Poog with Kate Berlant and Jacqueline Novak - September 12, 2023

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00:02:39.400 Hi, I'm Kate Berlant.

00:02:40.880 I'm Jacqueline Novak.

00:02:41.940 And this is Poog, an ongoing conversation about wellness between two obsessive friends.

00:02:46.660 Two untamable intellects.

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00:02:52.500 This is Hoog.

00:02:53.900 Today's topic, loosely speaking,

00:02:55.760 the London Eye, Wet Meal, a map of the mind.

00:03:03.120 So, hello.

00:03:05.120 Hi.

00:03:07.580 I was texting furiously before,

00:03:09.600 and Jocelyn, in a way that made complete sense,

00:03:11.200 was like, you're not here, you're not focused.

00:03:12.920 And I completely, and I want you to know,

00:03:15.340 do not disturb has been put on and i'm here is it turned over the phone's turned over and do

00:03:22.820 not disturb is on and the computer so nothing will come through so today this is a huge day

00:03:28.600 for me because i'm leaving tomorrow for five weeks london do you have your tickets yet and

00:03:33.660 and if you if you by the time this recording is out you mean it will be a few more days by the

00:03:41.820 time this recording is at the show, you will have been

00:03:43.820 sold out for weeks, God willing, or else I'll be

00:03:45.820 jumping from the London Eye.

00:03:47.700 Yeah. Although,

00:03:48.900 what is the eye?

00:03:51.500 Isn't it like a... Is that a big ride?

00:03:54.040 Yeah, I think of it as... Yeah, it's a ride.

00:03:56.400 It's like a... My brain, I go...

00:03:58.180 My brain. It's like a modern carnival ride.

00:04:00.240 I go, Big Ben's

00:04:01.840 Eye? Right, right. Totally.

00:04:03.880 No, it makes sense. It's a clock.

00:04:06.180 Big Ben's a clock. Big Ben's a clock,

00:04:08.120 I think. No eye, but

00:04:09.880 I mean, certainly an eye inside the cloth, central.

00:04:13.840 Nothing looks at us quite like time does.

00:04:15.900 God, beautifully put. 0.99

00:04:17.280 There it fucking is. 1.00

00:04:18.360 Fuck. 1.00

00:04:20.000 My big goal today when I was texting Jacqueline in the morning, 1.00

00:04:22.660 I was like, let's record at four.

00:04:24.640 And my goal is to be packed by four.

00:04:26.240 It is four and I'm not packed.

00:04:27.380 But here's the thing.

00:04:28.540 I have given myself permission to do two checked bags.

00:04:31.900 One on the lighter side.

00:04:33.640 Because here's the thing.

00:04:34.500 Interesting.

00:04:35.180 Jacqueline, and we've talked about this on the pod.

00:04:36.680 We went from one pair of jeans.

00:04:38.400 Yeah, to two bags.

00:04:39.620 still doing one pair of blue jeans but the thing is products products products when you're gone

00:04:44.540 for five weeks you have this much hair you have this much skin on your body you need bottles

00:04:49.440 like it's it's that's what's bulking up the bags i already decided i'm taking one sensible heel i

00:04:57.720 want it sorry i just literally froze i was like i need more heels i'm taking one i'm gonna take

00:05:02.720 one slutty pair of heels for fun high one sensible pair of heels low one pair of day boots

00:05:08.560 One sensible heel, high, like, hello.

00:05:11.860 You know what I mean?

00:05:12.540 A high heel.

00:05:14.020 I'm taking one pair of sex shoes, one pair of normal shoes.

00:05:17.300 What I'll do when I...

00:05:18.800 I'm going to travel feeling like I'm going to want something like,

00:05:22.800 well, what if I want a special heel or something from there?

00:05:25.780 Yeah.

00:05:26.520 Or an outfit?

00:05:27.260 I get into the excitement of doing the shopping there.

00:05:29.900 So I go, oh, but wouldn't it be more fun?

00:05:31.560 To go hunt for one, yeah.

00:05:32.800 High heels in London.

00:05:33.480 You know what I'm going to do?

00:05:34.320 Oh, what could I go in London?

00:05:36.780 No, that's really fun.

00:05:37.940 but I'm going to bring my...

00:05:39.280 But that involves buying.

00:05:40.460 Yeah.

00:05:41.300 I know.

00:05:41.800 I know.

00:05:42.260 I know.

00:05:42.720 It's hard to consider opening up a merch store

00:05:45.000 outside your show featuring my merch

00:05:48.040 because I have a storage unit in London.

00:05:53.040 Really?

00:05:54.060 With Getting Your Needs merch.

00:05:55.120 No, you don't.

00:05:56.280 Yeah, like just I couldn't take it home with me.

00:05:58.760 It's a whole thing.

00:05:59.680 You have a storage unit in London?

00:06:02.040 A storage unit meaning

00:06:03.080 someone is kindly keeping it in a closet in their office.

00:06:06.420 Okay, a big difference

00:06:07.140 in a storage unit.

00:06:08.040 But yeah.

00:06:09.200 Yeah.

00:06:09.760 But go on.

00:06:10.520 Take me back to your packing

00:06:11.400 because I'm not done.

00:06:12.220 I already decanted

00:06:13.360 some of my supplements

00:06:14.380 into plastic bags.

00:06:17.880 So check it out.

00:06:18.760 This is my medicine bag.

00:06:20.740 So you'll see

00:06:21.360 I've got some

00:06:22.680 I've got some

00:06:23.680 like this is

00:06:24.180 Is that a branded Ziploc?

00:06:25.780 No.

00:06:26.720 I can't really see.

00:06:27.980 So it's pixelated.

00:06:28.920 It says yellow.

00:06:29.840 Oh, I say

00:06:30.280 what's the yellow bag? 1.00

00:06:30.980 This is a shit Ziploc. 0.99

00:06:32.280 It's not the modern one 0.99

00:06:33.140 with the top zip.

00:06:34.200 This is

00:06:34.820 Don't you remember?

00:06:35.820 I know.

00:06:36.360 What was our

00:06:36.700 we remind myself and the listeners we're talking about it this i had this thing of like where i

00:06:41.520 zip it so far that the the zipper on top flies off and i was like permanently closed closed yeah

00:06:47.340 yeah yeah closed forever i've got my moon juice superpower immunity supplement that i really do

00:06:53.920 pack packets i've got the soft pack there aren't that many in here there are maybe

00:06:58.660 15 but that's fine um because i chronically take too many supplements i've got an extra

00:07:04.940 full fend unused in here anyway yeah decanting it's it's the products but for example i'm taking

00:07:12.160 a full some of the bottles just coming in full also because as we've discussed the erotics of

00:07:16.580 the full bottle on the trip that's the joy of checking is not decanting into a smaller actually

00:07:22.300 having the bottle the physical bottle and then that's how you take home with you on the road

00:07:26.060 is you have your particular shelf yeah particular well that's interesting i mean when you're going

00:07:32.780 somewhere for a month as you are five weeks to be exact yeah just to really further i think

00:07:37.660 further amplify you don't need to be living at a small um the small is more about when you're in a

00:07:44.380 road trip absolutely i mean you're you're you're in and i'm gonna be in one location

00:07:49.560 possibly too about lightness and all that kind of stuff um i'm excited are you ready for this

00:07:57.380 buckle up. I'm excited for my flight to London because it's a red eye or I'm going from Seattle,

00:08:04.880 which is fascinating, but I already have my little plan where eight o'clock, half a Klonopin, 0.61

00:08:10.880 here I go straight to heaven. I already have a big plan, which is to have a huge meal at the

00:08:16.200 airport, ideally not the airport dinner before, but I want to have a huge, get my big dinner in

00:08:22.240 because I don't want to rely on dinner on the plane.

00:08:25.040 I'm going to get my big, wet, soft dinner in.

00:08:29.920 Wet food only.

00:08:31.920 I say that for your cats as well to prevent kidney disease.

00:08:37.260 Instead of just putting them on wet.

00:08:39.020 Oh, I see.

00:08:40.340 Putting them on wet food once they have kidney disease

00:08:43.020 is you always see like on Stray Cat Alliance,

00:08:46.060 chronic kidney disease later in life for cats.

00:08:49.260 They're like, this cat needs wet food only

00:08:51.740 because of their kidney issues.

00:08:53.940 Because cats don't drink as much water as they need.

00:08:56.500 Who does?

00:08:57.040 I say feed them wet from the start.

00:08:58.220 I don't know, cat.

00:08:58.660 Because it's also a lie.

00:08:59.840 It's a lie I heard that the kibble gets plaque off her teeth. 0.67

00:09:04.020 It's a bald-faced lie.

00:09:06.420 It's a lie. 1.00

00:09:07.500 Yeah, it seems like big kibbles desire to promote themselves. 1.00

00:09:12.480 Anyway, keep going. 1.00

00:09:13.400 Take us back.

00:09:14.020 Where were we?

00:09:14.580 Oh, no.

00:09:14.920 So just my big, wet, hot, soft dinner.

00:09:17.300 Oh, yeah, wet food.

00:09:18.300 Okay, yeah, yeah.

00:09:18.980 A hot meal.

00:09:20.180 What do I call a hot meal?

00:09:21.740 I'm going to get a hot meal.

00:09:23.240 I'm going to get on the plane.

00:09:24.200 Now you're going to get table service.

00:09:25.460 I'm already excited.

00:09:26.140 I know what brand name of the little stuff.

00:09:27.460 Wait, I'm handsome.

00:09:28.320 Okay, why?

00:09:28.960 I always want to slow it down.

00:09:30.220 I always want to slow it down.

00:09:30.820 Okay, take me.

00:09:32.060 To me, it's like, okay, I want a meal.

00:09:35.000 And it's like, yeah, it better be a hot meal.

00:09:37.640 Hot meal.

00:09:38.160 Better be prepared.

