00:03:59.340This is the Culture Study Podcast, and I'm Anne Helen Peterson.
00:04:03.220And I'm Hannah McGregor, co-host of the podcast Material Girls,
00:04:07.340and author of the book Clever Girl Jurassic Park.
00:04:11.720I am so excited to talk today. I love talking about blockbusters in particular, but also just like the movie industry broadly and also 90s blockbusters especially. So I want to ask about your first or like most vivid memory of a blockbuster experience.
00:04:31.120It was definitely Jurassic Park. That's the first movie that I remember seeing in theaters and recognizing as having a kind of event-ness to it. I had definitely seen movies in theaters prior to that. One of my early core memories is being taken to see Ghostbusters 2 a little too young.
00:04:53.300and i got too scared and my mom had to take me out my brother and uh father stayed and watched it
00:05:01.040and my mom and i walked around the mall because i was too scared was it like the state buff
00:05:05.560marshmallow man and ghostbusters 2 no it was the guy with the face in the wall oh yeah
00:05:10.960uh so when were you born what year 1984 okay you're my brother's age so i'm 1981 i was born
00:05:20.420in 1981 and i and also i grew up in a place um that was like pretty rural but like the uh
00:05:28.420the only movie theater for like probably 100 miles in any direction um or like major movie
00:05:37.480theater like cineplex and by cineplex i mean three screens uh and that cineplex also had a drive-in
00:05:45.620And that's where I saw Ghostbusters, too. Indelible experience. But I think I would also agree that my most vivid, young blockbuster experience was seeing Jurassic Park. And I saw that. So we had this cineplex that was in the more strip mall-y area of town. But we had a picture palace downtown, like most towns over the size of 15,000, 20,000 did.
00:06:12.900And by picture palace, I mean, like in a place like Seattle, it's a massive picture palace that can seat a thousand that are all now like concert venues.
00:07:00.580And the biggest ones in places like New York and Chicago and San Francisco, they would have ushers with very specific outfits.
00:07:09.460they'd have daycare places like you couldn't drop your kid but you could go with like a noisy kid
00:07:14.840to go and still be able to hear the movie and that sort of thing like they were very they were
00:07:20.400very very fancy and a lot of these places either were chopped up in the 1960s so post which we'll
00:07:29.620get to this later about like all of the forces that led to like the decline in movie viewership
00:07:34.680in the 1950s um but some of them were chopped up into like multiplexes and oftentimes like very
00:07:41.440clumsily some of them especially the ones that were downtown during um urban flight became
00:07:47.860porn theaters yep and then some have been rescued and rejuvenated and are now musical venues
00:07:54.440so if you see like uh like someone on the level of like i don't know the national like they will
00:08:04.240often play in a theater that used to be a picture palace um and we had like a mini version of that
00:08:11.240like a lot of small towns did it was called um the liberty and it had a balcony oh yeah yeah and
00:08:20.320that is where i was sitting when i saw jurassic park and when the scariest moment in the entire
00:08:27.000movie happens when they're in the kitchen um or i there's two for me and we can talk more about
00:08:33.000the kitchen or when Newman from Seinfeld like get like the the really scary dinosaur I like
00:08:40.960had my feet up on the balcony and was like terrified and had my feet like slammed down
00:08:47.280but oh the most vivid memory I have of the first time seeing this movie and it wouldn't have been
00:08:54.420in any venue as exciting as that because Ottawa Ontario in the 90s did not have cool theaters
00:09:02.620I bet you there was a theater downtown that there was like absolutely there was the one in my neighborhood was called the Mayfair and it was an old like old old like theater that had been converted into a movie theater and it was a sort of arts like single screen arts theater where you could also see like you know it's the kind of place that you went to see the Princess Bride in theaters you know like
00:09:32.620classic classics like they were like re-showing it like exactly yeah yeah exactly um but this was
00:09:38.600definitely like a suburban strip mall viewing for sure um what i remember is the way the whole
00:09:49.280theater seemed to shake when those t-rex footsteps started totally totally sort of visceral experience
00:09:57.800of shared sensory input with a room full of strangers it's the earliest memory I have of
00:10:05.640like that particular thing like we are all in a room in the dark and something is happening that's
00:10:12.180happening to the people on the screen and it's happening to us as well and it is something that
00:10:16.980is spectacle like fundamentally spectacular yeah and so much of it depends on being in the theater
