Poog with Kate Berlant and Jacqueline Novak - May 16, 2023


The Belly of the Whale

Topics
Retrouvé hand cream
Instant Grief A Solemn Affair

Episode Stats


Length

1 hour

Words per minute

179.99

Word count

10,804

Sentence count

881

Harmful content

Misogyny

24

sentences flagged

Toxicity

112

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Hate speech

60

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Transcript

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Misogyny classifications generated with MilaNLProc/bert-base-uncased-ear-misogyny .
Toxicity classifications generated with s-nlp/roberta_toxicity_classifier .
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Topics generated with Qwen2.5-3B-Instruct.
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00:02:35.440 Hi, I'm Kate Berlant.
00:02:36.900 I'm Jacqueline Novak.
00:02:38.000 And this is POOG,
00:02:39.140 an ongoing conversation about wellness
00:02:41.060 between two obsessive friends,
00:02:42.740 two untamable intellects.
00:02:44.520 This is our hobby. 0.95
00:02:45.360 This is our hell.
00:02:46.220 This is our naked desire for free products.
00:02:48.500 This is POOG.
00:02:49.920 Today's topic, loosely speaking,
00:02:51.380 Aloe Gel.
00:02:53.020 The Bastard Hand, Frustration. 1.00
00:02:59.260 Well, this is a poog first. 1.00
00:03:01.920 You're in a baseball hat. 1.00
00:03:03.160 Do you see what it is?
00:03:04.560 No.
00:03:05.100 Oh, it's your merch.
00:03:07.280 That's a, you know, it's like a, not a patch.
00:03:09.780 What's the word?
00:03:10.320 Yeah.
00:03:11.080 It says the show title, my name on the side.
00:03:13.460 Great.
00:03:13.960 I love it.
00:03:14.380 More subtle.
00:03:15.120 Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
00:03:18.400 Are you shaking because you're using Bionic Gym on your legs right now?
00:03:22.400 I was waiting for you to know.
00:03:25.260 You freak.
00:03:28.760 By the way, we were sent Bionic Gym, or at least you were. 0.98
00:03:32.160 Where the hell is mine? 0.91
00:03:34.080 Oh, you're hysterical. 0.68
00:03:35.440 Well, the company reached out directly and I forwarded it to you with a tracking number. 1.00
00:03:40.020 Oh, shit. 0.98
00:03:40.580 Because they said you had to rearrange delivery. 1.00
00:03:43.740 Because I'm so arrogant.
00:03:45.700 You were like, you sent me a while ago.
00:03:47.420 You're like, do you want this Bionic Gym?
00:03:49.340 It straps your legs and vibrates the muscles. 0.95
00:03:51.320 And I was like, no.
00:03:52.400 Yeah. 0.98
00:03:54.440 And I was like, well, I'd be a fool to turn it down.
00:03:57.540 We talked to the boys and we talked to the founder.
00:04:01.480 Okay, so here's the thing.
00:04:02.680 I thought it would be humorous to do a high-powered one, okay?
00:04:07.560 Yeah.
00:04:07.940 Coming into the app.
00:04:09.240 So right now I'm on this one that somehow works the glutes.
00:04:12.380 I don't know how.
00:04:13.280 But the thing is, when you're sitting, my legs are like sort of dangling in this chair.
00:04:17.900 It's like more pronounced.
00:04:18.960 When I stand, it's less.
00:04:20.160 oh like less I'm just
00:04:21.840 it's like
00:04:23.000 hi
00:04:24.120 now you still see it
00:04:25.760 okay but
00:04:26.320 but here I'm going to stop it for a second
00:04:27.800 just show you
00:04:28.740 so then they have one called
00:04:30.580 you can hear I'm kind of out of breath from that one
00:04:32.620 it's absolutely insane
00:04:34.180 and then they have
00:04:35.820 let's see
00:04:36.740 they have one called
00:04:38.300 less cardio more discreet
00:04:40.620 isn't discreet
00:04:43.900 a discreet one
00:04:45.140 Jesus 1.00
00:04:45.540 just load her up 1.00
00:04:46.480 see what happens
00:04:47.180 I mean the joke is
00:04:49.500 you know I bounce anyway when I'm sitting wait a minute so what is the purpose interesting
00:04:57.520 question passive exercise okay got it I used to dream of this back in the depression days okay
00:05:05.940 okay someone needs to move the body when you can't move the body and like for people with
00:05:11.220 mobility issues it's like literally changing lives okay yeah for me I'm just you know anything
00:05:17.540 like that like I invented the toothbrush that like a thing where you have four electric toothbrushes
00:05:23.020 going at once in your mouth that you can like so it goes around the tooth you don't have to move it
00:05:27.740 so that so it gets rid of um so it turns it down to like 30 seconds okay yeah you know this is a 0.99
00:05:34.320 wow I mean I I worked one out and then the Therabrush emerged I haven't heard of that 1.00
00:05:41.600 when I said thank you. 0.99
00:05:42.460 I allow time to deliver me the inventions that...
00:05:47.460 And then, by the way, I'm drinking magnesium as we speak
00:05:52.500 because I had a more...
00:05:54.200 Well, first of all, no caffeine yet. 0.99
00:05:56.360 Holy shit. 0.99
00:05:57.720 I came to Poog with seven things in my hand. 0.98
00:05:59.980 Would you like to know what they are?
00:06:01.100 Yeah.
00:06:01.600 Okay. Magnesium in a glass.
00:06:03.460 This is the moon juice.
00:06:04.000 Thank you, milk.
00:06:04.880 I mean, milk.
00:06:05.680 Thank you, moon juice.
00:06:06.860 Yeah.
00:06:07.040 Yeah. Well, interestingly, both moon juice and milk makeup have a jelly cleanser with the word
00:06:14.640 jelly involved. So funny. Yeah. No, it's not funny. It's not funny. You're hilarious. You know that?
00:06:20.880 Yeah. It's an explanation for why you perhaps made that connection. Don't you dare think I
00:06:25.280 thought that was humorous? Okay. Then, so I started the day. So yesterday I went to Face Gym. We'll
00:06:30.300 talk about that in a minute. Wow. Well, I tried to get you in. No, I'm going.
00:06:37.040 I'm going thank you
00:06:38.660 I couldn't have even gone
00:06:39.440 I didn't forget you
00:06:40.300 I texted you
00:06:41.160 literally instantly
00:06:42.740 while the appointments
00:06:43.480 were unfolding
00:06:44.540 no but I will say
00:06:45.460 I'm not attacking
00:06:46.160 I texted you
00:06:48.360 to go okay
00:06:49.120 I'm going to FaceTime today
00:06:50.060 now you know me
00:06:51.080 I don't put a paragraph
00:06:52.860 at once
00:06:53.340 unless it comes out that way
00:06:54.500 I take a breath
00:06:55.660 and I hit send
00:06:56.780 so there's more sentences
00:06:57.940 coming right
00:06:58.540 I'm going to FaceTime today
00:06:59.280 it's not it
00:06:59.920 it's not waiting for a response
00:07:01.820 no no no
00:07:02.420 anyway I said
00:07:03.300 I'm going today
00:07:03.760 and you just immediately
00:07:04.700 it's like share the wealth
00:07:05.660 it's like where's the contact like that's why i'm talking to you right now
00:07:09.580 i never forget you i know kate do you think it's better if i'm hunting for poog discount do you 0.78
00:07:17.580 think it's better to so i booked hotels going i can't fuck around right what do you mean for tour 0.70
00:07:23.000 like i booked hotels there's like a normal person yeah i'm going now do i say to them hey i actually 0.68
00:07:29.420 i booked a room for da da da but you know for some sweet coverage on the poog insta yeah could
00:07:35.160 you give me a rate reduction and then is that better or the cold like you know does that like
00:07:41.680 make them feel like they've already got me on the hook so they're not going to give me anything
00:07:44.780 or do they feel like oh she's already booked this is really happening let's give her the thing
00:07:49.320 you know what i'm saying i don't know i know so i don't know whether to email blind and i've i've
00:07:56.640 you retroed have i retroed success i believe you did you were like i already booked but should i
00:08:02.040 ask be like hey you showed me an email where you were like oh yeah i'm coming yeah yeah that was 0.79
00:08:06.460 hawaii we got an unbelievable upgrade look at me i cranked it up to 80 jacqueline is shaking wildly