00:09:39.060 You know what I hate?

00:09:40.660 When something is like faking like it's a restaurant,

00:09:43.780 or faking like it has a real menu,

00:09:45.900 and then you discover they're kind of pulling it off with one panini press.

00:09:50.860 Do you know what I mean?

00:09:51.740 you can get breakfast somewhere

00:09:53.980 and it's like egg

00:09:55.100 and then like you realize

00:09:55.980 like it's a hard boiled egg sliced

00:09:57.360 oh god

00:09:58.100 yeah yeah yeah

00:09:58.900 no no no

00:09:59.740 anyway

00:10:00.000 anyway

00:10:00.680 I feel like generally

00:10:01.940 I'm not eating meals

00:10:03.640 at airports ever

00:10:05.460 yeah table serve

00:10:06.080 because I'm doing coach

00:10:07.400 I want to be clear here

00:10:08.780 I'm flying coach

00:10:09.400 so it's like

00:10:10.460 yeah

00:10:11.120 yeah I don't want to be

00:10:13.100 having to run

00:10:13.820 you're not

00:10:14.240 you're likely on your own dime

00:10:15.820 honey it's theater

00:10:17.180 okay

00:10:17.980 so what I'm going to do

00:10:21.480 is get my big wet

00:10:23.500 meal, settle into my...

00:10:25.540 It's actually weird the theaters don't let you

00:10:27.740 as part of runs. First class,

00:10:29.720 I know. No, sleep at the theater.

00:10:31.940 That's not part of a theater run.

00:10:33.920 Actually, the housing is the theater.

00:10:36.260 I know they have cots, part of you.

00:10:37.620 Thank God.

00:10:38.640 Take me back. Hot wet meal.

00:10:41.120 So then I'm going to slip into my seat,

00:10:43.680 8 o'clock takeoff. Window or aisle?

00:10:46.620 I believe on aisle.

00:10:48.120 Despite yearning for sleep.

00:10:49.300 I always do

00:10:50.440 well here's the thing

00:10:51.480 I think from Seattle to London 1.00

00:10:52.640 not to be a cunt 1.00

00:10:53.720 but 1.00

00:10:53.980 well it's going to be a packed flight

00:10:55.260 from Seattle to London

00:10:56.100 like there's no way

00:10:56.900 I'm almost worried

00:10:57.800 it's going to be

00:10:58.440 like that's not going to be

00:10:59.980 in every flight full

00:11:00.720 you're afraid the flight's

00:11:01.660 going to be

00:11:01.960 the plane's going to be too light

00:11:03.220 that it won't have stability

00:11:04.220 in the air

00:11:04.620 yeah there's like

00:11:04.900 there's only four of you

00:11:05.680 bounce into the sky

00:11:06.540 and bounce into space

00:11:07.740 I mean I'm just

00:11:09.020 I don't want to get too excited

00:11:10.000 but my chances

00:11:11.180 obviously for my own row

00:11:12.820 higher than ever before

00:11:14.920 and so

00:11:15.800 what I'm going to do is

00:11:17.560 eight o'clock takeoff

00:11:19.480 settle in

00:11:20.420 maybe read a little

00:11:21.420 do a little writing

00:11:22.900 doubtful

00:11:23.880 why even say it

00:11:25.460 why even say the lie

00:11:26.340 that we know

00:11:26.740 will never happen

00:11:27.380 well it's not

00:11:28.320 actually doubtful

00:11:29.360 because

00:11:29.800 I've worked on a plane

00:11:31.080 I have had some of the

00:11:32.240 absolute best

00:11:33.980 unbroken work sessions

00:11:35.740 I had one

00:11:36.420 of my life

00:11:37.260 whoa

00:11:37.820 and by the way

00:11:39.300 ADD

00:11:39.740 there's a lot to it

00:11:40.800 and I think it was in the book

00:11:42.080 maybe it was in that book

00:11:43.380 A Hunter in the World of Farmers

00:11:45.000 or whatever

00:11:45.280 okay

00:11:45.660 A Hunter in the Farmer's World

00:11:46.840 a guy booked a flight

00:11:48.940 or a train travel

00:11:51.620 to finish his book. 0.99

00:11:54.080 Okay, this is fucking huge 0.97

00:11:55.360 because I've always been like 0.97

00:11:57.460 writing on the plane,

00:11:58.160 working on the plane,

00:11:58.780 not real.

00:11:59.900 I had one of the most

00:12:00.820 productive sessions

00:12:01.680 of writing my show

00:12:02.640 Kate on a plane.

00:12:04.220 Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:12:05.340 Okay, so there's something about 1.00

00:12:06.600 Fuck, to hear it. 1.00

00:12:07.760 There you are. 1.00

00:12:08.680 Okay.

00:12:09.600 This is why I've actually,

00:12:11.040 I'm actually,

00:12:11.600 I've become anti-red-eye.

00:12:13.520 I'm like, how about

00:12:14.140 I've always been anti-red-eye

00:12:15.060 one of the most

00:12:15.700 until recently.

00:12:16.260 because I mean

00:12:17.360 only for five hours

00:12:18.720 it's not enough

00:12:19.540 well honey

00:12:19.820 what do you mean

00:12:20.620 this is like 11 hours

00:12:21.720 it's not enough sleep

00:12:22.840 no yours is

00:12:23.740 I'm talking about

00:12:24.340 just the one

00:12:24.940 oh yeah

00:12:25.760 no New York to LA

00:12:26.880 it's my five hour red eye

00:12:27.880 that's absolutely sick

00:12:28.880 it's not enough 0.63

00:12:29.420 sick

00:12:30.300 day trip

00:12:31.180 okay

00:12:32.680 you're drinking

00:12:33.540 you're drinking coffee

00:12:34.680 excuse me

00:12:35.320 I'll take another

00:12:35.880 yeah

00:12:36.640 okay you're locked in

00:12:38.440 and you

00:12:39.060 it's like I

00:12:40.200 I told you this

00:12:41.040 this once from

00:12:41.800 you're locked

00:12:42.440 sorry

00:12:42.660 finish the sentence 0.96

00:12:43.620 and then

00:12:44.340 I'll share the

00:12:45.540 what it comes from i'll i'll leave i'll leave the lily pad complete before i leap shall we yeah

00:12:50.960 please you're locked into the seat there you are your elbows are a little crammed and you got to

00:12:57.280 fight for your work okay yeah okay and you can't go anywhere and the screen is irrelevant it's like

00:13:05.240 no no i barely even turn on my screen on planes it is it has become wow i'm not like hey it's 0.98

00:13:12.620 middle of the day time to watch a movie or as i am i'm like let's fire up enjoy you assholes okay 0.88

00:13:19.640 i'm like i see it as as like detention in like a really good way like it's time that you can 0.94

00:13:27.420 steal back even if i'm gonna sleep i insist on sleeping to like guided meditations or something

00:13:33.180 i'm like i shall be changed eight hours of sleeping to andrew johnson well some of the

00:13:38.540 most i mean i've listened to typically my jungian podcast falling asleep slipping in and out getting

00:13:45.300 pieces it goes back in it goes right to the center of the pineal gland i'm convinced

00:13:49.820 by the way i did learn a lot about that gland and psychicness and where a little radio antenna

00:14:00.420 it was all in the dispensa books and i i i could you know the problem is you go okay so what do i

00:14:07.480 need what do i need no all right sit down meditate you know like i forgot to meditate today answer 0.96

00:14:12.020 jesus fuck the meditation thing is so real the last couple days i did it in the morning i was 0.97

00:14:16.160 like oh my day's transformed and of course i didn't this morning waking up i woke up at 7 45 i was 0.99

00:14:21.740 like do it right now a little of after eight and i just was like i want my java and i thought i

00:14:27.480 too i thought meditate after java i thought journal before coffee and a coffee appeared

00:14:35.460 and I drink it.

00:14:37.320 Journal with the coffee.

00:14:38.200 That's what I usually do.

00:14:39.220 I do want to say,

00:14:40.040 yeah,

00:14:41.120 I just,

00:14:41.740 I have to,

00:14:42.200 I have to make a note

00:14:42.780 to select my journal.

00:14:43.520 What I want to say is that

00:14:43.960 I'm approaching

00:14:44.640 a new technique.

00:14:49.000 One of the oldest

00:14:49.800 in the book.

00:14:50.580 For mornings?

00:14:51.860 For everything.

00:14:52.980 Okay.

00:14:53.520 I,

00:14:54.000 it's like,

00:14:55.440 it's like my,

00:14:56.340 my mind is in an emergency state

00:14:58.200 where I'm reaching for things

00:14:59.320 like the following.

00:15:00.920 Mind mapping.

00:15:03.380 What's that?

00:15:04.520 Okay,

00:15:04.780 where you write a word in a circle,

00:15:06.960 draw a line from that.

00:15:08.540 Okay, write another word.

00:15:09.200 Oh, I remember that.

00:15:10.440 In favor of linear.

00:15:12.880 Wait a minute, Jacqueline.

00:15:13.760 This is a breakthrough.

00:15:14.600 Mind mapping.

00:15:15.320 I think the last time I did that,

00:15:16.300 I was like in the eighth grade

00:15:17.240 and it was what writing was.

00:15:21.000 And they were like,

00:15:21.880 yeah, so you're like,

00:15:22.720 so I'm taking a...

00:15:24.720 This is crazy.

00:15:25.940 Okay, it's huge.

00:15:26.860 Okay, so I'm taking...

00:15:27.720 Next show written.

00:15:28.780 So I'm, yes.

