.620 know i'm usually like oh but then it's always it's always great and it's always like so many

00:10:55.960 always when you think you don't when you don't need it but the real breakthroughs happen yeah

00:10:59.840 it's best to go to therapy not in crisis um so so should i do the people know that boo the cat

00:11:06.280 has come inside and basically lives here now have i officially announced that has a full cat

00:11:10.400 i feel like it's not clear that you have a cat so remember boo the cat people will remember

00:11:16.080 listeners may know okay i talk about him he's the one i got the lounge chair for that the cat sized

00:11:22.060 patio lounge chair. He looks like a bobcat. He looks so cute. A little bobcat. He cuddles me

00:11:30.680 outside. He's the one that leaves us mice and rats. And he's the one that when you returned

00:11:35.580 back to Los Angeles after almost a year gone, ran screaming to you. Yes. Okay. Okay. And I feel

00:11:42.680 like I mentioned this a little bit, but it just needs to really be, I'm looking at him right now.

00:11:46.600 i mean he's resting on i'll say it the higher dose sauna blanket okay so sweet folded over and not

00:11:53.560 turned on um you know thousands have been spent okay on getting him squared away right it's like

00:12:00.620 and it's one of the best you know it's just like i can't i i'm sorry if i talked about this before

00:12:07.120 but it really needs to be stated it's like it just feels so good to take care of a little guy

00:12:11.480 i know he had he i discovered he had i went outside my pat everyone knows my cheap amazon

00:12:18.040 patio cushions okay that i'm ashamed to link to but people beg for it right my cheap cream

00:12:23.200 cushions i go out there i see pink marks on them like i go what is that blood and then i go i go 0.96

00:12:31.080 find boo and i'm looking and i'm seeing pink like oozing blood or something from the ass okay and 0.87

00:12:37.560 I'm like, it's on the side. 0.99

00:12:38.880 It's not coming out the hole, right?

00:12:40.500 Yeah, thank God. 1.00

00:12:41.300 And I'm like, someone bit him in the ass, right? 0.99

00:12:43.640 Because that happened once to one of my cats growing up, this cat named Orange. 0.99

00:12:51.340 I mean, sorry, his name wasn't Orange.

00:12:52.760 My family referred to him as Orange because he was Orange.

00:12:57.560 And it was like he came, he bit Ulysses, our cat, and then Blossom, my other cat, who you, I think, met in New York.

00:13:05.680 She ran and chased Orange.

00:13:07.560 you know, like a bat out of hell. Okay. And he never came back. Point is, 0.90

00:13:11.420 but yeah, I take boo in, I go, I think he's got a wound, whatever. So I Instacart over a carrier.

00:13:18.620 I go, I mean, it's gotta be done. I check with our neighbor because she feeds him at night. He

00:13:23.560 comes in at night a lot, you know, but she has two other cats. So she's always saying like,

00:13:27.540 we could take boo. She'd be happy if we took boo, whatever, whatever, but I don't want to overstep.

00:13:31.940 So I'm going, I'd like to take boo to the vet, you know, unless you have, she's like,

00:13:37.180 you know whatever i take him to the vet i even get on with the neighbor at the vet just again

00:13:41.800 before i you know and she was thrilled about the whole thing i mean about you know point is

00:13:46.700 not a cut folks okay ruptured anal gland okay so they have these anal glands that it was actually

00:13:56.720 a funny moment in the in the vet hospital where where i'm going three holes you know whoa like

00:14:03.020 and he's like well i'm like well boy cat like you know and i'm like was there supposed to be

00:14:08.420 a hole there or no and he's like the holes that secrete from the anal glands the secretions 0.64

00:14:12.880 those holes are into the rectum not on the outside right so i'm like to be clear an infected anal

00:14:19.440 gland and he had two infected anal glands meaning and they're not you know they're blocked whatever

00:14:25.180 gets so full that it busts through the skin out the back okay that wasn't like it just looked

00:14:32.380 like a wound okay well it didn't it didn't look that bad poor little boo right so anyway antibiotics

00:14:38.280 you know the whole thing wrapping him a blanket giving him his antibiotics you know chris is

00:14:44.120 ordering toys within minutes okay he's back on his chewy account you know like so pumped okay

00:14:49.040 stuff starts arriving for boo the pet fusion loungers we just got i just for those who just

00:14:54.200 need more of this tale i'm details may have already been said but it's just it's all happening

00:14:59.520 he's a love bug extraordinaire I'm so happy for you it's so great and I just need people to

00:15:08.520 understand that if you could just get your ass to the stray cat alliance okay the joy that will be 0.86

00:15:17.000 added to your life cannot be overstated second recommendation watch super vet you need to watch 0.97

00:15:24.440 super vet no no fitzpatrick referrals okay cannot recommend this enough does an animal occasionally

00:15:30.720 not make it yes you go well then i can't watch the show you'd be surprised okay because every

00:15:37.040 animal is being treated right and sometimes it's you know what brand coffee is that

00:15:42.860 this is oh my god kate i was soaring i was over the top you know sometimes you go god if people

00:15:51.200 saw this this is um a local cafe called locale okay because all the drinks are super locale

00:15:59.020 i'm just kidding i don't know what it stands for california oh no localness localness yeah yeah

00:16:04.640 but i go in there i am you know just

00:16:08.820 over talking with them you know giving them more back no such then they whatever i go there's a