00:08:12.960 oh by the way you asked earlier what's the point of the bio kim or what's the yeah so you know i
00:08:19.640 went passive exercise i get it is that what i said yeah oh right but i didn't think that like
00:08:25.640 covered enough because i felt like i was hiding uh the answer is exercise without willpower yeah
00:08:32.880 so you strap those on your legs and then you sit there yeah and you're sit there stand go about
00:08:39.660 your business because there's a wire between the legs but it's long enough you have an unbelievable
00:08:44.180 shirt on right now so this i got when i was in rome well by the way i'm going to rome and this
00:08:50.480 is actually a call out to the hags what for yeah i was scared to tell you so i'm telling you
00:08:56.260 Well, you should be because you booked it with a dear friend.
00:09:02.140 I'm going with John.
00:09:03.320 I think I know.
00:09:03.920 Yeah, John and I are going.
00:09:04.320 Oh, you're going with John?
00:09:05.580 Yeah. 1.00
00:09:06.100 Fuck you. 1.00
00:09:07.320 Okay. 1.00
00:09:09.340 Literally, fuck you two. 1.00
00:09:11.380 Okay. 1.00
00:09:12.760 You people.
00:09:14.040 This is owls.
00:09:14.820 This is owls.
00:09:16.220 Again.
00:09:16.840 Owls?
00:09:17.660 Yeah, remember we played owls on television and in it, you guys are leaving me out.
00:09:21.360 Essentially.
00:09:21.980 Right.
00:09:22.060 Right. So I'm wearing a Torrey, Argentina cat sanctuary in Rome. It's this cat sanctuary
00:09:28.880 and these cats roam in these ruins. And I believe it's literally where they killed Caesar.
00:09:33.660 Wow.
00:09:34.400 So an ancestor of the cat saw Caesar die.
00:09:38.860 Everything's changed as usual. A new life is here. Monday. I mean, and by the way,
00:09:45.060 it's Monday. Okay. When we're recording this, this will come out on Tuesday, of course,
00:09:49.520 given the way Pug works. But here I go, I'm trying to white knuckle grip the hope I have,
00:09:57.260 the hope I feel in my body today, the joy I feel in my body today and my realization that knowledge
00:10:03.460 that if I, okay, I just got really, I had this glimmer of the research I'm going to do ahead of
00:10:09.280 Rome and kind of like to be immersed in a city with such history. I went to Sicily a million
00:10:14.820 years ago but you really do realize how okay and by the way i'm gonna i'm going to eject from this
00:10:20.600 conversation but i was about to go no you really realize how young america is when you go to europe
00:10:25.420 you really realize how recent we are you don't have to eject okay because we would have that
00:10:30.380 conversation if we were walking around together we're humiliated to offer help as entertainment 0.93
00:10:34.720 inside the art of conversation yeah and yet you feel it when we were in uh napoli damn do you feel
00:10:43.680 there's a different relationship to mortality.
00:10:47.660 Yeah. 0.99
00:10:47.860 You little miss Italy over here,
00:10:49.200 spending a month in Italy.
00:10:50.480 I'm going,
00:10:51.220 you missed it. 0.82
00:10:51.820 I'm Caesar's death. 0.59
00:10:52.920 You didn't care.
00:10:53.540 No,
00:10:53.680 I did.
00:10:54.040 That's what inspired me.
00:10:55.160 That's what inspired me.
00:10:56.380 Thinking about the historicity of a place and that.
00:10:59.680 Okay.
00:10:59.980 And again,
00:11:00.360 this is last night,
00:11:01.700 got home,
00:11:02.700 picture me getting home,
00:11:04.260 midnight,
00:11:05.360 get into bed,
00:11:06.200 stripped down as always open window.
00:11:09.400 As everyone knows,
00:11:10.640 probably hopefully everyone's paid attention that I moved my bed.
00:11:13.680 In a strong psychological, emotional pursuit, moved the bed, was told that could really do a lot.
00:11:19.760 And it does. Okay.
00:11:21.440 Oh, yeah. Moving furniture is one of the only things we have.
00:11:24.980 To have my bed.
00:11:25.900 I know. Do it today.
00:11:27.360 To have my bed now near an open window, the breeze coming in across my nude torso.
00:11:34.020 Okay. Imagine this, me. No, I'm not going to scroll my phone. No, I'm not going to grab my
00:11:40.080 laptop. You know what I'm going to do? Get my book out. Clip my red light to it. I'm reading
00:11:45.600 darkness except for the glow of the red light. I thought that was the title of the book. Okay.
00:11:52.180 Clipped on. I read until I become drowsy. Well, there it is.
00:11:58.120 Which by the way happened. Oh, I don't know. Four pages in. Oh.
00:12:01.940 And there was a line in the book because I, of course, don't read without a pen and don't
00:12:05.680 believe you can read without a pen. And I went, I want to underline this. I want to underline this.
00:12:12.020 The pen was too far. Dog-eared the page. This is now I'm going into forensics detail.
00:12:16.760 But the point is, the eyes began to close. I reached for my Retrouvé hand cream, which we
00:12:26.780 were sent, which is the most high quality hand cream. And I'm now realizing that a hand cream,
00:12:31.960 hand cream not only signifies the pinnacle of femininity yes it also is i mean this hand cream
00:12:40.520 comes in a thing where i i opened it and i went huh yes because it has a top it has a pump and
00:12:46.020 we know how we feel about pumps here at poog and this is a small like it's gonna be a pump right 0.98
00:12:50.700 no you you look at it what is this you go this is a jar and i went oh fuck yeah i mean i own it you 0.95
00:12:56.560 You know, I'm like, by the way, this is a high-priced hand cream, okay? 0.94
00:13:01.360 And you weren't even, you Googled after it arrived.
00:13:04.560 I Googled after.
00:13:06.140 I was like, Kate, we need Retrouve.
00:13:08.400 And then I Googled, I saw the price point, and I said, yes, we do.
00:13:10.760 You know, you sure will take it.
00:13:12.120 Yeah.
00:13:12.900 This hand cream, so I look at it, I go, oh, it's a jar.
00:13:15.420 I'm going to have to unscrew the lid.
00:13:16.440 I don't want that, my bedside.
00:13:18.500 The top pops off to reveal a pump.
00:13:22.580 So it basically looks like a perfume, almost.
00:13:24.880 It's so, it's quite fancy.
00:13:27.360 How do your hands feel in the morning?
00:13:29.340 Better than usual or nothing?
00:13:30.740 I don't even recall, but at night, it's really smooth.
00:13:34.840 It's a thick hand cream, but it's not, the fragrance isn't too strong.
00:13:38.520 It's great.
00:13:39.020 I'm just, I love it.
00:13:40.240 Well, now that can go, yeah, that can be on the bedside table.
00:13:43.200 To fall asleep, to fall asleep reading, hands moisturize, naked with the breeze.
00:13:50.640 Unreal.
00:13:51.560 I'm assuming the moon wasn't visible.
00:13:52.940 The moon wasn't visible, tragically.
00:13:54.880 That's okay.
00:13:55.820 I fell asleep.
00:13:56.860 Okay.
00:13:57.680 Yes.
00:13:58.480 I'm not done leaving this moment.
00:14:00.600 Okay, great.
00:14:01.080 Great, great.
00:14:01.420 Let's not.
00:14:02.940 Don't rush us out.
00:14:04.320 Okay, great.
00:14:04.600 I don't want to.
00:14:05.500 I had also popped a gem sleep essentials.
00:14:08.440 Yes.
00:14:09.260 And I thought I was like, I need to reach out.
00:14:11.100 I need them to give me more.
00:14:12.200 It came with a tin and I decanted.
00:14:15.640 Yeah.
00:14:16.080 And I know you decanted as well into the tin.
00:14:18.640 I did.
00:14:19.760 This night, this moment in the red light with the book.
00:14:24.100 And I also want to say that
00:14:26.840 As you know
00:14:28.840 We had a coronation of a new king
00:14:30.640 On the 6th
00:14:31.380 Which is interesting
00:14:31.960 Given the eclipse of the 5th
00:14:33.200 And we're moving into a time
00:14:34.680 Of radical change
00:14:35.700 Radical transformation
00:14:36.800 Yeah
00:14:37.300 Aquarius is finally settling in
00:14:40.940 They've been talking about it
00:14:41.800 For 40 years
00:14:42.560 Yeah something's happening