00:15:30.020 So I'm starting with,

00:15:31.880 it's more reflective of what's happening

00:15:33.720 in the brain for me right instead of trying to force what's happening into the linear and that's

00:15:40.800 a different and worthwhile practice okay it is what what am I actually experiencing right because

00:15:46.680 it is a bouncing you know there's I keep bouncing back to the center circle essentially so I was

00:15:53.300 like you know shed the whole thing and just start okay so like I just wrote down in the middle of

00:15:59.400 an open two-pager big journal I was just like 5 22 I was like here like like just starting with

00:16:08.540 like me you know what I mean here now okay and then I was like do a line and like the first

00:16:13.880 thing that I'm like worrying about thinking about that's kind of like okay and I get I get them all

00:16:18.440 down those are all separate things and then I'm kind of working off of that it's loose like so

00:16:25.520 And I'm returning to that throughout the day.

00:16:27.600 Are your entries spiraling?

00:16:29.840 This is not actually entries.

00:16:31.920 This is more...

00:16:32.620 Words.

00:16:33.600 Single words.

00:16:35.620 It's more a map of the mind in the way I'm experiencing it, but tacked down on the page.

00:16:42.240 Versus on the page, there being a list, which is not what's happening in my mind.

00:16:47.340 Okay?

00:16:47.880 There's a simultaneity, dare I say, to the concerns and the worries, right?

00:16:52.920 Yeah.

00:16:53.740 It's like...

00:16:54.180 So you see them more...

00:16:55.140 They're all spiraling off of.

00:16:57.320 So it's like I'm sitting there and I can see that these are different channels.

00:17:02.240 Yeah.

00:17:02.840 And did I briefly get sent off down a path of trying to quickly, you know, get a piano delivered to the home?

00:17:11.660 You were behind the piano.

00:17:13.060 I'm really excited about it.

00:17:13.940 I'm able to note it in a different way.

00:17:16.480 You know what it is?

00:17:17.120 Maybe it's this.

00:17:17.700 Maybe it's that it isn't forcing me to make a choice about priority or importance.

00:17:23.240 it's remember the thing you were saying about like no it's not that I half want to do this

00:17:28.640 and half want to do this it's that I want 100% want to do like this and 100% want to do this

00:17:33.380 yes the two things so it's like so anyway and I'm sort of back into like like space out mode right

00:17:40.640 just whatever and then I find my way and I go all right let's just like I feel whatever okay I'm

00:17:46.260 like all right let's just sit at the table where the journal is lying open and I walk over to it

00:17:50.180 and I go down and I look at the map

00:17:51.320 and I can see there's like a line

00:17:53.260 you can see the last thing I wrote

00:17:54.700 and it was something that sent me off

00:17:56.980 on this whole path

00:17:58.860 but I could see where I left the page essentially

00:18:02.120 okay

00:18:02.480 but wait

00:18:03.580 but you always see where you left the page

00:18:05.420 right

00:18:06.320 but it's like

00:18:07.840 it's like I come back

00:18:10.460 and I'm looking down

00:18:11.220 and I see a circle that says like

00:18:12.780 you know

00:18:13.720 and I see all the circles there

00:18:15.600 give me a word that is in the circle

00:18:16.940 I went off on one of them

00:18:17.660 give me an example

00:18:18.820 so it's like

00:18:20.100 you know

00:18:21.040 show on Sunday

00:18:22.160 right

00:18:23.020 okay

00:18:23.440 write new act

00:18:25.480 okay

00:18:26.000 okay

00:18:27.440 yeah

00:18:28.120 okay

00:18:28.540 I'm like

00:18:29.540 and then I try to break it down to steps

00:18:30.960 so I'm like 60 minutes

00:18:32.260 okay

00:18:32.780 okay

00:18:33.580 like 60 minutes of act

00:18:35.180 yeah

00:18:35.580 yeah

00:18:35.980 and then another one

00:18:37.200 you know

00:18:37.960 what is it

00:18:40.200 I'm just trying to think

00:18:40.900 what would be down there

00:18:41.540 I don't know

00:18:41.900 yeah

00:18:42.180 whatever

00:18:42.660 most of them are projects

00:18:44.060 okay

00:18:44.480 then it'll be like

00:18:46.540 travel

00:18:47.520 like this weekend

00:18:48.800 like schedule

00:18:49.520 okay

00:18:49.900 And then like, I did write in there, like plane, you know, ticket, hotel, whatever.

00:18:55.360 Got a few things on the calendar.

00:18:56.920 It's like, but then I space out and when I come back, I'm looking at the whole map again.

00:19:01.240 I'm not, it's not a calendar, right?

00:19:04.640 Some people, like a calendar is different than a journal entry, obviously, right?

00:19:10.300 You're seeing life, but only through this prism of time and scheduling.

00:19:14.320 And it really doesn't do much for me because what is a calendar but a broken promise?

00:19:19.260 You know what I mean?

00:19:19.680 It's just a sea of broken promises.

00:19:21.560 Calendar is for me essential,

00:19:23.680 but I ended up doing a to-do list each day

00:19:25.360 and then you transfer it over.

00:19:26.760 It's like just half of those.

00:19:27.500 Yeah, I do a lot of calendar stuff.

00:19:28.900 Look at you,

00:19:29.400 Celsius 430. 1.00

00:19:31.260 Today I made my matcha

00:19:32.800 and I had this kind of solemn almost.

00:19:34.480 I was like,

00:19:34.920 I'm going to be gone for over a month.

00:19:36.200 Like this is my last time

00:19:37.000 making my home matcha ritual.

00:19:39.220 You're so funny with that stuff.

00:19:41.920 Like what?

00:19:43.440 It's just so you like,

00:19:45.220 I mean,

00:19:45.860 you know.

00:19:46.160 Wait, you know,

00:19:46.480 I just realized I could literally take my this.

00:19:49.120 Well, that's what I was going to say. 1.00

00:19:50.860 Fuck, bitch. 1.00

00:19:51.640 I mean, that actually wasn't what I was going to say. 1.00

00:19:53.120 I was doing deep character analysis, okay?

00:19:55.680 But yeah, you can take your bisp, I think is... 0.97

00:19:58.200 Visp. 0.70

00:19:58.940 Oh, it is visp? 0.60

00:19:59.620 Yeah, with a V.

00:20:00.500 I was like pushing for bisp because bottle that wisps.

00:20:04.620 The reason why I was thinking of not taking my visp is I was like,

00:20:07.700 is this going to be in vain?

00:20:09.880 Something you can't clean in the room.

00:20:11.380 Sorry.

00:20:12.220 No, no, like I'm saying in an apartment,

00:20:13.560 but it's just like, am I going to...

00:20:16.180 Is this going to be a thing I use it twice?

00:20:17.480 you know and it's not i'm not trying to say like oh it's so heavy but it's a bit of a cumbersome

00:20:21.360 item like is it the kind of thing or do i just fucking take it so am i buying matcha walk me 0.59

00:20:26.820 through this am i buying matcha one tin in london sure i mean right yeah what's the issue don't want 0.87

00:20:36.000 to add the tin to the luggage i don't know what the issue is these are the kind of this is these

00:20:40.320 are things that paralyze me i'm like hang on so i have like a half by the way i'm really enjoying

00:20:44.980 and I'm sure they'll send you something.

00:20:47.600 I ran into her on the street.

00:20:49.300 One of these wonderful people who has a tea company

00:20:53.640 called Flowerhead.

00:20:57.920 Delicious matcha, like truly delicious.

00:21:00.460 You better run into them on the street.

00:21:01.720 It's funny that when I run into people on the street,

00:21:03.400 I immediately quote your address.

00:21:06.200 Bet you can't quote mine.

00:21:09.460 Do I take half the tin, half an unopened tin?

00:21:12.740 See, this is where I start to spiral

00:21:13.840 and I just start to go.

00:21:14.740 Because you think it's going to spill in the bag?

00:21:16.420 I don't know.

00:21:17.100 Is it even that?

00:21:17.900 I think it's just...

00:21:18.740 No, no, no.

00:21:19.040 Yeah, right.

00:21:19.720 And I'm not coming at this like the normal who's like, you know, what are you concerned

00:21:24.140 about?

00:21:24.400 Let's actually get into it.

00:21:25.640 Let's find it.

00:21:26.460 Let's find it.

00:21:26.760 Okay, thank you.

00:21:27.420 Thank you.

00:21:27.760 Thank you.

00:21:28.240 All right.

00:21:28.560 Let's get into it.

00:21:29.440 Paralyzed in the question of matcha or not, right?

00:21:31.680 Do I take my visps?

00:21:32.660 Do I take my matcha? 0.65

00:21:34.340 Lord knows I'm taking the Armra.

00:21:36.020 Certainly.

00:21:36.380 So I can have my...