00:16:16.420 yoga place next door I never see that I go I go and she's like it's really special actually it's

00:16:21.280 really special place she's like he's incredible like you know it's just him it's his practice so

00:16:27.620 there's only a couple classes you know but there's a couple classes a day there is private

00:16:31.380 yeah I go oh my god because it's just within walking distance you know when you see someone

00:16:37.000 with a yoga mat you go where are they coming from or two right of course how they make it look so

00:16:43.040 easy um so something where are so we're two nights before the new year let's get into it it's time to

00:16:50.260 get into it for the people i have to i have i have first of all i'm embarrassed to even say this

00:16:55.340 because it's so i can't believe what i think you're about to say reading no that you have

00:17:00.380 okay a resolution yeah that you're you're playing the game new year's resolutions are it's it's

00:17:06.000 there's a new resolution every week you know so yeah but there is something just to be clear i

00:17:11.320 I'm sorry.

00:17:11.840 I know I've brought this up before, but as we get to the end of this year, let me clear.

00:17:16.340 Yeah.

00:17:17.220 You are not picturing going back to the left side of the year.

00:17:22.720 Like starting Jan 1.

00:17:24.200 Oh, yeah.

00:17:24.500 Yeah.

00:17:24.720 Starting again.

00:17:25.700 Because I remember distinctly.

00:17:27.620 It starts again.

00:17:28.500 It goes back.

00:17:29.400 Okay.

00:17:29.660 Because I remember distinctly the beginning of last year when, and I wrote out an aggressive

00:17:33.940 plan for what I was going to finish during Jan, and then I was going to go off on the

00:17:38.600 road, but then I just sort of never came back.

00:17:41.320 And then I've returned and I'm here again and it's Christmas again.

00:17:44.460 So I'm in like a, I'm like in a groundhog year a little bit.

00:17:48.720 Like with the unfinished Hobonichi.

00:17:51.720 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:17:53.200 Which do I dare?

00:17:53.920 Boy, I've fallen so far off.

00:17:55.960 That's the thing that I feel.

00:17:56.800 Do we go in and write it after?

00:17:57.960 I've been pushing this agenda where you go back in and you look at your phone.

00:18:00.620 I've done that.

00:18:01.220 I've done that.

00:18:01.820 I think there's something, this, I'm really trying to hunker down this solstice and step

00:18:09.480 into the magic of it.

00:18:10.240 But I do think that there is something, um, the portal feels open right now.

00:18:17.220 The veil is very thin and I need to be returning to, for the last two years, I've really fallen

00:18:24.880 off the journaling.

00:18:26.020 I need to get back into journaling literature.

00:18:29.180 Now the phone, light phone, I'm going to enter light phone, but I'm going to, I have to do

00:18:35.200 another social media cleanse.

00:18:36.440 I've been in there deep, really deep.

00:18:39.420 Well, I told you that I am, I'm actually at a point of addiction with Facebook marketplace. Okay. That's become almost joyless where I'm in it without even knowing I'm in it. I briefly thought like I could probably sneak in some, some scrolling while we record. And I thought that like yesterday, like about like, oh no, we're recording tomorrow. That's some time when I won't be. Meanwhile, of course, more time that passes, then you go, oh, I haven't refreshed in a while. I bet there's some new listings.

00:19:05.860 i've looked at the same people's listings like the same listing without realizing oh that looks good

00:19:10.620 and then oh right i don't want it because they go it's in pretty good condition even though like my

00:19:16.000 dog shat on it 19 times you know what i mean yeah yeah these people with the rugs guys if it ain't

00:19:22.400 brand new rug novak if it ain't brand new jacqueline rug and if it ain't and if it ain't

00:19:29.000 freshly just professionally cleaned and instantly rolled it's gonna be a hard sell guess what i'm

00:19:35.420 waiting still waiting by the door patiently for my king-sized bed frame to arrive wait what did

00:19:40.140 you end up deciding on the enders i don't tell you this i went to a whole new brand no i got a

00:19:46.420 black friday i'm sure i brought this up i got a best buy again bed frame i'm teasing lulu and

00:19:51.700 georgia oh well lulu okay lulu and georgia i have resisted for so long yeah based on the name alone

00:19:59.200 because you know i don't like when i feel like the name is like like well i launched it right 0.97

00:20:03.340 around the time i had my twins right okay i resent i resist but here it is come on bitch 0.93

00:20:13.380 oh god i am in a i am in a complete i mean i can't tell you the cycle i'm in with 0.90

00:20:19.040 first the viral rug okay the arel speckled rug from rugs usa by arvin orlano these names okay

00:20:28.180 i've gone down and let's see verdant green okay oh look wow kate wait let me let me get let me

00:20:36.700 get this back it's very simple it's very simple nice so what's going on with the bedside table

00:20:42.420 that's because i'm in search of of everything right now i'm dealing with that later there

00:20:48.920 are i mean you're not even gonna tables bedside there are matching bedside tables that go with

00:20:53.800 this bed huge question i am open to a huge huge question you're finally free right yeah as in

00:21:01.360 your old bed had the built-in i know so now you're finally free to not go right but you're free to get

00:21:08.860 a rogue nightstand yeah i might go rogue you know finally right now i ask what do we want out of a

00:21:16.400 nightstand i want to talk about this for a while okay because the nightstand was heartbroken because

00:21:22.240 is the center of life in some ways. So my nightstand right now, as you know,