00:10:25.500with those other people right yeah i got a vhs of jurassic park when it came out because i think
00:10:31.120that like many other vhs's it was sold in a partnership through mcdonald's where like if
00:10:37.760you got like a super size mcdonald's you could get the vhs for like six dollars or something like
00:10:42.980that that's how we had all of our family vhs's we're all like if you get a four-person family
00:10:48.780meal at burger king you can also get a copy of wayne's world on vhs and at the time it was an
00:10:56.700incredible deal because vhs were very expensive because they actually were expensive to make
00:11:01.060but they essentially used these cheap vhs as as loss leaders um all right so we should we should
00:11:08.640go into the question and deeply we go now into the history of the distribution of the vhs
00:11:14.500Listen, media studies PhD, I could go down any wormhole. Any, any and all. You recently published this darling little book. I'm using darling specifically because the book is in part about the monstrous feminine. It's a book about Jurassic Park, and it's called Clever Girl. How did it come to be?
00:11:38.880Oh, it, you know, it emerged as so many things do out of a set of material constraints, which is that I was, I was making a podcast called Secret Feminist Agenda. And every second week, I did a little like monologue episode to save myself from having to book guests every single week for interviews.
00:12:01.580Yeah. Because I decided to solo make and fully produce and edit myself a weekly podcast.
00:12:08.540Oh, that's something only an academic would do to themselves.0.91
00:12:13.180Yeah, we are perverts. So every second week I was like, oh, got to come up with a topic.
00:12:20.540And, you know, one such week arose and I had just made a friend watch Jurassic Park because it is
00:12:29.420one of those movies that i often show people because if they haven't seen it i'm like oh this
00:12:35.160is a vital some people haven't seen it it's wild i know is it that they're younger and that they
00:12:41.560didn't like experience the wave of like everyone has seen jurassic yeah okay yeah yeah often friends
00:12:47.020who are a little bit younger or friends who weren't weren't born in north america and so have
00:12:51.160a different set of early cultural touch points um so i'm often showing it to people and when i show
00:12:56.540it to them, I am like, so the important thing for you to understand is that all of the dinosaurs
00:13:01.120have been engineered to be female so that they can't reproduce, which makes this a fundamentally
00:13:06.320feminist film, which is a thing that I have always said, like, with a little bit of, you know,0.96
00:13:12.220winky glibness. But I ended up making a podcast, you know, like a 15 minute podcast episode that
00:13:18.720was like, let me articulate for you my argument that Jurassic Park is a feminist film. And people
00:13:25.360really responded to it. And I think a big part of it is the way that people enjoy having an
00:13:34.680actually shared zeitgeisty piece of popular culture turned at a different angle in a way
00:13:41.980that reveals something new. And so often to do that, we've got to go back to historical objects
00:13:49.620of study because you know the whole thing where we have almost no monoculture anymore makes it
00:13:56.860really difficult to do that with contemporary stuff totally i also think it's particularly
00:14:01.300resonant because the new versions of jurassic park i don't even know their names they're all
00:14:06.700like jurassic world jurassic world fallen kingdom jurassic world dominion are not particularly
00:14:13.400feminist or have like complicated negotiations of feminism going on and this is like it's a
00:14:19.060pretty 90s understanding but like in a glorious way i think i also love like this is a something
00:14:25.420i've seen a lot in academic presses recently is doing what is more of like a extended essay
00:14:32.420like the book itself is i think it's like 114 pages right something close to that yeah yeah
00:14:38.420and so it's not like 20 000 words it's you know like two articles yeah in academic speak it's not
00:14:45.440oh here's my article and then here's like six chapters that no one is going to be able to get
00:14:50.160through with different case studies it's instead like here is an argument and here's a little bit
00:14:55.880more space for me to like do a little bit more with it and also to write I think a little bit
00:15:00.760more beautifully than is is often expected in academic writing well the fun thing about this
00:15:07.940book is that it's actually not a scholarly press ECW is a an independent trade press in Canada
00:15:15.060And this is the 14th book in their pop classics series, which are all of these little books about a particular, you know, pop culture object. So I had, you know, Jen Suk-Fung Lee, just this absolutely incredible culture writer, in her own right, was my editor.