00:21:37.300 Because what I'm doing here, right, is I'm frothing up the matcha with the cashew milk,

00:21:42.580 with the Armra

00:21:43.380 with the marine collagen

00:21:44.780 I'm not taking that

00:21:45.880 you know

00:21:46.680 okay

00:21:47.680 so I guess with the Visp

00:21:48.740 I could be doing

00:21:49.440 an afternoon

00:21:50.140 Visp

00:21:50.900 stirred up matcha

00:21:52.820 save $4,000

00:21:54.780 well matcha could be your

00:21:55.940 base

00:21:57.180 okay first of all

00:21:57.960 staying in an apartment

00:21:58.560 you could secure

00:21:59.420 sorry 0.98

00:22:00.720 guar gummed

00:22:01.780 milk

00:22:02.920 yeah

00:22:03.240 or you could

00:22:04.120 or you could make your own

00:22:04.860 condom milk 0.75

00:22:05.560 I'm not gonna make my own 1.00

00:22:06.620 that's for fuck 0.98

00:22:07.260 I'm sorry 1.00

00:22:07.640 they're gonna have a clean

00:22:09.420 you get some milk

00:22:10.320 yeah

00:22:10.740 you bring with you

00:22:12.000 or you don't honestly how cheap are you go pick up the matcha matcha totally yeah no you know what

00:22:18.860 it is it's my addiction to the flower head matcha and it's my desire and what does it come in a tin

00:22:23.700 okay how big not big honey right by the way you only need a ceremony great do i really want that

00:22:30.180 sitting in my fridge oxidizing for a month see what i'm saying here we go so bring it okay bringing

00:22:37.060 it the vis oh my god by the way look at me i'm bringing the vis it's final yeah i just made the

00:22:45.900 decision i'm bringing them to do what i do yeah which is do you want to keep discussing why it's

00:22:53.260 a great choice so that you don't forget you don't wake in the night yeah and forget and can't

00:22:57.640 remember how you're so i'm bringing the vis because a i have a show every night and a little

00:23:02.160 afternoon pick me up is essential don't always want coffee i can mix it up i can bring my vis

00:23:07.740 to a theater if i needed to clean it have it at the apartment right i can have a little fun i can

00:23:13.960 have my i can have my vis and drink it too i can i can make my my potions great we're done you're

00:23:22.320 already bringing a series of potions well the armor i go straight in the mouth as we know so

00:23:26.380 it's not even like i know but you don't need to no i know i can mix it in the armor could go in

00:23:30.980 the thing easily mixes right in yeah i'm not taking collagen no no that's because you don't

00:23:37.000 want to take the big yeah i'm not taking that big bag i'm just what's the marine collagen that's

00:23:40.880 something i paid for out of pocket it's the agent it's on a tub it's a it's a big bag agent oh right

00:23:45.720 okay yeah oh right so four million dollars what had it in my head they were a uh they were skincare

00:23:52.240 they are but they have a will cole dr will cole friend of the pod fan of the pod brilliant holistic

00:23:58.800 doctor. Really? Yeah. He's like Gwyneth's doctor. It's huge. Anyway, I bought, I purchased at 0.65

00:24:07.100 Erewhon his collaboration with Agent Natir of a marine collagen that I've been putting in the

00:24:13.560 matchas, but I'm not taking that to London. That's a step too far for me. Why? Don't.

00:24:19.500 Don't start with me. Because I just want to investigate. I want to investigate.

00:24:25.020 God, you're good, bitch. 1.00

00:24:26.960 Because here's the thing. 1.00

00:24:28.020 Here's the thing.

00:24:28.460 I know myself.

00:24:29.320 I took banza to Edinburgh.

00:24:30.980 Did you realize this?

00:24:32.560 I decanted banza chicken pasta.

00:24:34.100 Well, I get it because...

00:24:35.240 And took it with me to Scotland.

00:24:37.000 By the way,

00:24:37.600 ended up eating pretty much all of it.

00:24:38.940 I used banza, by the way.

00:24:40.680 Garbanzo?

00:24:41.680 Garbanzo bean?

00:24:42.940 Garbanzo bean.

00:24:43.720 Yeah, banza.

00:24:44.100 I mean, I think it's banza for that reason.

00:24:46.680 Oh my God.

00:24:47.080 And we have the lupini bean pasta.

00:24:48.820 I haven't tried it yet.

00:24:49.440 Oh yeah.

00:24:50.140 I'm excited. 0.98

00:24:50.780 The kaizen, right? 0.99

00:24:52.060 Mm-hmm.

00:24:52.660 Kaizen.

00:24:52.980 So lupini bean, I saw you were eating those lupini, snacking lupinis, which I was going

00:24:59.600 to tell you, yeah, four years ago, four years ago, I thought they were going to rule my

00:25:03.120 life and I got tired of it quick.

00:25:05.360 Yeah.

00:25:06.060 It's like either lupini, either your life is lupini pasta.

00:25:10.160 It's just too much to be eating the bean as a snack and then make your pasta out of the

00:25:13.680 same bean.

00:25:14.300 The bean as a snack I enjoyed maybe twice, but will I repurchase?

00:25:17.600 I would be careful with it though.

00:25:19.480 Oh.

00:25:19.840 You may find some gastro.

00:25:22.300 I mean, you probably will eat, like, normal.

00:25:24.260 Yeah, you'll eat normal quantities, probably.

00:25:27.140 But, like, you know, if you go hard, you may experience some discomfort the next day.

00:25:36.080 Okay, okay, yeah.

00:25:37.020 Some bloat.

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00:29:22.400 What are you putting on your neck there, little girl?

00:29:24.660 Oh, I'm the snail hydrogel from COSRX again.

00:29:28.380 I'm sort of like resting it on my neck.

00:29:30.480 I'm sort of wiping it on my neck, like in a repeated state. 0.66

00:29:33.280 I'm going to do a one skin trial. 0.97

00:29:36.420 I'm taking one skin to London.

00:29:38.860 So I'm going to do a month.

00:29:39.620 When you choose the skincare to take on a trip. 0.99

00:29:43.540 Honey, that is fucking fun. 0.99

00:29:45.340 It's scary. 0.99

00:29:46.460 Okay, so.

00:29:47.060 No?

00:29:47.860 I started one skin yesterday.

00:29:49.120 You mean it's scary because you're. 0.99

00:29:50.660 Committing.

00:29:51.060 so fun though

00:29:52.080 it's so pure

00:29:52.640 I think we're really

00:29:53.300 not remembering

00:29:54.100 that

00:29:56.240 what

00:29:57.340 I'm just thinking

00:29:58.040 what the move is

00:29:58.780 no no no

00:29:59.180 I know you're about to say it

00:30:00.120 I get very excited

00:30:01.600 about

00:30:01.960 the packing stuff

00:30:03.740 I

00:30:04.040 I can't help it

00:30:05.800 I know

00:30:06.560 but like

00:30:07.080 when I had that blend jet

00:30:08.320 on the road

00:30:09.100 despite like

00:30:09.900 problems

00:30:10.640 yeah

00:30:11.020 like unfolding

00:30:11.820 the like joy

00:30:13.860 of kind of like

00:30:14.660 knowing I had prepared

00:30:15.880 this little thing

00:30:16.740 that was mine

00:30:17.400 and was back in my room

00:30:18.320 and now I'm gonna do the thing

00:30:19.240 I felt like I was like

00:30:20.280 really winning

00:30:21.020 You know what I mean?

00:30:21.520 So it did work.

00:30:22.280 So I'm just thinking, yeah, I'm like, in the satisfaction of getting it all, all your little packets, putting them in, visping it up.

00:30:30.240 You know, I just realized I should have made the matcha in the Visp today to do a trial Visp.

00:30:34.980 I could do a chocolate collagen milk treat later in the Visp.

00:30:38.600 What did I do in the Visp?

00:30:39.780 I did something in the Visp last night.

00:30:41.760 Because the Vital Protein Chocolate Collagen Powder is not a joke. 0.99

00:30:44.660 It is not a fucking joke. 0.99

00:30:45.560 Well, it's very delicious. 0.99

00:30:47.920 I was thinking making popsicles out of it.

00:30:50.100 Because it's really got a fudgy pop kind of thing going on.

00:30:53.360 Yeah.

00:30:54.320 And so, you know what I mean?

00:30:56.060 Like it tastes very fudge pop.

00:30:57.460 So like I was thinking, you know, I really appreciate it.

00:31:00.820 I've got to say Halo Top ice cream.

00:31:02.820 Two pops is a serving.

00:31:05.380 And they're separate.

00:31:06.020 They're not the two pops.

00:31:06.760 I've never had those.

00:31:08.380 They're tasty.

00:31:09.680 But my point is that they expect you to eat two pops.

00:31:13.640 They don't act like one pop.

00:31:15.800 And I appreciated that.

00:31:17.240 Yeah, of course.

00:31:17.880 I mean

00:31:19.120 tonight's my final dinner

00:31:20.520 in Los Angeles

00:31:21.140 for a while

00:31:21.720 here I am

00:31:22.820 we all know

00:31:23.320 what I'm gonna do

00:31:23.920 I'm gonna walk down

00:31:24.800 to Erewhon

00:31:25.180 get a combo plate

00:31:26.020 what's gonna be

00:31:26.580 the final combo

00:31:27.300 isn't it interesting

00:31:29.320 no attempt to have

00:31:30.040 dinner with me tonight

00:31:30.740 are you absolutely joking

00:31:31.560 I'm gonna be packing

00:31:32.380 my house is in disarray

00:31:34.080 don't

00:31:35.380 don't

00:31:36.100 empty your aqua true

00:31:37.200 all I would love to do

00:31:38.940 would be to get 1.00

00:31:39.620 a fucking steak with you 1.00

00:31:40.820 but no I have to 1.00

00:31:41.760 it's completely

00:31:42.640 out of the question

00:31:43.180 don't even tempt me

00:31:43.980 it's five o'clock

00:31:44.600 it is

00:31:45.080 it's almost five o'clock

00:31:46.480 what about this

00:31:47.180 what about this

00:31:47.660 You ever hear this?

00:31:48.560 You got to eat?

00:31:49.880 Don't.

00:31:50.240 No, Jack, I don't.

00:31:52.000 Don't.

00:31:52.400 Because it'll break my heart.

00:31:53.560 You got to eat.

00:31:54.400 You have two martinis.

00:31:55.480 I know.

00:31:56.180 Stop.

00:31:56.640 When I'm back.

00:31:57.320 I want to see more.

00:31:58.280 I want to hear more about packing.

00:31:59.580 Well, by the way, this is one thing that sent me into chaos was like, I have my little bag.

00:32:03.740 It's my backstage makeup bag, right?

00:32:05.400 And like that lives backstage.

00:32:06.700 That doesn't move.

00:32:07.400 Yes.

00:32:07.780 So then it becomes this crisis.

00:32:08.720 Although sometimes I fear at night.

00:32:10.780 I'm like, what?

00:32:12.660 Is my makeup like scared and sad here?

00:32:15.320 I know.

00:32:15.760 No, I think it's happy because it knows that it's safe.

00:32:17.760 And I'm like, is a mice running in it?

00:32:19.340 No, a mice trampoline across the Armani luminous skin.

