Culture Study Podcast - August 07, 2024


A Former Trad Wife on What It Actually Takes To Leave


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00:00:00.360 Hey, just a quick heads up that this episode contains some heavy subjects, including discussions
00:00:05.880 of domestic violence, child abuse, and religious trauma.
00:00:10.080 Listener discretion is advised.
00:00:13.280 So one of the things I say a lot is that fundamentalism is attractive during times of chaos.
00:00:20.320 And it's a lovely aesthetic.
00:00:22.840 So the fundamentalism that we encounter on Instagram today through the Tradwife movement
00:00:27.120 isn't really that different than what we called ourselves 20 years ago, the traditional wives, 0.50
00:00:32.720 you know, like we saw in the Duggars. Like the aesthetic back then is more of a back to the land
00:00:37.120 prairie, 20 kids in long dresses. Today, the aesthetic looks like homesteading. If we had
00:00:42.720 had Instagram back then, it would look identical. And trad is short for traditional. So I mean,
00:00:48.940 the same thing. But it's an answer to the chaos. And so after 9-11, especially when the world felt
00:00:54.900 very chaotic and scary. My trajectory of the past 30 to 40 years matches what happened in the wider
00:01:01.440 evangelical movement, which was mainstream Christianity becoming more political and
00:01:06.460 nationalist and fundamentalist over that span of time. So they lead with beautiful ideals and a
00:01:12.980 pretty aesthetic that feels comforting. It seems soothing. It seems like simpler times. And they
00:01:18.640 promise a better life if you follow their formula. So that's very tempting.
00:01:24.900 This is the Culture Study Podcast, and I'm Anne Helen Peterson.
00:01:31.920 And I'm Tia Levings, author of A Well-Trained Wife,
00:01:34.500 and I educate on the abuses in Christian fundamentalism.
00:01:37.820 So I'm so excited for this episode today.
00:01:40.280 You are so good at talking to people who have some background in evangelical fundamentalism,
00:01:48.960 like who knows some of the terminology, who might have been part of it.
00:01:51.660 but then you're also really good at introducing some of these concepts to people who did not grow
00:01:58.340 up in this world or even adjacent to this world. So I just, I'm really excited. So the other thing
00:02:04.860 that I see amongst women in particular is an incredible fatigue with trying to like juggle
00:02:12.580 everything in contemporary life. And it's not that they don't want like the advances of feminism,
00:02:17.740 I'm like, they still want to have checkbooks, right? They still want to have, like, fundamental human rights. But they're so tired. And so much of it has to do with what our current society expects of women in terms of creating what we understand is like a happy family, a happy marriage, a happy world. Like, there's just so much to do in order to do that. And so there's something that says like, oh, if I just quit my job. 0.97
00:02:46.680 and lived in this house. And even if I had eight kids, it would still be more relaxing than what
00:02:52.860 I'm trying to do now. And I don't think that's necessarily true, but it does seem like a nice
00:02:56.920 fantasy. So that feeling, that fantasy feeling right there is what I want you to kind of lock
00:03:01.860 onto in your belly, especially if you're listening to this and you're feeling exhausted and it just
00:03:06.440 seems easier like it would come home. You are playing into the gentle velvet prison of the
00:03:11.660 soft voice that's coaxing you gently into your cage. They made the world so exhausting. They do
00:03:18.120 that on purpose so that in your fatigue, you will just back off, get back in your box, back,
00:03:23.820 back, back, back, you know? And it's a lot easier than fighting an army of women if you can just 1.00
00:03:29.400 wear them out and so they get tired and they go home. Now, the big lie is that it's not going to 1.00
00:03:34.420 be less exhausting at home without any rights or freedoms or agency to get out, especially if
00:03:38.740 you're trapped with an abuser but that's not what they lead with they lead with isn't it lovely to
00:03:44.600 go back home wasn't life simpler when you were back home yeah and yeah we want a nap so we're
00:03:49.580 like sure yeah no i think that that's something that i try to keep in mind when i'm like child
00:03:55.760 care is so exhausting finding child care right well that's that's on purpose right like republican
00:04:01.260 legislators vote to make child care difficult like there are solutions that we could have
00:04:07.640 We have examples from other countries. There are so many different systemic ways we could make life easier for women, and we don't because the people in power want a different world. 1.00
00:04:17.780 Yeah, that's very important to remember.
00:04:19.980 So today we're talking about, in part, what it's really like to be a trad wife, not just the image that is available on social media and why it's important that we understand the dynamics actually at work here.
00:04:32.420 So I think for people who aren't familiar, can we start by defining what a trad wife is?
00:04:40.580 It's not a new concept.
00:04:42.080 And so I'd love if you can root it historically for us and in your experience.
00:04:47.040 Yeah.
00:04:47.340 So again, trad wife is just a quick vernacular, a little hashtag short for traditional life,
00:04:52.880 traditional wife, traditional lifestyle.
00:04:54.960 It's whatever comes back to the way things used to be. 0.96
00:04:58.300 And you can go back as far as 1950s, or you can go back to the 1800s, you can go back to the Puritans. It depends on how far the traditional role that you're looking at. But it's based on this complementarianism model, which teaches men and women are different by design, and they have assigned roles according to their genitalia. So men are only good at one thing, and women are only good at another thing. And so the woman's place in that system is at home raising children, bearing children, and that is all.
00:05:26.920 And her entire time and energies and ambitions and output will be in support of that joint mission to raise the family.
00:05:36.400 Doesn't really allow for any exceptions or anomalies or individual strengths, progress, growth, research, evidence, all of that's out the door.
00:05:44.740 This is they did it when the founding fathers did it.
00:05:47.900 So therefore, it must be the best thing for all of us.
00:05:50.280 And we must go back to that if we want to have what the ideals were that the original Americans had.
00:05:56.200 Can you also describe what fundamentalism is? Because I think sometimes people align it with
00:06:01.980 evangelicalism, evangelical culture. And I think that it's important to make this distinction.
00:06:10.180 Yeah. So let's talk about the word fundamentalism for a moment. Fundamentalism at its core is a
00:06:15.840 system of belief where you have a formula that's going to result in a certain outcome. You have a
00:06:22.340 promise. And so you have the fundamentals of the faith or ideology. Fundamentalism can be in
00:06:27.980 anything. You can be fundamentalist about your soul cycle. You can be fundamentalist about your
00:06:32.140 nutrition. Anything can have that rigidity in this step, step, step, step equals process.
00:06:37.820 Christian fundamentalism is just fundamentalism that's applied to Christianity. And then to just
00:06:42.720 confuse things even more, within the Protestant denominations, there's a fundamentalist
00:06:47.600 denomination. And so sometimes Christians will say, well, we're not fundamentalist Christians.