00:14:43.780 The dawning of the age of Aquarius
00:14:45.680 I don't know if that's even it
00:14:46.780 I love to have just a little information
00:14:48.360 And then jeopardize
00:14:50.160 Your life
00:14:51.300 The intellectualism of the whole community
00:14:53.200 but
00:14:53.840 anyway
00:14:55.640 reading is huge
00:14:56.440 I have something to say
00:14:57.320 about the moments
00:14:57.940 I have something to say
00:14:58.860 about the moments
00:14:59.360 yeah yeah please
00:14:59.880 so
00:15:01.820 the drowsy
00:15:03.280 okay a couple things
00:15:04.200 yeah yeah yeah
00:15:05.000 okay
00:15:05.240 I'm wondering about
00:15:06.660 hand cream
00:15:07.360 and the pages of the book
00:15:09.460 and I think it's
00:15:10.280 a positive
00:15:10.900 because you know
00:15:11.780 the whole licking your thumb
00:15:13.060 to turn the pages
00:15:14.020 of a magazine
00:15:14.660 in 1920
00:15:15.380 so I hate
00:15:18.140 the feeling of
00:15:18.780 dry on dry
00:15:20.400 like if the paper's
00:15:22.000 too dry
00:15:22.380 I just hate it
00:15:23.200 Like on my thumb.
00:15:25.800 So I'm really excited about it.
00:15:27.100 Isn't the paper always dry?
00:15:28.060 No, I mean my hand dry again.
00:15:29.780 Okay.
00:15:30.000 My thumb is too dry.
00:15:31.220 I get it.
00:15:31.600 It's like a bad feeling.
00:15:32.400 Yeah.
00:15:32.700 So I'm like, hand cream.
00:15:34.240 I don't even mind like if it's a little sticky.
00:15:36.920 Okay.
00:15:37.560 And it clings to the page.
00:15:38.740 I'm kind of excited about that.
00:15:40.620 And next up, we both have these clips, these clip lights.
00:15:44.060 Now the red light.
00:15:45.040 Here's what I'm confused.
00:15:45.820 I purchased that.
00:15:47.140 Me too.
00:15:47.880 Okay.
00:15:48.120 I love you.
00:15:49.320 Love you.
00:15:53.200 Do you just clip it to the back of the book?
00:15:55.540 Like, do you clip it to the last 30 pages of the book 1.00
00:15:58.280 or do you clip it to your fucking hair? 1.00
00:15:59.340 I clipped it. 1.00
00:15:59.900 We've got a soft cover here.
00:16:01.720 I clipped it to the last, I clipped it.
00:16:03.760 Yeah, the last.
00:16:04.520 The last 30.
00:16:05.440 Like 30 pages, yeah.
00:16:06.380 Yeah.
00:16:06.840 There's an interesting moment when you have to use a soft cover.
00:16:09.400 Well, I'm suddenly, by the way, I'm Rembrandt reading by candlelight.
00:16:13.140 Yes.
00:16:13.520 Do you know what I mean?
00:16:14.100 I mean, it instantly teleports you.
00:16:16.660 If you are in a dark room and the red light, again,
00:16:19.080 the red light, what this is doing is it's not,
00:16:21.760 you know it's not stimulating
00:16:23.780 it's not suppressing the melatonin
00:16:25.800 production yeah exactly
00:16:26.720 like the sun does in the morning to wake you up
00:16:28.900 yeah so I love it and
00:16:30.760 it is
00:16:32.880 the most romantic again
00:16:35.260 just medieval thing you can give yourself
00:16:37.360 before bed well there was that writing
00:16:39.140 practice I was reading about was convinced
00:16:41.080 was you know life changing and immediately forgot
00:16:43.340 I have to look where the book
00:16:45.300 was do you remember it was you write you
00:16:47.000 go into a room with a loose leaf
00:16:49.320 loose leaf oh right right
00:16:51.240 Okay, with like fine paper and a candle.
00:16:55.160 They don't even, I don't even think she was pushing fountain pens.
00:16:57.220 That was just me.
00:16:58.040 Yeah.
00:16:58.400 But, and a candle.
00:17:00.000 A candle.
00:17:00.280 Because the flicker.
00:17:02.380 Yeah.
00:17:02.960 That's the one thing you're missing.
00:17:04.300 Does what?
00:17:05.020 Well, you're just talking about the medieval.
00:17:06.560 Oh, okay.
00:17:07.060 You said flickering.
00:17:07.900 Okay.
00:17:08.000 Yeah.
00:17:08.460 These red lights are not flickering.
00:17:09.900 No.
00:17:10.580 Not yet.
00:17:11.200 Now, candlelight, actually, it's an interesting question.
00:17:14.140 Does candlelight suppress melatonin production?
00:17:17.160 Really good question.
00:17:18.100 You need a little gel, a little red gel resting in front.
00:17:20.260 that would be well that's that's how you get it you get a red lantern well surrounding a candle
00:17:25.120 as you know flickering as you know i love candlelight i mean as we all do of course it's
00:17:31.320 our birthright is to live by candlelight and we've been robbed of that experience due to modernity
00:17:36.180 but i absolutely am now sort of concerned and i hate to even say this i know by candle but candles
00:17:47.820 have been and i still burn them yeah yeah but they've been a little tainted for me because of
00:17:53.440 what we're inhaling and i'm sorry to even say it and i've talked about this on poog and i've said
00:17:58.620 it's worth it to live a shorter life by candlelight than a long life by the absolutely 0.93
00:18:03.860 godless glow of the fucking yeah the godless eternal it's like masculine no yeah and i mean 0.96
00:18:09.800 young to be absolutely fucking clear yeah okay the linear versus the cyclical the 24-hour work day 0.98
00:18:17.500 A light bulb. 0.97
00:18:19.420 Yeah.
00:18:19.900 Right.
00:18:20.420 If the candle is feminine cyclical energy, it acknowledges the passage of time. 0.73
00:18:25.560 The candle lowers. 0.90
00:18:28.560 I mean, the candle burns.
00:18:30.180 It's not denying death.
00:18:32.540 Yeah.
00:18:32.880 It's not a denial of death.
00:18:34.140 No.
00:18:34.780 It's an acknowledgement of death.
00:18:36.900 Yeah.
00:18:37.400 Constant acknowledgement.
00:18:38.200 Let's ride that.
00:18:39.520 That candle down.
00:18:42.300 It burns and puddles and pools and is over.
00:18:45.980 Also, the way that...
00:18:47.540 I mean, sorry, but the beauty of a candle.
00:18:49.680 Let's just take a second.
00:18:50.640 Please.
00:18:51.280 Let's take an hour.
00:18:52.020 The wick, okay?
00:18:53.180 The wick is what burns.
00:18:54.860 There is a spine of thread held vertically.
00:19:00.180 And that burns.
00:19:01.280 Now, that burning is slowed by a column of wax.
00:19:05.800 The wax doesn't burn, right?
00:19:08.180 The wax melts.
00:19:10.240 Right, right.
00:19:10.920 So you have thread burning in a spine-like nature.
00:19:15.060 surrounded by a column of something that melts
00:19:17.040 yet doesn't go running away.
00:19:19.460 I mean, it just melts and cools.
00:19:22.040 You know what I mean?
00:19:22.580 Heats and cools. 0.98
00:19:23.060 It's fucking phenomenal. 0.98
00:19:24.200 I dare you to invent that in another form. 0.99
00:19:28.560 No, no.
00:19:29.460 You know, zeros and ones can only do so much.
00:19:33.800 Ain't that the truth?
00:19:35.320 I continue into Twitch, by the way.
00:19:36.760 Wait, wait, but I'm not done leaving this.
00:19:38.640 So, okay.
00:19:40.200 Candle light.
00:19:41.980 Now, you know, I have my flickering battery ones.
00:19:44.460 I love those.
00:19:45.060 my mother i mean helen create i mean she's been doing those for 20 years yeah i mean take away
00:19:50.820 the fear yeah take away the um well that's what's night is that you can that's the tragedy right i
00:19:56.540 mean okay the dream the dream to interrupt you the dream is the wall sconce with the candle okay
00:20:03.180 yeah and i've seen them in people's homes too to be honest only two people have i known to be
00:20:10.980 brave enough. During a dinner party?
00:20:12.900 You didn't catch them like that on a Tuesday.
00:20:15.040 No, no, no, no. No. You walk
00:20:17.000 into someone's home, they have a fucking sconce 1.00
00:20:18.880 with a burning candle. 1.00
00:20:21.800 Oh my
00:20:22.960 God. And you know the sex in that 0.98
00:20:24.860 house is... Or 0.52
00:20:25.940 is it not? Because
00:20:29.200 to me,
00:20:31.860 the candle
00:20:32.600 in a sconce on a wall,
00:20:35.620 I'm just like... God, that's a...
00:20:37.180 You are playing... That is so
00:20:38.740 risky. That is so scary. Yeah.