00:32:23.120 No.

00:32:23.460 Yeah, the mice are putting its feet in and going,

00:32:25.600 I like this texture.

00:32:27.780 It's a little rubbing its little feet in.

00:32:29.540 What I struggle with is a separate brush issue.

00:32:32.240 Like I already was like, okay, so I'll have the blush here.

00:32:35.040 So I need two blushes.

00:32:36.220 You know what I'm saying? 0.98

00:32:36.940 Like one for apartment, one for show bag.

00:32:39.980 And then I get into the brush chaos where I'm like,

00:32:42.300 eyeshadow brush, the devils, the devils.

00:32:45.360 So I'm like, okay, so I'm forfeiting eyeshadow in the day

00:32:48.620 to have my eyeshadow.

00:32:50.500 I need doubles of everything,

00:32:51.480 which is what my life is gradually becoming,

00:32:53.080 which I kind of appreciate.

00:32:54.240 I like to wear the same thing constantly.

00:32:55.900 So I'm like, oh, it's more and more of the thing

00:32:57.820 of just two of each doubles, doubles forever.

00:33:00.900 Well, because here's the thing is like,

00:33:03.300 I mean, I know we talked about this last time,

00:33:04.720 but like to have the untouchable show bag

00:33:07.800 or the untouchable travel bag, okay?

00:33:09.960 The problem is as people who constantly

00:33:12.100 are integrating new products, okay?

00:33:13.820 getting exciting about the next best thing it's sort of like i always want to bring my latest

00:33:19.580 thing into the mix yeah yeah that's why the question becomes what can you count on what

00:33:26.320 i literally just realized i think i have an extra ilia blush and just like that her life was perfect

00:33:35.040 right you know one for the show i have a crazy to-do list right now i might as well say like 0.99

00:33:43.920 let's talk about it it's like everything that i have to do is in your your ass yeah like it's 0.98

00:33:50.820 just like it's broken down to that everything it's like journal okay got that adapters did it 0.98

00:33:55.520 nothing like the nothing like the list being checked off i'm doing pretty good actually

00:33:59.440 looking at this list so you really list it up every day not necessarily every day but i do

00:34:04.800 level list it's deeply yeah i'm a big list taker i don't know if i've making successfully yet

00:34:10.640 communicated the possibilities i'm feeling through mind mapping oh i think i know what it is i think

00:34:15.280 it's i'm excited for that for just creative i can see how i got there uh-huh yeah okay so i don't

00:34:21.560 just add wake and panic will you give me an example though i feel like i'm a little confused

00:34:26.280 about it like i need to hear you i want words i want to hear the words just start with the i know

00:34:30.740 so let me like try to do it right now right it'd be like so i'm like let's just say i was gonna go

00:34:37.340 like find my way through the rest of the day i start with exactly where i am okay so it's just

00:34:44.160 like okay 5 p.m like i'm like let's just say i get off the call pook and i'm like okay okay anxiety 0.98

00:34:49.880 no like i'm a fuck like what the fuck you know what i mean i'm like okay what's going on here 0.93

00:34:53.600 like okay and i don't have to get it right in the first order so i'm just like here and it's like 0.99

00:34:57.360 what are my concerns? Well, like vaguely, I know I haven't worked out yet and I, I want to. Okay.

00:35:02.280 Okay. So I just like did a line and wrote Tracy. Okay. But not because it's a to-do list. Okay.

00:35:08.520 It's just, that's one of the things on the mind that's just coming up. Right. Okay. Then like,

00:35:13.520 I'll write down, like, let's just say I'm trying it now that like, I'm, you know, so I'm not,

00:35:18.180 this isn't an example of what I do. I've done it for one day. Okay. So, but, but let's just

00:35:22.300 fly that right so then i go like uh vague let's just write vague feeling of like missing

00:35:29.500 deadlines you know like just like an add what have i missed kind of feeling okay like something i'm

00:35:34.680 neglecting circle that like question like you know i mean just like all right that's kind of

00:35:38.860 where we're going okay all right how do i like break that down i guess it's like all right my

00:35:43.000 line off of that i'm like yeah no i'm thinking i'm like i don't know it would be like i guess

00:35:51.440 like check calendar so that one turns into like a to-do it's false it's not working okay but let

00:35:57.140 me let me just keep trying i go show okay show sunday and travel okay and and the point is like

00:36:04.460 as you'll see i'm creating the same map as i created earlier in the day okay right now just

00:36:12.820 starting from blankness okay and this is what would happen if i were to sit down and start

00:36:18.860 the fresh page okay so what it's revealing is that i go through the same cycles 40 steps by the way

00:36:26.340 yeah and that's what all journaling is that's the whole idea of keeping the journal right is that

00:36:30.320 you look back and you go oh my god i'm i'm it's the same year every year in ways same issues and

00:36:35.640 it's the same one minute you know 90 times a day like with the add so instead i'm like i'm

00:36:41.240 recreating it right now like i feel this blank like like unsettled feeling okay and it's like

00:36:46.260 um you know i mean this is the whole like the principle of like you know getting things done

00:36:52.300 is like emptying the brain okay you can't hold it all in your brain you need to trust your system

00:36:57.080 your container you know what i mean you get it all down whatever but it's like so right now me

00:37:01.740 just trying to do it fresh i'm like essentially reproducing i've i go through these things over

00:37:06.260 and over again and i go through the whole journey so it would be like right now i would feel

00:37:10.440 unsettled i'd sit down at the table and i'd go to the existing mind map from earlier today and go

00:37:15.580 oh yeah no yep yep these are the things oh oh wait i'm worried about this oh look it's already

00:37:19.700 on there sort of like but it's not imposing a structure from the start it's non-structured

00:37:28.760 all it does is represent the connections that i'm firing over and over again and some of them

00:37:38.760 i don't have to refire it's like got it yeah i mean it's interesting because it's like the term

00:37:44.520 is mind map okay so it's like and i'm like slowly getting around to defining it as like a map

00:37:49.060 you're mine yeah you know what i mean and it's where the simple thing that i discounted as like

00:37:56.900 a fool's name for something is actually like what is a map it shows you where things are

00:38:02.120 by the way i couldn't remember so i've been i didn't want to say it out loud because it's 0.83

00:38:06.100 so upsetting to me but i'm having pain i'm having piriformis pain my old injury i went too crazy

00:38:12.420 dancing no no dancing won't do it oh yeah that was my tailbone injury

00:38:17.040 piriformis was was um heightened pain through some dead lifting i don't want to get into it

00:38:22.220 because i woke up at 3 a.m so mad at myself i could cry um but the point is i was looking up

00:38:27.840 i was like what's this called i was like i want to look at the piriformis is a photo of you go

00:38:32.720 is a photo that's my life the body i know i know is the photo of your body called a map what's that

00:38:39.280 called oh um anatomical illustration let's just call it a map isn't it just a body map sure

00:38:47.200 i was like i because i googled this is a 3 15 in the morning i googled back muscles

00:38:54.140 is a map a two-dimensional representation of something it's one question in which case that's

00:39:02.500 why i'm saying that anatomical illustrations are not a map i don't know yeah i could google i could

00:39:09.560 look up the word map right now and i won't lie i'm tempted

00:39:13.480 taking it for granted my whole life oh context clues this whole time oh god try to look at the 0.96

00:39:23.620 word map guess where google sends you good luck good fucking luck symbolic depiction oh my god 0.97

00:39:30.920 Interesting. I nailed it earlier when I realized reflecting the relationships between, symbolic depiction, emphasizing relationships between elements of some space. 0.94

00:39:45.560 Okay, so that is what the mind map is.

00:39:53.100 A symbolic depiction. Aren't all depictions symbolic?

00:39:57.580 well that's the first

00:40:00.760 the first depiction

00:40:01.900 certainly right

00:40:03.120 well this is the crisis

00:40:04.540 of the ontological crisis

00:40:06.040 of photography of course

00:40:07.460 does photography capture

00:40:09.440 what's truly there

00:40:10.300 no

00:40:11.140 I mean

00:40:11.800 no

00:40:12.540 of course not

00:40:13.640 do your eyes

00:40:14.140 by the way let's take it further

00:40:15.300 do your eyes capture

00:40:16.380 what's truly there

00:40:17.040 no

00:40:18.260 well no

00:40:20.520 not even close

00:40:21.520 with the eyes

00:40:27.580 This is Ryder Strong, and I have a new podcast called The Red Weather.

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00:44:06.960 If you could go back in time.

00:44:10.660 There's nothing.

00:44:11.560 I'm starting to say if you could go back in time.

00:44:14.300 Well, actually, here it is.

00:44:15.420 If you could go back in time, would you?

00:44:17.900 Where would you go?

00:44:18.820 Oh, I'm sorry, to be clear. 1.00

00:44:20.000 this is so stupid 0.99

00:44:20.860 I'm gonna cry 1.00

00:44:21.340 I'm not talking about like

00:44:22.920 being on the front lines

00:44:24.420 of whatever

00:44:24.900 I mean your own world

00:44:26.320 oh well

00:44:27.000 I mean I didn't think

00:44:27.920 you're asking about

00:44:28.840 you know killing Hitler 0.85

00:44:29.640 or whatever 0.99

00:44:30.100 I'm like Christmas morning

00:44:31.040 in 1992

00:44:31.620 it's your own life

00:44:33.300 you can only go back

00:44:34.060 into your own life

00:44:34.640 okay so hold on

00:44:35.100 hold on

00:44:35.500 so let's

00:44:36.220 I think what you're asking is

00:44:38.100 if you could go be

00:44:39.780 inside of a memory

00:44:40.820 not on the timeline

00:44:41.960 that would affect

00:44:42.620 anything now

00:44:43.540 you could kill a butterfly 0.82

00:44:44.620 back there

00:44:45.140 it's not affecting

00:44:45.760 anything now

00:44:46.220 this is not actually

00:44:47.080 like the time travel problem

00:44:48.620 in fact we encourage you 0.98

00:44:49.320 to kill butterflies

00:44:49.980 i'll never forget i that was a spiritual moment i had being a very young child and a teacher

00:44:56.940 saying something about yeah well a butterfly flapping its wings here affects the weather

00:45:01.480 in china and it completely changed my life that that's that's um is that true yes i mean in the

00:45:08.660 sense that i know no but i was like it was like but in the china you know it's like yeah it's

00:45:13.780 weird like being a child that was like born in the late 80s where it's like china it's like just

00:45:17.200 like a hole in China 0.93

00:45:19.180 like digging a hole to China 1.00

00:45:20.440 I was like China 0.88

00:45:21.700 digging a hole to China was really

00:45:23.160 wait look at my arm right now 0.99

00:45:24.600 am I fucking ripped? 0.99

00:45:25.940 yes 0.99

00:45:26.240 is it too much?

