00:04:29.420No, I'm just not interrupting because I'm loving watching you work through like the money element, kind of the loaded like nature of the topic.
00:04:37.000Like, were you about to say, like, of course, it's a privilege to be able to pay?
00:04:42.380It is a privilege because it is expensive.
00:04:43.800and it's also kind of a funny thing to do when you're also not fully sure if you're gonna have
00:04:50.680kids like if you're like all i want are children yeah it makes more sense but can't do it yet or
00:04:55.940whatever yeah yeah i'm just like i don't know but you know i've had i had the downtime i was like0.62
00:05:01.780i'm just gonna fucking do it and i was very you know already of highly i'm already anxious person0.59
00:05:05.820specifically very medically anxious person i had this like amorphous fear that i would do it and0.91
00:05:10.740something horrible would happen or like never recover you know it's like these like fears out
00:05:15.020of just um I was like because there's a choice to be made like do it should I or should I not do
00:05:20.100this you can't help but think like that it's a fork in the road yeah and that one choice is and
00:05:25.640like the hormone element is like scary to me and of course people like it's this thing and I0.99
00:05:30.380understand people like don't know what the fuck they're talking about and they say crazy shit to0.96
00:05:33.440you like you know or it's like like someone like a dear friend is like we say a dear friend was0.99
00:05:39.700like yeah you might want to talk to my friend she said like freezing your eggs like increases your
00:05:44.320chances of cancer by 40 percent like and apparently it's true yeah 40 literally and I was like
00:05:50.000and then she said apparently it's true oh like my friend said this and apparently it's true and I
00:05:55.300was like well that fucking can't be true and like of course it's not so it's like apparently it's0.54
00:06:00.620true is funny because we say that a lot like people say that right and like what does it mean0.93
00:06:05.220it means like it's apparent like so it's like and we like regularly say that it's like literally
00:06:10.600like we regularly say it almost to mean the opposite of that yeah yeah totally apparent
00:06:14.800must mean appearing right yeah it appears to be true and so i was like what okay so you know and
00:06:22.020it's not true and of course it's like whatever there's a million it's a very it's a loaded
00:06:26.420topic for a million reasons and i sort of was like i could see myself not doing it because of
00:06:31.380some amorphous medical fear that i'll do it it'll trigger some again this is all made up it'll
00:06:36.580trigger some crazy autoimmune response i'll never be the same and i'll go why did i do you know0.95
00:06:40.900so all these fears and then i kind of in the spirit of like fuck it or something like just do0.96
00:06:45.640it and i you know it's aligned with a doctor oh i'm so sorry you were aligned with a doctor0.98
00:06:52.100aligned with a doctor funny way that's a new way with a doctor is that something that people say