00:21:25.580 has been, is built into my bed frame and that's been great, but no drawer. It can be chaotic

00:21:31.360 quite quickly. I'd like a drawer to be able to shove, to shove. Yeah. I mean, right now I also

00:21:39.400 have, so I have a huge anchor. It's really nice though. I have an anchor hub I brought up there

00:21:44.660 to power the various devices I have blasting my brain with light. Okay. I had, I had our light

00:21:51.020 path led from scott up on the bedside table like inches from my head combined with this thing

00:21:56.560 i got the lima there it's it's like a it's wild well in the new year i'm committing to and i have

00:22:02.700 to do it my anchor hub is really nice i gotta say a full forehead well kate how because you know

00:22:08.300 what if you didn't do it when there was the excitement and i fell off too if we were unable

00:22:12.680 to do it when we were so fucking excited how are we gonna do it now i was doing it for a while 0.68

00:22:17.400 sweetie i think i logged a month a month every day religious and when would you do it random times 0.77

00:22:22.800 evening usually i mean for me as i think i told you television is the only way right it's

00:22:28.920 okay now i'm watching my tv let me grab let me grab it and just yeah just do it although you

00:22:34.940 know i was reading and i was doing some comparisons on the um irradiance and the whole thing and the

00:22:40.680 whole thing and it's a different kind of thing but scott's light path the box we have the tabletop 0.99

00:22:47.940 unit is serious fucking shit fuck it's like more powerful than any of the shit i know because it's 0.97

00:22:56.460 a little bit confusing however it's very confusing it doesn't have to be there's a simple basically 1.00

00:23:02.220 three button thing you can do every time and you don't have to get complicated okay do a video

00:23:07.800 tutorial for me i'm begging you yes okay thank you now i started going is it time to rack up more

00:23:14.860 panels is it time so here's a question i've got i've got my dad on the subscription yeah i fell

00:23:20.520 asleep under an led light at magic body spheres yesterday was my sixth session her tennis game

00:23:27.920 is her serve is coming along great folks remember no you were like this could be my tennis lessons

00:23:34.140 no never said that something's getting confused okay first of all first of all the woman who i

00:23:41.420 followed who introduced it to me she does tennis classes on the same day as she gets the massage

00:23:46.500 no kate it's a humorous moment okay on a podcast called poog okay from three weeks ago

00:23:54.020 it's you going well maybe this could be my tennis lessons as in you were deciding that you were

00:23:59.460 gonna let yourself do it like every week some women go to tennis every week this could be magic

00:24:04.940 spheres yeah um the listeners know i'm right no no i believe you i believe you fully one of the

00:24:12.180 funniest things is like you know to not believe like something was on the pod like like one of

00:24:18.280 the boldest things i never said that everyone on the pod cue the audio we heard it last year i mean

00:24:23.380 we heard last week. Yeah. Yeah. Hey, something I want to do in the new year. Yeah. I need to

00:24:29.160 fix my nails. See, they say you've ADD. Do you? Because God, you're on task. Remembering to talk

00:24:35.740 about the new year six times so far, the way you keep bringing it back. All right, give me more.

00:24:40.020 So by the way, early poog, we got sent something called bare hands. Do you remember? This is early

00:24:44.960 days. Yeah. It's early, early days, sweetie. And the whole thing, and I'm about to repurchase it

00:24:50.300 because i don't know where the fuck it is and it's like a system to have remember mother hands 0.90

00:24:56.640 my obsession with having mother hands yeah but bare hands like gwyneth mother i don't remember 0.98

00:25:01.040 any system cream might be a strong word there is a cuticle oil in like a pen yeah there's a clear

00:25:07.720 translucent yeah file and i don't think i got that it's for you you did the other thing i didn't get

00:25:14.680 that and you send tracking yeah i got must have been stolen oh indeed it is yeah yeah dry gloss

00:25:24.040 manicure kit yes okay i want wait why did i pull up my phone there was something i wanted to i

00:25:28.720 wanted to oh i know i wanted to pull up and this is because you know you're off gel i mean i got

00:25:35.020 so addicted to my russian manicure my amazing russian manicure yeah i was eyeballing these

00:25:39.060 okay i think i can repaint them or i'm trying to warm up warm up the bedroom because here's a

00:25:45.040 question am i okay the mid-century this welcome to los angeles on offer up slash um facebook 0.61

00:25:56.560 marketplace you ready yeah what do you see sunny ass day okay sunny ass day what's wrong i thought 0.55

00:26:02.600 i saw mosquito yeah sunny ass day you see pavement and you see like corrugated like the metal of a 0.89

00:26:10.260 storage unit okay and a building and then you see mid-century furniture starkly presented on the

00:26:18.560 sidewalk on the sidewalk but but it's not even a sidewalk it's you're clearly like a storage 0.79

00:26:22.300 facility or out back of a warehouse i've gotten some good shit at one of those okay and it's it's

00:26:27.000 the primo kind of this is where the mid-century and then you click on the thing and you go and

00:26:31.520 you go, whoa, they're moving a lot of units, right? So there are a lot of mid-century pairs

00:26:37.060 of nightstands, right? But there's so many that it's hard for me to get excited about any single

00:26:44.560 pair of them. I understand. Like, oh, a pair of Drexel. I've been eyeing the pair of Drexel,

00:26:50.660 you know? I can't. Do you know what I mean? Like the second something's available, I used to say