00:45:29.300 look

00:45:29.600 do you need

00:45:29.920 have you bulked up?

00:45:31.380 yeah look

00:45:31.940 look

00:45:33.300 look

00:45:34.120 well you were talking mere minutes ago

00:45:36.360 about deadlifts

00:45:37.320 I know

00:45:37.920 maybe you want to get into

00:45:39.360 maybe you want to get into

00:45:40.360 Tracy Anderson's studio

00:45:41.700 where

00:45:42.320 the muscle design

00:45:43.780 is deeply nuanced

00:45:45.040 look

00:45:47.020 it's kind of crazy right yeah you're ripped 1.00

00:45:49.360 fuck dude 1.00

00:45:50.380 I'm bulking I'm not 1.00

00:45:52.620 but you see this there's something

00:45:54.920 okay long and lean

00:45:56.120 okay there's something long and lean

00:46:02.660 I'm working on slow

00:46:04.640 cause you can bulk quick

00:46:06.640 okay

00:46:10.520 wow I just got

00:46:14.700 it's so hot in my house but to rise

00:46:16.740 and turn on the AC feels unimaginable.

00:46:20.140 So wait, what will my protein be tonight at Erewhon?

00:46:23.700 A, wild salmon.

00:46:24.480 Maybe you asked about the memory though.

00:46:26.380 Oh yeah, okay, okay, okay.

00:46:29.480 I knew there was something juicy, okay?

00:46:31.860 Where'd you go back?

00:46:33.220 So this is really much more like

00:46:35.200 going back into a memory.

00:46:37.400 Yeah.

00:46:38.260 However, once you're there,

00:46:39.620 like as if in a dream,

00:46:40.600 however, once you're there,

00:46:41.600 it is a self-contained discrete memory container

00:46:44.440 in which anything you do inside of it

00:46:46.740 is cut off and doesn't affect anything.

00:46:49.620 Correct.

00:46:49.980 It's not really time travel.

00:46:51.040 It's not about killing Hitler.

00:46:51.560 It's memory travel.

00:46:53.220 Right?

00:46:53.860 Yeah. 0.99

00:46:55.380 Hey, if you kill Hitler, you won't have comedy. 1.00

00:47:00.860 Stupidest thing to say. 1.00

00:47:02.280 And does it make sense? 1.00

00:47:03.820 It's like one of those things,

00:47:05.280 it's like it almost sounds like something.

00:47:08.780 I mean, I think it immediately works.

00:47:14.860 Wait, what did I... 0.88

00:47:16.320 I feel like I just saw a fresh take on the killing Hitler thing. 0.65

00:47:21.100 I'm trying to remember what it was.

00:47:23.180 I can't remember what it was. 0.87

00:47:24.960 A fresh take on Hitler?

00:47:26.140 What did you say? 0.99

00:47:26.620 A fresh take on Hitler is a hilarious idea.

00:47:28.520 It's a hilarious book. 0.86

00:47:29.560 No, it's a fresh take on the killing Hitler question. 0.99

00:47:33.520 You kill him, you just bat him around a little bit. 0.99

00:47:37.220 Give him a scare. 1.00

00:47:38.140 I'd go back in history and imagine this take.

00:47:42.920 I'm sure someone said it too. 0.68

00:47:44.560 Or you're like, I wouldn't kill Hitler. 0.96

00:47:47.660 I'd love him. 0.84

00:47:48.840 Oh, Jesus.

00:47:50.540 Imagine.

00:47:51.400 Literally. 0.98

00:47:53.580 I'd give him a big hug and I'd say, hurt people, hurt people. 0.96

00:48:01.440 That is where we are culturally. 0.97

00:48:03.200 Hitler, hurt people, hurt people. 0.76

00:48:05.480 It's like, although I will say, hurt people, hurt people, unless they don't. 0.98

00:48:10.960 It's actually quite profound.

00:48:12.420 You know what I mean? 0.97

00:48:13.120 i have sat with that and gone holy shit you've sat with hurt people hurt people well we're all 0.98

00:48:19.040 we're all hurt oh yeah um hitler needed a hug that's like where we are culturally 0.99

00:48:25.780 fucked no wait but but wait the memory the memory thing right i'm just trying to think 0.98

00:48:32.960 oh shit i don't even have an answer um i feel like it's a kind of asinine thing that i suggested 0.99

00:48:37.560 like oh when would you go back in your life and you know i think it's more just it's the fantasy 0.98

00:48:42.460 the fantasy of this is like the central one of the central fantasies right is like we're constantly

00:48:49.380 trying to sift through the memories and try to understand what happened to us and so it's like

00:48:55.540 the idea it's a fallacy the idea that if you went back and you observed it you would somehow know 0.86

00:49:00.060 why you're so fucked up or whatever like here's here's the real one here's the real one it's like 0.93

00:49:04.580 by the way you're alive right now you're still not able to engage with it well here we go okay 1.00

00:49:09.320 huge corner of the healing market right right well carolyn mace i mean sorry but but her talking

00:49:16.300 about like the healing journey people can't tie their shoes she's talking about yes yes that's

00:49:22.140 one of her things but also like the whodunit oh right right right right right well for our

00:49:28.920 listener okay spending all this time in the whodunit yeah instead of the yeah and at some

00:49:34.760 point you have to stop being witnessed at some point like you can't stay in um she tells a story

00:49:43.340 about like a niece or something like that where she's like you know i do shoulder shoulder shoulder

00:49:47.060 and then okay what are we doing next like cry on the shoulder pat pat pat okay and then move into

00:49:52.480 the next stage right one of my favorites that she says is you know like in her workshops like

00:49:59.000 when you listen to the audio and she's like you know someone is in a workshop right now trying

00:50:02.940 to get over having known you.

00:50:07.020 You're not just here a bunch of,

00:50:08.840 you know, like,

00:50:09.720 oh, everyone in this room 1.00

00:50:10.700 was wounded by bastards. 1.00

00:50:13.740 Like, you know, 1.00

00:50:14.660 that's why some people

00:50:16.080 can't stand the heat.

00:50:17.460 Of course.

00:50:18.380 Those are workshops.

00:50:19.380 I bet.

00:50:20.240 Not that I've been.

00:50:21.300 Thermage.

00:50:22.520 Yeah, you mentioned it last week.

00:50:24.060 Thermage.

00:50:24.620 And he, uh...

00:50:25.780 Thermage.

00:50:27.680 Wait, you got it?

00:50:28.560 No.

00:50:29.680 Oh, you're...

00:50:30.280 No, I didn't get it.

00:50:31.200 I'm just saying what you want.

00:50:32.160 This is another episode where I'm screaming out for Thermage.

00:50:36.200 There's got to be some Thermage technician in the greater Los Angeles region.

00:50:42.480 Looking to warm up their machine.

00:50:44.720 Gift a couple Thermage sessions.

00:50:47.500 The Thermage, like a car, you got to run it.

00:50:50.640 I'm actually going to text my old facialist, Lori, who's retired now.

00:50:55.220 Love you, miss you.

00:50:56.040 Shout out Lori.

00:50:56.600 And I'm going to ask her, what the hell is the deal with Thermage?

00:51:01.000 because she'll give it to me straight and I'll believe and I trust her.

00:51:03.920 Don't you think the lipstick, the sheer peachy lipstick I'm wearing is stunning?

00:51:07.180 It's pretty. Who makes that? I'm wearing a Jones Road paid out of pocket.

00:51:10.420 And other stories, the clothing store and other stories.

00:51:12.900 Oh, fascinating.

00:51:13.760 Yeah.

00:51:14.640 I'm going more and more toward on the lips. It has to be green beauty unless it's a

00:51:18.840 special occasion. I bought out of pocket the Chanel lipstick. One side is a tube of pigment.

00:51:26.860 the other side of the tube

00:51:28.080 is a gloss

00:51:28.920 which is actually a fixer

00:51:30.040 and it will stay on all night

00:51:31.520 it's shocking

00:51:32.060 wait

00:51:33.420 is the pigment powder?

00:51:34.960 no

00:51:35.080 no no

00:51:35.440 it's a liquid

00:51:36.040 it's like a liquid lipstick

00:51:36.840 highly pigmented

00:51:38.320 and the other side

00:51:39.080 it looks like a gloss

00:51:39.940 and it does make it glossy

00:51:40.780 so two wands

00:51:41.640 you're telling me?

00:51:42.040 yeah two wands

00:51:42.860 but it also fixes it

00:51:44.280 and it will not move all night

00:51:45.460 when you

00:51:46.240 yeah

00:51:46.580 when you apply

00:51:48.160 the second wand

00:51:49.460 yeah

00:51:49.680 does pigment

00:51:51.440 get on that wand

00:51:52.340 nope

00:51:52.560 and then slowly turn

00:51:54.100 the fixer pink

00:51:55.780 no

00:51:56.640 how poison most likely i mean that's the thing you wear this and it will not move it's shocking

00:52:03.340 i don't know what it's even called it's just like chanel lipstick look it up but i am i have to say

00:52:08.760 i purchased this in february i remember the wand is drying out a little bit i've used it maybe four

00:52:15.280 times the wand sorry the pigment itself the pigmented wand i'm digging around in there 0.99

00:52:20.780 when i first purchased it luxurious silky pigment makes you want to rub it all over your goddamn 0.99

00:52:25.900 legs, arms. 1.00

00:52:26.900 Okay, I'm seeing it.