00:20:40.980 Okay, that I almost think it's performative for the guests
00:20:44.340 to a point of...
00:20:46.480 Interesting, interesting.
00:20:48.720 Doth the candle sconce protest too much?
00:20:52.940 In this case, profess too much.
00:20:56.220 Can you imagine?
00:20:57.740 Yeah.
00:20:58.980 By the way, by the way, by the way.
00:21:00.460 Yeah.
00:21:01.260 Guests who's installing candle sconces, me,
00:21:03.460 I'm doing it only for...
00:21:04.500 And guess what you're putting behind them?
00:21:06.200 What?
00:21:06.860 Battery hop.
00:21:07.840 Yeah, battery hop.
00:21:08.820 No, but I'm thinking if I do that-
00:21:11.600 Oh, the fantasy you said.
00:21:12.620 And on very rare occasions-
00:21:14.840 Yeah.
00:21:15.680 Very rare occasions, put a candle in.
00:21:18.300 Yes. 1.00
00:21:19.120 Doth the sconce still protest too much. 0.96
00:21:21.900 Would it be-
00:21:23.300 Actually, you know what?
00:21:23.940 I can't do that because guess what?
00:21:25.580 If I'm having a dinner party
00:21:27.020 and I have live candles burning on sconces,
00:21:30.600 I'm talking to the person in front of me
00:21:32.580 and my focus is entirely on the sconce
00:21:34.520 the entire conversation.
00:21:35.600 Now-
00:21:36.060 Will the candle drop?
00:21:36.840 Enjoying it or will it-
00:21:37.760 Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
00:21:38.640 The obsession, the constant obsession.
00:21:40.880 I wouldn't be able to, I'd go into the bathroom,
00:21:43.560 keep an eye on the sconce, will I?
00:21:44.560 Oh God.
00:21:45.160 I'd be completely fixated on it.
00:21:47.520 You can only.
00:21:48.520 I mean, I'm already hyper fixated on it.
00:21:50.460 Imagine if it were actually burning.
00:21:51.760 You can only do the sconce if you're someone who,
00:21:56.240 yeah, the sconce on the wall with a candle, right?
00:21:59.300 You glance over and you see the person whose house it is
00:22:01.460 and you see their utter disregard for it.
00:22:04.040 And that's actually what you're paying for at home.
00:22:07.400 Oh. 1.00
00:22:07.800 yeah that's what it is that woman's um relaxed but then her gaze glances up at you and there
00:22:16.320 is something dead in there isn't there yeah i see me i see me in an off the shoulder okay
00:22:23.600 red because i'm reclaiming red it's always been there but i it's important really i'm realizing
00:22:31.060 i'm continually drawn to red and i imagining me in a scarlet off the shoulder dress well you'll
00:22:37.060 recall a mere weeks ago with a cigarette with a hemp virginia slim smoking at the table i look
00:22:42.640 over at the sconce and again i wouldn't smoke in my home but this is the image yes we have to hold
00:22:48.260 these um archetypes no these visions of ourselves as gods these gods who wish we were yeah okay i
00:22:55.960 mean you know i've been talking about sort of going harder with not exactly alter ego because
00:23:02.780 that's too that term is loaded but animating archetypes but even the animating archetypes
00:23:08.780 terminology is a little too uh being filtered through your personality yeah like and coming 0.98
00:23:15.720 out not fully coming out of like being visible through the opacity of your fucking personality 0.98
00:23:20.440 right i'm talking a little more outside in like what you're saying put on the dress okay yeah put 0.98
00:23:26.760 on the glasses to do the work even if they're sunglasses and you can't see yeah yeah yeah
00:23:31.600 Yeah, totally.
00:23:32.700 I don't know.
00:23:33.360 These are bad examples,
00:23:34.460 but I actually mean it more intensely.
00:23:36.560 Like, well, I went through this period
00:23:38.160 of thinking about what if I had...
00:23:40.160 Why don't...
00:23:40.840 Okay, we walk around
00:23:41.820 and we have this internal perception of our form.
00:23:45.980 Okay.
00:23:47.060 You know, like how you can't see your face
00:23:48.660 throughout the day.
00:23:49.560 Like, where is your face during the day?
00:23:51.140 Just living your life. 1.00
00:23:52.740 Like, where the fuck is it? 0.99
00:23:54.000 Right? 0.99
00:23:54.260 Like, I feel like when I'm talking right now,
00:23:57.220 I mean, there's a sense of being perceived
00:23:59.140 because you're looking at me.
00:24:00.420 And so I'm going...
00:24:01.600 It's like, it's almost like there's an image of my own face hovering right in front of my face, but not like it's looking back at me. It's like, I don't know, there's an awareness of like this shadowy perception of my face, whatever. So I was like thinking about that and how that's all constructed in the brain and these, these ideas.
00:24:19.460 My silence is sheer fascination, by the way.
00:24:21.960 No, no, I feel held by it.
00:24:25.120 So I'm like, like we talked about early days, like the interior of the body and having these perceptions.
00:24:29.720 Like I think of my stomach as this big like hat box with the lid off that I can just dump food in.
00:24:35.760 And it's like actually quite small, you know, whatever.
00:24:37.680 Yeah.
00:24:37.900 Or the idea of like oatmeal sticking to the ribs.
00:24:40.380 Ew.
00:24:41.120 No, it's nice.
00:24:42.100 It'd be like in the cold morning, like a little meal once and it sticks to the ribs.
00:24:45.780 Ooh, that is nice.
00:24:46.480 You know, it was like, yeah.
00:24:48.200 And I picture it like sticking to the ribs and it would make you feel like you're gonna be fuller longer.
00:24:52.560 So I'm like, I went through this thing, like this feeling of one's own mental kind of idea of one's own like body and space.
00:25:00.280 I go, why the hell aren't I walking around?
00:25:03.740 Why aren't I actively creating things that are invisible that I choose to walk around with in the same way that I experienced like my arms?
00:25:11.800 So I'm like, for example, what if I decided to have like a golden like crystal ball, let's say. 0.97
00:25:20.300 And I envision a floating crystal ball that comes with me everywhere I go to my left near my fucking hip. 0.98
00:25:28.040 Okay. 0.99
00:25:28.660 And I just remind myself of that all the time.
00:25:30.980 I have a crystal ball right here.
00:25:32.120 Oh God, that's good.
00:25:33.160 That is good.
00:25:33.960 That is good.
00:25:34.880 And I don't even mean like starting to predict the future.
00:25:37.280 I just mean, or like, what if I imagine there is a, you know, coat of many colors, okay, okay.
00:25:45.280 What if I imagine like floating behind me is a veil, okay, that reaches all the way to the floor?
00:25:50.400 I think this is huge and really helpful.
00:25:52.940 And also I'll say, because I've done a little bit of EMDR,
00:25:56.260 and one thing they can do in that kind of a therapeutic context is that you bring in people to the room.
00:26:02.300 You're like, who represents wisdom?
00:26:04.560 Who represents kindness?
00:26:05.460 who represents and you can bring them in the room yes and then you can go through these like
00:26:10.080 scenarios and one of those things too is like an animal you're like what's an animal that will
00:26:15.200 protect you as you go through these memories or whatever exactly so you can bring the animal in
00:26:20.460 the room and you can have it walk with an elephant at your side exactly and i and that i had that for
00:26:26.460 a little while there was a um i'm gonna keep it private because some things are sacred but you
00:26:31.540 can you can have it and you can you know you're you're sobbing and um abject pain but the animals 0.60
00:26:37.140 in the corner watching you and it helps it fucking helps and and so we're already doing it on some 0.68
00:26:43.860 level like we're doing it within kind of nothingness right like what am i like experiencing 0.96
00:26:48.420 my back as right now kind of like the back of my fucking t-shirt right yeah but that's a mental 0.97
00:26:53.260 image like i can't see the back of my shirt right now so why the fuck aren't i instead picturing 0.98