00:15:33.020And the experience of having a very smart editor who is not an academic, that experience was so fun because trying to figure out how to make use of the set of critical tools that I have as an academic in a way that is like actually accessible and interesting for readers who don't, you know,
00:30:18.680okay let's get into our questions this one is from a listener who is also named hannah
00:30:25.580there's been a lot of talk about blockbusters being in decline but what explains the occasional
00:30:30.720movie that does become a blockbuster what do movies like barbie top gun maverick twisters
00:30:36.520etc have in common that have allowed them to reach those blockbuster heights
00:30:40.720when so many other blockbuster beat movies fail to get there
00:30:44.600so the first thing i see in those movies that are named is it's all pre-existing ip yep for sure
00:30:53.680and i think doing something simultaneously following the pattern of making use of pre-existing
00:31:03.460ip but successfully recovering pre-existing ip that hasn't been rung out for the past 20 years
00:31:11.900yeah so like a lot of the ip that studios have they have just like exhausted and all three of
00:31:21.420these examples you know twisters and top gun maverick are sequels is twisters a sequel not
00:31:29.140it's not it's it's i would say it is evocative like there is one moment where they use one of
00:31:37.240the pieces of equipment that they used in the original twister and that's it and part of and
00:31:44.600then and then also the central premise which is we are chasing twisters like we are we are after
00:31:51.540tornadoes and tornadoes are dangerous the star that has returned is tornado yes that's the word
00:31:59.220that is the returning the consistency uh the other thing that is common between at least two of these
00:32:05.360movies is Glenn Powell who is a real movie star right and I think that that like that's something
00:32:12.400that's that's fascinating is like you you need someone who has some of that wattage in order to
00:32:18.400turn something into a distinctive blockbuster that people are like I really want to go see this
00:32:25.060not just like I guess it's the next Marvel movie right yeah yeah and and it's not all it's asking
00:32:33.340from me is a kind of like passive uh presence in the movie theater you know the marvel movies
00:32:41.040um at this point are like largely incomprehensible i think like yeah like i have no idea what's
00:32:49.240happening no and most people don't like most people are just not following the lore this
00:32:53.260closely um you know but but a movie like um twisters or top gun maverick are offering you
00:33:01.280narrative offering you like an entry point into some sort of um straightforward narrative arc
00:33:08.480have that sort of um comfortable cushion of the recognizable ip but are also something that you
00:33:17.480can just you know if you haven't seen twister or top gun recently you can still enter into these
00:33:23.600movies with ease um but but it is that like in part i think it's a matter of like if you throw
00:33:35.140enough paint at a dartboard is this a good is this a good analogy you know when you throw paint at
00:33:42.240dartboards eventually you're gonna hit a bullseye a perfect analogy i think actually we can all agree
00:33:47.540um that like if you reboot everything yes some of it's gonna hit yeah the the whole sort of
00:33:57.080uh the concept of the black swan event right which is like used often in uh publishing
00:34:04.680conversations to talk about books like harry potter that just like nobody could have predicted
00:34:09.340the way that that took off and ultimately there ends up being a lot of sort of money and resources
00:34:15.440behind it but like it getting picked up in the first place is kind of unpredictable and non
00:34:20.440reproducible um and that's kind of one of the the truths behind the blockbuster as well is that a lot
00:34:28.160more movies are always trying to be blockbusters than successfully are because there's always some
00:34:33.160unpredictability yeah it's kind of like venture capital in that capacity right like there you have
00:34:38.400to you have to invest in a lot of things and just hope that one goes big but i do think that like