00:06:52.560 And what they're actually saying is we are not of that denomination. It doesn't mean that their
00:06:57.360 denomination isn't fundamentalist in nature. It means that there's a word, a semantic that they're
00:07:02.540 drawing a distinction between. Fundamentalism infiltrated the mainstream evangelical movement
00:07:10.000 through organizations that taught a biblical formula for holy living, and it applied to all
00:07:18.300 denominations. So while the Baptists became more rigid and formulaic in their approach,
00:07:22.920 the Presbyterians did as well. And it dovetailed with this movement towards reform theology. So
00:07:28.420 again, it drills back down to there are rules, and you will follow them, and this should be
00:07:33.760 your outcome. This is, you know, it's this big, wider agenda, bigger movement. Yeah. So can you
00:07:41.040 situate for us, where were you in the early 2000s? Like, what was your, what was your situation?
00:07:47.680 Yeah, I grew up in a Southern Baptist megachurch in Jacksonville, Florida, we were the largest
00:07:51.800 megachurch in the southeast. That was we moved there when in 1984, when I was 10. And I grew up
00:07:57.700 a mainstream evangelical Christian, who knew that my job was to become a Christian wife and mother
00:08:04.660 My church was becoming more fundamentalist through Bill Gothard's Institute of Basic
00:08:08.480 Life Principles at the same time.
00:08:10.340 And so by the time that I was a young wife at 19, I was married to someone I didn't really
00:08:15.100 know very well, as we were encouraged to do quickly so we would not have sex before marriage.
00:08:20.640 And I needed to quickly learn how to be a wife to a man who was abusive.
00:08:26.120 I was mentored into the IBLP that way.
00:08:29.380 And then we followed this trajectory into a more high control, ever restricting, reformed theology through the next seven years.
00:08:38.640 I escaped in 2007 after being excommunicated and shunned in a near murder at midnight.
00:08:44.520 So that's kind of like the broad umbrella of my story.
00:08:48.200 In your memoir, you write that I'd convinced everyone our life was picture perfect.
00:08:53.840 Not even my parents knew the truth.
00:08:56.820 What was the truth that you're talking about there?
00:08:59.380 Oh, my goodness. So at that time in the scene, in the book, my parents lived two blocks away. And the truth was, my husband was spanking me. The truth was that we lived in high control and abuse. We lived in some of the most rigid fundamentalist expressions that this movement has. They are not niche or weird or fringe or unusual. It's just that survivors are too ashamed to talk about it or they're too wrecked. If they manage to get out, they're too wrecked to talk about it.
00:09:28.140 I'm the reflection of 10 years of trauma therapy and a deep conviction that I need to tell you the
00:09:35.000 truth of what it's like to live that way because it's coming for our country. Like, I am horrified
00:09:40.300 that the life I ran away from and barely escaped with my life is part of our headlines. And I know
00:09:45.060 I have the capability to tell that story. That's not true for most people. When they're dealing
00:09:49.120 with the truth of what that fundamentalism does and how it grinds you down, those women usually 1.00
00:09:54.580 die or they or they're depressed or they're they're dysfunctioning they're breeding the
00:09:59.660 new generation of fundamentalists and they fade into the background without names um that's much
00:10:05.640 more common of a result in one of your newsletters you wrote about how one of the primary tasks of 0.82
00:10:14.760 the wife in these families is to serve as pr yeah to really do an incredible job of selling this 1.00
00:10:23.660 lifestyle. Was that a role that fit for you? Yeah. So I think that I'm a great example of 1.00
00:10:30.360 an ambitious, creative, talented woman who's put into a box and she's allowed one justifiable
00:10:36.160 expression. And it's really convenient when you want for yourself what the patriarchy wants for
00:10:41.500 you. That's the sweetest spot. When your gifts and abilities match what they need, you have a
00:10:48.060 little golden time. And so, yeah, I was great at marketing. I was an early adopter of the internet
00:10:53.180 and the tools that it provided. I really believed that our lifestyle was the best way and the right
00:10:59.120 way and that we should show a beautiful example of a beautiful family. But I also really wanted
00:11:03.780 those things. I wanted my children to have a happy household and I wanted to emphasize the good and
00:11:08.140 be positive and not air our dirty laundry by telling our secrets, but showing how gorgeous
00:11:13.920 my canning jars are. I had beautiful canning jars and beautiful home births and beautiful cloth
00:11:19.820 diapers all lined up on the clothesline it's just one of my favorite tactile sensory things and
00:11:25.000 so I was a very good proponent of the aesthetic that's why I know that if I'd had Instagram
00:11:30.840 in my hands I'd have been all over it because I've got those chops you know and so a lot of 0.96
00:11:37.500 a lot of those trad wives I'm like you go girl like you are showing that you have more to yourself 0.94
00:11:43.180 than the little box they want to put you in well and this is like something that I think a lot of
00:11:48.800 people who don't understand the inner workings of how like of what it's like to be in one of 1.00
00:11:53.720 these marriages or just like how proselytizing works they're like wait a second these wives 1.00
00:11:59.980 are supposed to be so submissive why are their husbands letting them have an instagram account 1.00
00:12:04.400 and it's because they're selling the lifestyle like you said it's that little pocket of you are
00:12:10.340 allowed to do something here that like that uses some of your creative skills that you get like
00:12:17.020 positive feedback and you are spreading God's word right like that right as long as you are
00:12:23.140 also careful and I've seen this inner fighting amongst influencers about like not being too
00:12:30.200 ambitious or like keeping humble or like modesty and all those different things but that's it's
00:12:36.500 absolutely okay they're like yeah do more this is great it's called lifestyle evangelism and so 0.65
00:12:42.580 it's very it's very intentional the dugger girls all have insta accounts like there's they are
00:12:48.820 they're going where the people are to show a better way to live and they're hoping that you
00:12:52.640 buy it you know evangelism is all about sales and and rabid and contagious enthusiasm um yeah and
00:12:59.560 so they show the best of the best and and i really think that there's a part of them that truly
00:13:04.380 believes what they're producing because i did i believed and it was the truth the things that i
00:13:08.680 was showing actually did happen. I just didn't show the whole truth. I wallpapered over those
00:13:13.560 dents. I didn't tell the truth of what was happening because I knew the audience wouldn't
00:13:18.660 like that. They wouldn't fall for that. Like if I said, my husband corrects me the same way he
00:13:23.180 corrects our children, that would have been a turnoff. People would have probably, someone
00:13:27.660 would have called the police, I like to think. But maybe not. People do talk, they do tell their
00:13:35.200 abuse stories online. And there is that distance of, well, we aren't going to get involved.