00:26:57.740 a shimmering 0.78
00:26:59.640 and now that's just like clothing
00:27:01.700 because I don't want it
00:27:02.600 necessarily to feel
00:27:04.540 whatever if you walk around 1.00
00:27:05.840 with a fucking crown on your head 1.00
00:27:07.200 in your mind 1.00
00:27:07.780 or like yes
00:27:09.600 the animal is really really good
00:27:11.020 like you know it's infinite
00:27:12.560 okay classic
00:27:13.840 you know picture the bubble of light
00:27:15.780 nothing other than good energy comes in
00:27:18.740 you know your energy is maintained
00:27:20.080 that's a classic
00:27:21.060 but to really do it
00:27:22.180 oh I just remember
00:27:23.480 and nurture it daily
00:27:24.000 I feel like I've said this
00:27:25.280 maybe on Pooh
00:27:26.260 but years ago
00:27:27.340 I was staying for a month in Scotland in an apartment building where my apartment was on the
00:27:33.260 when I was there as well yeah oh my god you got your lima out I haven't lima'd for days
00:27:37.660 but we decided we were gonna do it during poo we were gonna always lima during poo
00:27:41.080 grab it okay right back I knew it would shock her
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00:31:35.280 Okay, so I was going to say that I was staying on the very top floor.
00:31:39.140 We're both limiting now.
00:31:40.000 We're both holding up our hands.
00:31:41.440 I was staying on the top.
00:31:43.900 I remember your apartment.
00:31:45.020 Yeah, and it was magnificent,
00:31:46.480 but sometimes I would get there very late at night
00:31:48.720 and it was incredibly, it would feel very, very desolate.
00:31:51.760 Yes.
00:31:52.080 The blocks surrounding it, the apartment itself.
00:31:54.320 Yes.
00:31:54.740 And I would go up this kind of circular staircase to the top
00:31:57.600 and it was terrifying, of course.
00:32:01.640 And a couple of times I made my hand into a gun.
00:32:05.520 There it is.
00:32:06.880 Okay.
00:32:07.320 And I walked up the stairs with my gun hand.
00:32:13.240 Yes.
00:32:14.300 And it really helped.
00:32:15.420 My silence is reverence.
00:32:17.720 Okay.
00:32:18.360 No, no, no.
00:32:18.960 So I would instantly argue that that,
00:32:22.980 if someone said that puts you in more danger, okay,
00:32:26.380 because of a false sense of confidence, right?
00:32:29.240 I would argue the other side and say,
00:32:31.200 or does it charge up your energy with a kind of confidence?
00:32:36.700 Oh, totally.
00:32:37.320 that then 1.00
00:32:38.200 try to fuck with me 0.99
00:32:39.080 any 1.00
00:32:39.560 try to fuck with you 1.00
00:32:40.740 you're already 1.00
00:32:41.580 in your
00:32:42.280 you're energetically
00:32:44.360 sending out
00:32:45.020 kind of different rays
00:32:46.120 yeah 1.00
00:32:46.380 don't fuck with me 1.00
00:32:47.060 oh yeah 1.00
00:32:47.380 totally
00:32:47.960 this is actually
00:32:49.400 actually huge
00:32:51.140 and the only issue
00:32:52.120 is that
00:32:52.380 you know
00:32:52.940 will we forget
00:32:53.680 and you know
00:32:54.700 I forget
00:32:55.180 and then
00:32:55.860 you mean forget
00:32:57.240 and not reintegrate
00:32:58.020 sorry about choosing
00:32:59.040 it's all about choosing
00:33:00.340 like
00:33:01.080 something like this
00:33:02.160 where you go
00:33:02.540 okay I could imagine anything
00:33:03.640 and then like
00:33:04.340 I'll be like
00:33:04.960 okay well
00:33:06.460 Oh, remind me later to decide what invisible objects I'm going to carry with me.
00:33:10.460 Right.
00:33:11.040 And then, because I don't make decision, I don't, you know, then I'm carrying nothing.
00:33:15.220 Yeah.
00:33:15.400 You forget you could carry anything.
00:33:16.940 Yeah. 0.98
00:33:17.620 And it's got to be fucking nurtured. 1.00
00:33:20.700 I got to get serious about this shit. 1.00
00:33:23.280 I mean, you could have cues on your clothing. 0.99
00:33:25.920 I mean, there's that option too.
00:33:28.240 Like, you know, you were talking about the scarlet dress and mere weeks ago, you said
00:33:31.680 to me, you want me in a backless red dress.
00:33:33.700 Oh, yeah.
00:33:34.120 At Muso's.
00:33:34.920 You know, this has been coming up, right?
00:33:36.460 Oh my God.
00:33:37.200 I'm going so- 1.00
00:33:37.740 Some people fucking get it. 0.99
00:33:38.940 Like some people get it and that's why their clothing is whatever. 0.99
00:33:41.880 Oh yeah.
00:33:42.040 It's like they get that that is it.
00:33:44.340 It does a lot. 0.98
00:33:46.000 But I went, yeah, I went through a period with the color therapy shit where I was like, 0.89
00:33:49.060 I was like, I'm only wearing like red underwear because for chakra, survival and safety, red. 0.90
00:33:56.740 I'm wearing red right now.
00:33:58.260 I'm wearing a red shirt.
00:33:59.100 Earth.
00:33:59.620 Yeah.
00:34:00.100 So I was like, okay, I should be wearing red underwear.
00:34:03.460 And then I was like, okay, the second chakra on the hips, you know, should be orange, cerulean.
00:34:09.920 Then I was like, oh, crystal of each chakra should be tucked in to the clothing.
00:34:14.240 I'm realizing I need to get a moonstone now.
00:34:18.220 What is moonstone? Visions?
00:34:20.100 Well, it's all, but it's all based on the numerologist I saw.
00:34:23.080 She was like, carry a moonstone.
00:34:24.540 Oh, she said it.
00:34:25.200 She was like, it'll heighten your creativity and your whatever.
00:34:28.400 I like used to really know the crystals.
00:34:30.600 kyanite communication fifth chakra i don't i i always my eyes kind of forever glaze over
00:34:35.920 moonstone to me is just aesthetically attractive so i can and it's well you know i always felt i
00:34:40.760 was drawn towards like these um tangerine quartz and and those versus like the jaspers because i
00:34:46.400 was chronically dehydrated oh yeah looks just like water yeah i was like take a sip of water
00:34:51.560 suddenly i could tolerate the jade so you fell off your lima lima yeah i probably haven't done
00:34:58.580 this in oh honey five days oh by the way i found it it was rolling in the seat of my car i knew it
00:35:04.180 i knew you didn't and you know some fool would see it and think that's was it on the floor
00:35:08.200 yeah and then i dropped it like wow i just dropped it yesterday like just went flying and dropped
00:35:14.140 three feet and it was fine wow and then i decided i want i want a silicone case it's a really
00:35:19.940 impressive piece of machinery here so where do you go for it you're going to the 11s first yeah
00:35:25.200 I'm kind of focusing on the forehead.
00:35:26.940 I want to see what this can do.
00:35:28.600 I have a blemish.
00:35:29.760 Dead center.
00:35:30.740 Unheard of.
00:35:31.260 In my face.
00:35:31.900 For you.
00:35:32.400 And in a place that...
00:35:33.860 Yeah, that is comical.
00:35:37.300 There's no excuse for a pimple to be on the slope of the nose high up.
00:35:43.200 This is not like...
00:35:44.440 Yes, technically it's in the T of the T zone, I guess.
00:35:47.300 Not the part of the T zone that...
00:35:49.500 I mean, this is laughable. 1.00
00:35:50.540 Like, who the fuck? 0.99
00:35:51.400 By the way, that's where I have... 1.00
00:35:52.340 It's the thin skin.
00:35:52.780 By the way, that's where I have a burst.
00:35:55.200 capillary blood vessel capillary that i've just started to ignore but it's been there for years
00:36:00.140 and i'm kind of like every now and then i look in the mirror and go i can't believe my resilience 0.98
00:36:04.620 that i walk through life with a burst capillary in the center of my fucking nose oh well my cheeks 0.96
00:36:08.640 are just you know a web of burst capillaries i don't even mind it i don't know it supports the 0.97
00:36:14.380 blush look jacqueline look where it is on my face i can't see you're like quite blurry i mean it's
00:36:19.280 it's subtle i'm not trying to pretend it's some kind of huge thing but i'm intrigued by what this