00:34:43.680the studios are so risk adverse now that they only will invest in something that has that
00:34:50.360previous IP. And most of the time they are not willing to do something like what they did with
00:34:56.240Barbie, which is allow Greta Gerwig to be weird with it. And I think that's what made it Barbie
00:35:04.300into the phenomenon that it was, is that it was reaching beyond the typical blockbuster audience
00:35:10.360to get people who maybe that was the only movie that they saw in theaters that year yeah yeah I
00:35:15.400mean what really struck me about Barbie is how successfully they managed to attach eventness
00:35:21.760to the experience of seeing it right the idea that like this is a movie that you're gonna go
00:35:26.600see in a group and everybody in the group is gonna dress in pink and you're gonna take a group photo
00:35:31.980a big part of it was like a really smart and successful marketing budget certainly but then
00:35:39.460it also was a legitimately interesting movie um and when i think about things like top gun maverick
00:35:46.900and barbie i also think about audience saturation with the experience of watching cgi
00:35:53.620and the impact of like practical effects stunts real physical like people like seeing tom cruise
00:36:02.420movies because he famously does his own stunts famously um you know and a big part of the appeal
00:36:09.160of barbie was that they they made everything um and i don't want to make any sort of sweeping
00:36:16.300claims about like the experience of practical effects versus the experience of cg because i
00:36:21.140think in the 90s the presence of a computer generated effect was part of the novelty of
00:36:28.500the blockbuster and now it's just become so widespread that what is novel and interesting
00:36:34.880what feels like you're seeing something new is seeing something that is a practical effect
00:36:40.900and that like novelty is so key the right balance of novelty and familiarity is so key to the
00:36:49.000blockbuster sweet spot yeah that's so true that like it needs to have something that you're like
00:36:54.280oh and i know what the next beat is gonna be right i feel like we're gonna have this really
00:36:59.560interesting moment and it's starting already of looking back on some of the cgi of like the early
00:37:05.8202000s and being like wow that looked like shit right whereas a lot of the effects from the early
00:37:14.08090s or even like i think about jaws like it actually is very good right or even like original0.63
00:37:21.120star wars yeah and it's because they had to be so incredibly mindful and couldn't just be like
00:37:25.820oh we're just gonna let the computer just render this right yeah um they had to be very careful
00:37:31.000and cautious with the use of effects because they were very expensive yeah and if you overused them
00:37:38.420they were gonna look really crummy right so like famously we see we actually see very very little
00:37:45.720of jaws in jaws we see very very few dinosaurs in jurassic park yeah yeah and that part of the sort
00:37:54.560of what makes it still feel special and exciting is that they are only appearing and sort of
00:38:01.820heightened they can they can still be a whammy because they're not in every single scene right
00:38:06.720like if something just saturates the entirety of a movie it loses its effect really really quickly
00:38:12.160and and that kind of that kind of tasteful restraint yes I think is a quality in filmmaking
00:38:19.900that is perhaps not valued much these days there are some directors who do not know how to use it
00:38:27.320I'm so interested to see what the new gladiator is going to do in terms of this too because like
00:38:32.940that is a pre-sold idea that and you have a big star or a big potential star in Paul Mescal
00:38:40.540but also i i just i don't i don't trust like that you can make a sequel to gladiator and make it not
00:38:48.300be like not that great um you know the other example that i find really interesting um that
00:38:55.760could have been grouped in with the you know top gun maverick and barbie is is dune oh right and
00:39:02.980And that is another like a pre-existing IP, some, you know, big budget movie stars, a successful, an interesting enough director that they're doing something that feels exciting with it.