00:26:57.840 about the treadmill and calves like it's like the second the machinery is there to like tone up your

00:27:03.540 calves like who needs them anymore you're like so it immediately becomes what would be more

00:27:09.260 interesting i purchased out of pocket a p-volve workout system retail 650 it is in the box it 0.98

00:27:20.020 came in wow i have fucked myself yet again i'm gonna open it this did i tell you about my pottery 0.80

00:27:26.640 bar and eBay purchase. I don't think I told the listeners. So, you know, wisdom comes in from 0.99

00:27:31.680 Paul Monroe, Einstein's underscore NYC. By the way, shout out the hags. They went wild for the 1.00

00:27:36.560 holiday auction this year. Anyway, our hags are out there and they're listening. Okay. So I'm

00:27:45.780 telling him my woes about the curtain because I was obsessed with curtains. Right. And I still am.

00:27:51.100 It's not over. Oh, no, no, no. I've been meaning to tell you this. Okay. So for example, this is

00:27:55.360 the hell I'm in okay you ready for this okay so navy walls I've put up a navy curtain a textural

00:28:00.460 tone on tone obviously right you go what's that Jacqueline you're not gonna believe this okay

00:28:05.160 so let me just take you through this so these are Ikea Sonella okay Ikea Sonella navy velvet

00:28:13.900 curtains right that I just paid full price for and I'm about to buy two more panels for a fuller look

00:28:19.900 so when it closes it doesn't look dorm room okay okay i donated gave away these very curtains

00:28:29.140 like a year ago i hate when that happens going i'm tired of having the pile of four velvet curtains

00:28:35.480 from ikea in pink mustard in this navy and i'm not working and me just holding on to them believing

00:28:40.980 and i go i'm getting rid of them and if it becomes clear of the only curtains that i need for my home

00:28:46.360 are those navy curtains i'll buy them again and actually i did and i'm at peace yeah great can

00:28:52.140 you believe it that feels familiar i've got by the way folks i've got um i've got oh yes my

00:28:58.000 lighting we didn't we didn't talk about on poop my the lighting resolve my bistro lights oh we need

00:29:03.160 to we need to do a full reading but wait let me just tell you a little more about my curtains

00:29:05.920 just because the reason i brought up paul so i go to paul i go curtains right he goes

00:29:09.620 ebay pottery barn curtains he goes that's my trick quality cheaper okay great because that's

00:29:16.720 what you can do i go i found gorgeous and then i sourced them this is what gives me the a little

00:29:22.720 bit of high i sourced four separate panels of the same pottery barn curtain are you following from

00:29:29.080 four four different three different sellers and now i've got them do you want to see them yeah

00:29:33.700 i do they're the emery linen okay they're oatmeal and flagstaff okay flagstaff border

00:29:41.960 now i was on the back of my couch balancing on the back of my burrow installing vidga you know

00:29:51.060 vidga probably don't it's a system at ikea okay it's it's the track it's okay i i'm a god do you

00:29:59.440 know why i ordered missing parts tiny plastic missing parts and got them sent to me by the way

00:30:06.200 ikea will do this for free we'll send you yeah go i can't find the little parts they're they're

00:30:11.660 gone from my thing give them to you i'll give you six amazing all right so let me show you

00:30:15.740 and these are hanging in my home as you'll see on the track and i took down and put up different

00:30:22.200 there's a bunch that didn't make it okay i've a bunch of curtains i have to return to ikea

00:30:25.740 tons okay okay i put up and took down and put up and took down probably 20 times including

00:30:32.800 different hooks okay threading it through the the tiny little things different pleats it was

00:30:39.300 it was a sickness anyway do you see them yes they look great they do you've sent this to me before

00:30:46.100 all right fine fine i've seen them before all right fair enough fair enough okay um i mean

00:30:53.540 sometimes for the pod, you know, you can up it. I'm amazed. I'm amazed. You know, it's a stage act.

00:30:58.000 I'm amazed that you were able to do it. Wait, I have a question for you. You remind me, didn't,

00:31:02.560 we talked about my lighting disaster. See, here we go. Yeah. Yeah. So this is what's been riding

00:31:06.700 under the surface, right? Throughout the thing, right? What's been there? What's been pulling on

00:31:10.640 you? Okay. There's obviously, because it's not just that you want to talk about the bistro lights.

00:31:14.220 There's obviously some unfinished business that was pulling on you about the lights.

00:31:18.360 The bistro lights? Yeah. It's coming. I just feel like we didn't close the loop

00:31:22.680 on the fact that Jacqueline really sprung into action was offering to come over and help. It's

00:31:27.600 incredible. Should we read? It's pretty good. Should we try it? Yeah, totally. We had a really

00:31:32.900 fun text exchange. I really want to say you're a true friend. You really stood with me. It was

00:31:39.060 hours of texting. I was having a blast. Yeah. Okay, let me find it. I want a fabulous mocha.