00:36:24.660 can do for my lips oh yeah they say you can lime your lips sorry i'm suddenly taken with your own
00:36:30.360 beauty why is there no the opposite why is there i guess i was holding the lima too oh what is a
00:36:36.060 circular imprint yeah well because i was holding it too so you really shouldn't have to push down
00:36:40.840 at all but you see the dot that's emerged in the center no i mean light light is in light waves i
00:36:45.260 mean it's not something but you see the dot you're kind of blurry for me where like i kind of can't
00:36:51.200 see anything. I kind of see like a... I think it must just go away. Are you concerned? Is that
00:36:56.960 what I'm picking up? For a second, I had concern, which is shocking. Of what? The laser has burned
00:37:01.440 you? It's not... It's cold laser. Yeah, of course. There's no way. Literally. Yeah. No,
00:37:06.400 there's no way. I know. Laser doesn't mean just, you know... Laser doesn't mean... What you think
00:37:11.220 it means
00:37:11.960 where are you with
00:37:17.040 do you journal
00:37:18.700 can you imagine asking you this
00:37:21.240 you who I feel I know so intimately
00:37:23.380 well it's classic on and off
00:37:25.260 I mean I was so deep in my
00:37:26.840 stéloji and my
00:37:29.020 your pens and the whole thing and then
00:37:30.520 weeks weeks weeks weeks
00:37:32.500 I was every day I was in the 0.90
00:37:34.560 the techo hobo cousin
00:37:36.560 notebook that you know was like a huge part
00:37:38.980 of my life getting it and
00:37:40.760 figuring out what my spreads
00:37:43.200 were going to look like and then just 0.81
00:37:44.760 fell the fuck off. It's like the stress, 0.93
00:37:47.300 the current stress. We fall off.
00:37:50.460 That I
00:37:51.260 can't shake
00:37:52.200 and I'm not trying to shake because
00:37:55.100 surprise, surprise, we
00:37:57.100 do what's familiar and comfortable.
00:37:59.200 Even if it hurts us.
00:38:00.840 This type of stress has saved me in the past.
00:38:03.400 We become addicted to
00:38:05.040 stress chemicals. We repeat the things
00:38:07.240 that hurt us because it's familiar.
00:38:08.900 anything you give
00:38:10.340 ourselves in a
00:38:11.400 matter of weeks
00:38:12.200 it begs for
00:38:13.300 well the
00:38:15.620 neuroplasticity of
00:38:16.660 it all I am
00:38:17.360 committed to
00:38:18.700 rewiring I've
00:38:19.420 got a new I've
00:38:20.060 got a new
00:38:20.400 mushroom micro
00:38:21.040 dose I'm going
00:38:21.520 to try out this
00:38:22.180 brand fungo which
00:38:23.420 I paid for out of
00:38:24.080 pocket and
00:38:25.860 because the silo 0.99
00:38:27.040 gummies which I
00:38:27.860 love yeah
00:38:28.780 so I'm going to
00:38:31.020 try a new micro
00:38:31.740 because I'm
00:38:32.220 committed to the
00:38:32.900 to the
00:38:33.300 neuroplasticity
00:38:34.200 and which you
00:38:35.880 know you can
00:38:36.820 achieve through
00:38:38.120 meditation and then just redoing it just yeah no i'm gonna integrating the meditation but yes
00:38:44.440 supposedly psilocybin psilocybin i mean kind of almost beyond supposedly there's like shocking
00:38:49.540 fucking research but yeah yeah and i think um my therapist who told me to stop coming to therapy
00:38:54.260 um and i'm a little almost maybe she's listening i don't know i felt like she didn't want to see me 0.96
00:39:01.320 but she she didn't say that to me and she said i'll always she was interesting i don't know
00:39:07.360 well
00:39:08.140 but the point is
00:39:09.220 oh my god
00:39:10.500 you can feel me being
00:39:11.300 socially frozen
00:39:12.740 like what if she actually
00:39:13.660 hears this
00:39:14.260 no she won't
00:39:15.520 if she does
00:39:16.280 love you
00:39:16.740 thank you
00:39:17.600 wait what's wrong
00:39:18.680 you haven't said anything 0.99
00:39:19.820 fucked up 0.98
00:39:20.580 you said that she 1.00
00:39:21.500 said it was time to stop coming
00:39:23.060 no she just was like
00:39:23.720 you're
00:39:24.340 and I was going
00:39:25.500 by the way
00:39:25.820 once a week
00:39:26.400 I mean this was 0.93
00:39:26.980 but she was just like
00:39:28.180 you're 0.99
00:39:28.560 I think you're over processing
00:39:30.400 and she was the one
00:39:31.140 well that's what I was gonna say
00:39:32.040 no it's actually
00:39:32.660 it was brilliant 0.99
00:39:33.360 fucking advice 0.99
00:39:34.060 and she said 1.00
00:39:34.600 also she was like
00:39:35.940 well she's the one
00:39:36.940 that's been begging me to get on Prozac for years,
00:39:38.720 but she was just like, 1.00
00:39:39.740 you, the OCD, ADD combo is lethal.
00:39:44.300 And I'm like...
00:39:45.240 Well, and as you know,
00:39:46.340 I feel they are intimately connected
00:39:48.740 because the behaviors can...
00:39:52.680 What did you say?
00:39:53.440 Just lethal.
00:39:54.620 Well...
00:39:55.980 But the exercise,
00:39:58.240 the microdose,
00:39:59.100 the journaling,
00:40:00.260 the reading at night,
00:40:01.980 the water,
00:40:03.400 the prayer,
00:40:05.000 carrying the crystal orb at all times.
00:40:06.660 Yeah, to lay before something greater than yourself.
00:40:09.740 I mean. 1.00
00:40:10.080 Oh, if you're not, I mean, if you take God out of the question, you're fucked. 1.00
00:40:14.340 Good luck. 1.00
00:40:15.000 Good fucking luck. 0.99
00:40:16.520 Good luck. 1.00
00:40:17.940 If you're not ready to fucking prostrate before something, then I don't know. 1.00
00:40:22.140 Prostrate before you know what you're prostrating to. 0.99
00:40:24.480 Just know that you should be in humble awe.
00:40:26.280 Oh, my God.
00:40:27.220 I mean, yeah.
00:40:30.120 I accidentally quoted my own show.
00:40:31.380 How embarrassing?
00:40:31.760 no but if I do all that stuff
00:40:37.040 I want to be clear
00:40:38.000 not that I'm like
00:40:38.600 avoiding Prozac at all costs
00:40:40.020 look at you
00:40:40.460 locking in
00:40:41.200 me locking in to what
00:40:42.260 like
00:40:43.020 you know you're over processing
00:40:44.400 that whole thing
00:40:45.220 and then like
00:40:45.700 so no no no
00:40:46.820 it's good
00:40:47.160 it's good if I have this
00:40:47.980 this this this this
00:40:48.720 like you're like
00:40:49.360 you're like
00:40:49.720 these are my temples
00:40:50.580 these are my temples
00:40:51.320 if I have this supporting me
00:40:52.140 this supporting me
00:40:52.600 you know it's
00:40:53.080 that's where you have
00:40:55.180 okay
00:40:55.580 the only thing
00:40:56.480 the only thing that can save you
00:40:58.180 the thing that is
00:40:59.860 outside of all those things
00:41:01.580 right is the kind of larger you know god mystery um whatever that is spirit yeah is like to go
00:41:11.160 surrender you know what i mean is to go surrender so well first of all exercise or not yeah oh
00:41:18.440 microdose or not no no surrender is the only or not and also that i've been thinking a lot about
00:41:24.800 jonah and the whale we talked about this well it's a huge archetypal thing for me because
00:41:30.100 That's huge, huge.
00:41:30.980 Carolyn Mace.
00:41:31.960 Yeah.
00:41:32.760 I mean, get ready.
00:41:33.780 So she talks about the passive and the active phase of the Dark Knight archetypally.
00:41:37.400 Oh, my God.
00:41:38.200 Okay.
00:41:38.620 Okay, keep going.
00:41:39.560 And she says that when you are consumed by the whale,
00:41:42.900 okay, when you're in the belly of the whale, you're still moving.
00:41:46.600 Well, no, this is it.
00:41:48.020 The whale is moving.
00:41:48.280 See, this is what I've, yes.
00:41:49.460 You feel like you're nowhere, but you're moving.
00:41:51.860 You are somewhere.
00:41:52.780 You're still in life and you're actually, it is forward motion.
00:41:55.560 Yeah.
00:41:56.620 Oh, huge.
00:41:59.680 Oh, and then nodding off.
00:42:01.140 I mean, the other thing is like,
00:42:02.780 and actually I think this might've been a Carolyn Mays detail,
00:42:06.160 but that being surrounded by your books alone,