00:39:20.680Yeah. And also a little bit, and this is how I felt with Barbie as well, like a little bit of stunting, by which I mean, you know, Dune is a famously impossible story to adapt.
00:39:35.880Yeah. Many have tried, all have failed.
00:39:39.100Similarly, the idea of doing a good job of adapting Barbie into a movie, right?
00:39:45.300It feels a little bit like you want to turn out to see it because it's either going to be really cool or a colossal disaster.
00:39:56.060And that feels interesting because even though both of those examples are, you know, pre-existing IP, there's something a little risky about them.
00:40:07.420yeah i think that's part of how barbie was successful vis-a-vis word of mouth right it's
00:40:13.800like can you believe it the barbie movie is actually good can you guys guys they pulled
00:40:21.600it off can you believe this right and then we'll put this article in the show notes there's a great
00:40:27.280new yorker profile of like the access that mattel gave greta gerwig and how like mattel and other
00:40:35.420companies are trying to think about how like how can we make the game life into a movie that isn't
00:40:44.340ridiculous right like how do you actually do that little twist that's a commentary on the ip itself
00:40:50.980and that's part of what we're talking about too i think it's like even top gun maverick is in some0.53
00:40:55.680way like the spectacle is in some ways tom cruise's face yeah and his body like what is happening to
00:41:01.720his aging body and like who is his heir like is his heir glenn powell or is it miles teller and
00:41:07.840personally i think it's glenn powell but uh next question has a theory for why blockbusters
00:41:14.920resonate in various seasons so this comes from alana i feel like part of the reason barbie was
00:41:21.060so special was because it brought people together in a blockbuster way with fashion the director the
00:41:26.240cast and the political moment is there a chance that election years years of despair and
00:41:31.100disassociation between the brutality of the world and the movies that are actually interesting
00:41:35.380can help bring back the blockbuster for good i mean if if despair brings the blockbuster back
00:41:44.460then then we are in great shape vis-a-vis the future of the blockbuster
00:41:49.700i do think that like that there is an interesting argument to be made about
00:41:58.020the decline of monoculture and the rise of polarization right like that's something that
00:42:06.340would need to be done very carefully and by someone who is uh has more time on their hands
00:42:12.560than I think either of us do since you're out here just producing podcasts by yourself
00:42:18.160well not not anymore I know but just like you got a team but I got tenure in Zoloft so we're
00:42:25.900doing a little better um but yeah like that like an actual sort of um deep study of what is going
00:42:34.560on politically at the moment of particular blockbusters you know frankly i'm sure somebody
00:42:41.120is already engaged in it i do think that something like barbie like even pointing out that the that
00:42:46.020barbie brought people together i think that it actually pissed off a lot of people uh one of0.63
00:42:51.860uh the stars of rush talk kylan she who looks like a barbie uh she watched it and she was like0.98
00:42:58.680this is dumb and i think like it's a particular version of like a kind of feminism light0.99
00:43:07.740right like in the famous america ferrera speech like those were always like the parts where i was0.98
00:43:14.680like okay if we're gonna write a lot more about this like these are things that i would want to1.00
00:43:18.200interrogate more I do think that that that type of like almost girl powery feminism like life is0.99
00:43:24.840hard but like why don't we just like life is hard for women what if it wasn't so hard wouldn't that0.57
00:43:32.680be nicer what if we didn't have to wear heels that was very palatable yeah I mean honestly one
00:43:40.280of the things that makes i think a movie like barbie or top gun maverick actually like go beyond
00:43:52.160sort of the opening weekend spectacle numbers and have people like returning to see it again
00:43:57.980and having conversations about it is that there is some kind of there there yeah um at least enough
00:44:05.920to generate conversation um that there's readings available of it uh you know it's very hard to
00:44:15.080say much of anything about the third guardians of the galaxy movie um but there's at least
00:44:23.580a conversation to be had around watching tom cruise age and star in a movie that is about
00:44:32.980aging or watching um margot robbie star in a movie that is about the objectification of women's