00:13:40.060 But they live in lives that are carefully crafted away from any mandatory reporters. And so it
00:13:44.660 really takes a savvy eye to say, I can see beneath your surface. I know that's too good to be true.
00:13:50.260 So we're going to hear a lot more of your story as we answer questions from listeners.
00:13:54.100 Let's start with a question from Jacqueline that will help us outline what we are and aren't
00:13:58.580 talking about here. I'd love to hear your thoughts about why the simple trad wife 1.00
00:14:02.900 tasks of intentionally preparing food in specific ways, practicing low-waste ways of living like
00:14:09.900 mending, and living in a more unplugged way seems to still be made fun of by most other people who
00:14:16.720 do not live the traditional script. Don't we all want a chance to slow down and not continue to
00:14:23.200 grind through capitalistic American culture? I think it is a shame that the traditional ways
00:14:28.940 of life are seen as incorrect ways to live in the modern world. Sometimes those traditional
00:14:35.120 roles still work for families, all while maintaining equity between partners.
00:14:40.200 Okay, so obviously if you mend your clothes or garden or make your own butter, you are not 0.75
00:14:46.320 necessarily a trad wife, but trad wives often do a lot of those things. We had another listener
00:14:52.400 write in to say that the more gardening content that they watched on YouTube, the more trad wife
00:14:56.880 content they got served by the algorithm like we recently published a newsletter on culture study
00:15:01.240 about like the moody kitchen aesthetic which is like a certain type of kitchen that then leads
00:15:05.820 you slowly into trad wife content the algorithm does radical magic there but i yeah i don't know
00:15:14.360 how do you think about this idea yeah i two words i really latch on there is incorrect like it's
00:15:20.760 incorrect to live this way in your modern it's a criticism i frequently hear um and that don't we
00:15:26.560 all want to slow down. And the overlap of these good things is true. Like that's why the algorithm
00:15:33.080 leads you down because a couple things are true. If you're a trad wife, then you're going to be a 0.89
00:15:37.140 gardener. It doesn't necessarily mean the reverse is true. If you're a gardener, you're not 0.80
00:15:40.800 necessarily a trad wife. And there's nothing incorrect with any of these things. That is so
00:15:45.080 important to emphasize. All of these things are things by themselves and their choices. And if
00:15:49.160 you want to be frugal, you want to mend your clothes, you want to mend your socks, you want to
00:15:53.360 use cloth diapers you want to make your own ingredients i used to make my own ketchup you
00:15:57.820 know like i used to do everything according to the trad life the difference is that it's a mask
00:16:03.400 in trad life it's masking an agenda it's it's done to an end versus i'm doing this because
00:16:09.620 i enjoy it or i'm doing this because i think it's healthier for my family or my husband and i have
00:16:14.620 equally the end of that question was about equal partnerships my husband and i have equally divvied
00:16:19.100 up the responsibilities and these are what i'm going to do and these are what he's going to do
00:16:22.360 that is not the same thing that we're talking about in the trad wife movement, where you are 1.00
00:16:26.080 being forced into a role because you have a vagina. Just not the same thing, you know, and to this end 1.00
00:16:31.580 of women should not be in the workplace, and we should have as many children as possible. 1.00
00:16:35.840 Their underlying theology in the trad movement is dominionism. They want the Christian worldview 0.99
00:16:42.740 to take over the country, and then eventually the globe. And so they have to have a few things to do 0.97
00:16:47.560 that they have to have a military at their disposal, they have to have a population that
00:16:51.040 will cooperate. And like I said earlier, the confrontational method isn't going to necessarily
00:16:56.960 put us there. But the attractiveness of this simpler life will do it for a lot of people
00:17:03.360 because we do want those things. And we just have to learn how to separate them from the wider
00:17:08.000 agenda so that you can mend your socks and can your food without it becoming part of Gilead.
00:17:13.760 Are there a couple words that are like flags for you if you're watching content that's kind of
00:17:19.380 pretending or like at least has us on the surface level is not necessarily trad wife content but
00:17:25.560 that indicates to you that the person behind the account is probably part of this larger movement
00:17:34.020 and is trying to in some ways you know mask who they are in order to like this sounds like it's
00:17:40.100 more diabolical than it maybe is I mean it actually is kind of diabolical but it's pretty
00:17:45.200 dialogue but like i think sometimes people think like it's so simple like why no one's like trying
00:17:53.480 to trick you and i'm like actually i think that sometimes they are trying to trick you with
00:17:58.020 content that isn't explicitly religious that will eventually lead you in i mean there's a reason why
00:18:04.360 like young life when i was in high school had like cool music so that then eventually you would get
00:18:09.360 roped into the larger world, right? Right. So yeah, any keywords? Yeah, keywords, but also key
00:18:15.520 looks. So if there's, if it's too pretty, and there's nothing behind the scenes really showing
00:18:19.860 any, any true life, because this is not simpler, it is not actually less work to do all this stuff
00:18:25.640 from scratch. It is a grind, it will exhaust you. It is tedious, and you're trapped. And when I was
00:18:32.320 making my own ketchup, it was because I couldn't buy a bottle of ketchup, you know, but I could
00:18:36.520 grow a tomato, and I could grind it, I could smush it, and I could, you know, strain it and make
00:18:40.840 ketchup and add a little rapadura, which was like a natural sugar I was allowed to use, you know,
00:18:45.480 and I could go through all this work for it. So I look for those kinds of signs, like, is there
00:18:50.320 behind the scenes, like, does this look like a real life? Or does it look like a set?
00:18:54.960 Are there children present? Or are they just conveniently off screen? Because when you're
00:18:58.580 quiverful, you're having as many babies as you can. But mommy has a lot of time on her hands by
00:19:04.320 herself to make a lot of content, that's bullshit. The other thing is like the glowing smile. So the 0.99
00:19:09.680 cult glaze is another tell for cult involvement. So if she's smiling serenely through the whole
00:19:15.440 thing, and she's very performative in her actions, and there's a hypnotic effect to the ballet
00:19:20.960 movements of her gardening, big tell, big giant tell, she's under mind control, or she's trying to
00:19:27.000 oversell the beauty and simplicity in a way that is lulling my brain. And my critical thinking is
00:19:33.420 starting to come offline yeah i also think of anything that like references like larger plan
00:19:40.900 um prepping yeah anything like prepping like adjacent some of that is more obvious to me
00:19:49.700 blessed oh my god okay so we have another question that's trying to clarify what we are and aren't
00:19:56.260 talking about this comes from jen how can we talk about trad wives without it devolving into a
00:20:01.420 discussion about stay-at-home moms. Every time I try to talk about tradwives and specifically how 0.99
00:20:07.100 ominous their work is, inevitably someone in the discussion goes, well my friend loves her life as 0.99
00:20:13.980 a stay-at-home mom and I want to scream that's not what I'm talking about because I don't think 1.00
00:20:19.700 the tradwives really want us to be able to choose to stay at home or have like family discussions 1.00
00:20:27.040 about it. I think they want us to be like obligated or forced to stay at home. 1.00
00:20:32.320 Okay. So before we answer that larger question, which is great and I love it,
00:20:37.040 Jen calls Trad Wife's work ominous. Why do you think that is? Like, and I think part of this
00:20:43.660 is the political aspect, which you talk a lot about in your work.