00:52:28.000 I'm seeing it.

00:52:29.200 You see it?

00:52:30.080 Yeah.

00:52:30.220 Honey, retail is $40.

00:52:31.900 $40 a day.

00:52:33.000 $45.

00:52:33.800 I spent that.

00:52:34.940 That's shocking.

00:52:35.700 Yeah, $45 for a lipstick.

00:52:37.940 Hey, it was a hard time.

00:52:39.540 I needed a little something.

00:52:42.820 I'm just wondering.

00:52:44.000 I'm just trying to see.

00:52:45.660 I don't want to hear about it.

00:52:48.080 Two complimentary formulas.

00:52:51.600 The base glides on smoothly and dries quickly without feathering.

00:52:55.900 The glossy top coat delivers comfortable, exceptional shine and superb hydration.

00:53:00.200 I don't know how something, I'm hearing two different things.

00:53:03.380 From them, I'm hearing shine, hydration, comfortable,

00:53:07.440 which to me does not sound like it's something that sets something.

00:53:10.540 So listen to this.

00:53:11.620 I purchased, I talked about this on Pook.

00:53:13.360 I bought this Chanel lipstick at the Saks Fifth Avenue counter in Beverly Hills.

00:53:19.020 And the woman was so good.

00:53:20.540 She also sold me a palette, a huge palette.

00:53:23.740 She goes, you're going to want this.

00:53:25.020 and i went sold it had four shades palette big hardware sex sexy cheek what cheek with eye

00:53:34.200 limited edition chanel palette big size of your full hand extended full extension of fingers

00:53:42.120 chanel okay erotic the thing i like about chanel makeup it offers a nice wash the eyeshadow it's

00:53:49.140 not highly it's like a nice wash it just is like the blush actually in fact some might even say

00:53:54.440 It's not pigmented enough in the sense that it's subtle.

00:53:57.480 It's not going to give you a streak of pink.

00:53:59.200 Oh, I was shocked using some Maybelline,

00:54:05.480 the amount of pigment that it deposited on the brush.

00:54:07.520 Oh, it's crazy.

00:54:08.140 I put on my face, I was like, I screamed.

00:54:10.160 Yeah, yeah.

00:54:10.880 Okay.

00:54:11.660 And I was actually excited by it because sometimes, you know,

00:54:14.760 the way you got to work the NARS or whatever to get like the tiniest bit of pigment on it.

00:54:18.420 Yeah, yeah.

00:54:19.680 You should see the Chanel palette.

00:54:20.780 Waterfresh blush.

00:54:21.420 This will last for 35 years.

00:54:23.120 waterfresh blush i'm seeing blush in a chanel blush and it's water waterfresh it's like it

00:54:30.660 looks like a serum you're saying waterfresh is making me thirsty waterfresh um this is no this

00:54:36.980 is a four this is a limited edition chanel palette we're talking about four technology different

00:54:42.100 shades okay interesting interesting interesting chanel should send poog stuff we've never received

00:54:47.920 like a high-end

00:54:48.880 makeup brand.

00:54:50.320 Prestige.

00:54:50.880 Is Chanel going to be

00:54:51.580 the first prestige?

00:54:52.980 Do they understand?

00:54:54.380 Right.

00:54:54.880 Because,

00:54:55.500 well, here it is, right? 1.00

00:54:56.340 They don't give a shit. 0.99

00:54:56.940 Either. 1.00

00:54:59.300 I said they don't give a shit. 1.00

00:55:01.720 They'd be wise to give a shit 1.00

00:55:03.300 because. 1.00

00:55:04.240 That's for sure.

00:55:05.840 Because,

00:55:06.340 I mean,

00:55:06.760 if there's anything

00:55:07.700 the kind of

00:55:08.480 legacy brands

00:55:09.680 are suffering from,

00:55:10.800 right?

00:55:11.620 It's that they're not

00:55:12.940 as seen on TikTok.

00:55:15.020 You know what I mean?

00:55:15.880 They're not the breakout

00:55:17.120 beauty brand from the one amazing product on tiktok which you know even gets its own end cap

00:55:24.020 or whatever shelf in sephora like you know what i mean like so so what is a thing like chanel to do

00:55:30.080 interesting okay if they want to get in there and we are on tiktok now i know now we're going

00:55:36.040 it's gonna be brand heavy the kids are gonna be watching we're gonna beg hard yeah no i i well

00:55:42.800 I wonder if like brand like Chanel

00:55:45.480 like I wonder

00:55:46.520 could you start a makeup called

00:55:47.900 a makeup brand called

00:55:49.320 a brand called Chanel

00:55:50.380 and be protected under satire

00:55:52.620 I don't know if it would be protected

00:55:56.280 under satire if you're selling

00:55:58.440 it reminds me of

00:56:00.720 a room where I used to enjoy spreading

00:56:03.960 like that just enchanted me

00:56:05.980 this burger company

00:56:07.360 like me telling people

00:56:08.280 like fifth grade

00:56:09.180 like it was a burger company

00:56:10.260 I can't remember who

00:56:11.000 but like I'm like

00:56:12.040 They got sued because their meat wasn't 100% beef or something like that.

00:56:18.140 Their burgers were made of cardboard or whatever.

00:56:20.920 And they got away with it because the packaging company was called 100% Beef.

00:56:27.640 No, stop. Incredible.

00:56:29.220 I mean, it's obviously not real, but it's incredible.

00:56:31.540 Yeah, yeah.

00:56:32.320 It delighted me as a child.

00:56:34.300 I mean, that's exciting to know that the world contains that kind of spaciousness.

00:56:37.360 You can slip in and out, rob people of millions.

00:56:39.740 we have to wrap up here

00:56:42.320 really

00:56:43.020 starting to get a little overwhelmed

00:56:44.680 looking at the five o'clock

00:56:45.680 clock going

00:56:46.360 haven't packed

00:56:47.040 I'm leaving for five weeks tomorrow

00:56:48.160 but that's not fair to say

00:56:49.740 I haven't packed

00:56:50.280 because it's been weeks of lists

00:56:51.520 I've gone to the Grove

00:56:52.700 I've been compiling

00:56:53.600 I was at CVS earlier

00:56:54.680 what

00:56:55.280 sorry

00:56:56.440 I just achieved something

00:56:58.540 with my face again

00:56:59.360 that I think

00:57:00.000 with lipstick is really white

00:57:00.920 look

00:57:01.740 it's a perfect V

00:57:03.580 you've got to be

00:57:04.900 I know you're very good at that

00:57:05.880 you've got to be kidding

00:57:06.460 that

00:57:07.580 is a perfect V

00:57:08.700 I was like

00:57:10.640 You're going to come

00:57:11.480 You're going to come 1.00

00:57:12.180 To me with beak

00:57:13.000 I've been doing this

00:57:13.940 That's why I was trying

00:57:14.920 To come to you

00:57:15.380 I felt like in front of the master

00:57:16.600 Okay wait

00:57:17.120 I can't really see you

00:57:18.200 But wait hold on

00:57:19.820 What you're doing

00:57:20.580 I can't

00:57:21.960 Wait

00:57:22.480 A beak

00:57:23.280 Beak

00:57:23.900 No I'm coming to you

00:57:25.260 With a seagull

00:57:26.580 Flapping its wings

00:57:27.520 A beak

00:57:28.380 Yeah

00:57:29.260 No not a seagull's mouth

00:57:31.280 A seagull across the sky

00:57:33.060 Oh brilliant

00:57:34.340 Oh brilliant

00:57:34.880 yeah

00:57:39.360 look at mine

00:57:41.800 look at mine

00:57:42.200 look at mine

00:57:42.580 look at this bird

00:57:43.400 look at the bird

00:57:44.280 I've seen your beak in life

00:57:45.940 wait

00:57:48.180 wait wait hold on

00:57:51.320 are you wrapping

00:57:53.840 what

00:57:55.020 are you wrapping it around the front teeth

00:57:57.020 no

00:57:57.280 because I can't actually quite see you

00:57:58.860 but I've seen it in the past

00:57:59.620 I'm working with a memory

00:58:00.760 aren't we all

00:58:02.360 i lost it oh this is this is actually face yoga

00:58:08.620 wait jacqueline i have a question if you were me help me i'm with you

00:58:15.840 i'm working how many hours realistically my toiletries are essentially packed

00:58:22.460 clothes are kind of set aside okay underwear socks i'm going to pull out something out of

00:58:27.980 the dryer how many hours do you think realistically it's gonna like two hours hard packing two hours

00:58:34.100 i don't even think it'll take that long oh you said the clothes are set aside oh i usually move 0.98

00:58:39.700 the stuff into the suitcase like in mere minutes fuck you know i've got my piles i've got my piles 0.98

00:58:46.020 you need something guiding you keeping you on chat like like what you know like a friend 0.98

00:58:50.920 dear friend or you mean like a television show yeah well i had my i was doing you know podcasts

00:58:59.160 i was listening to a podcast about susan sontag and you know our reliance on metaphor the illness

00:59:05.360 is metaphor i read illness is metaphor in college but i forgot it almost entirely i i did too

00:59:11.820 it's all it's all the same shit this is why we relate yeah yeah okay we're we recognize here's 0.90

00:59:19.480 So I'm going to go to air one and get some strangles us. 0.99

00:59:22.680 I know.

00:59:22.960 I'm going to go to air one.

00:59:23.680 Why don't you come to air one near me?