00:44:43.120bodies like right there's a there's a conversation to be had um i think barbie is sort of aesthetically
00:44:51.000quite a successful film because i think that sort of girl boss feminism 101 is a surface layer and
00:45:01.060i think that there's something beyond that i think you can keep going and get deeper into
00:45:06.700the movie than that but that gives it a sort of um a readily legible narrative that also makes
00:45:16.240it accessible for further conversation um and that you know is a huge part of how a blockbuster
00:45:23.100happens is that like people watch it and then go talk to somebody else about it they don't forget
00:45:28.880it 30 seconds after they walk out of the movie theater yeah i that's such an important point
00:45:34.580i think the other thing was especially with something like top gun is that it also reproduces
00:45:41.020discourses that we are very familiar with in terms of like like american jingoism like that it's so
00:45:49.340like there's something so ham-fisted in um top gun maverick about the fact that like they because
00:45:55.220you can't be against the commies anymore right so instead it's like a country that's like clearly
00:46:00.900iran but they don't say that it's iran like yeah it's clearly bad guys don't worry about it bad
00:46:07.960guys that we need to bomb which also like that gives like allows or is actually very on point
00:46:14.800in terms of like how we think about drone warfare and like oh it's just bad guys like it's okay
00:46:22.980because it's bad guys yeah we don't even have to like name who they are or know anything else
00:46:29.340about them as long as someone tells us that they're bad guys then they should get bombed
00:46:33.560yeah yeah which again like melodrama like yeah and the the appeal of the moral simplicity of
00:46:43.160melodrama in the midst of say the contemporary moment in which people are like you know navigating
00:46:51.340on a regular basis the incredibly complex experience of like understanding what's
00:46:59.960happening in the middle east right and the impossibility i mean people desperately want
00:47:05.560to say like well there's good guys and bad guys um and again i'm full of hot takes now not not a0.59
00:47:13.540huge fan of what uh the state of israel is doing right now i think it's kind of monstrous um but
00:47:20.280it's not a melodrama it's incredibly messy gritty difficult political experience and
00:47:30.280the offering of a narrative that simplifies the world down to good guys and bad guys
00:47:35.440um certainly has uh a particular appeal during a moment like this well and there's a reason why
00:47:43.600Oppenheimer while successful is not what I would call a blockbuster right like there is there are
00:47:51.600aspects of melodrama in that movie but it is offering a much more complex understanding of
00:47:56.700like even what dropping creating and dropping the bomb did to all of us right and the wages
00:48:02.860of those decisions yeah yeah I mean you know who's great still at blockbusters and and keeps
00:48:10.120kind of nailing it every time is james cameron like that guy knows one i think he
00:48:19.080genuinely experiences the world with melodrama this is my like fan theory i think this is real
00:48:27.380like he's like i don't think he's simplifying the way that he sees the world for the purpose
00:48:32.780of filmmaking i think he actually sees the world like that the narrative of making titanic the
00:48:38.780narrative of making avatar is like good triumph over evil like no one wanted me to make these
00:48:45.760movies but i did it but i did and now the movie exists and can you believe it it's so much movie
00:48:53.680and every and and he's so interested in a melodramatic narrative accompanied by a cool
00:49:01.840new thing to look at that's all he wants he wants to show you something cool you haven't seen before
00:49:06.660and then he wants to layer that over a story a very simple story about good and evil um and every
00:49:13.840time he does it like he does seem to knock it out of the park yeah no but then i think about someone
00:49:20.120like uh why am i blanking um director of of oppenheimer um christopher nolan christopher
00:49:25.580nolan like i i find christopher nolan really interesting because he is arguably the only
00:49:31.400director that can make a movie that is not with existing IP that people will go see as if it were
00:49:39.240and for all of the like dude bro critiques of him I do think none of his movies are offering
00:49:47.820a simple understanding of the world and to me it's proof that like there is an appetite