00:20:46.700 Right. I think there is a gut level instinctive awareness that this is being pulled back. Like
00:20:52.480 we are being pulled back from our rights and our agency through a backward way of living that we've
00:20:58.080 evolved from. And so when we can pick up on that feeling of manipulation, even if we don't always
00:21:02.540 have language for it. So this is a great question of an example where she can feel something's off
00:21:06.980 and she's trying to convey it, but she doesn't have the verbiage. So a lot of my work is just
00:21:11.060 providing the vocabulary. And this is going to come back down to they're staying at home for an
00:21:16.500 agenda versus staying at home because they like to stay home with their kids. And the big distinction
00:21:22.400 like you can talk to on a personal level with somebody
00:21:25.220 is have they retained their agency?
00:21:27.440 So are they staying home with a checkbook and a door
00:21:30.760 and they have a say, an equal say in their partnership?
00:21:33.780 Or are they staying at home because their rights
00:21:36.820 and resources have slowly narrowed
00:21:39.380 so that there really is only one choice for their life
00:21:42.120 and it gets smaller and smaller and smaller
00:21:44.140 and that if they change their mind tomorrow
00:21:46.380 and decided to go to work,
00:21:47.980 would their entire universe crack and crumble?
00:21:50.020 Or would that just be a conversation
00:21:51.540 they had with their husband and an adjustment in their family. 0.97
00:21:54.380 Right. Well, and the thing that I think is seldom talked about is that there's also a lot of
00:21:59.400 educational neglect in these situations. So if you've grown up in one of these families,
00:22:04.440 it's not like you can like, leave your family, get divorced, you can't just leave and find a job,
00:22:10.960 right? Like I found this when I was reporting on the FLDS communities, the women who have left the
00:22:15.360 church and tried to make a life for themselves. They didn't even essentially have a high school 0.94
00:22:20.080 education, right? Because especially the women were not allowed to have access to that sort of 1.00
00:22:26.260 education because they, like, within the church, they knew you give women those tools and they can
00:22:31.920 leave. You prevent them from having those tools and they can't. Exactly. Exactly. God. My friend 0.93
00:22:38.400 who is a stay-at-home mom has credit cards. Like, that's going to change your experience of being a
00:22:44.060 stay-at-home mom. A lot. A lot. She's not asking her husband for permission to buy milk, you know?
00:22:49.100 She's not asking for permission to use their one car.
00:22:51.940 If you're asking permission, big, big, giant red flag.
00:22:55.000 You know, it's no longer a dialogue you're having with your partner.
00:22:57.860 It's a top-down authoritarian model.
00:22:59.940 And that can slip in really easily when he's the one with the breadwinning agency and you're dependent on him.
00:23:06.660 Now you are on equal footing with your children.
00:23:08.900 And there's a lot that changes in that world.
00:23:11.800 Yeah, and I think that's the part that people, if they aren't actually familiar with this theology,
00:23:16.460 they're just like oh this woman just loves her husband and her kids like and wants to make
00:23:21.920 lemonade to take out to him on the tractor not i have to ask permission to even get the ingredients
00:23:28.280 to make this lemonade right yeah it's not always nefarious and ominous either it's he can mean well
00:23:35.120 he can be nice and the authority structure can still be there i mean yeah yeah that yeah that's
00:23:41.500 a really good point it's not like all of these men are like devils with rods right they can they
00:23:48.020 can be nice but still reside within that larger authority structure and that understanding
00:23:52.960 yeah i call it benevolent patriarchy benevolent patriarchy is still patriarchy it's still high
00:23:58.320 control yeah yeah our next question is from may and it's about getting into the life and getting
00:24:04.440 out of it growing up in an amish and conservative mananite family i understand how a trad wife type
00:24:10.600 of lifestyle perpetuates itself when literally everyone you've known since birth is living it 0.65
00:24:15.580 and your whole world is built to reinforce it. But how is it sustainable when people come to it
00:24:21.100 later, largely in isolation or at least physical isolation? Why is it still so hard for people to
00:24:27.160 extract themselves from it? So we knew this was the perfect question for you because this is
00:24:31.740 basically what your book is about. So what's the sort of short answer here as in like how do people
00:24:40.040 get sucked in later in life I think they get sucked in because in our culture almost no one's
00:24:45.440 coming to this as a blank slate it's part of our culture and so the water turns up very slowly
00:24:50.920 you mean well you like for in my instance I turned to a mentor who had a lot of children
00:24:56.260 because I needed help learning how to be a mother in in an erratic situation and so women at church
00:25:02.160 are taught to turn to older women it's the tightest two model and so that's just a very
00:25:06.020 gentle, easy example of how it just kind of seeped in and I just kind of swept into this world at the
00:25:12.840 same time as the external atmosphere was becoming this way. So pretty soon, I mean, I call it the
00:25:19.640 cult without walls, because even though I wasn't in an Amish community where you can actually 0.96
00:25:23.820 physically see the borders and the way everyone lives, I was just as isolated. It's a country
00:25:29.940 within a country. This is an America within an America. And so you are in the world, but not of
00:25:34.740 it. And you don't have any access to anybody who's not like you by the time you're in that deep.