00:31:48.200 it's also funny because it's also about whether or not you got fucked again whether or not there 0.99

00:31:54.120 was a snake in the grass well my mom was like it was like you got fucked which really stressed me 0.98

00:31:59.080 out okay all right let me get to the top of it hysterical it's so endless and then we can share 0.97

00:32:05.000 the screen grabs so we'll include those like one of us will also read essentially the stage

00:32:09.280 directions here all right it starts a bistro so 5 26 p.m here right led meltdown that they go into

00:32:16.060 the first words led meltdown wait where is it wait that's the first sentence okay let me look

00:32:22.380 i'm searching led meltdown it's right after a picture of your reef trying not to have an led

00:32:28.080 meltdown oh yeah sorry yeah okay i just meant that was the phrase and just the quick recap is

00:32:33.840 i was installing christmas lights bistro lights for my backyard oh wait and there's actually

00:32:38.560 something deeper go back a few okay pay through the nose is where it starts

00:32:42.920 okay oh by the way we both filmed breakdowns from earlier that day you had one and then I

00:32:50.020 had one at Lowe's and then you told me you know film it and then I monologued in the car crying

00:32:55.460 to myself I sent you well here listen this is the breakdown that I sent that I was talking about

00:32:59.740 earlier I don't know if this is content wait are you oh my god you guys I don't know if this is

00:33:04.420 content or what but the level to which I get lost it's really upsetting it's really hard

00:33:13.540 it is so that's me talking about that okay so then yeah I have a four minute starting in Lowe's

00:33:18.020 here I'll play a little for you well thank you for suggesting I film a meltdown you know I come

00:33:29.480 to essentially in Lowe's come to going why am I here and then at the end the woman on the way

00:33:41.080 out basically caught me crying you know watch me turn are you ready yeah

00:33:45.900 i'll be back i'll be back

00:34:00.540 i got caught you okay you okay amazing yeah okay okay okay wait so i wrote there all right here

00:34:08.720 we are paid through the nose for bistro lights now scared there are too many but i'm sure it'll

00:34:13.920 be nice oh this is way to the beginning and then here comes a photo in daylight okay i've relaxed

00:34:19.620 excited to see it turned on because it was daytime i had some on how are you i was low

00:34:24.820 okay and then 5 26 that evening trying not to have led meltdown you'll see they are sickening

00:34:32.920 white to me after i was so clear and then don't forget just a random end there i just think just

00:34:38.520 typos are important. Yeah. Okay. I feel you deeply. You mean so clear to the guy who purchased

00:34:44.860 quote, I want warm. And then I wrote, I'm still in the midst, meaning lows. Okay.

00:34:50.780 And I said, yes, I'm broken. $1,500, which by the way, then here comes some other screen grab.

00:34:58.520 And I said, this is a screen grab of my text with the Christmas light guy. Can we just do

00:35:02.440 warm white for the front instead of multicolored, please? Thanks. Yes, of course. Also, my question

00:35:07.760 is how how you remotely dim and turn on and off the lights thank you he says very easy to use

00:35:12.940 remote i say one more thing i have a really strong aversion to bright white led lights

00:35:18.580 so as warm as possible is ideal they don't need to be so bright thank you talk soon and he writes

00:35:24.560 and then he said he goes and and he goes oh yeah then you said i'm sure he got the warm ones do

00:35:29.740 you know what he purchased and i said i saw a box warm led and i said yes and do they dim like you

00:35:36.600 said and then i wrote in all caps maybe this is as good as it gets but i've driven in the

00:35:42.240 neighborhood and seen warmer so for everyone for clarity they're up she's it's night and she has

00:35:49.040 seen them now yeah okay i wrote you could do what i did once and spray paint the bulbs which years

00:35:55.480 ago i remember i did here comes the photo i get the photo and i go with warm frosted i say wow

00:36:01.380 i go looks great i say really seems so bright i go you don't want incandescent out there starting

00:36:07.160 fires show me a box if you still have and then i go because i want to see what you know i want to

00:36:13.300 get into the product then i go you can do what i do and unscrew half they're gone but i saw warm

00:36:18.260 white wow genius you don't even have to remove them try one so every other is illuminated yes

00:36:23.200 did you ask him about the branches wait wait wait because this is a different issue because

00:36:30.080 you wrap my trunk. I see a wrapped trunk and I'm going, what's going on? Did you ask about the

00:36:35.360 branches? And then I go, forget the pieces individually. Overall effect you want is

00:36:40.600 holiday beauty. Yes. I'm scared to ask about the branches. Like maybe I haven't heard.

00:36:47.100 I kind of want to just be done. Hours researching. I always fear saying anything too, but it's fine.

00:36:52.620 I said, I kind of just want to be done. Hours researching, texting, getting quotes.

00:36:58.440 How much of the $1,500 was the materials?

00:37:00.620 Hi, Dani.

00:37:01.200 Thank you again for staying within my budget.

00:37:03.460 But I do have a question.

00:37:05.100 I thought we had agreed to doing a couple of the main branches.

00:37:07.420 Was I mistaken?

00:37:08.280 That was me sending Jacqueline a draft that I could send to the Christmas event.

00:37:13.000 Great.

00:37:13.400 How many hours was he working for?

00:37:15.360 I sent you a breakdown for the quote the previous year.

00:37:17.780 Okay, which I study.

00:37:19.280 The above quote was last year, which was different.

00:37:21.120 I was too cheap to do it last year.

00:37:22.940 I wonder, I think people are going to want to know.

00:37:24.520 Do you want to hear the quote from last year?

00:37:26.520 Sure.

00:37:26.840 Hi, Kate.