00:42:08.960 even if you're not reading them, does something.
00:42:11.020 Like I think Teresa of Avila might've done it.
00:42:13.000 So like carrying spiritual literature with you.
00:42:15.280 Oh, you have to have those objects, the totem objects.
00:42:17.500 But it was almost like, yeah, like having it.
00:42:20.020 I used to, in middle school,
00:42:21.300 I remember I used to rub books on my head.
00:42:23.200 Yeah.
00:42:23.480 That was again, kind of an OCD thing.
00:42:25.000 before a test I'd rub the book on my head yeah well also remember the under the pillow
00:42:31.060 the under the pillow was an idea oh I slept with I stole someone's school id and slept with it under
00:42:37.440 my pillow to get their academic prowess to make them fall in love with me oh oh yes early spell
00:42:43.960 didn't work didn't work burning rose petals literally
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00:46:33.960 So The Hermetica, this book I've been reading.
00:46:36.360 I'm bringing books into the bedroom.
00:46:37.580 I'm not saying The Hermetica is one book, you know, whatever.
00:46:41.460 Too annoying to explain.
00:46:42.740 but I can't remember
00:46:43.740 what the subtitle is
00:46:44.480 of this particular
00:46:45.200 translation
00:46:47.120 okay
00:46:47.660 and
00:46:48.560 I read two lines
00:46:50.040 and fall asleep
00:46:50.560 and it's ecstasy
00:46:51.560 okay
00:46:51.980 it takes me two lines
00:46:53.660 you only need two lines
00:46:54.760 to be reminded
00:46:55.680 of
00:46:56.740 the greater world
00:46:57.900 I mean like
00:46:58.580 or of the nature
00:46:59.900 like I don't even know
00:47:00.820 what I'm referring to
00:47:01.440 mystery I guess
00:47:02.200 mystery
00:47:02.580 to be reminded of like
00:47:04.300 the great mystery
00:47:05.000 we're partaking in
00:47:05.960 like I read one line
00:47:07.680 and I'm like
00:47:08.380 take me away
00:47:09.260 and I go
00:47:09.700 I just want to close my eyes now
00:47:11.100 I'm just
00:47:11.500 like sore
00:47:12.560 yeah 1.00
00:47:13.480 fuck 1.00
00:47:15.440 the feeling 1.00
00:47:16.780 the feeling of sort of
00:47:18.020 yeah the heaviness
00:47:19.040 well you know
00:47:20.340 we've talked about this
00:47:21.240 where I'm reading
00:47:21.840 and I keep
00:47:22.360 where I'm so tired
00:47:23.220 but I'm able to
00:47:24.020 both eyes are fading
00:47:26.060 right
00:47:26.520 so then
00:47:27.580 I sacrifice one eye
00:47:29.060 let it close
00:47:29.800 and then
00:47:30.980 that energy goes over
00:47:32.240 to the left eye
00:47:33.080 so I can hold
00:47:34.820 one eye fully open
00:47:35.920 in favor of two
00:47:36.600 half open
00:47:37.180 and I read like that
00:47:39.160 for a little while
00:47:39.820 you gotta try it
00:47:42.020 I wonder if anyone's done it.
00:47:46.200 Okay, here's a huge idea.
00:47:47.980 Are you ready?
00:47:48.820 These are the things that I live for.
00:47:51.080 And trying for the following not to happen, I guess.
00:47:54.080 The little things that you know and experience in yourself, okay, or alone,
00:48:01.600 you know, that not only have you never talked about,
00:48:04.080 it's not like you're hiding them.
00:48:05.040 They're just, you don't even stop to notice them.
00:48:07.500 They're just a thing, like the eye thing, right?
00:48:09.280 that you go through
00:48:11.540 your entire life
00:48:12.480 and never talk about it
00:48:14.740 or never have anyone know
00:48:17.720 oh my god
00:48:19.080 or never have community
00:48:20.600 around it
00:48:21.600 those little privacies
00:48:22.580 yeah
00:48:22.940 but some of them also
00:48:24.300 do they need to be
00:48:25.540 maintained in privacy
00:48:26.400 well
00:48:27.180 oh
00:48:28.000 some of it is a relationship
00:48:29.120 to yourself
00:48:29.640 potentially
00:48:30.200 and you know
00:48:31.540 sorry to say god again
00:48:33.320 I say that
00:48:34.500 because my urge
00:48:35.360 and instinct
00:48:35.760 is to share everything
00:48:36.760 share everything
00:48:37.840 I
00:48:38.720 and this is what I mean this is what my journey is often about yeah my instinct to to share I feel
00:48:45.140 like I can I'm you know do I exist if I'm not being observed and witnessed and seen you know
00:48:49.520 which is fascinating when you think about it in the context of not only one's relationship to God
00:48:55.460 but one's relationship to um of course others and specifically romantic relationships you mean
00:49:00.980 using that as a way to be observed well supplicating God with a partner oh and using
00:49:07.480 That was the great observer.
00:49:08.940 Well, here we go. 1.00
00:49:09.800 Here we fucking go. 1.00
00:49:11.320 Well, again, be witnessed by the fucking universe. 1.00
00:49:14.340 Well, exactly. 0.99
00:49:15.060 At least half of the day, you know what I mean?
00:49:17.380 Yeah.
00:49:17.960 Or God or whatever.
00:49:19.920 But I do find it also compelling, the idea,
00:49:23.820 there's just something really interesting to me about a privacy
00:49:26.940 that goes through an entire life unwitnessed by anyone but God.
00:49:30.340 I misused the term supplicating back there, I just want to say.
00:49:34.200 Did you mean...
00:49:35.120 But they'll forgive me.
00:49:36.040 I think you might've meant a combination of,
00:49:39.420 I think I know what you meant.
00:49:40.300 I was thinking to supplicate is,
00:49:41.980 to supplicate is to ask for something.
00:49:43.660 Right.
00:49:43.940 Like kneel down before.
00:49:45.360 And,
00:49:45.880 and I meant,
00:49:46.740 I had,
00:49:47.760 I had this vision of,
00:49:49.240 of course,
00:49:49.420 kneeling before God,
00:49:50.160 but it's like,
00:49:50.760 I meant to say,
00:49:51.700 replace,
00:49:52.460 supplant.
00:49:53.360 Yeah.
00:49:53.840 Right.
00:49:54.180 That's exactly it.
00:49:55.580 Yeah.
00:49:55.720 Supplant there.
00:49:56.360 I was about to say that you were going for,
00:50:00.060 I've lost it.
00:50:01.440 And I was wrong.
00:50:02.280 It's fine.
00:50:03.060 You'd think I wouldn't be that committed.
00:50:06.040 To identifying a thought that was wrong mere minutes ago and held no value within it.
00:50:11.300 And yet, this is a problem for me.
00:50:14.200 Thinking everything has value, potentially.
00:50:17.320 Okay.
00:50:17.800 Literally everything.
00:50:19.160 So, whether it's, can't throw this out because I could turn it into a vase.
00:50:24.340 Right, right, right.
00:50:24.960 I don't feel that anymore, actually.
00:50:26.980 Not that version.
00:50:28.240 You've been tossing stuff.
00:50:29.400 Yeah.
00:50:31.300 I went to Face Gym yesterday.
00:50:33.360 Oh. 0.98
00:50:33.540 Now, weeks ago, I said on Poog, they need... 0.87
00:50:36.420 And laughed, scoffed, smuggled. 0.90
00:50:38.720 So they need to get buckle and fast. 1.00
00:50:40.560 Buckle massage? 1.00
00:50:41.600 Buckle massage, yeah. 0.88
00:50:42.540 Okay.
00:50:43.320 They have it now.
00:50:44.980 Unreal.
00:50:45.620 And I'm not suggesting this is lychee martini, okay?
00:50:48.380 I think this has probably been on the menu for a year.
00:50:50.320 What'd they do for you?
00:50:51.040 Walk me through the facial.
00:50:52.520 Oh, for the buckle, they stick a gloved thumb in and massage the jaw,
00:50:55.860 which is something I started doing on my own anyway,
00:50:58.420 with an ungloved hand of my own.
00:51:01.460 Yeah.
00:51:02.300 And it was great to just be able to...
00:51:04.980 So it was a signature sculpt, the classic, get in there.
00:51:10.300 Oh, yeah.
00:51:10.780 You know, the face massage of it is alone, extremely valuable.
00:51:17.000 Yeah.
00:51:17.920 So they do the face massage and then they bring out the pure lift,
00:51:22.420 but theirs is the longer one that I think might be stronger than the one I have at home.
00:51:26.400 And that thing lifts, right?
00:51:28.540 Okay.
00:51:29.440 And I have one right here, actually.
00:51:31.000 I have my Pure Lift.