00:25:39.860 And so extrication is, for all the reasons we've already talked about, just as hard. I mean,
00:25:44.440 I don't have... There's nobody to ask. There's no safe path out. There's no world where your
00:25:52.980 husband isn't aware of your movements. There's no education to fall back on. And then begins the
00:25:58.940 very hard work of convincing outsiders that you're really in danger. When, for example,
00:26:05.720 Project 2025 threatens to take away our right of no fault divorce. So if the system is predicated on
00:26:13.700 you have to convince us that you have a reason to get divorced, you're struck with convincing
00:26:20.040 all that. And while you yourself are still coming to an understanding of what you've just experienced,
00:26:24.120 extrication is really, really hard. Right. You're not only convincing yourself,
00:26:28.940 that you need to leave, which is an ongoing process that I'm sure is filled with doubt
00:26:32.640 and second thoughts. But then if you also are trying to convince others that you deserve to
00:26:38.240 leave, it's so much. Right, right. You know, and then we have J.D. Vance chosen as the VP ticket,
00:26:44.400 and he is quoted as saying that women should stay with their abusive husbands because it's hard on
00:26:49.020 the kids. Well, that like leaves out everybody who would be dead if they don't get out, you know,
00:26:53.640 and that's definitely my story. My children were unhappy sometimes that this happened to our
00:26:58.040 family but it's because abuse broke our family abuse broke our family not divorce divorce was 0.98
00:27:02.940 the way it was the path to freedom for me and and that if that's how our country changes women are
00:27:09.260 going to die that is the that is the unhappy truth of of that ideology we know that from 0.93
00:27:16.080 survivors telling their stories when we have all of this trad lifestyle has tells it has outcomes
00:27:21.840 it has evidence testimonies survivors i'm a big one for like the historical timeline of progress
00:27:27.240 so we're supposed to be growing as a society that doesn't mean we go backwards to something we tried
00:27:33.100 and it failed and we grew past because there were reasons we didn't just like experimentally decide
00:27:38.360 to give women rights no women fought they went to jail they lost their lives they fought hard to get
00:27:43.060 our rights because not having rights wasn't working for them it was there were problems with not having 0.73
00:27:48.080 rights that we don't really want to return to but they make it look really pretty i know we are in
00:27:54.160 such a moment of regression, I think. And a lot of it is is reactionary. I always think of like
00:27:59.580 the history of feminism is two steps forward, one step back. Like we are in a massive step back 1.00
00:28:05.040 right now. But that doesn't mean that we're not like there's still not momentum and the potential
00:28:10.640 for continued progress. One thing that I've seen a lot with some influencers and people I know is
00:28:17.900 kind of going deeper down the well like you start out going to like a cool church
00:28:23.240 and you're like I need something even more restrictive because that feels more safe so
00:28:27.940 then you start going to a more evangelical church even more and then like one of the influencers I
00:28:34.160 follow left her evangelical church and is now part of like an orthodox church like she has to
00:28:41.160 she covers her head like she she basically it seems if you're reading between the lines that 0.81
00:28:45.620 she is craving even more control than ever before and she's actually dragging her husband along with
00:28:53.040 her which is fascinating like convincing her husband to become part of the church and to
00:28:58.780 become the patriarch yes have you seen that similar progression of like becoming more and more
00:29:04.060 oh yeah it's very common also it's very common for the woman to lead the men into it because
00:29:09.500 she's at home doing the research and she's saying here's the solution so i think what happens is
00:29:14.860 there's this ever constant doubt process that this formula didn't work clearly we need more
00:29:22.120 we need more structure we need more rules and the patriarchy is always feeding you this diet of
00:29:27.280 more rigid and more rigid and there's never a point where you where you've done enough
00:29:31.560 you know there's you've never reached this limit where oh we submitted to these ideals and now we
00:29:37.560 have this happy family and we have no problems and nothing bad ever happens to us because we
00:29:42.020 were so obedient. That never happens. So as you face problems, and as things happen to you,
00:29:47.900 and you face challenge and struggle, you go you drill down harder and harder and harder. And so
00:29:52.340 when you're in one group, and it wasn't quite satisfying, then you become more orthodox in your
00:29:56.740 progression. That's really common. That's how that's how the extreme views manifest, because
00:30:02.040 each author leads to another author, each teaching leads to another. And the movement becomes more
00:30:07.800 restrictive and more restrictive because it's in pursuit of ideological purity way back to the
00:30:12.860 original definition of fundamentalism they are in pursuit of a pure ideology and they're using
00:30:19.080 this formula in order to achieve it so you're constantly trying to purify and narrow to get
00:30:24.820 what you want um the promise never delivers that's the that's the big joke on everybody
00:30:30.260 there is no this does not lead to the what they promise and if we look at the fruit of what they
00:30:36.780 produce we'll see that we're just so caught up in the process you know it's it's the the message
00:30:42.120 is always well if it fails it's something you did so you must perfect yourself more and do this
00:30:46.960 better and um it was just you were just missing this ingredient you know pray more pray harder
00:30:51.820 that kind of thing and so you just keep doing more and more and more because there's never
00:30:55.260 there's never an attainment and there's never enough high control environments breed more
00:31:00.860 high control practices, not the other way around. Yeah. Okay, our next question is actually there's
00:31:07.280 a ton of questions that we received about a specific element of being a trad wife. And that
00:31:12.920 is fundy baby voice. Yes. The first time I saw people talking about this was when Alabama Senator
00:31:19.640 Katie Britt gave the Republican response to President Biden's State of the Union address
00:31:24.200 back in March. So we're going to hear a little clip of that. Good evening, America. My name is
00:31:29.880 Katie Britt and I have the honor of serving the people of the great state of Alabama and the
00:31:35.360 United States Senate. However, that's not the job that matters most. I am a proud wife and mom of
00:31:43.200 two school-aged kids. And some people compare her voice to Michelle Duggars, so we will also hear a
00:31:50.240 clip of that. So this is our great room and Jim, I wanted to design it where it was open to the
00:31:56.720 kitchen area because that's where mom and the girls spend most of our time cooking and doing
00:32:01.720 all that. So we can be a part of everything that's going on. And it just makes it really nice.
00:32:07.040 I know this voice. I didn't know it was called Fundy Baby Voice. Like I just know it from like
00:32:11.820 a certain type of like prayer circle. But where does where does this voice come from? Can you
00:32:16.980 talk more about it? Yes. Okay. So first of all, we should say Fundy Baby Voice is an outsider term
00:32:22.240 applied to this phenomenon that an attempt to explain it we did not call it fundy baby voice
00:32:27.720 when we were doing it we we called it sounding childlike keeping sweet staying sweet um gentle
00:32:35.300 spirit uh being feminine and again it's that breathy almost sexualized child prosody that
00:32:42.860 coaxes you along and so it is a vocal manipulation to make a woman sound less threatening changes the
00:32:50.500 sound of her own voice. If you practice that voice long enough, you will no longer sound like 0.96
00:32:54.000 your maturity. And it takes work. I've had to go through extensive vocal retraining just to get
00:32:59.740 back to the sound of my own voice after leaving because you don't just snap in and out like a
00:33:05.360 code switch when you're groomed to sound that way. As far as where it comes from, that's a little
00:33:10.660 more complicated to tease apart. It's one of those parts of our culture that's so pervasive that
00:33:16.580 it's hard to say one thing although i can tell you that there's this dynamic in high control
00:33:21.680 religion and certainly in the 50s as it became like the 50s housewife and sounding sweet and
00:33:28.440 pleasing and being hyper femme and all of that in 1963 two books came out the feminine mystique
00:33:33.440 and fascinating womanhood the fascinating womanhood is technically a mormon book but
00:33:37.820 it didn't lead with its mormonism and people don't always realize that that's its source
00:33:41.840 It's still in print today, and it teaches women to be ultra-feminine and childlike so that they will become an angelic, soft, feminine self.