00:37:27.200 please find a tailored quote below based on the lighting design we discussed wrap base of tree

00:37:31.780 with warm white mini led string lights wrap two front legs and center beam of pergola

00:37:37.100 with warm white mini led string lights install warm white c9 string lights along sides and top

00:37:43.880 of pergola run power and control tree from an automatic timer and pergola from remote dimmer

00:37:48.020 timer 300 warm white mini led string lights 150 warm white c9 150 power cords splitters and timers

00:37:57.020 50 cable claws zip ties etc so total materials 650 labor 600 1250 total payment schedule 200 0.79

00:38:05.960 on agreement etc which by the way it's a fucking expensive but the research i've done guys 0.72

00:38:11.000 it's a good deal yeah i'm telling you that's what's so crazy these people i had multiple 0.81

00:38:16.080 people charge me the work that he did i had other people tell me it would be 3500 okay you wrote the

00:38:20.680 above quote was was last year which was different was too cheap to do it i go did you get receipts

00:38:25.060 for the lights? No. No. I go $450 worth of lights. I'm curious. I sent you a picture of a hibiscus

00:38:32.240 bush that's wrapped. I go, they did the front too? And front. Pretty hasty, LOL. Just that bush.

00:38:37.680 Me fixated. Did you see boxes for the lights? Briefly. Came and went. Many boxes. Amazon.

00:38:43.340 They bought. Me writing a quote for you to use. Can I see exactly what brand lights were used

00:38:47.920 for the lights if I want to buy more? Totally. By the way, I should have asked ahead of time

00:38:52.700 for that information i realize now also i sat down and made a comprehensively

00:38:57.080 but by the way us texting these words like this is funny this is funny also i sat down and made

00:39:05.000 a comprehensive list of everything that had to get done today and tomorrow friday and saturday 0.78

00:39:09.160 and i fucking lost it disappeared i was proud it's gone so i want to say something i was really 0.87

00:39:14.560 overwhelmed by all the tasks and i sat down and put pen to paper and said thursday friday saturday 0.92

00:39:20.340 like here. And I felt like, wow, this feels doable. This feels, look how accomplished I am.

00:39:24.900 I wrote it down and I go, I'm going to go in the car and I'm going to go do the, start doing the

00:39:27.880 errands. I get in the car. It's just gone. The paper list is gone. It is just, I've never saw

00:39:34.940 it again. I wonder if you ever will. It's still is a mystery. So you say it was proud. And then

00:39:40.980 you say it's gone. Okay. I go, do you want me to take over? I'm tempted. And then I say,

00:39:46.740 but did they wrap minis on the pergola beams nothing on pergola too expensive fucking insane 0.99

00:39:51.680 so trunk of tree bush and bistro lights exactly and then i write i missed the shitty cheap job 0.91

00:39:57.940 the handyman did for 400 and then you send a photo of course yeah and then a tear teary emoji

00:40:04.520 crying for your multi-colored you know cheaper job i go did they send this year's receipt

00:40:10.100 i'll ask for a breakdown hi there could i get the breakdown slash receipt please and thanks

00:40:14.920 i can't by the way no recollection of me sending you like drafts like that and then i text it yeah

00:40:20.780 yeah i go great not my guy danny but i guess his boss which is like funny because it's like

00:40:25.260 like the details how many feet of lights on the bush isn't it weird how intense i get like how

00:40:32.880 many feet of lights on the bush how many on trunk and what brand size etc i'm giving you questions

00:40:37.380 that i need you to ask yeah and i'm writing you can ask okay great thank you for holding my hand

00:40:43.940 I'm really tempted to come over and make magic happen.

00:40:47.840 Naomi gets home soon.

00:40:49.100 I'm going to get their reaction, and then I'm going to climb up and unscrew a couple and see how I feel.

00:40:53.140 It's good you have those bulbs in place, in general.

00:40:56.100 I continue to be shocked by how difficult, expensive, and emotionally taxing everything is.

00:41:01.240 I filmed a long monologue today and cried, leaving Lowe's, etc.

00:41:06.400 The fact that that list disappeared out of thin air makes me feel like such a failure.

00:41:13.940 i got some stuff done though with dorji somehow everyone knows dorji my handyman like how did i

00:41:20.420 lose it in my own home or maybe it dropped out of my purse in the street amazing i can make magic

00:41:26.140 happen if you want help saturday decorating thank you so much maybe that ruins your joy

00:41:32.520 of hosting how can you tell what's going on the day though like oh you mean early five because

00:41:37.260 you're like how can you work with lights in the day and i go sure or friday night i'm shooting

00:41:42.660 but i think not late wow i moved i have a few ideas send me the bush now that it's dark i want

00:41:48.940 to see and i will say that i'm proud that the bush looks cute and then there's a picture below it

00:41:54.920 that's like warmer yeah and i wasn't sure what was going on okay and then here it comes folks

00:42:00.440 here it comes all caps i'm not happy with the lights

00:42:07.900 and then lol so bright and i go there's peace in admitting it that was so freeing rock bottom

00:42:18.560 it will free up space to like aspects of it it's really helpful all caps will unscrew

00:42:25.960 all caps i can take it all down i go hold please and me all caps and swallow the money but yes

00:42:33.900 you can not by sat but don't by saturday but after what is screwed in exactly are those the same bush

00:42:41.700 twice because the photo of the bushes look different street view and my view receipt come

00:42:47.920 yet still waiting i also asked for the brand of the bistro lights all right then here comes i'm

00:42:52.320 going to play this see how it's kind of blue it's like sickening it kind of feels like i'm at a 0.56