00:51:32.280 And I had a weird thing.
00:51:33.640 I'm going to beg for one.
00:51:34.740 Yeah, they wouldn't...
00:51:36.880 I couldn't get this.
00:51:37.680 That thing's like 700 bucks.
00:51:39.180 This one was like...
00:51:40.320 Because I think there's a pro model above this.
00:51:43.180 It'll cost you.
00:51:44.520 It might have come out after I bought this
00:51:46.300 because I don't know if I could have brought myself
00:51:48.200 to pay that much and not pay a bit more to get that thing.
00:51:52.020 Right, right, right.
00:51:53.300 But so she's like, you know,
00:51:55.220 going to do the Pure Lift on me.
00:51:57.240 And she's like, it's microcurrent. 0.65
00:51:58.180 There will be like involuntary facial muscles.
00:52:00.360 like I'll start you out at five.
00:52:02.220 Is it microcurrent?
00:52:03.040 I thought it was something else.
00:52:04.280 Sorry.
00:52:04.860 It's current, right?
00:52:07.320 But whatever form the current is,
00:52:09.480 it goes deeper than microcurrent.
00:52:11.500 It goes like into the belly of the muscle.
00:52:15.440 So she's, 0.90
00:52:16.680 but she's doing it in a way
00:52:17.960 that I'm just taking some aloe out,
00:52:20.480 some allopropylist soothing gel.
00:52:22.820 For the face?
00:52:23.560 The brand Benton, yeah.
00:52:24.780 For what?
00:52:25.600 Because I'm going to talk Pure Lift
00:52:27.920 while I do a little.
00:52:28.980 Wow.
00:52:29.420 I had an interesting experience
00:52:31.260 and I just like
00:52:33.180 yeah great
00:52:33.740 or whatever
00:52:34.180 I had this weird thing
00:52:35.540 where I felt
00:52:36.500 I couldn't 0.97
00:52:37.500 this is so fucking typical 0.96
00:52:38.660 couldn't bring myself to go 0.98
00:52:40.120 I have one of those at home
00:52:41.500 the lesser version
00:52:42.420 but still
00:52:43.040 why?
00:52:45.500 it's this weird thing
00:52:46.380 where I think
00:52:46.860 it's going to ruin the show
00:52:48.100 like
00:52:48.480 to say I have it at home
00:52:50.600 they're going to be like
00:52:52.100 oh so she's not going to be
00:52:53.240 like blown away
00:52:53.800 and impressed by it
00:52:54.640 no they're going to
00:52:55.280 you know what they're going to do
00:52:55.960 love you for it
00:52:56.700 crank it up even higher
00:52:57.680 well
00:52:58.080 she's like
00:52:58.740 now I'm going to go to
00:52:59.380 eight i'm like go for it you know whatever and i was just well there was no need right then while
00:53:03.740 she's working i'm gonna scream it's kind of uncomfortable i remember it being a little like
00:53:07.460 because the involuntary twitching and everything of the face is to for me like i sure i don't love
00:53:14.000 it and when they get around the temples and the oh your nerve not your neurons but whatever the 0.85
00:53:19.040 fuck your nerves start going wild behind the eyes i i don't like that the microcurrent i don't like 0.77
00:53:24.000 that right because it feels wrong it feels like something incorrect is happening right so i was 1.00
00:53:28.340 just like sitting with that and thinking okay Luke but and then are you ready so then I start
00:53:33.260 thinking because I see that they sell my version in the store right and as she's working the gel
00:53:38.760 she's put on whatever it is feels great and she's like using a lot you know what I mean and I'm like
00:53:44.080 this is how I got to do it at home I got to do it this speed you know like I got to do it slow
00:53:50.420 and methodical and hit each part like you know of course the desire to take it home take the
00:53:56.700 pina colada home right right so are you thrilled seeing my lip be pulled yeah she's doing it right
00:54:03.580 now because that is you know that i'm not pulling that with the no i know that that's i know that's
00:54:07.980 you i mean i know that's not you that's the product i'm not pushing the ouija board here
00:54:12.800 the device rather so i go i start to plan how at the end of the session i'm going to ask particularly
00:54:19.220 if they if they do the thing are you interested in products today i'm gonna ask what gel was used
00:54:23.640 of the microcurrent.
00:54:24.620 And I start to think
00:54:25.420 that's where I'm going to be found out
00:54:26.600 for having one at home.
00:54:27.300 Found out.
00:54:28.460 You don't think you'd be celebrated?
00:54:30.380 It's really about like
00:54:31.640 something about the microcurrent
00:54:33.360 being one of the featured
00:54:34.700 parts of the show.
00:54:37.180 It's like,
00:54:37.460 it's almost like
00:54:38.080 it's the big number.
00:54:39.920 And so to just be like...
00:54:41.800 I understand.
00:54:42.800 And so I'm like,
00:54:44.120 I'm going to be found out
00:54:45.480 and I'm like,
00:54:46.060 okay, I'll handle it at that point.
00:54:47.300 I'll just be like,
00:54:47.640 I'll actually have one of these.
00:54:49.060 Oh no, you know what I planned?
00:54:50.100 This is psychotic.
00:54:51.920 Okay.
00:54:52.140 So working out how I'm going to deal with this emotional play I've created in my head about what they're going to feel, I decided I would go, oh my God, you know, they actually, they sent one of those to me and I haven't used it.
00:55:10.620 That's not, no.
00:55:12.600 Okay, because that way I'm still the virgin who saw the naked body for the first time when they presented it to me in their face gym play.
00:55:19.480 But the gluttony and the arrogance of a facelift arriving and it's in the package for months.
00:55:24.360 No, I realized that.
00:55:25.240 But I'd already told them that because I had to take a few pics.
00:55:28.460 I was like, you know, here in connection with my podcast.
00:55:32.340 So they already kind of knew.
00:55:34.440 So I was going to play it with a kind of like, oh no, but I actually didn't land on that.
00:55:38.640 I actually landed on, you know, I actually have one of these at home, but I really haven't used enough or with the skill I experienced it used.
00:55:46.740 Right, right, right. 0.99
00:55:47.740 Just a bastard hand. 1.00
00:55:49.060 I have yeah but I was like whatever this gel is it's really fucking working for me and she's 0.99
00:55:54.340 using a lot and I want to know what it is and so after I go what was the gel that you used under
00:56:00.100 the aloe okay yeah you heard me great not branded not hey you can buy a tub at the front because
00:56:09.140 when these when these devices god bless them but they go oh and then you need our gel which is
00:56:14.000 $70 a bottle. Sometimes more. You can't do that
00:56:16.140 to people. Yeah. And that's
00:56:18.200 absurd. Particularly when it's a
00:56:20.180 kind of gel that quantity
00:56:21.960 is relevant, extremely relevant.
00:56:24.080 Right. They'll use 12 pumps. 0.71
00:56:25.820 Yeah. And it'll dry out during the use.
00:56:28.200 It's like, it's got to be a
00:56:30.100 tub. So
00:56:31.500 then the question becomes, what brand
00:56:34.060 of course? Of aloe? Well, you
00:56:36.060 said Benton. That's highly affordable, no?
00:56:38.180 No. Look at this. This is like a...
00:56:40.620 I mean, I'm sure it is,
00:56:42.180 but it's treated... This is like a
00:56:44.000 K-Beauty?
00:56:44.840 Yeah, it's like a K-Beauty, like Benton Cosmetics.
00:56:48.220 It's like I need the Purella gel that you're supposed to put all over your child's sunburned body.
00:56:54.280 I need a tub, I think.
00:56:58.380 I'm still wearing the bionic gym.
00:57:00.460 Oh, wow.
00:57:01.860 Okay, I'm going to get that tracking information.
00:57:03.760 I have been at the gym on the less cardio, more discreet, not even noticing.
00:57:11.100 And I don't know.
00:57:12.700 It's got to be doing something.
00:57:14.000 Devices and Surrender
00:57:17.300 Surrender
00:57:18.720 Oh, and let me just get in really quick
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00:57:36.700 New York for the special, the big taping
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