00:33:51.660 It's a big part of my story because it was handed to me by so many women, and that is how it's passed along from woman to woman.
00:33:57.700 There were fascinating womanhood groups.
00:33:59.280 There are still Facebook groups. 1.00
00:34:00.380 And this is where women learn to actually take that on so they can call their husbands big hairy brutes and fight and get basically coax the entire role play, you know, into place. 1.00
00:34:12.980 If a woman sounds like a baby, she's not threatening. 1.00
00:34:16.600 She's diminutive. 1.00
00:34:17.960 And she can get you to do the things that you maybe don't want to do.
00:34:21.960 So it gives her a feeling of empowerment, like getting him to cooperate.
00:34:25.580 the one way it's talked about is um the man is the head of the house but the woman is the neck
00:34:30.600 well the vocal training is how she turns his head or his will to her will uh it's so funny
00:34:39.900 because there's this when i was writing a piece on um trad wife influencers last year like there's
00:34:45.740 this woman who is not christian forward and i actually i'm pretty sure that she's playing
00:34:51.560 everything up for the algorithm i do not think that of the vast majority of these women but
00:34:55.360 this woman i do and she was cosplaying as like marilyn monroe and her fundy baby voice was right
00:35:02.960 on that cusp of marilyn monroe which is fascinating because it's like the biggest it's like the voice
00:35:09.180 that is associated with the biggest sex symbol of the last hundred years but also a sex symbol who
00:35:15.020 was incredibly powerful but was like always understood as innocent there's there's a lot
00:35:20.760 of overlap happening right now in what you just said um so another thing that happens with the
00:35:26.060 baby voice is that women's voices can truncate at the age they were first molested or interfered
00:35:30.700 with and so sometimes they sound like young children because they were interfered with as
00:35:34.640 young children and they kind of got stuck there vocally um that's not coincidental because when
00:35:40.420 you want a grown woman to sound like a child and that grown woman is someone you sleep with and
00:35:45.360 find sexually attractive those two things are related he is now finding a childlike adult woman 0.67
00:35:51.740 attractive which breeds more sexual abuse and sexual abuse is a huge part of the patriarchy
00:35:58.260 so it these aren't things that we can like put in little boxes and say well this is this and this is
00:36:03.920 that just like you can't wait where it comes from the impact is all very much the same now when katie
00:36:08.840 brit splashed on the scene and brought it into the mainstream it stirred up a lot of things a lot of
00:36:13.380 emotions for people, because it is so tied to their own subjugation, self-subjugation,
00:36:18.780 and their own sexual abuse stories, and this idea of modesty culture where the church repeatedly
00:36:26.260 tells us that that is where women are safe, and that is where children are safe, except
00:36:30.280 statistics don't breed that out. Statistics show us that church is one of the most dangerous places
00:36:35.120 a woman or a child can be, because the church doesn't take abuse seriously, and because they 0.95
00:36:39.740 continually sexualize young children. And voice, the voice is one way, the tell is where it comes
00:36:45.240 out is that they want you to sound like a baby, but they're gonna have sex with you. The disjointedness 0.99
00:36:51.080 like I lose my words when I think of the horror of that, because that is that is the mind fuck 0.99
00:36:56.500 that we experience in that kind of high control religion. So this is a good transition into 0.99
00:37:02.580 kind of going back to May's question, like the whole belief system is designed to keep people
00:37:07.800 in to keep them bound by secrecy bound by like this understanding that this is the only way to
00:37:13.800 salvation like that's something that I think sometimes gets lost is like people think if they
00:37:17.940 leave then they are damned and their children are damned like how do you get around that that's
00:37:22.320 really difficult so what has to fall into place for people to leave I think a survival instinct 0.98
00:37:29.420 um they're going to they're going to make sure that you know you're damned by demonstrating it
00:37:34.200 So when you leave, you do lose your community, you are going to be condemned, they're going to call you names, they're going to call you heretic and whore and Jezebel, they're going to cut you off from the resources and everything that you had, I was excommunicated and formally shunned. It's part of the experience. And so unless you have a vein inside of yourself that says, I know that's what they're going to do, but that does not actually mean I'm spiritually damned. 0.86
00:37:58.840 you might fall for it because they're going to be very convincing.
00:38:02.460 In my case, and what I think I've witnessed from other survivors,
00:38:06.100 is that something else comes online,
00:38:08.000 and that is your survival instinct that says,
00:38:10.120 your life is hell on earth and I've already experienced it,
00:38:13.200 and I would rather live and protect my children
00:38:16.120 than experience another day of that.
00:38:19.060 And that's where the courage comes in.
00:38:21.460 So I can't imagine that many Tradwives are listening to this podcast,
00:38:26.040 But I do think that there are some people whose loved ones are stuck in some version of this.
00:38:31.600 So what advice would you give them noticing that this is going on?
00:38:36.300 Like, is there anything that people on the outside can do?
00:38:40.140 Yeah, I always encourage to keep the lines of communication as open as possible.
00:38:43.880 Try to be nonjudgmental in your conversations with them.
00:38:46.900 Make sure that they know that you are someone they can turn to when they want to or need to, because that won't be a predictable thing.
00:38:52.880 leaving is almost always urgent there's some sort of urgency attached to it so
00:38:58.540 it'll be a random and if you want them to be able to come to you and not feel like
00:39:02.900 they're cut off from that so I had an entire network of people I was able to turn to that
00:39:08.980 they all had their sneaking suspicions that I was in over my head and that there were bad things
00:39:12.880 happening at home but they were open to me and they they always kind of conveyed that they'd be
00:39:19.440 here for me when I was ready for them. Another way is to slip them non-traceable ways of payment.