00:43:01.140 fucking hospital or something i'm so mad jacqueline okay okay this is where i finally get a 0.81

00:43:08.440 view of the thing okay i go i have wrecks they look pretty taut okay i go it's possible too many 0.95

00:43:16.200 strands too close together show me show me how they're attached to the wall oh they're not not

00:43:20.240 close i need pics not video turn off the bistros entirely for a minute i need to see the attachments

00:43:24.420 to see how easy the fix is or to swap them could you lose a strand of two and then loosen the

00:43:29.160 remaining strands not major just like a four inch dip do they go below 25 do you have a photo of

00:43:34.520 them earlier in the day it's kind of crazy like my hyper fixation i know like all those questions

00:43:40.960 like my brain is flying okay so i easily unscrewed one and naomi and i both agree that they look the

00:43:47.040 most ugly when they're dead i never took a day photo but will tomorrow replacing the bulbs is

00:43:51.840 the job i have more peace around that now i'm not accepting this oh and then you showed me your

00:43:58.220 nordic knots rug that came as a black friday about they were really and you wrote thank god

00:44:03.780 one thing is right unrolled the knots and me who's been in an absolute rug insanity for weeks right

00:44:11.740 i just write congrats okay because and then i go seriously and then i go i almost bought a few rugs

00:44:20.560 last night haha thank you okay i've actually softened a bit on the lights i wrote laughing

00:44:27.700 laughing. I stand by that. It's not my ideal, but I think it might be okay. Yes. This is what

00:44:32.340 I'm saying. You must accept that it's okay. If you hate them in order to ask if I may like them a

00:44:37.000 little. Okay. I'm sorry. I can't, this is me. This is me looking at myself going, take the

00:44:43.560 Lexapro now. Cause I don't remember being this fixated. I wrote still mystified and humbled

00:44:48.080 that I lost my list. So embarrassing. So was so proud again. See, I can time manage. And then I

00:44:56.640 sent a photo of my feet in the tub standing in the bath and i said inexplicable inexplicable by the

00:45:02.880 way and then i wrote p.s slept all night to hatch rain sounds thank god for our friendship would

00:45:08.740 love any pics of the handyman job now that's hysterical because that is like you going okay

00:45:12.960 i feel really grateful to jacqueline right now like and now i can be there for her yes

00:45:17.420 yes okay and then i sent you my two hovett ikea mirrors that did get moved up onto the wall

00:45:23.380 i sent you the secondary vidga rail i go i got the vidga track added to my system i've had the

00:45:31.260 second track for years never handed out i took this off a visible place and mounted it in the

00:45:36.760 storage area one of these hideous wire shelf door things that i had outside on door saying 0.96

00:45:41.020 fuck it i don't care if it's ugly i need accessible storage well no i'm growing up and i'm hiding it 0.97

00:45:46.240 away um I mean I did so so I think I said to you like what my new trick hire the handyman to come 0.99

00:45:55.180 over with no plan and then figure out yeah with the deadline of him coming over what I'm gonna

00:45:59.640 have him do so make work yeah okay buy a shelf if I want him to install a shelf the meltdown at

00:46:04.480 Lowe's was because my own system of cranking up the stress to motivate action didn't work and I

00:46:09.880 didn't get a shelf at Lowe's and I go home I go oh my god and again maybe I have to eat the cost

00:46:15.420 maybe it comes over and we have a cup of coffee together for $200 okay I go yeah I go he doesn't

00:46:21.380 care if he leaves he's paid right doesn't matter it's comforting me just go like of course I can

00:46:25.400 pay it's not he's not personally disappointed right by the way I want to say back to just

00:46:30.440 the lights of it all I did text I actually want to pull up what I said to him because then I got

00:46:36.720 a call from him and by the way he did a beautiful job stringing the bistro lights and I said

00:46:42.840 basically I was like, I wanted to know what the exact bulb type was in case I wanted to replace

00:46:48.680 them. I said like, they're still too bright for me. And then I got a call from him and he said,

00:46:53.860 you know, and he wasn't being hostile. He was like, you know, I've installed those lights

00:46:57.260 hundreds and hundreds of times. I've never had a complaint. And I go, well, yeah, sweetie,

00:47:01.300 who are you installing them for? Oh yeah. We talked about that. We got,

00:47:03.220 cause we also got on the phone about this. No one with an eye for the aesthetic touch.

00:47:06.680 Yeah. The warm light. You go, yeah. You've never had a complaint. The average, I mean,

00:47:10.220 the average bastard who's hiring someone to do their lights is probably not the artisan no because 0.84

00:47:16.080 a lot of people would insist on doing their own lights to a certain extent or you know what i'm 0.92

00:47:20.260 saying right it's like and this is how i was parented and this is a real peek behind the

00:47:24.460 curtain probably of so i of course called my mother with this she's devastated for me you know 0.98

00:47:28.620 her own couch because she can hardly handle the fact that the lights aren't right warm and she

00:47:33.460 goes you got swindled this is unbelievable they can make warm lights he didn't and i was like no

00:47:37.760 it's not that i got swindled but i was clear with him but she was like so then the next day i get a

00:47:42.940 call from her she goes i bought you warm she got me some loose bulbs warm bulbs i go oh my god

00:47:51.600 really okay well god you you know you already bought she bought a couple boxes i uber messaged

00:47:56.960 messaged messaged my my life which it is incredible facebook working place plus uber messenger you

00:48:05.080 You can order delivery to your house. 1.00

00:48:07.300 You can Venmo someone for their fucking dresser. 1.00

00:48:09.680 Yeah. 0.99

00:48:10.060 I mean, smaller items work better, but anyway.