00:59:24.840 Why don't you come to air one near me?

00:59:26.000 Out of the question.

00:59:27.460 Let's go to the Chanel counter together.

00:59:29.580 Don't, don't, don't, don't, don't.

00:59:32.340 Do not threaten me with a good time.

00:59:35.120 It's out of the question.

00:59:36.700 Okay.

00:59:37.000 I have an idea.

00:59:37.880 What?

00:59:39.120 FaceTime you the whole time I pack?

00:59:41.600 What?

00:59:42.280 I mean, sure.

00:59:42.960 But you pack with a goal that if you get it done, you can come have one cocktail with me.

00:59:47.680 It's not going to happen.

00:59:48.480 I love you so much.

00:59:49.860 It's all I want,

00:59:50.920 but I have to also get clean my house.

00:59:53.060 You know, 0.99

00:59:53.200 it's a whole fucking thing, 0.99

00:59:54.240 but wait, 1.00

00:59:54.660 wait,

00:59:54.860 wait.

00:59:55.560 I'm addicted to the keto think bars.

00:59:58.620 Really?

00:59:59.040 Yeah.

00:59:59.700 How many a day?

01:00:00.780 One,

01:00:01.440 one,

01:00:02.100 three days in a row.

01:00:02.780 Cause I got three,

01:00:03.680 but I'm already like,

01:00:05.200 I need more.

01:00:05.940 And I'm terrified.

01:00:07.240 Everyone's not going to have them because I'll tell you what you do.

01:00:10.020 What?

01:00:10.520 You open up Instacart and you search the item and you see, 0.99

01:00:14.040 shut up.

01:00:16.180 Instacarting think bars. 0.99

01:00:17.220 Cause I'm already like,

01:00:18.180 no,

01:00:18.760 Oh.

01:00:19.100 I'm not saying you Instacart it.

01:00:21.360 I'm going to Erwan regardless.

01:00:22.500 I knew you'd miss the nuance.

01:00:23.960 But now you reminded me I could Instacart them over.

01:00:26.040 Right.

01:00:26.640 But the third option I'm trying to present is use Instacart as an informational tool.

01:00:30.940 No, I know.

01:00:31.460 But again, I'm going to Erwan anyway.

01:00:33.560 Because you can search broadly across all the stores.

01:00:36.000 Do you understand?

01:00:37.160 You're going to Instacart.

01:00:38.140 You don't have to go to Erwan to search.

01:00:40.240 You just search at the top.

01:00:41.420 Okay.

01:00:42.020 And it tells you which stores it's in.

01:00:44.440 Okay.

01:00:44.740 Okay.

01:00:45.760 Are you doing it?

01:00:46.540 Yeah.

01:00:46.700 I'm going to the Instacart.

01:00:48.480 Is it downloaded?

01:00:50.020 I don't think so because I don't use

01:00:51.740 Instacart.

01:00:54.380 You want me to use mine? 0.97

01:00:56.100 Yeah, I'd have to download it and do a whole fucking thing. 0.98

01:00:58.100 I can't do that. Sign up. It would be a nightmare. 0.99

01:01:00.240 The last thing I searched.

01:01:02.020 Let's see. Steel wool.

01:01:07.080 What was it?

01:01:07.960 Keto Think Bars?

01:01:09.520 Keto Think Bars.

01:01:11.400 God, they're satisfying.

01:01:13.600 Cheap too. Five bars for $11.

01:01:17.100 Are you ready?

01:01:18.260 Gelson's, Ralph's, Sprouts.

01:01:21.720 Uh-huh.

01:01:22.400 Sprouts is where I got it.

01:01:23.620 I went to Sprouts.

01:01:24.360 Albertson's, Pavilions, Lassen's.

01:01:27.540 Okay.

01:01:28.220 Lassen's, interesting.

01:01:29.740 I'm looking for Erewhon and Bristol Farms.

01:01:33.660 Yeah, so Erewhon, I think, has a little bit,

01:01:37.500 I think they're a little too strict about the ingredients they let in the door.

01:01:41.000 Yeah.

01:01:42.100 You know what's an interesting thing?

01:01:44.060 What's the least sort of clean thing they've got at Air One?

01:01:49.680 I know.

01:01:50.120 I want to find it.

01:01:50.900 I want to know who's riding the line.

01:01:53.460 Like, who is like, some people at Air One are like, you know, we really got to get that out of the show.

01:01:58.120 I know.

01:01:58.440 We stand by our values.

01:02:00.400 And they're like, but we've known, but Johnny's been good to the company for so long.

01:02:03.900 You know what I mean?

01:02:04.440 I know.

01:02:05.080 We formed a relationship there.

01:02:06.160 You're getting the boot.

01:02:06.500 He was one of the only options back in the day, selling, blah, blah, blah.

01:02:10.820 All right, you're gone.

01:02:12.040 You've got things to do.

01:02:12.940 Sorry. I am. I am. I'm looking at, I'm going, I got to go down to Erewhon, get my dinner,

01:02:17.400 get my snacks. I might have to take a ride because now I'm addicted to the Keto Think

01:02:21.160 Bars. I might have to take a fucking ride to Lassen's. 0.99

01:02:23.220 What flavor? 0.99

01:02:24.240 So I did an assortment and I liked them all.

01:02:26.600 Oh my gosh.

01:02:27.280 I grabbed off the shelves. I think I had a chocolate mousse one, like a peanut butter

01:02:31.240 Keto one. I liked them all.

01:02:34.180 These are just for snacks, right?

01:02:35.600 Yeah. The last three days I had one with my afternoon matcha moaning. But you know,

01:02:42.940 Particularly on the road, airplanes, long car rides, airplanes, car rides, having it there.

01:02:49.100 You might want to try the ratio one I enjoyed.

01:02:51.460 If I have that at Air One, I'm going to pick it up.

01:02:53.540 It's different.

01:02:54.220 It's like very seed-based.

01:02:57.280 I enjoy seeds.

01:02:58.700 I'm going to go find out what happens there.

01:03:00.360 I'll take a picture of the Air One protein bars for the Instagram.

01:03:05.520 Oh, look at this.

01:03:06.340 Chanel has entered the clean beauty category.

01:03:08.600 What?

01:03:09.920 Well, let's see.

01:03:10.500 Today, the company is launching number one, a skincare and makeup collection formulated with up to 97% of ingredients derived from natural origin.

01:03:19.360 So it's not that all of it is.

01:03:21.000 It's that they've, because you just, you know, they can't toss out products people have been buying for 40 years and want to keep buying.

01:03:27.160 No, of course, of course.

01:03:28.660 40 years, more like 90.

01:03:30.820 I'm going to talk to you as I continue to pack tonight as my anchor.

01:03:37.880 All right.

01:03:39.440 Thoughts?

01:03:40.500 acceptance

01:03:42.200 resistance

01:03:43.120 accept

01:03:43.860 okay great

01:03:44.660 well I don't know

01:03:45.720 that I'll be able to

01:03:46.240 deliver a full like

01:03:47.300 live FaceTime

01:03:48.440 for the whole session

01:03:49.080 no it's more

01:03:49.260 you know how it is

01:03:50.020 no no no

01:03:50.580 absolutely not

01:03:51.420 I would never even

01:03:52.060 suggest that

01:03:52.600 and you send me a photo

01:03:53.220 yeah a couple photos

01:03:54.080 this one or that

01:03:54.820 buy it there

01:03:55.480 yeah yeah I love you

01:03:56.180 okay great

01:03:56.860 just a little

01:03:57.380 just to have an anchor

01:03:58.120 well by the way

01:03:58.940 that's all friendship

01:03:59.540 can offer a candle

01:04:00.380 in the dark

01:04:00.840 I'm here

01:04:01.920 you know what I mean

01:04:02.560 just to know

01:04:03.320 just to know you're there

01:04:04.820 you know what else

01:04:05.600 friendship offers

01:04:06.460 what

01:04:06.900 the opportunity

01:04:08.100 to be that candle

01:04:09.100 exactly 0.99

01:04:10.220 fucking yeah 0.96

01:04:11.440 so thank you 0.99

01:04:12.680 sometimes we like the way

01:04:14.080 sometimes we are the way

01:04:15.340 sometimes we are the way

01:04:15.620 text me every day

01:04:20.140 when I'm gone

01:04:21.020 just text me

01:04:22.000 we do text every day

01:04:23.000 also we do text every day

01:04:24.260 it's fine

01:04:24.520 text me every day

01:04:25.040 and you'll get

01:04:25.500 you'll get all the texts

01:04:26.520 and we do

01:04:26.940 you'll get it all

01:04:27.640 maybe I'll find my way

01:04:29.100 to London town

01:04:30.240 don't even say it

01:04:31.840 I mean

01:04:32.580 I don't know how

01:04:33.320 but maybe I could

01:04:34.360 come pick up your merch

01:04:35.900 hawk it outside the Soho

01:04:37.980 figure out a way to sell it

01:04:39.200 I should hire someone

01:04:40.040 to hawk it outside the theater. 1.00

01:04:41.500 The hags are coming. 0.73

01:04:42.400 After they've visited 0.98

01:04:43.540 your merch stand,

01:04:44.360 I don't want to compete.

01:04:45.620 Of course.

01:04:46.380 Discount if they buy your merch.

01:04:48.060 They get,

01:04:48.840 oh, that's interesting.

01:04:50.300 They get that 50 off.

01:04:52.360 Yeah.

01:04:52.620 I mean,

01:04:52.800 I think that would motivate

01:04:53.780 your sellers

01:04:54.300 and then you're getting full price.

01:04:55.880 No?

01:04:56.340 I mean, absolutely.

01:04:57.460 This is interesting.

01:04:57.760 Here we go.

01:04:58.420 Here we go.

01:04:59.500 All right.

01:05:00.340 Okay.

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01:05:01.300 Bye.

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