00:39:25.540 So someone messaged me the other day and said she buys gift cards at the grocery store and then she
00:39:30.420 leaves them for people who, like if she sees something at the pediatrician's office or the
00:39:35.580 grocery store or something, and she'll just hand out these gift cards because they don't have access
00:39:39.400 to their own finances. One lady made her escape simply because she had a stack of gift cards at 1.00
00:39:44.680 her disposal, like she'd been saving them up. So little ways that you can think of one of the I get
00:39:50.080 this kick out of my book in that. So I wrote it for the lady that's going to put it in her cart 0.99
00:39:54.560 and target like, I wrote it for the lady who's not allowed to go into a bookstore or, or, you
00:39:59.360 know, show it on the receipt, but she's going to toss it in her cart with the milk. And people will
00:40:03.420 joke like we should put a new jacket on it that says how to be a well trained wife, so that they're 1.00
00:40:07.540 allowed to have it at home. Yeah, that kind of a thing. Like, how can you even the title itself 1.00
00:40:14.660 is ambiguous enough that if you saw, I don't know, if you saw it somehow, I mean, the illustration
00:40:19.900 is a little unambiguous, but I think that the title, if you could say that, like just maybe
00:40:25.760 the spine, it would be passable. Yes, it raises eyebrows, and that's how I knew it was the title
00:40:33.160 for the book. Okay, our last question is a reflective one, and it comes from Elizabeth.
00:40:38.660 of many performed identities like the trad wife appeal to people because there is a kernel of
00:40:45.840 goodness or truth somewhere in all the mess and harm i think about this when i reflect on my
00:40:52.040 experience as a former evangelical when people stop performing that identity there is a strong
00:40:58.160 instinct to shame and fully reject that part of their experience what parts if any of the trad
00:41:05.680 wife identity and beliefs do you want to take with you? Is there any piece of it that still
00:41:11.020 connects with you or that you grieve? It's a hard one, I know. It's a tender one, and it's one where
00:41:18.380 I get to speak up for younger me, who I love so much because she tried so hard. I'm really grateful
00:41:24.440 that it gave me the years with my children. I had 12 years at home with my kids, and I was subversive
00:41:30.360 during those years, teaching them things that I wanted them to learn, and I have a great relationship
00:41:34.720 with my children today because of those foundational years. It also helps with some
00:41:39.060 of the sting that I gave my youth to pursuit of an ideology instead of self-development and
00:41:44.440 becoming a strong person first. So while it sucked to have to mother while I healed, like it's not
00:41:51.820 fair to my kids that they didn't have a healed parent. It's tender that we got to learn together
00:41:58.560 and I got to show them that no, you don't have to stay in abuse, which I think is going to be
00:42:02.440 something they carry with them forever. I loved homeschooling, when homeschooling can be done
00:42:07.600 right. Homeschooling is a beautiful relationship, and it's a part of the conversation in a country
00:42:13.400 that doesn't value the safety of its students. I love all of the aesthetic. I loved my birth
00:42:20.420 stories. I love the midwives who took such wonderful care of me. I love canned food. I
00:42:25.460 love gardening. I love walking barefoot in the dirt. I still love hanging my clothes on the line.
00:42:29.860 I don't do it because I'm busy doing things, but I love all of that stuff.
00:42:34.080 And so to be able to reclaim it and say, I loved doing this just because I love doing
00:42:38.140 this, and it doesn't have to feed into any wider agenda.
00:42:40.960 It also has given me a resilience of spirit that helps me like when my money is tight,
00:42:45.100 I know how to go cook food with some ingredients.
00:42:47.080 I don't need convenience foods.
00:42:48.460 That's like a tiny empowerment that I carry with me that my trad life showed me.
00:42:52.180 Like I know how to make good with almost nothing, and I know how to be really thankful for
00:42:57.320 the simple joys in life, because that was the only joy I had in life back then. But now I choose it
00:43:02.460 because it's not excessive or, you know, harmful to the planet or, or waste, you know, so yeah,
00:43:08.920 I mean, I just I carry her with me and I have integrated her into who I am today. And I
00:43:14.060 understand with empathy why people would find all of that attractive. And I support the ability to
00:43:19.740 stay home and the option to stay home. And I support moms in their motherhood. I don't want
00:43:25.980 our country to make it so that everybody has to do the same thing, because they have no other
00:43:30.060 options. This has been such a delight. I'm really like an honor. And I really can't recommend the
00:43:36.560 book highly enough. Where can people find you if they want to know more about you follow you?
00:43:42.940 I hope you talk about the newsletter. Yeah, yeah, I am kind of everywhere. Tia Leving's writer on
00:43:48.640 the social platforms. I do a lot of educational type content there. I also share my story of how
00:43:55.500 I continue to break down anti-fundamentalist thinking in our politics, headlines, the
00:44:00.820 deconstruction process itself, what it's like to heal from trauma at my substack, tealevings.substack.com.
00:44:07.240 And my website is tealevings.com. A Well-Trained Wife is available anywhere books are sold in
00:44:12.040 hardcover, digital, or audio, which I read myself, and people always ask that.
00:44:17.000 Awesome. Thank you again.
00:44:18.820 Thank you.