00:48:12.280 It's unbelievable.

00:48:13.460 So 20 bucks.

00:48:15.500 I get the lights.

00:48:16.660 I screw them in.

00:48:17.820 Boom.

00:48:18.400 They're warmer.

00:48:19.880 And folks, I saw them live.

00:48:22.120 They're still, key word, they're still LED.

00:48:24.320 We actually didn't talk about them when you came over.

00:48:26.040 How'd you feel about them?

00:48:26.840 Well, I spoke about them, I think with Naomi at least.

00:48:30.980 Yeah.

00:48:31.220 You said something like, they're great.

00:48:32.940 No, they were phenomenal.

00:48:33.960 i go are these led yeah they oh wow you did okay they are i go are these led and by the way i know

00:48:41.560 we played that video last week amber so don't listen to people that tell you that you can't 0.60

00:48:46.880 they're led but they're fucking amber but they're still led and i even i was talking about about 0.97

00:48:51.760 led is the new asbestos and i go oh fuck me well it might be it might be but but might might i mean 0.97

00:48:57.920 it's definitely you know oh my god look what i'm doing what are you on are you on facebook 0.99

00:49:03.380 I didn't even notice. I was just swiping through this chair. Oh no, no. But the point is I paid

00:49:10.880 out of pocket. I went the extra mile. So I added an additional $350 to the project to get the

00:49:20.320 lights warm, but guess what? The lights are warm and it was worth it. It's priceless. It really

00:49:26.940 was. I mean, I'm trying to, I'm trying to, I'm trying to think where am I with that right now?

00:49:30.300 well you know you know this very room I'm sitting in I mean I'm in a complete you know as I said I

00:49:37.400 got rid of the desk which is a giant folding table but I folded it up and now I'm working

00:49:41.280 on the floor yeah and again the rug situation I can't figure it out I don't know what the answer

00:49:48.180 is but I refuse to move forward in my life until I've made the home a place I'd like to be I think

00:49:54.560 that's otherwise I risk going away and staying away for another year if there isn't enough of

00:49:58.100 allure to the closeness of home. No, no, no. You have to put it into the home. I mean, now there's

00:50:01.740 boo, so in some way that's taken care of. Thank God you've got boo. No, I think you throw everything

00:50:06.360 at it and I'm excited to share with the subscribers when my bed frame arrives and I got a new

00:50:12.480 bedroom rug that's coming. You're so decisive. No, Jacqueline. I know, but you are. It was a Black

00:50:18.620 Friday motivated. I do feel with certain things, like the jute rug, I go, oh, just do it. Well,

00:50:26.800 I remain, I have, I have looked at every rug on Nordic knots 1900 times and I've looked at every

00:50:31.760 rug on revival 1900 times. And I've looked at the speckle rug by Arvin Arlano on rugs USA because

00:50:37.980 it's viral. Okay. Oh, the Arvin Arlano eight by 10 is dropped. Oh, I went to an, and then I went

00:50:47.080 to an estate sale. Okay. In the neighborhood. Twice. Twice. Okay. It wasn't the kind where,

00:50:53.280 I mean, they had a lot of interesting stuff. Do you want to see what I ended up getting?

00:50:56.000 yes well i got a stack of newspaper clippings like dirty newspaper clippings that like five

00:51:04.220 cents no she was like it was the last day 75 off this made no this actually made no sense but i

00:51:10.100 didn't give a shake she goes ten dollars and it's like things that were a hundred dollars were going

00:51:14.400 for ten it was like it was it should have been like zero you know what i mean but this house

00:51:19.400 was full of stuff and there was like a witch in a corner that i didn't buy and i i was like

00:51:25.100 i was like don't look at that like uh i was like don't look at that too close like i'm drawn to it

00:51:30.060 but also i was like it's in the corner i was like i'm not making eye contact with that doll too much

00:51:34.080 i briefly and i control myself from bringing it home due to the temptation of the curious um

00:51:42.560 what a year ahead

00:51:44.220 well i mean there's a lot to say there's a lot to do i'm wondering my nails and i'm gonna read

00:51:51.680 I was curious if there's a – let me see something.

00:51:55.580 What year was this?

00:51:56.500 The 2025?

00:51:57.740 Yeah, we're leaving 2025.

00:51:59.880 I wanted to see if there was – you know, shouldn't they have made something?

00:52:06.680 Apple?

00:52:07.920 Hello?

00:52:08.520 Wait, what do you mean?

00:52:09.400 Like, Happy New Year?

00:52:10.340 It's actually been a pretty interesting year between us being in – we were in Paris.

00:52:14.760 London.

00:52:15.740 You know, I'm seeing a lot of good stuff here.

00:52:18.660 The New Yorker fans.

00:52:19.780 Yeah, I want my little roundup.

00:52:23.540 All right.

00:52:24.060 So an absolutely huge year ahead.

00:52:28.700 So just in so many ways, I mean, you know, we should really toast them at New Year's.

00:52:36.160 We'll see if we can pull that off, but we'll figure that out.

00:52:39.120 Love you.

00:52:40.320 Love you.

Poog with Kate Berlant and Jacqueline Novak - December 30, 2025

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