00:49:53.840for a melodrama that twists and that asks you to think more about like is this a good guy is this
00:50:00.880the bad guy like those sorts of questions and i and i think that we actually crave more of those
00:50:06.460type of films but when you are working with existing ip it is difficult to to create narratives
00:50:13.500and that also need to be globally legible yep so you have to work with existing ip you need to
00:50:19.540create narratives that are globally legible you have to somehow get anything interesting that0.97
00:50:24.300you're doing through a committee of probably hundreds of terrible, boring white men. And so0.99
00:50:31.460in most cases, the only people who can do it are people who already come in with a certain amount
00:50:38.760of power. So Christopher Nolan enters into these arrangements with a pre-existing power of his own
00:50:48.000to drive forward an unusual film um and so you know certainly we need to have as part of this
00:50:55.380larger conversation like we got to think about well who who can even enter the conversation with
00:51:01.360that kind of power in the first place absolutely it's very very few people and it's not a coincidence
00:51:06.600that it's like a white guy who makes movies that are particularly appealing to other white guys
00:51:12.580right do you know the maxim that like there's four quadrants of moviegoers very broadly understood
00:51:19.400so there's adult women adult men teen women teen men yeah and women will go see anything that a
00:51:29.220man will see but men will not go see anything that a woman will see and adults will go see
00:51:35.340anything that a teen will see but teens won't go see anything that an adult will see and so if
00:54:22.860Like, when you're in your 20s, your friends have time.
00:54:28.100like my friends and I we you have very little money but you've got time my friends and I used
00:54:34.160to uh we we figured out which movie theaters had concessions before ticketing and which ones had
00:54:41.680concessions after ticketing and if the ticketing all kind of happens like at the front of the
00:54:47.640theater and then concessions and and screens are beyond you can just buy one movie ticket and then
00:54:52.820spend all day in that movie theater oh yeah we would absolutely like on a saturday just go see
00:54:59.580like four movies for the price of one like it was you know a popular popular activity and the idea
00:55:06.600of having a whole saturday that i don't have anything else i need to do now is unheard of
00:55:12.140um and so you know part of it is just that that that shift in in my own life and the kinds of
00:55:19.860My friends have kids. We've got full time jobs. We, you know, I want to be able to put on a movie and make dinner, like put on a movie and like putter around and clean up. Because if I go to a movie and come home three hours later, none of those whole tasks that had to be done have been done.
00:55:40.560um so so you know that's that's all part of it for me and my response to like how do i get my
00:55:50.940friends to go to a movie is this is going to blow your mind instead of trying to convince them that
00:55:56.180it's better for them just say that it matters to you yeah yeah just like make it into something
00:56:03.040that like hey can we go to dinner before right or like if you like going to see movies with people
00:56:08.320I only like to go see movies with like five people
00:56:11.680because I don't always appreciate the conversation afterwards.
00:56:16.500Sometimes I just want to hang out in my own head.
00:56:18.760My number one favorite thing is going to a movie by myself.
00:56:22.400When I was in grad school, I would go at least twice a week to the movies.
00:56:25.460I didn't have any money, but what I did have, I spent on going to the movies.
00:56:28.840I also love going to the movies by myself.
00:56:32.260I love your very subtle way of being like,
00:56:34.360I don't want to go to the movies with a dummy.
00:56:43.260especially if you're seeing something that's like kind of weird
00:56:46.600or like asks you like wants to settle into your body a little bit like
00:56:51.080you can't talk about it right away right or if you're just like weeping
00:56:56.040uncontrollably which happens to me all the time in movies
00:56:59.660like you just want to sit with those feelings you want to feel your feelings
00:57:03.480And if you have to perform a different sort of feeling for someone afterwards, I think sometimes that is not the experience that you're looking for.
00:57:12.480One of my favorite sort of going to a movie by myself memories is going to see Arrival by myself, which is a perfect, perfect movie to see by yourself so you can cry as much as you want.