00:44:25.500 All right. So today's episode is free for everyone. That means you'll get to hear the
00:44:34.480 Ask It Anything, a part of the show that's kind of like a free for all and normally just for
00:44:39.320 paid subscribers. We've talked about the best plants for your office, getting through a friend
00:44:44.080 breakup, politely and impolitely shutting down fat phobic talk. And today's question is a follow
00:44:50.600 up to a newsletter I wrote back in January called The Right Kind of Busy. Melody, will you read this
00:44:55.980 question for me? This is from Liza. I loved Anne's recent essay about the right kind of busy and would
00:45:02.560 be excited to hear specific thoughts on how to keep that kind of busy from tipping into things
00:45:07.760 feeling overly hectic and bad, aka the wrong kind of busy. Liza, I am currently in the wrong kind of
00:45:15.160 busy. Same. But I know why I am. The right kind of busy occurs when you have not overprogrammed
00:45:25.720 yourself so that if something switches in your life, if there's some minor catastrophe, if some
00:45:31.620 work gets put on your plate, that you don't immediately switch over into the wrong kind of
00:45:39.840 busy. And what happened to me is that I was right on the edge was like teetering. And then some work
00:45:48.940 that I thought was done, got moved and consolidated into a month period of time, this will all become
00:45:54.920 clear next month. But basically, I'm doing an additional part time job on top of all of my
00:46:02.060 other part time jobs. And so that to me suggests that I had already overestimated what I could
00:46:10.360 bear. So because if one extra thing has really put me into this like burnout spiral, then I was
00:46:18.920 already overcommitted. What are your feelings on this? Oh, yeah, I'm in the exact same boat. And I
00:46:25.840 think you're spot on. Like, you know, I neglected everything I was doing in June to get through the
00:46:31.980 rest of the Supreme Court term and then thought I would have all of July to catch up but two
00:46:38.900 literally two emails have thrown July into disarray and I'm now going to be working like
00:46:44.520 every weekend for the foreseeable future right and there's just like really no way out of it
00:46:49.700 so there's just no margin there's no breathing room yeah and but I can't quite identify
00:46:57.140 what the like final choice was that got me to that point well the hard thing for us as
00:47:04.840 freelancers is that there is no predictability and you can try and account for things and you
00:47:13.720 can try the way both of us are right now to work ahead and get on top of things so that you can
00:47:20.820 actually go on vacation but really what it does is it just like puts you into this incredibly
00:47:26.980 wrong kind of busy ahead of your vacation and I think the thing that I've been thinking about
00:47:33.260 is that like both you and I and a lot of other people that I know who find themselves in this
00:47:40.100 conundrum have accepted amount of work and responsibilities that if we never went on
00:47:46.580 vacation if we didn't have any sort of spontaneous friend meetup if we never got sick if no one in
00:47:53.880 our lives ever got sick and we were willing to work probably six days a week like everything
00:48:01.080 would be fine total equilibrium right we're like i'm not taking on too much uh-huh but the reality
00:48:07.860 is if there is that margin i'm like yeah i can take that on because i i do have the space and
00:48:13.020 time technically but yeah yes and you have the creative energy to do it and you have the capacity
00:48:18.520 technically to do it right and i think especially for those of us who came up working that way
00:48:26.660 or learned to work that way that level of full still feels like oh we've got room to go i can
00:48:34.340 still accept other things instead of recognizing that full is actually like about half of where
00:48:43.120 that was before yeah and that is a really really difficult recalibration and the other thing like
00:48:49.520 and I like so many of us have realized this is that yes I could keep at an even keel if none of
00:48:55.640 those catastrophes happened if I never took vacation if I didn't have any room for friends
00:49:00.540 but that is a life that rotates around your work not you having anything more than that and I think
00:49:08.880 that that that's really at the heart of the problem is that like if we want to have strong
00:49:13.280 connections and don't want to be lonely if we want to build community if we want to have rest
00:49:18.680 and if we want to make room in our lives for each other and for our own care we can't
00:49:28.640 operate at that other level of full but okay we're just explaining why we're bad
00:49:34.340 but no I think we can they can learn from our areas the other thing that's hard for me too
00:49:41.920 like as a freelancer is this is the first time in my life that I've ever had any say over how
00:49:47.420 much money I make and I like making money and I finally again for the first time in my adult life
00:49:53.600 can like spend money on kind of stupid stuff if I want to and so I keep taking on more work because
00:49:59.560 i'm like well there's more money to be made uh but my therapist dragged me recently where she 0.64
00:50:07.240 was like okay but like at a certain point like what is that money for and i was like to see the
00:50:11.000 world and she goes oh with all the time you don't take off and i was like okay rebecca
00:50:16.860 right right yeah so i think that the the advice that i'm trying to take and i like i love that
00:50:26.820 this question came in when it did because I was having a conversation with myself about this this
00:50:31.460 week is that as I look to the future I have to continue like every time an offer or a type of
00:50:43.100 work comes in I have to think like is this something like am I already operating at full
00:50:48.740 levels yeah is this something that future me will feel absolutely overwhelmed by oh god and how do
00:50:55.700 you have an honest conversation with yourself about that like because I'm very good at talking
00:50:59.500 myself into saying yes to things and I think having people like whether it's I send you things
00:51:06.340 or I send like my fellow newsletter writer chat things like having someone who can real talk me
00:51:13.060 and be like you don't need that yeah you're already doing enough you're already making
00:51:17.940 enough money it's fine the future you thing is so real I saw it was probably on Twitter a long
00:51:24.300 time ago somebody's saying like if somebody asks you to do something in the future imagine they're
00:51:29.460 asking you to do it tomorrow and if it's not like absolutely i would love to do that tomorrow
00:51:34.620 then you're not going to want to do it in the future yep yep well and the other thing to
00:51:39.780 emphasize here is that i want to have more space in my life to like offer mentorship and advice i
00:51:47.660 want to have more space in my life to be a spontaneous friend to spend more time in my
00:51:52.840 community like all of those things I want to be the person who when someone asked me to do something
00:51:58.680 that is not related to work that I don't think about future me that like future me is like no
00:52:05.040 you're not going to want to do that you're you're going to be too tired you're going to want to say
00:52:07.700 no right like I want to be able to accept those things but I can't yeah if I'm always saying yes
00:52:14.660 to work things because those work things offer me a sense of prestige and safety and money okay so
00:52:21.800 how do we get ourselves out of our current situation well i do i do think that having
00:52:27.140 someone else who who can offer you perspective on these things is really useful yeah um yeah
00:52:33.320 and i think that like having seasons of no is also useful i really practice this at various points
00:52:39.840 like when i'm heads down on the book and that sort of thing like okay everything that comes in
00:52:46.340 money or not i have to be like i overscheduled myself and i'm now trying to compensate
00:52:51.380 by declining a bunch of things yeah you know leah litman one of the hosts of strict scrutiny
00:52:57.720 is working on a book and she has an auto responder on her email saying she's going to be slow to
00:53:02.560 respond because she's working on her book and she's also not accepting any new projects during
00:53:06.940 this time but thanks for asking yeah yeah and then she doesn't have to like respond individually to
00:53:11.200 everything that comes in that's smart i also think and this person is not asking about writing a book
00:53:16.640 but I think books are part of the problem and none of us should be writing books because books
00:53:21.220 don't pay enough for you to actually focus on the book so what you do is you do the book on top of
00:53:26.520 your other things so unless you're writing a romance novel in your spare creative time like
00:53:32.240 melody you should know but I don't have any spare creative time is the point I've written one page
00:53:37.140 in like three years I don't even I just want time to pull the weeds of my garden I've done that one
00:53:44.640 time this summer well and that's the thing if someone looked at my life and they were like
00:53:48.760 you're doing too many things like you shouldn't be running a micro dahlia farm i'm like no that's
00:53:53.840 the best part i'm not giving that up i need to give up the other things yeah um all right i think
00:54:01.620 we answered that one i think that was good we mused we do offer musings not always advice
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00:55:09.320 for this episode this is a doozy we have a lot to talk about here but i think what i'd be interested
00:55:16.240 most interested in hearing is how hearing from someone who had been inside and their reflections
00:55:23.400 on the experience how that has affected textured maybe changed or not changed your previous
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